Chapter 4: Good night and now good bye
Four days passed with the Sohma's and Tohru, Akito finally went back to main house where commotion was going on because of the events that had passed while she was at Shigure's house. No one was quiet sure what was up from down when Akito came back because, hell, what it seemed like to them was in one single night, crying and venting her world frustration out had fixed all her problems and made him, into a kind hearted, her, but that wasn't exactly the case, in fact it was completely wrong in all aspects. Every time Akito had ever hurt one of her Zodiacs or anyone that she'd known to be a good person at all, she'd locked herself away from the world, cooped up in her room, and bawled, all alone, to a box with her "father" in it she'd cried, she'd cried, and cried, and cried, and from all the crying she did she made herself very, very sick. After throwing up and sobbing her heart out she'd always lock the others out, and thus her body became very weak to the point that she had to stop seeing her zodiacs as much as possible, but that night with Tohru something had changed in her, she had cried her heart out, just like always, but this time someone was listening and comforting her, and this time she had felt relived after crying, not sick like dying, it changed her, and she liked the way it felt, to hear such comforting words to someone so undeserving as herself, she decided then to take good care of her zodiacs, helping them along, and making reasonable decision's and now Kyo was free from his curse, that be the first thing she'd do right. She would let Kyo and Tohru find happiness together, both loved the other so uncontrollably that they didn't even know it, it was so cute. Akito turned her head to stare out the window, the sun was shining brightly down on the little estate, creating an echoing effect, and from inside at her normal window, and she stood then and opened up her back paper door, and stepped out into the sunshine. She was tired of staring at the sun from inside and never reaching the warmth she wanted it to reach her face and warm her from her face down to her toes, and that's exactly what it did.
Tohru looked out stared up at the bright shining sun, shutting her eyes as the sun shown down and sparkled off her face, new days are strange they say after all, and today was a brand new day, for her, and for Akito as well, both could feel the other, heads up to the sun, basking in its light, warming themselves from the cold rain. Tohru's brown locks flowed gracefully at her sides, gently dancing with the light summer breeze, and her eyes moved down to glance timidly over the fresh summer flowers and her smile widened tremendously, that same smile she always had lighting up her glorious figure, painted sweetly across her smooth red lips, it could make the rain go away like the sun seemed to do. She herself in general could make the rain go away if she wanted to, all she had to do was tell the clouds how they were need else where, and tell the sun how it was need here and now, and the clouds would flee to rain on anyone but her, and the sun would jump up high and shine with all its might just to see its reflection in her smile, because her smile's brightness rivaled that of the sun. If you looked up Caring, Kindness, Loving, Optimistic, Happy or any other word related in the least bit to something that is yellow, Tohru Honda would be next to it, she was a fallen angel working her way to get her wings back and join the holy one's right side, where she belongs, at least that's what the Sohma's thought of her, the Sohma's and her two best friends. She kept her smile bright on her face as she made her way back into the tall two story house, she stopped and decided to enter but to go around back and sit on the roof and bath in the sun light, so she reeled back from the door and glided her way to the back of the brown old Japanese style house. She worked her way to the latter and began a quick ascend up the piece of brown, and up onto the roof, where she bounced across the roof top to the center where she plopped down and stretched her hands out behind her head and closed her eyes, smiling in the warmth of the sun. And before she knew what was happening Tohru's blue eyes were close and she was drifting off into a very peaceful sleep.
Good night…
Sleep tight…
No... more… tears…
End… now… mourning…
I'll… be here…
And when… we say good night
Dry… your… eyes
Because… we… say… good night
And now… good bye
We say… good… night
And now… we say… good… bye…
"Mom!" Tohru's eyes snapped open and she laid where ever she was when she'd fallen asleep, and with a jolt she sat up eyes wide as she looked around frantically for what she had thought was her mother's voice, no, she knew was her mother's voice, she looked around on the roof and everything came rushing back to her like a wave of memories if you've ever waken up and gone where am I, The Sohma's, Car wreck, Akito, Hatori, Cooking, School, Hana, Uo, Yuki, Shigure, Kyo, everything just suddenly and she sighed but then her ears twitched as the lingering of the piano was heard over the hill.
"Mom." Tohru whispered and stood up and looked over at the glowing of the sunset, it was beautiful, the sun was a golden jewel over the horizon and there were red and yellows enthusing its beauty, it touched the horizon line just right and over the roof her face's smile was lost, and the song was herd in the wind, it was soft, almost un a, like a lingering whisper but it was fading with the last note and she knew then, her mother was telling her something.
"Good night, good bye." Tohru whispered and let tears spill over the edges of her pale cheeks, she knew this was coming, this moment, she knew it was going to come sooner or later, when she would have to let her mother go, and be free of the "ever lasting life" she craved, and she slinked to her knee's as more tears climbed over the edges of her pale cheeks, and finally, for the first time in two years, let her mother go, and move on, because Tohru had to sometime.
Her eyes widened as a hand placed its self on the back of her head and hugged her from behind and all she could make out of it was "I love you…thank you………for……letting……go." The faint whisper and then the pressure was gone completely and the fain lingering of the song still held up in the air as Tohru stood from her spot on the roof once more and watched at the sun disappeared below the green tree's and lit up the land and the clouds were set just right, just right that her eyes caught the shape of a enormous heart but when she looked harder Tohru could make out large angel wings, all this time, holding her mother close, never wanting to truly accept that she was gone, wanted her to always be right there, and never breaking any promise's but she could only break, and keep so many promises was the horrible truth and this one was a horrible truth. She had to finally accept fully that her mother was gone, and she had made her mother a promise, she had promised to love her mother above all else and think of her every single day of every hour, and no matter what hold on to her, keep her close, save her, love her, but she'd broken that promise long ago. She could no longer love her mother above all else, she loved someone else beyond and above all now, and if she held onto her past anymore now, she just might stop moving at all. She sat back down on the roof and looked out to the on coming dots in the sky, as they began to appear one by one she had made a choice. If Tohru ever wanted to moved forward in the future she had to stop dwelling on the past, or else she would never grow, she would always be sad, and missing her mother, she didn't want that, so she had to stop dwelling. She tried to remember the song but it just wouldn't come to her then, and as the night pressed on the stars lit up the sky with a faint glow of white. She was so entranced by them that when someone placed there hand on her forehead the didn't notice for several moments, her gaze stayed mesmerized with stars, and when she finally took notice she leaped backwards and made a loud BOOM sound.
"Hey, calm down, sorry didn't mean to scare ya." His voice was like a smoothing rumble and her nerve's calmed at the sound of it, he turned his gaze again back to the girl and let his hair fall gently over his face and a small startled blush flew over his cheeks.
"I'm so sorry Kyo I was just looking at the stars is all, and I kinda got carried away." Tohru said frantically and jumped up from her place on the roof, her legs were stiff but she pulled down into a low, as she did so Kyo was sitting down and the two rammed into each other and Tohru came toppling over one side and Kyo on the other, but neither one hit the other they both were spread out along side the roof.
"I'm so sorry!" They both shouted sitting up and looking at each other, both of them had there hand placed over the spot that had been so roughly abused but the other, or more like, abused by the roof and after staring at each other for a moment, crimson burning into cool blue, they turned away blushing like mad, yup both in love with the other, they just didn't know it.
"Well you n-need to come inside…its getting late now…and you should probably sleep." He said calmly and stood then, "Besides," He stretched his arms high above his head and yawned long an loud, and with and exasperated sigh let his arms flop back down to his sides.
"Yeah" Tohru said nodding rapidly still blushing like mad and scrambling to her feet as quickly as possible and making her way over to the edge, Kyo hot on her heels, and they began the slow climb down the latter and began there silent blushing walk into the house, Tohru had completely forgotten about Kyo being freed from the curse and Kyo didn't even know it, so both were blind to it.
The two teens kept there heads bowed and away from each other, and each time their eyes crossed from the side they'd bow there heads blushing madly again, it was so cute to see them both blush. As the two made their way into the house, where a cold chill ran up there spine and Tohru got a feeling in the pit of her stomach, a bad feeling that something was wrong, or that she had forgotten something, but she didn't know what exactly, so for the time being she ignored it and focused on the climb up stairs. Kyo also felt like he was missing something very important, he couldn't quiet put his finger on it but his instincts were running like crazy, and his stomach was doing flips this way and that, but he decided to shake it off and watch Tohru to make sure she didn't come tumbling down the stairs. The two rose up the stair's and out of the small hall way that the stairs so stiffly resided in, and into the hall leading to there bed rooms. Kyo and Tohru walked down the long, narrow path way and Kyo took Tohru to her bed room door, and opened it for her. She turned her head big blue eyes shining up on him and his deep crimson eyes burning with passion down on her, Kyo leaned in, his head bent in for the kill, and Tohru leaned up head ready to take the final blow when, Kyo stopped suddenly and blushed madly. What was he doing, almost kissing Tohru, but when he saw that she had leaned up and closed her eyes, hoping and waiting, denying her that kiss was almost a sin, and he thought, Damn. Her eyes stayed tightly shut as she anticipated his lips hoping that her first kiss would beautiful and romantically, and that she was doing the right thing by waiting for him, and she waited. Kyo stared down at her angelic face and a smile crossed his lips as he bent down, his breath tickled her lips and in on swift cat-like motion, stole the girls first kiss, and gave up his first, but it was amazing. Kyo's heart leaped up into his throat and his face was the color of roses. Tohru's heart raced the speed of light, and her face was bright pink, like her bed room. She opened her eyes and looked at Kyo, wishing she could hug him, but wait a minute, she could now. Her arms stretched out and just as they did Kyo took off down the hall to his room, and slammed the door, and she felt hurt. For the first time in a long time, she bowed her and clasped her hands together and went to the window of her bed room, and wished with all her heart to find the strength to tell Kyo he was free from the curse. With that she stripped her cloths from her body and replaced them with knew ones, and crawled in bed, and with tears glisten in her eyes she fell into a deep, nightmare filled sleep.
Kyo crawled in bed that night and laid his head down to sleep, he looked up at his ceiling and titling his back a little bit more looked out the back of the window, there were stars out side, but clouds were rolling in and taking over the night sky. He sighed quietly to himself and turned over to his side and looked at the side of his bed and let his hand hang off slightly so it crossed the barrier and the floor. He had a traditional style Japanese bed, a pallet with some thick blankets and a very light pillow, but it was comfortable enough for him to sleep on. Yuki had one in his room also, it was rolled up every morning and put into the closet by Yuki himself, while Kyo just left his a mess out on the floor, forgotten and un cared for. His Orange hair was messed up a little as it laid flatly on the side of his face and it tossed slightly out of his eyes so he could look at his plain Jane room without any trouble at all. He let another exasperated sigh escape his lips but this one was long and annoyed, God he loved Tohru. He touched his lips slightly where he had bent down to kiss her and then, like a scaredy cat, run off from her, what a total loser. He sighed once more and let this sigh linger long and hard before flipping his head up again and looking out on to his dresser drawer. Flashes of the day they had begun moving Shigure's books to let him have his own room, why the hell did he need his own room any way? All he had in it anyway was a small pallet, a dresser with few items and his school cloths, and the only other thing in the room was himself, he could just sleep on the roof, or better, in the living room on bad nights? He didn't need his own room, Oh well he had his own room and he would never complain out loud, he thought about what he would do to avoid Tohru tomorrow, she probably didn't want to see him any way. As his eyes fluttered closed and sleep took his body one thought was in mind, one thought, and one thought only, Tohru, Tohru I love you and I want to wake up to your smiling, joy filled face.
