Alright, I'm back! Thank you so much for all the reviews! :) They made me very giddy hahah. This week couldn't have gone by slower while I was at my cottage trying to relax because this story was always on my mind! I also want to let you know that Naomi will get less bitchy, and that she does have reasons why she is doing this to Ems. Enough of my mumbles, enjoy the first chapter told from Naomi's point of view! Sorry if it's (once again) shit, i'm just really pissed off because one of my (ex)friends is being a cunt, pardon my french.
p.s. her reasons will be revealed! :o
Chapter 4
*Naomi's POV*
Emily just stood there staring at me like she just had been caught slapping the Queen. I honestly feel bad for being such a bitch and I what makes it even worse is that I can't even give myself a good reason to why I'm acting this way. They're is a little voice in the back of my head that keeps nagging at me and saying "it isn't just because Effy is being nice to her.", and I can't help but agree with it. I just don't completely understand it, and it's really starting to frustrate me. Well, for now I should just try to be a little nicer to her. It can't hurt to try, right?
"Um...I was just..." wow, she's really struggling to make an excuse. It's kind of cute how she fumbles over her words...no! I can't think that, I have a girlfriend. Bad Naomi.
"Don't worry about it." I scratched the back of my neck awkwardly, trying to think of an apology for my behaviour today. I can only hope that she accepts it. I sigh and look down at the ground, my hand resting on my neck. It took me a while until I could think of anything to say.
"Look, I'm sorry that I've been such a bitch to you today. I'm usually not like this, you can even ask Effy." I nod my head in her direction. It's true; I can actually be a nice person. You probably doubt that, but how do you think I ended up with Effy? By being a bitch? Definitely not. Emily seemed like she wasn't going to say anything to me and looked like she was about to walk away.
She sighed and crosses her arms. Was she actually going to say something?
"I don't know Naomi. I mean, you haven't made that great of a first impression. After you've been yelling at me a few times today and then suddenly saying sorry seems a little odd to me."
"I know, and I'm sorry. Maybe we could make a fresh start?" This feels like it's going too fast. She was right, saying sorry out of nowhere was pretty odd, but the way I've treated her (not to mention I didn't even know her) has made me feel like shit. "I promise there will be no yelling involved this time." I added. I gave her a small smile in hopes of getting her to believe me.
Obviously I wasn't hoping hard enough.
"I don't think so. Maybe if you can give me a good reason to why you treated me like that I might take you up on that offer, but until then just back off okay?"
I sighed again. I should have been ready to hear this. I might as well just give up. I dropped my arm to my side and frowned.
"Fine, I'm off than." I turned around to face Effy who looked a little smug. I gave her a quick peck on the lips before saying goodbye and headed out the doors. At least I tried and I intend on keeping that promise of no shouting at her. I might even try to be friendly to her. Seems surprising, I know, but I can change. It's for the greater good.
I can't help but think about Emily while I waited at the bus stop. Even when I get home she's still on my mind. The only person who's ever been on my mind this much is Effy, but I can't like Emily. I have Effy, so she's totally off limits. Not that I would date Emily or anything, she doesn't even like me! Oh god, I'm confusing the shit out of myself! I stormed up to my room and shut the door behind me, throwing myself onto my bed.
My brain honestly hurts; I'm over-thinking this way too much. I keep trying to think of something else but nothing works. I even tried doing my homework to try and distract me (crazy idea right?), but not even that worked.
Might as well try to think of why I act like I hate her. I go through multiple ideas in my head and was about to give up when it finally hit me.
I understood why I was feeling like this.
Emily Fitch does something to me. Something I don't like. She makes me feel weak at the knees just by looking at me. I can't deny that I really like her in a more than friendly way, but I hate the feeling of being weak. I'm afraid of how she makes me feel. No one has had this effect on me, not even Effy, which frightens me even more. Being frightened makes me angry, I'm never weak or scared. So I guess that I'm turning my fear into hate and taking it out on her. What a great way to show my affection towards her, eh?
I will eventually tell her what I finally told myself, but not for a while. It would probably freak her out and I bet that she's straight as a stick. At least I get it though...sort of.
My phone suddenly vibrates in my pocket, and I pulled it out seeing that I had a text from Effy.
hey babeee! how about you come over to my place so we can have a little fun? ;) Xx
Well, I guess someone's in the mood.
Sure thing ;) i'll be over in ten. love yah x
Thats an offer I can't refuse. Effy is a fucking top rate shag, and honestly I could never say no to her. I'm pretty sure that she's better than me, and trust me, I'm quite experienced if you know what I mean.
I quickly clean myself up and make me look presentable before rushing down the stairs. Of course my mother has to be there blocking the door, ready to interrogate me.
"Where you off to Naoms?" she gave me a questioning look, but I knew she would let me go. She's a really laid back person and I admire her for that.
"Off to Effy's mum." I gave her a big smile and she winked at me.
"I'm assuming you're 'sleeping over'?" she made airquotes when she said the words sleeping over. Dammit, she knows me too well.
"Yes mum. You don't mind right?" I laughed.
"Of course not! Have fun, love." she moved away from the door before passing me the car keys.
Time to have some much needed alone time with my girlfriend.
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I'm so sorry for a few things! First: i should have updated sooner ): Second: sorry that this is a shorter than the usual shortness, its just a filler. and its probably shit. I don't like this chapter, but i thought i should update anyway. I PROMISE(!) that it will get better and less shity. im about to say shit a few times so brace yourself. shit, shit shit shit shitty shittady shit shit fuck shit. im going through some tough shit (lol sorry for saying shit soo much) so i'm not writing as well as i know i can. and one more thing; i wont be updating as often because school is starting tomorrow but i will try my best! thank you for reading and reviewing :)
oh and if you haven't read any of the stories by my-other-ride-is-your-mum, i will hunt you down :)
love you guys
emma xx
