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Dear Diary,
Why are men so confusing? Tonight marked one year since Joseph and I started seeing one another secretly and things have been going great, except that we have never made it past kissing and the occasional touch here or there. Quite frankly it is frustrating! I had planned on changing all that tonight. Before he arrived I picked out a short gown that was sexy but not too revealing and a matching dressing gown that only came to my mid- thigh. I had invited him earlier to my suite for a quite dinner and then a movie which was a 'normal' date for us and as usually we never make it through a movie without 'making out' as Mia refers to it. I had just removed his black t-shirt from over his head as he continued kissing me while hovering over my body on the couch and just as things were starting to heat up he pushes back and grabs his shirt putting it back on before kissing me on the forehead while whispering his apologies and then he walked out the door.
If I wasn't frustrated before I certainly am now! I knew that tonight was going to be the night but boy was I wrong. I can't believe that he would let it get so far and then just walk away like nothing had happen. Perhaps I was wrong about Joseph maybe he doesn't feel the same way about me as I do him. Maybe he is just doing this because he feels obligated to…I certainly hope not. What will I do if he is? It's not like I can just stop loving him but if he does love me then why will he not make love to me?
I suppose we should discuss it, but what am I to say "Joseph, why will you not sleep with me?" that sounds a little too desperate. Ugh, MEN!
Maybe he will just explain himself in the morning…hopefully that's what will happen.
