Umm… hey. I was just wondering for those of you who read my stories, if you would mind giving me criticism… on my works. I would really appreciate knowing what I don wrong… and how I should fix it. Thank you. And ignore that my time frame is a bit off… its fantasy people, I do like to get it right but… oh wells it was an oops.
Chapter 4
Silvia's P.O.V.
My head was pounding when I woke next. Bad idea to open my eyes, as soon as I did a flood of bright lights worsened my head ache. Confusion hit as a looked around the room as the black from my site faded. I was in a hospital bed with a shit load of IV's and other extremities protruding my skin.
I tried to life my head off the pillow, no use. The drugs that was coring through my veins, the doctors made sure they were extra strong. I laid my head down and sighed heavily. All I could remember before I blacked out was everyone freaking out, Sam reaching for me ass I passed out, and the psychic energy overwhelming my body. They yard and everything around it must be destroyed.
As I lay there I heard the door quietly open and close. I opened them as a women with dark brown long hair with a beautiful tan heart shaped face with freckles and deep brown happy eyes approached me. My breath caught in my throat. My eyes widened in total surprise making my headache worsen.
"Hello, how are you, Silvia?" She said in a slightly sad yet happy voice. I was speechless at seeing her again. She was the only one out of my true original pack that I didn't have bad feelings with. She walked over silently to my bed side and flipped through my charts, uninterested. She looked at me with longing eyes as she put the chart away and pulled a chair next to my bed and sat in it.
"Billy called, in totally panic mode, and very, very frantic. I guess you haven't shown them anything that you can do, I guessed." I just nodded as I closed my eyes again.
"It's been harder to control the energy ever since Caleb…" I didn't want to finish what we both knew as the horrid truth. "its like the wolf side balanced me out you know, kept a handle when my human side couldn't, and now that its gone…." I left to her knowledgeable imagination. Her eyes seemed to understand as her eyebrows lifted in concern.
"Why didn't you tell anyone?" she asked truly concerned. I shrugged, not like what I said would have mattered much to them anyway, they weren't about to do the slightest thing to make me comfortable. I turned my attention to pay look at the boring art that hung in my hospital room.
"I brought you north. Not quite in Alaska. No a family friend who is also a doctor. She works at a small hospital." She said nonchalantly. "You have been out for quite a while. I guess she overdosed. Hopefully not to much damage was done." She smiled and softly laughed. She was so like an older sister or a mother to me. The one that I didn't have growing up. I smiled back at her missing her, and only her. We sat there after a while enjoying each others presence. As we sat there together the air became thicker, hotter, and humid. The room span a little as the energy in the room spiked. My heart rate spiked as well and my breathing hitched, all things noticeable on the monitors they had me hooked up too.
They energy cracked as it entered my body, fiercely, aggressively, scorching the inside of my body until the vision hit my eyes. They started to glow as it played out in front of me.
I saw the girl Bella, staring blankly at the air in front of her as she sat in her bed. Pure abandonment and pain so immense my eyes held and my heart ached with her. She was an empty whole and I could feel it. I wanted to reach out and help her. I wanted her to act alive and alright, but all she did was stare, empty.
As the image left I sat their staring too, with tear streaked cheeks. Erin knew no to ask. She just got up and walked to the door.
"Sam is here to pick you up. You should be ready to leave here soon. I will call the nurse back up to remove everything and return your clothes." She said as she sadly smiled and walked out the door. I smiled back. I knew that was the last goodbye. Caleb liked to keep close tabs on her. As soon as she left Sam walked in. concern written all over his face as we strode over to me. He picked up my hand life we had been sister and brother our whole lives.
"You have been out a week… is that normal?" worry made his usually calm composure crack. I looked down and chook my head.
"No, no its not. It shouldn't be this way Sam. It's so hard to control everything. My second form helps balance everything out, and since I can't I lose control." I hung my head exasperated. He patted my head as he held a sad expression, the kind that say they don't know how to help, and stepped away as the nursed came in and shooed him out. She unhooked and disable all the cords, tubes, and whatever else was strapped into me.
I dressed in my black slims and an orange tank that was lacy. I put my converse on last and walked out the door. I was checked out and everything thanks to Erin. We walked out to the car and strapped in, as we started to pull out I asked, "so what did I miss?"
He smiled a devilish smile as he drove. "So we practically have everyone in on it. Even Jake." He said distantly remembering and old memory. I smiled, that means he must be way huger than when I last saw him… wow. The drive took most of the day. We got home about three o' clock that afternoon. We pulled up the familiar drive and I noticed Billy waiting anxiously on the front porch. Jake was no where to be seen.
I got out and ran to Billy. I hung him tightly and held the hugest grin ever. "Billy I am home, and I am so sorry that what happened happened I tried to keep it under control but…" I said in a long intake of breath. He waved his hand nonchalantly, understanding. I picked up on his thoughts that Erin filed him in since I had not. He grinned widely back at me.
"It's just glad to see you back." I looked around looking for Jake and noticed the lawn… I could tell this did a lot of work; most of the trees surrounding the yard looked like thunder and lightly hit them. There was random debris in the yard and it looked like totally chaos and disarray. I smiled sheepishly at the damage. Then I heard the screen door open and Jake walk out.
He was massive. He wore a tight white tee that showed off his chiseled muscles. He was like 6'7". I looked up at him; he was like 25 years old. I felt a little dizzy, when I felt what he felt. Out eyes met and tenderness filled his.
I entered his mind and picked up on his emotions and thoughts. It was like one look and he was totally and utterly in love with me. He idolized me and looked at me as if I were a goddess. I was the force that kept him to the earth, the breath that filled his lungs; I was the breath in his lungs, the drum that beat his heart. My own breath caught in my throat. I didn't want this to happen not yet and not now. I had suppressed my ability to imprint when I lost my ability to phase. I could feel it at the back of my mind tempting me to give in but I couldn't, the image off Bella made me wince.
I smiled at him with no hint of anything but pure friendliness. I didn't' want to hurt him, and It wasn't that I didn't love him, no it at all, I just wasn't ready yet. I was slightly afraid to hug him. All he wanted to do was hug me and ever let me go, very uncomfortable. I turned around, thanked Sam and walked straight up to my room. Billy looked concerned.
"Is everything aright?!" he called up to me.
"Yeah just tired from all the drugs and long car ride." He bought it. I fell into bed again. It felt like home, which made me feel elated. I hadn't felt that feeling in a long time. As I lay there I heard the front door slam. Jake left, a bit upset. He was happy that he imprinted, he was confused on my reaction, or lack there of.
I pushed it from my mind. My thoughts then became filled with Bella. I wanted to... no needed to help her. I could feel from Jake that he was already doing so… but now it's a bit different. In one moment of seeing me, his feelings for Bella now were nothing. Well not exactly nothing, but I now came first. I talked with Sam I heard the vampires left, to his relief. Not exactly Bella's, who I picked up was madly in love and had found her eternal soul mate.
I lay there drifting possibilities, on how to help this empty girl when sleep overtook me.
I woke late the next day. A sudden sense hit me. Erin had lied. I wasn't out for a week. It was much longer than that. That's why the drugs were so strong… what must have happened before I left must have been devastating. I contemplated on figuring it out. I ruled it as not as important as the other goal for today.
I grabbed my toiletries and headed for the bathroom. I turned on the hot water and jumped in. I let it unknot all the knots. After about and hour or so I got out. Dried off and got dressed. I decided on nothing to flashy, so a simple tee and sweat pants. I needed to appear human to her. I finished getting ready and ran downstairs, full of more energy than usual.
Billy smiled when he saw me so upbeat. "Jake left with the pack earlier this morning, to be over at Sam's." He told me in a cheery voice. I just smiled and nodded.
"That's not my objective today." I grabbed a piece of toast and took a bite. I sat down a cross from him and starred. He raised and eyebrow and set down his paper, curiosity covered his face. I smiled, then it faded to a frown and I dropped my toast and barely managed to finish the bite. He noticed and now concern entered his features.
"I had a vision, in the hospital, of this empty girl. She had no emotions, like everything she felt was sucked into a hole of despair and abandonment. I wanted to help this girl… it was like a love was strong and powerful in her, like her other half, the one she was truly, and I mean truly meant to be with…. Was ripped from her." Vacancy filled my eyes as I sat there thinking of her. He frowned but understood.
I stood up and walked out the door. "I will be home, later. Don't really know when don't really care." It was 12 when I left. I noticed Jake left his rabbit unprotected from me in the garage. It was finished… wow. I saw the keys in the ignition and started the baby up. I don't think he'll mind, he's deeply in love with me. I smirked, what a sick girl I was.
I revved the velvety engine and started off on my quest. It didn't take me long to get to Forks. I drove down a few streets then I picked up on her hopelessness for life. It was a nice house and a good neighborhood. Quiet. A rusty old Chevy was in the parking lot. It looked sturdy enough. I decided to park on the street, across from her house. How strange, I have never done this before.
I sat in my truck and closed my eyes. How to broach the subject? Who the hell cares? I got out and slammed the rabbit's door shut, put the keys in my pocket and walked bravely up to the front door. I knocked. And waited. And again I knocked again. And again I waited. I could sense her inside. Wanting to die without him. I turned the knob with kinesis and pushed it open. I poked my head in cautiously. She walked down the steps and looked at me strangely, a vague memory playing up in her mind, a dance.
Her face was even more vacant now that I see her face to face. I wince at the pain that washed over me emanating from her. Damn, being empathic sucks. I smiled warmly at her.
"Hello, Bella." I said in a honey sweet voice. Her eyes seemed to stir when I said her name, in recognition. Ok, this was driving me insane. I calmed her down and slightly brightened her mood. Her energy didn't change but she greeted me with a bit more cheer. A vampire named Jasper crossed inside her mind.
"Hello, I don't really think we met… how you got in by the way..." her face was happier when she greeted me but turned confused as her attention went to the door.
"Well… about that… look Bella, I don't know how to say this, but, um… Ihadavisionaboutyouinmyhospitalbed,anditwasbadtheworseihaveeverfeltafterone,youweresomuchinpainicouldnttakeit… so I wanted to help you out…" I said in one breath as I broke off at the end wheezing. She looked at me wide eyes. Realization came across her face.
"What are you?" she asked unafraid and very curious, eyebrows rose. Vampire was a possibility in her mind, which made me laugh, my mortal enemy. Not all, only the ones who have hurt me in the past. I smiled impishly.
"You know Jake. Right?" she nodded cautiously. "I am what he is. I am a werewolf. I have just been gone a while, in the hospital." I rushed out the last part afraid it may have been a bit too soon. She nodded, scrutinizing me. Doubt was coursing through her mind. All the werewolves she knew were huge, native, and not female. I laughed as I heard her strange mind. In all my life I have never I more different human, mentally of coarse, not in a bad way either, it's just different. To see what she sees, I hear what she says; I have to approach her mind so differently.
"Look, Bella, I am a werewolf, I am just not from around here. I am from a different pack… I came to live up here because I had some… difference with my original pack." I said with a grimace. She took it in a scrutinized. She accepted it for what it was, and shrugged her shoulders.
"So you can calm people, make them feel things like happiness?" she asked highly curious, the Jasper vampire on her mid again. I nodded nonchalantly. She seemed amused by this. She was careful to approach me, but I gave off no vibe of danger. Not like she would have been afraid anyway. She lightly grabbed my wrist and brought me to her room upstairs. She had a slight jump to her step as we walked into her room. She sat on her bed, as I took the chair in the corner.
I could hear the questions burning in her mind. I waited for her to ask. She rested her elbows on her knees as she placed her head on her hands. She looked me over. In her mind she made me seem more beautiful than I really was, she was a bit intimidated, this made me smiled. She was also beautiful; she just didn't see her self correctly.
And then in a matter of seconds, the questions began. "Can you read minds too?" curiosity burned every question and her enthusiasm grew. I nodded yes.
"But I can dig deeper then just hear immediate thoughts." That set her off, whatever questions she had lined up were now pushed back to make room for new ones.
"Can you read mine?"
"Yes." I scoffed a bit before answering some more. "But your mind is different, like AM and FM type of deal, it's hard to explain." She laughed wholeheartedly as the memory of Edward, her vampire lover, entered her mind and telling her something very similar.
"What else can you do?"
"Well, I can see things in the future, visions, as I have said before." Before I could say anything else she cut me off.
"What kind? Do you see just snippets of the future? Definite futures? What?" she was sitting stick straight and excitement brightening her face? I laughed at her enthusiasm.
I nodded. "yes both, I can see the futures where no matter how hard you try to change them you never will, and I see visions were you do one little thing and the whole future is different." The pixie like vampire, names Alice, popped into her head. The visions I saw that weren't definite were like the ones the vampire saw. She took this in for a moment. Reassessing.
"So… does that mean you can see the future involving werewolves?" she asked skeptically. I nodded.
"Of course. I am one." She seemed to take it as is.
"Can you move things with your mind too?" I nodded once again.
"How do you think I got in here?" I joked playfully. We laughed. Her laugh was warming up but I could still hear the emptiness.
"Why did you come here?" real curiosity. A sad look wiped away our happy moment. My icy blue eyes grew tender as well.
"I saw you, I wanted to help you, feel better." She had a shocked face. She smiled emptily. I stood up and lightened the mood. I walked around her room. I sensed and smelled vampire aura and smell, under one of her floor boards. I looked up at her.
"There is something under here... Can I lift it up?" she looked at me like I was crazy. She thought I was making it up then took it back, after our conversation. I pried under the floor board carefully. I pulled back to see a CD, and an assortment of a few other things. Her whole body froze as she saw the stash under the floor. Recognition flooded her and I realized these objects were extremely important to her. I smiled as I saw her picked them up carefully, so fragile, as if they weren't real. Her eyes teared up and gratitude emanated from her as she looked up at me.
"Thank you… thank you…" she whispered. She quickly took the CD and put it in. it was a lullaby Edward composed for along with other songs. As she listened it was like hope was reborn in her.
"You know, he loves you. He only did what he thought was best. But he's selfish and will come back to you. I can feel the love you hold for him, and I can only believe so much." She looked at me and smiled. Grateful that I came to see her. I was now her crutch. Keeping her going until he came back. I was happy to do it as long as she wouldn't break.
She got up and unexpectedly hugged me warmly. I slowly released the emotional control I had on her and she cried into my shoulder all night until Charlie came home.
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