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Chapter 4
Local PD was on high alert, searching every corner of the city for Reid. Another investigation team was hired to figure the whole game out. Of course, we resisted at first but nothing could be done yet. Carl Buford was checked upon in prison and called in for further questioning. All the answers lied there. Together, our team decided to secretly investigate the case on our own as well. Anger and rage were troubling me a lot and I had to stay focused.
Night fell on that day and we were still in hospital for Garcia. She was getting better now after spraining her ankle badly and was to rest in bed for a while. It hit her hard when we broke the news to her at first. Of course, she cried a little but JJ took care of that. We had to return back to the hotel without her.
We gathered in the study room where I placed both our phones. Kevin was secretly on his way to Chicago, good thing he made it on time here. He started to set the whole system up to trace where last call from Reid's phone arrived.
Hotch was super mad at me for hiding all the text messages for that long. He was clearly blaming me at this point. But, I didn't care about anyone. I was away from Reid, now for many hours and it was killing me. I sat down in misery. Carl Buford was that part of my life that I rather not shared with my team but it seemed inevitable now. Emily started to analyze the language hidden behind the texts. I had to focus and be normal like rest of the team, to hide all my feelings behind.
"All threatening in nature" She started to speak.
" I am coming for your heaven" Rossi read out "Why is he referring to Reid as your Heaven?" He questioned and anger stirred up in me. I wasn't ready to tell anyone what he meant for me. It was our own little secret.
"I don't know" I simply replied.
"He's after you, this could be revenge for putting him behind the bars" Emily suggested.
"Look at the Victomology? Why Reid?" Hotch raised a question putting me in deep thought. Carl was behind bars, he could never have an idea of who I cared the most about in the world. He, obviously hired people to stalk me but we never publically displayed any sort of relationship around. I was sure that even my own team was oblivious to that fact. Then, how were they able to know Reid was my heaven, my everything.
"Stop profiling Reid, we all know who the unsub is!" I rose up.
"Morgan, Reid's the victim here, you know the rules" Hotch said.
"We need to question Carl rather than waste our time here!" I spoke up. The room went silent. I had to be more careful but I couldn't stand the thought of having our secret little relationship being profiled here.
"Sir, last call on Dr. Reid's phone was from a clone number of Morgan" Kevin interrupted while staring at his screen.
"What?" I exclaimed.
"Can be the distraction?" Emily mentioned.
"What about the location?" Hotch asked, getting more worried now. It all seemed a well planned kidnapping.
"I'm working on it" Kevin replied.
"Carl is in prison, so he must have other men stalk Morgan and plan the whole thing out, maybe after all he wants to see you again by playing this out" Rossi speculated.
"He doesn't intend to kill, I assume Reid would be safe for now" Emily suggested. A wave of shiver shook my body. All this to meet me again!
It was decided that Carl will be interrogated in the morning. And here, I had to spend the first night all alone. Sleep was miles away from me. I was thinking only about you, Reid! Where you could be, what you must be doing. It pained me to think that some strangers were with you and I was so far away. What weird night it was, so silent, so sad. I started to pray for you because nowadays you were the only thing I would pray for, ask for. I spent that night empty handed, with bad thoughts and utter feelings of helplessness. It was only hours since you were gone, just this morning I had you in front of my eyes but it felt much more than that.
Morning came after such a tormented night. I was ready before anyone else was. I had to bring you home today. It was a new day, hopefully a good one. I sat in the SUV, ready to drive off while waiting for others. I looked out the window. The morning life was on its way, people rushing around the sidewalks, cars moving along, businesses starting up again... but to me it appeared as if my world had stopped for a while.
We drove to the police station where Carl was held for questioning, another team was already in there. I simply rushed toward the room as fast as I could before Hotch pulled me aside.
"Where do you think you're going?" he asked like the boss he was.
"Asking that son of a bitch about Reid!" I spat out.
"That is what he wants. We're not giving it to him. Stay here!" Hotch ordered and entered the room himself along side with Emily.
I stood behind the window staring at the most hated face I knew. Although I was partially here because of him but I rather not include him in my life anymore. I had to focus now, bringing back Reid was the only thing that mattered.
"I was expecting Agent Morgan to come along as well" Carl spoke as they sat in front of him.
"This isn't about him, tell me where Dr. Reid is?" Hotch got to the point. He remained quiet for a while.
"I don't know. I'm all locked up" Carl grinned.
"We have no time for your play!" Hotch sternly said.
"Oh come' on Agents, you got to be kidding me now! How am I suppose to know what is happening out there when I'm behind the bars?" He replied lightly.
"You tell us where he is being kept and we'll not charge you with anything?" Hotch threw in a fake deal.
"I'm sure Derek is standing outside listening to this, isn't he just too desperate to find that doctor" Carl grinned again. I stepped back unwillingly. I wasn't going to be scared of him no more. So, I stood strongly.
"We all are!" Emily talked for the first time.
"Send Derek in" Carl sat back and demanded.
"Where's Reid?" Hotch asked instead.
"I will only talk to Derek" He said.
"Where's Reid?"
"Don't waste your time here Boss, you're never going to find him again" Carl hissed.
"You wouldn't get him killed?" Emily asked.
"NO, No, I am not an idiot! If I kill him, Derek would just mourn, but this way... he will rather suffer..forever" Carl lightly spoke and my heart sank but I remained still with Rossi beside me now. Hotch stepped out.
"We need all his meeting records now!" Hotch ordered an officer.
"He doesn't know where Reid is being kept" Rossi said.
"His men do!" Hotch walked out but I remained still. It was too much to take in. Emily stepped away with Rossi. I peeked through the window. Carl was glaring at me. I was not his little boy anymore. I stepped in slamming the door. With a loud bang on the table, I stood before that dog, gawking at him with eyes full of hatred. He grinned back.
"My favorite Derek" he exclaimed "I knew you would come".
"What do you want from Reid? Your anger is with me, take it out on me and let Reid go" I barked almost.
"Hmmm, that frustration...hmmm, giving me such peace of mind" Carl revealed his dirty teeth at me.
"You can't control me anymore!" I yelled back.
"Sure I can, I will make you dance on my fingers now...that too from behind the bars" he lightly said twisting every nerve inside me.
"Dr. Reid is rather a fine choice. I know you Derek, I know just how to hurt you right" Carl laughed this time leaving me speechless.
The door flew open and Hotch took my arm to pull me outside.
"Out, out, right now!" He shouted.
"Oh, Derek, even I don't know where your heaven is anymore, maybe lost in some skies, somewhere waiting to be rescued" Carl said as I was taken away.
"MORGAN!" Hotch yelled at me but by now I was in tears. I wanted to be strong, at least here, but Reid had made me so weak and Carl hit just the right spot. Hotch calmed instantly and actually hugged me. I was trying so hard to swallow down the bile and drink up the tears but I gave in. I didn't know who was hurting me more now, Reid or Carl. I cried on his shoulder.
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When it was night again, I sat restlessly in my room. I wanted to be alone for a while, away from everyone. My life was becoming a mess. One side, anger for Carl and another side, guilt for Reid's disappearance. That very moment, I just wanted to sleep. But, I couldn't, I had no Reid beside me. The bed was empty, the walls were still, the room was silent. You were not here! It was only a day since he was gone, but he was already appearing as just a name now.
Even telling you this now trembles my heart. My condition just got worse and worse. Search teams spent day after day searching for clues. Parking cameras were analyzed, car type was traced, anyone who ever met Carl during his imprisonment was questioned. Hospital, shopping malls, airports were all searched thoroughly. Reid was nowhere to be found.
Days went by and I never slept, didn't eat properly. I was falling sick without him. In the mornings, I would drive alone through the city looking for any clues. I would drive and drive, not caring about anything. There was sadness, only loneliness around me. I didn't know it was physically possible to miss someone this much. I was feeling such a fool to rely on someone so much that I couldn't sleep anymore. My body was dying of exhaustion and finally as a result I fell on the side walk one day while searching. Hotch took me back to our hotel but I was back up in an hour, again looking for you.
Coffee was the only thing I could gulp down, just because that scent reminded me of Reid so badly. For few moments, it would appear as if I was with Reid again. It would taste like him. So, smartly JJ got sleeping pills added to my next coffee cup and I was finally forced off to sleep. I knew, my team now had our little relationship all profiled out. My condition without Reid just give in all the secrets. But, they respected it and chose not to speak about it.
Sometimes, I blame you Reid for making my life hell. I know I sound crazy but I was just so sad all the time. You made me insane.
Now, I sit in between the four walls of my therapy center. Every morning and every night recalling all these memories over and over again. It's been long since I came out from here. I don't want to see the world anymore. I want don't to do anything. I just wish to be dead. But, then I hold your memories in my hand, every page, filled with your hand writing, your words, your thoughts, and this is the biggest treasure I have left. Nurses here are so jealous of it. I don't blame them because I am always reading it, day and night, over and over again. Reid, your journal is all I have left of you and I promise I won't let anyone take that away. This journal that you wrote while you were taken away from me.
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Next few chapters will be Reid's Journal.
And a Big twist awaits you all!
