He sat at his terminal, staring at the screen in shock. She was going through the WHAT! Where was that again? And she was doing this WHEN! She couldn't be serious, the Omega Four relay was impassable! Was she now insane? Kaiden closed his eyes and put a hand over them. What could she possibly be thinking, that was a suicide mission!

"I didn't have a choice..."

She'd said that before, when they'd met on Horizon. Horizon... what an idiot he'd been. All this time all he'd wanted was for her to be alive and then when she'd been standing in front of him all he could do was yell at her. Tell her how wrong she'd been to join Cerberus. Joker, he could understand, pilots needed to be able to fly! Garrus and Tali? That he couldn't understand, but they were allowed to make their own decisions. And if they were with Shepard then so be it, perhaps they could keep her safe where he had failed.

Keep her alive? What was he thinking! How could he just sit here and let her go through that relay? Without backup! Without HIM! Now angry he let his biotics flare slightly, just enough to push himself clear of the desk and slam the chair against the wall behind him. Storming out of his office, he marched to Councilor Anderson's office, certain that he had to do something. "Anderson, you have to stop her. You have to stop... Shepard."

Anderson looked up from his own desk interface, a surprised look on his face, "What?" Kaiden exhaled heavily and stared at him, "You don't know?" Anderson shook his head and Kaiden had to explain, "Shepard. She's going through the Omega Four relay." The small OSD Anderson had picked up dropped back onto his desk. "She's going where!" Kaiden's jaw clenched, "You have to do something, Admiral. Call her back, something! She'll listen to you!" Anderson was already flipping through pages on his terminal, shaking his head, "Too late, Commander. Alliance watchers in that sector just reported a major spike in the relay's location. She's gone."

Kaiden growled low in his throat and grabbed the back of a nearby chair. "NO!"

"I'm sorry, commander. There's nothing I can do." Kaiden's grip tightened on the chair, then threw it against the wall, his body rippling with biotics as he began to take out his anger on the same wall. "NO, no, no no no!" Hot tears burned their way down his cheek, "Not again. NOT AGAIN!" He collapsed to his knees, biotic power spent, emotion drained, and pain – overwhelming, deep throbbing, all encompassing, excruciating pain – washed over him.

"Not again."