Everything Has Changed
Light me up when I'm down
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When the vows began, Charlotte couldn't help but notice that 95% of the congregation had designated themselves to giving her dirty looks, as well as conversing deeply with the avid Gossip Girl reader beside them.
Though doing her best to take no notice, she soon realized that trying to do so was like trying to figure out a person you've never met; impossible.
Without giving them the large satisfaction of realizing her discomfort, she flickered her eyes around the area; she could see Serena opposite her, paying attention to the only Brooklyn boy in the crowd - this was obviously the infamous 'Lonely Boy', whom she'd yet to speak one word too.
Feeling her brother shift impatiently beside her, she looked at him curiously - he was unusually restless and she knew something was definitely wrong with him - though if she even tried to find out what he'd shoot her down in a heartbeat.
He knew he shouldn't hold this much animosity towards her, seeing as she was really the only family he had left, but he just couldn't let the fact that she'd just left go.
It wasn't like her at all, anyone that ever knew her would tell you that he and her were as close as siblings could get and that she hadn't even said goodbye shook him.
As the last 'I do's' were proclaimed, Charlotte dispersed the venue as quickly as she could; she was not wanted in that room and she was not going to stick around and play happy families at the celebratory dinner when none of them wanted anything to do with her.
Knowing her father, he would have told Lily all about his 'uncontrollable' daughters antics and the reason about why she'd left, that resulting in an instant elongated stay at the Ostroff center.
Realizing his sister was no where in sight, Chuck frowned. If she'd run away again then he would honestly never speak to her for as long as she remained in contact.
Making his way out of the double doors as fast as he could physically carry himself, coat and scarf in hand, he made a mental note that he would not let that sister of his leave this town before he knew about it.
Picking up his phone, he dialed the number he knew he should have more often; though he was only met with quiet sniffles.
"Charlotte, what is it?"
"Chuck I'm so sorry, I'm sorry Chuc-"
"Where are you?"
"I need to leave, Chuck"
"If you don't tell me where you are within the next two seconds Charlotte, I will get my PI to discover your whereabouts, god help me I will"
"A couple of blocks away - the park with the pond"
He hung up straight away, she wasn't leaving this time.
Charlotte pulled her legs tighter towards her torso, the winter breeze slowly beginning to cool her down.
Her cheeks red, the rims of her eyes red and her chapped lips proved that she had been hysterically crying for a long amount of time and she didn't really care who knew, she had finished pretending.
"Charlotte!"
She lifted her head slightly at the sound of her name, her brother running in her direction; she laughed a little, if Gossip Girl could see this. Chuck Bass didn't run.
At the sight of his little sisters face, he sat down beside her on the grass and pulled her into his arms as soon as possible.
Feeling her shake a little, he pulled the coat from his arm and wrapped it around her bare shoulders.
"What is it, Char?"
She paused, not knowing whether to tell the truth; Chuck would never forgive Bart if she did, but she would never forgive him if she didn't.
"Nobody told you why I had to leave, Chuck" she sniffled, "I didn't want to leave you"
"You can tell me, you've always told me"
Taking in a deep breath, Charlotte buried her head into her brothers shoulder and muttered almost un-audibly.
"Last summer" she shook, "I tried to end my life"
