As I promised, this is the last chapter.
Chapter 4: What We Really Want
"Hikari-chan?"
"Stop! I'm not ready for this!"
"Hikari-chan?!"
"I know that we are old enough, but I don't think we should be doing this now!"
"Hikari-chan!"
Hikari opens her eyes, sweating as well as seeing Takeru in front of her, worry written all over his face. The lamp is turned on, and they are both fully-clothed.
"Are you okay?" Takeru looks worried as he wipes her sweaty forehead. "You were talking while sleeping so that I woke up and tried to wake you up."
She tries to sit down so that she could recover, pinching her cheeks and it hurts her. She touches his cheeks, and it is warmer than before. This is real, and it is just a nightmare she got.
"I'm okay." she collapses to his body, breathing in relieved. "Thank goodness it is just a dream."
She keeps herself safe in his chest as she tries to calm down. Staring at him, who looks worried about her but keep in silence as he pats her back to help her calm down.
"Do you have a nightmare?"
She nods.
"… is it about us?"
She widens her eyes and sees him, as if her eyes tell him that his statement is right. Even before she speaks, she could see him sighing.
"Because you said that you are not ready and we're old enough, so that I'm guessing it is about us," he sighs.
The circumstance feels so uncomfortable. So that he knows what she was dreaming about. It will be awkward, but it will be worse if they don't discuss it. They have been keeping this since they arrived, have been awkward more than they have ever felt in their life, and she doesn't want something bad happen.
Her mouth feels really dry and she couldn't start the conversations. Perhaps, she is just too scared to open it, afraid if there would be a little mistake, a misunderstanding, or a miscommunication that leads them to terrible things.
He makes a sigh before starting the conversation. "… will you tell me 'my actions' in your dream?"
She bites her lips and starts telling him, despite of how much she hates to speak about it. While telling she sees a tiny blush on his cheeks, as if he doesn't believe that she dreamed him like that way. But, his face tells her, that he understands. He understands why it was happening before, and he can consider it.
"I'm so wild in your dream." Takeru couldn't help blushing after she finishes, so does her.
"It must be the effect of this place." Takeru sighs as he rubs his forehead, before giving her a smile that she loves so much, as he puts his hands on her shoulder to reassure her. "Hikari-chan, I once told you that I'm not going to do it with you until we're really ready. And even though everyone states that we're old enough, I won't do it, especially if you don't want it. It's not because I don't like you, not because I really hate you, but –"
His smile only grows and she feels so overwhelmed with that. "But, as much as you know, as much as I have always told, I want to appreciate you, as someone really important to me, and as a woman. You know that, right? I always want to protect you, always want to try my best to see you smile, and I will hate myself if I do something harm to you."
Her smile starts growing with his calmed and heartwarming statement. "So, you don't need to be worried about it, okay? Nothing will happen. I promise." he has linked his pinky finger with hers even before she accepts his finger. "If I lie, then my finger will be cut, okay?"
She laughs and hugs him. Now that she knows the pieces that left, that he has always wanted to appreciate her unlike her dreams. She knows, that one day there would be the time when they are ready, and they are mature enough to do it. But the road is still long, and they still need time to come surpass it.
"… will you hug me tonight?"
"huh?"
"Just hugging and sleeping next to each other!" she tries to explain. "Nothing will happen, right?"
Takeru couldn't help chuckling, yet he also couldn't reject it. "Of course," he laughs as he shrugs, yet realizing that he had to abandon Taichi's order to accept hers. "We can also start practicing so that we can get used to it, right?"
She smiles shyly. She couldn't help imagining it. The day when she would wake up in his chest, his arms go around her body so that she would be protected, as she snuggles on his chest, or wakes him up. That day will come. She doesn't know when and how long the road would be, but she believes it will come. Someday.
So that, she is in his arm, feeling his peaceful heartbeats that tells him everything is surreal. She looks on at him, smiling as she sees him sleeping and feeling more peacefully after telling her his thoughts. They once felt awkward when they heard another moan came from the next door, but Takeru drew her closer to change the situation. Her hand reaches his cheek, which is warm compared to the one in her dream, and rubs it softly before pecking his lips, carefully not to wake him up.
With that, she draws into him closer and goes to sleep, knowing that everything will be alright.
"Are you ready?" Takeru takes the handbag they carried last night. The storm has been stopped since midnight, and the weather is really nice now. It is the best time to come home, just like Taichi had warned them before.
"Ready." she smiles as they step out and unlock the room. The two lovebirds beside them have just come out and both are blushing while seeing the younger couple. Takeru and Hikari bow awkwardly, before they run away and successfully escape from the hotel.
Hikari smiles as she sees him sitting next to him. She once thought that this fate is kinda stupid to be crossed and she is just too unlucky about staying in love hotel with two of them being innocent. But now that she gets a lot of good news for her life, she thinks that this fate is good enough to be crossed. They are innocent, yes, but they will grow to be a mature couple, together.
Her friends state that they did because they loved each other and even though they had to be apart, they were at least have memories. But for her, love isn't good to be proof in that way. Love is an appreciation to each other. The one that people need in their life.
When the train is ready to go, Takeru lays his head on her shoulder. Hikari wonders, didn't he have a good sleep last night?
"You know, I can't sleep well last night. I was nervous, especially when you pecked me." he sighs, making her blush that he caught her pecking him. He couldn't help chuckling. "But no worries, I will be used with that someday."
"When… the day comes…"
With that, he closes his eyes and goes into slumber, as she smiles and the train leads them back to the hometown.
She has planned to give everything to him, but not now. That time, the time when they are finally ready, would be the most beautiful time they would ever share together.
Nah it's actually just Hikari's nightmare. Sorry if you were disappointed. But I just can't imagine them doing something harm before they get married, although some people state it is a 'proof that they are in love and need each other'.
Oh wow, I've finally finished this! It's been years since I finish an ongoing story so that I feel kinda proud of myself now! (I'm kidding. There's nothing to be proud to) I will try to finish my ongoing stories, so no worries!
'I once told you that I'm not going to do it with you' on Takeru's part is one of my headcanon that I'd like to make into an oneshot (or two chapters) someday. So that, they once had a similar thing happened when they were in highschool. Though the ending will be all of your expectations, but I think the plot could still flow good (or better than this). Hopefully I could grant my (stupid) promise someday!
Put your review and have a nice day! Thank you for following this story, my dearest reviewers and silent readers! See you on my next fic!
