Chapter 4- Self

Haley had been out of Charming for about two weeks. She felt at ease no one knew who she was. She found her way to Colorado and loved it there. She hadn't turned her phone on since two days after she left. She got a job at a café and the owner was cute. He was in his late twenties and he was always making sure she was okay. He had a sister her age and didn't want anything to happen to her. She felt like they clicked right away. She made her way to the motel after work and turned her phone on. She had 100 missed texts and voicemails from Gemma, Jax, Opie, Donna, Juice, Piney, Bobby, Clay, and a few of the guys.

She listened to some of the voicemails.

"Hales it's me," She wanted to cry hearing Opie. "I miss you so much. Please come home. I know why you left but we need you here. Donna had the baby. He is good and healthy and wants to meet his aunt." She heard him sigh. "I love you. Come home."

Haley felt defeated. All of the confidence and happiness she gained were draining. "Haley. I messed up. I should have stopped you at the diner. I got to the house and you were gone." Jax's message had her heart breaking. "I do want you, this, us whatever it is. I am going to talk to Op. Please just come back. We can fix this." She was in tears.

"Hey baby. We all need you here. Your dad isn't doing so well. He got sick and he needs you. Opie and Donna miss you. Clay and I just want you home, and you know what Jax wants. I don't know how smart that is but we haven't been able to stop you before. Just come home." Haley was scared for her dad.

"Haley I don't know if you are gettin these, but I miss you. Come home soon darlin." Jax's voice cut her like a knife. She deleted a majority of the messages before hearing her dad.

"Haley girl. I miss you so much and I wish you were here. I am sorry for everything. Call me and let me know you are okay." Haley read through the texts that said the same and she sat there staring at her phone. She picked it up and dialed her dad's number.

"Hello?"

"Daddy?" She heard a small sob on the other end.

"Haley girl. I didn't think I would ever hear your voice again." She cried instantly. "Are you okay?"

"Is she okay dad?" She heard Opie and cried harder.

"I'm okay. I just. I'm so sorry." They both heard her and Opie sounded so worried.

"It's okay. Are you coming home?" Opie just wanted her there.

"I don't know Op. I don't know if I can get there anytime soon." He shattered something.

"Where are you Haley girl?" Piney was worried.

"Colorado." She talked to her dad and brother for about an hour then she agreed that Opie and a few of the guys would pick her up. "I love you both and will see you soon."

Haley's phone rang as she got out of the shower. A picture of her and Jax showed up. "Hello?"

"Haley! I thought I was going to have to leave another message." I couldn't find words. "Haley?"

"Hi Jax."

"I'm coming with Op. I want to see you." She felt a tear stinging her face.

"Okay. Who else?"

"My mom, Clay, Juice, Bobby, Your Dad, and a few of the guys." She couldn't help it. She was crying now, "What? Did I say something?"

"No. I'm just. I didn't mean to get you mad."

"Mad? I was pissed at you for the first few days, but I didn't know where to find you." She could hear him bustling around on the other end.

"I was on a bus about ten minutes after leaving Op's." It was quiet for a few seconds before she broke it, "Did you mean what you said in the message?"

"Yeah. Can we talk about that when I get there?" She shifted on the bed.

"How long til you get here? Cause I got to work in the morning and I have to let Rick know I am leaving." She felt a small pain knowing all he would hear was the guy's name.

"You got a job out there already?"

"Yeah. At a diner. I work five to one." He chuckled

"Well I knew you could handle yourself. We should be there around twelve thirthy-ish." It was quiet and she felt it coming, "Who is Rick?"

"My manager. He is a nice guy. His sister is the same age as me. We work together a lot. He set me up somewhere after I met him because he found me sleepin on a bench." She felt his anger through the phone.

"A bench? You coulda had someone try and mess wit you! You aren't in Charming Hales!"

"I know. Yell at me tomorrow. I need sleep before work." She heard him take a deep breath. "Night Jax. Love ya."

"Night Hales. Love you too." She hung up curled into a ball around her pillow and cried for an hour or so.


She woke up to her alarm going off about twenty minutes late. She flew out of bed, got dressed for work, and flew out of the door. She made her way to the diner and apologized for being late. She explained to Rick that her family was coming to get her and that she needed to go home. He hugged her gave her some extra cash and sent her home to pack over her lunch. After packing she brought everything to the diner and Rick helped her hide it out of sight in the back room. About a half hour before her shift ended she heard the bikes rolling into the parking lot and she smiled. She put food on the tables and went outside to greet everyone. Op leapt off of his bike and grabbed his little sister. Everyone else went after. Jax waited until the end and made his way to her. He grabbed both sides of her face and kissed her hard and passionate. When the kiss ended she noticed how silent it got and how everyone was staring.

"I told my boss I would finish up can you guys come grab a table?" Jax squeezed her and everyone started walking inside. Opie stopped next to them.

"I don't want to know more than what you told me. Don't screw this up. Either of you." Haley had a tear rolling down her cheek and Jax wiped it away.

"Don't. You gotta finish work. I'm not goin anywhere without you." She smiled and they put their foreheads together and she went in. Her family was here. She noticed Rick push tables together and he smiled at Haley's family.

"Anything you want on the house." They all smiled, "Hell of a girl you got here. It's about time she got back to you." They all appreciated his words about her and they left five hundred laying on the table when they left. Haley threw her stuff in the truck with Piney and Juice and jumped on Jax's bike. Her arms around him felt so right to her that she never wanted to get off the bike.


When they got to the rest stop everyone sat for an hour or two before napping almost in rotation.

"Hales. Did I make you leave?" Haley wasn't sure why she left but she did.

"No. I just felt like I was suffocating. No one wanted me just croweaters. I couldn't date outside the club cause I knew no one would approve. I tried. Remember?" He smirked at her. "I found something in Colorado that I didn't know I had before." He put his arm around her shoulder and held her close scared to let her go again.

"What was that?" Haley looked at him and smiled.

"Me. I found who I am or at least who I want to be. I realized what is important and who. I just figured it out for myself."

"Maybe I should just take off." Haley punched him without thinking.

"Don't you dare!" He laughed at her when she hit him which only pissed her off more.


The air was different that night when they got home. The clubhouse was packed for a welcome home party for her and she felt all of the stress from before she left gone. Haley was happy to be home. Jax couldn't take his eyes off of her. She was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. He tried to stay away for Opie. He truly did, but he felt happier in that moment then he had been with Tara or Wendy.

"Hey baby. You ready to go home?" Gemma was trying to leave and wanted to make sure Haley got home that time without bailing on them again.

"I think I am gonna stay and hang out with Jax and the guys for a while." Gemma raised an eyebrow to her. "I'm not leaving. I promise." She hugged her and let her loose.

"Haley. Whatever you got going on with my son… needs to stay good. Things fall back on the club easily. Us old ladies… we are the heart of it. We keep their heads right. You hear me?" Haley nodded not sure what just happened. She went back into the clubhouse to find Jax, and when she did he was sitting at a table with Opie and Donna. She didn't want to move just look at her family and smile.

"You gonna just stand there or go over?" Juice's voice popped up behind her. "Want a beer?" She nodded and took it. They leaned against the pool table for a while. "You are all he talked about. He thought I helped you at first. That was fun." Haley's eyes widened feeling sorry for the man she strung along.

"I never meant to cause any problems. I just needed to get out for a while." They both took a sip of beer and Jax caught her eye and she just smiled at him. "Thanks Juice." He gave her a quick hug and sauntered off to find a croweater.

"What was that about?" Haley smiled looking at Juice.

"An apology and a thank you." He looked at her unconvinced. "Nothing more I swear. I didn't call and come back just to turn this all upside down Jax. This is what I want." He picked her up and kissed her. Then walked over to the bar.

"Round for everyone!" He tilted her head back and kissed her. Haley felt everything was perfect.


Smashing into the door Haley and Jax got into the house. Drunk but able Jax started taking off her sweater then her shirt and she doesn't remember how but all of a sudden he was there looking amazing in front of her. She bit her lip and he picked her up carrying her to his room. He lay her on the bed and slid off her pants. Before she could even lean on her elbows he was completely naked and she just took in the sight. Every tattoo every muscle permanently indented in her mind. He leaned over her pulling her up to meet him. He picked her up and kissed her carrying her to the dresser. He unhooked her bra and she tossed it aside feeling his fingers run over every inch that they could. He rubbed against her panties and she was getting impatient. She wanted him then and there. She kicked him back onto the bed and dropped her panties to the floor she climbed on top of him and before she could get what he wanted he flipped her over. As soon as she hit the mattress he was inside of her. She felt every nerve ending stand on end. She couldn't think straight. He fit her so perfectly she was in heaven. All she wanted to do was remember this moment. She kissed him down his neck to his collarbone. He threw all of himself into her and as she felt him getting ready to climax it sent her body on a wave of passion. He collapsed on her and kissed her gently on the lips. She couldn't move. Her whole body quivered and she was dying from how high her temperature had risen through her body.

"I think I need a cold shower." Jax laughed and kissed her again.


A/N I hope you are enjoying this so far! I have enjoyed writing it and i have more to come for this story. Reviews are appreciated! Thank you for reading so far! Like I said. More chapters will be up soon.

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