Chapter 4: Revenge

Nagisa's POV

"Why ?" I asked "What do you mean "why" ? " Sugino inquired. "Why did Karma have to die ? " I almost yelled. The others people around us turned to look at us, it was considered impolite to be loud during a wake ceremony. "Nagisa..." Sugino trailed but I knew that nothing that he could say would comfort me so I continued " Karma wasn't a model kid but he was just a child so why would anyone murder him ?" I asked Sugino as if the guy could provide an answer. Sugino sighed, took my wrist and led me outside. The chilly air outside made me feel slightly better, the atmosphere inside Karma's home was suffocating. The smell of encens, Karma's smiling face surrounded by flowers,the sea of people in black formal attire, Korosensei trying hard to console Karma's parents... all of that made me sick. It couldn't be more real:Karma-kun is dead and he isn't gonna come back. Even though I was the one who discovered his body,until today I didn't fully accept it but now I don't have any other choice, do I ? I looked down defeated.

"Listen, Nagisa" Sugino began. "I don't know why anyone would kill Karma but ... don't worry. The police is investigating , they will catch the culprit and the jerk will go to jail" he reassured. " I don't want him to go to jail" I said " Huh ?" he inquired " I meant, jail isn't enough. Sugino-kun, I, I want to kill him" I declared, my fist clenching ."Nagisa ! Don't do that !" Sugino yelled. He put his hands firmly on my shoulders and lightly shook me. " If you do that, you will be a criminal, that will ruin your life , do you think that's what Karma wanted ? We both witnessed the damages revenge can do to a person already, do you want the same thing happening to you ?" he added. "But..." I started but Sugino cut me. "There is no "but". Listen I know how much you loved him, I know it's tough but going after revenge won't bring him back or make you feel better. Me,Kurosensei and everyone else from the class, we will help you to move on, so promise me you won't go after revenge, okay ?"He looked at me expectantly. I blushed. I didn't know my feelings for Karma were so obvious or could it be that Sugino-kun is surprisingly sharp ? " I promise. " I answered shyly. Sugino sighed out of reiief and removed his hands from me. "Don't worry. The police will definitely catch the asshole who did that... or it will be Korosensei, in that case I feel sorry for him" He added with a toothy smile. "You're right" I smiled back teary for the first time since Karma's death, I cried. Sugino-kun took me in his arm and comforted me.

At that moment, I believed him but Sugino was wrong: neither Korosensei ,nor the police caught the culprit, and Karma's murder case got closed just like that, and ever since then I got consumed by revenge. Sorry Sugino-kun, I thought. I put all my strength on the pillow that choked my prey and removed it when I thought he died. I couldn't be more wrong as my prey instantely punched me in the face after playing dead. "You Bitch" Ash yelled. I just had the time to understand what just happened , that Ash grabbed me by the neck,choking me on the bed. I tried to remove his arms from my neck ,I even tried to kick him off from me but Ash was a tall, bulky man, he was way too strong, he didn't bulge. " So how does it feel ? Isn't it ironic ? " he asked a throaty laugh escaping his mouth. Shit ! What should I do ? Am I gonna die here ? Karma-kun... seems like I am gonna join you soon. No I can't die here ! Not before I kill the one who murdered him.

My vision was getting blurry from the lack of oxigen. I have to find a way to escape from his grip and fast ! Karasuma sensei taught me that few minutes prived of oxygen was enough to let my brain permanentely damaged. In the corner of my right eye, I could vaguely see a lamp on the bedside table. If only I could reach it but it was a tad too far... " Your hits are getting weaker ! Did you gave up already ? OUCH ! " He groaned as I kicked him in the balls. The pointy high heels, I was wearing probably made it hurt all the more. He didn't release me but that distraction was enough to loosen his grip,and for me to push him away for a fraction of seconds. When he tried to grab me again,the lamp was already in my right hand and I slashed him with it in the face using all my remaining strength. The ceramic lamp broke in thousands pieces, one of them seemed particurlarly sharp, I took it and stabbed Ash with it , straight in the eye. "AAAAAAAArrrrrrrrgh! My eye! My left eye !" He yelled. He put his hands on his eyes,he was crouched in the bed, crying. For a moment, I almost felt sorry for him...this seemed painful but I didn't have the right to pity him, I was here to kill him. Suddenly, I heard people coming,all the noise probably alerted them. I need to escape !

I ripped the hem of my dress and escaped through the window right when the others gangsters barged in the room. I jumped to the roof of the builing in front of me. Then I started running barefooted with my heels in my hand all the while avoiding the gunshots fired at me. I jumped from building to building, roof to roof, then I just to climb down to reach a train station. Parkour sure was handy in asssassination... inside the train I sent a message to Karasuma and told him that the mission was a failure. Karasuma didn't seem to be angry when he answered back and ordered me to go to the HQ and get a check up asap. The check up done, I went back at home and fell asleep.

The next day, I woke up early and as I got ready for school, I examined myself in the mirror. My face had already started to bruise and the choking attempt left ugly red hand marks on my neck. I sighed: there was no way I could go to school like this. I couldn't skip either or my mom would throw a fit. She may have calmed down a bit since my middle school days, but she was still pretty strict when it came to my attendance record. And of course, I couldn't tell her that I was a part-time assassin who was after revenge.

I kneeled and took out the huge make up box that I hid under my bed. Inside it, was all the materials necessary to pull off a perfect make up. I started to apply under-eye concealer then continued with the foundation cream, remembering Bitch sensei's make-up lessons, and easily managed to hide all the evidences from yesterday's failed assassination. Bitch-sensei's make-up lessons were vital for an assassin like me. Because I rely on my androginous appeareance to carry out assassinations, hence my codename: GENDER, knowing makeup to disguise myself (whether it was as a girl or as a guy) was essential.

On my way to school,the events of yesterday came into my mind. I gritted my teeth: I was so naiv ! Karasuma may not have yelled at me, but I wasn't proud of myself. I let my guard down, failed the C-rank mission, and almost got myself killed. I was still miles away from getting infos on Karma's murder. I pushed away all thoughts about yesterday, when Sugino entered the bus and sat next to me. We chatted during the whole travel to Kunigaoka high school was pretty far from its middle school and from our home.

Sugino and I bid each other goodbyes and parted ways inside the building. Inside my classroom, I walked to my seat, the one in the far right,next to the window. I felt a bit lonely, Isogai wasn't here yet and he was the only one from 3-E who was in my class. I didn't have any others friends in my class beside Isogai-kun, the school year begun recently and we didn't get to know each other well but it was also partially my fault: I didn't try to befriend them. I proceded to sleep on my desk when class begun, and our cheerful teacher Anko-sensei appeared.

"Everyone, silence !... I have an important announcement to make today", when she was sure that she got everyone's attention, she continued " a new student will be part of our class , you may enter Yamazaki-kun". Unlike my classmates, I wasn't very interested in that new student, that is until I saw the tall black haired student make his entry. My jaw dropped and I was shaking a bit when I said "Karma-kun ?". It was loud enough for all the students to turn towards me.

Author's note: I am baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack. Sorry for the long absence, I have absolutely no excuse. In the end, it took me months to finish this chapter. I don't like the way it ended but like you can see the story finally started to do you find the action scenes? Thanks for your reviews. I may edit later.