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.Sorry I haven't upload in a couple days. That big science project got me. I was so stressed.

.Anyway I'm back and I'm going to a do that I didn't plan on doing, but I heard it on the radio(see what I did there (;) and all I could think about was AUSTIN AND ALLY!

Disclaimer; I do not own Austin and Ally or A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton.

A Thousand Miles

Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces pass

And I'm home bound

I walk through the streets of the bright city I grew up in, passing all the places I used to love. I make my way quick, careful not to stop and enshrine on the places that I should have long forgotten by now. As I pass, I see people I grew up with. They wave or try to strike up a conversation as if yesterday was the day we graduated together, but I ignore them. There is no need to dig up my past and face brutal blows to the heart- again. Only 23 and already deprived of the happiness I deserve.

Staring blankly ahead

Just making my way

Making a way

Through the crowd

I'm not paying attention to where I'm going, so I'm clueless to where I'm at. Blurs of signs and passage ways pop out from the corner of my eye, but I don't dare even give them a glance. I look ahead of me and I see miles of sidewalk, faint concrete that goes on trails and never stops.

People bump into me rudely, shoving their way through the mass of crowds that have suddenly appeared. I push back through them, not caring about knocking the dust of their shoulders. I'm lost in city I grew up in, Miami, where the temperature drops a lot more at night than people would think-especially in the dead of winter. I wrap my tan cotton jacket tighter around me, giving me a tiny bit of warmth when I should be at home close to a blazing fire watching it light up the dim room secluded around me. But I don't know where 'home' is anymore. (1) My jacket seems to be the only thing that gives me a sense of protection, noting my rock in no longer keeping me down at my feet and I'm just accessible to anyone who has the will to break me down.

And I need you

And I miss you

And now I wonder...

I need my rock, the one that left when I was nineteen. He was all I needed. We were happy. He was the only thing that kept me sane instead of basing my life on nonsense. But life doesn't always work out the way you want.

We stayed in touch for a while. We would write emails, often video chat, and sometimes receive phone calls. But all that stopped three months ago. I couldn't handle the pain much longer, we were torturing each other. So I unplugged my computer and cut off my phone line. My life hasn't been the same since. It seems to be a void that I'm just traveling through, wasting away in the emptiness.

I loved him. He loved me. But his dream was more important, to the both of us. The fact that we let for years go is heartbreaking, it leaves an ache in my chest that spreads through my stomach-but it was for the best. We both knew he couldn't get big in Miami.

I let my mind wonder, drifting back to bitter sweet memories that are so old but yet so vivid- ice clear in my brain. My eyes get taken off the side walk and they gaze back to the good times. I no longer have any knowledge of where I'm going or who I even am. I let my emotions get the best of me as I think of myself when I was Austin Moon's shy songwriter and that small smile that comes less often now, arises on my face.

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by

'Cause you know I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you

Tonight

If I could fall endlessly, just lose all control of my body, and let it float into the sky while I become one with a cloud if time would pass. As my body went go limp and the wind would become the steering wheel in my life, would days go by as seconds? Or years go by as minutes? Would time go by faster as the chances to see him again greatly increases with each blink of an eye?

I wish that was possible. I wish I knew where Austin was, which country, state, city, anything to give me a clue to where he might be located. I would walk a thousand miles to see him. Even If it was only a glimpse, it would make this freezing lonely night whole again. But I would probably annoy him; become a burden like I was before he left. Maybe I'm the real reason why he left- just to get away from me.

It's always times like these

When I think of you

And I wonder

If you ever

Think of me

It's always after those long, stressful days that I think of him. It's always the time when I feel the most alone, isolated from the rest of the world, when I miss him most. Those images of him with his straggled bleach blonde hair that matches the color of the sun and his brown eyes that burn a whole through your heart if you bore into them for too long, are the only things that keeps me going. Seeing pictures of his million dollar grin that never ceases to free butterflies into my stomach is the encouragement I have to not give up on life- not yet anyway.

As my legs start to get tired, taking me where they want to go, me no longer having the lead, I keep thinking. I wonder if he thinks of me as often as I think of him. I wonder if the thought of me instantly lights up his day like when the full moon brings the dreadful night to life. Hope starts to flutter on the hard edges of my heart, trying to find a hole to the core of my heart. But I quickly shake the feeling and force myself to be slapped by the cold hard truth- Austin rarely, if ever, thinks of the girl he left behind four years ago.

'Cause everything's so wrong

And I don't belong

Living in your

Precious memories

When he left, my world slanted a little. Distances grew longer and the feeling of his touch, faded. Things aren't the way they should be- the silence shouldn't be this thick. Honestly, nothing's right. Nothing makes sense anymore. But nothing is all I have now.

I don't belong in his memories; I barely belong in this world. I belong in his life, surrounded by his love. I belong in his arms, safe and sound. I belong by his side, cheering him on. But all that is gone and I don't belong anywhere now. Shouldn't I be dead? (2)

'Cause I need you

And I miss you

And now I wonder...

I need him to be alive. I need him to be okay. I miss everything about him, even the way he would bother me until wits' end. I'd give it all to have it back.

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by

'Cause you know I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you

Tonight

I notice that walking makes time fly by like jets on high gear. I'd keep walking to see him, if my legs didn't give out. Maybe if my legs were stronger, I wouldn't collapse to the ground and deteriorate to nothing but bones. If Austin knew that, he'd joke around and call me a stalker but he'd understand I'd do anything to get my top goals accomplished. He knew me better than I knew myself, one of the things I loved about him.

Maybe if I spent enough time cloud watching, just peering up at the blooming sky long enough, then I could be a passenger to the moon. My boring activity would come in handy that day as I finally got the chance look over the world and see Austin again. But those crazy dreams that seem to attack when I'm the most tired, least expected, will never come true. No matter how bad I wanted to see Austin.

And I, I

Don't want to let you know

I, I

Drown in your memory

I, I

Don't want to let this go

I, I

Don't...

But I don't want Austin to see my weak side. He has seen me cry before, break down and crawl on my knees, but this would be too much. This is way worse and he'd only be frightened. So, in no way can I get Austin back.

So I guess I'll just drown in his memory. He'll eventually forget about me, if he hasn't already. I'll die in his mind and he'll be completely okay with it. Nothing gets to him like how they eat their way to me.

I'm not letting him slip anyway from my mind though. I don't care how bad it hurts or how it's no use, his well-being bounces off my heart and balances my world slightly. My grip only tightens on thin air each day, a choke hold on the memories. I don't want to let any piece of him go. Never.

Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces pass

And I'm home bound

I make my pace a little faster, almost a jog. My head swirls and the dizziness brings me back to reality. I look around and I realize I have already passed my apartment plaza where I spend about one hour there a day. The ragged halls and ripped sheets send an eerie message. I'm confused at where my legs have taken me. The place looks familiar as if I treasured the sight.

Then it hits me, I'm at the mall. I'm standing in front of the pond where I spent most nights just overwhelmed by the stars at create magical patterns. I would write hear all the time, songs for me and some for Austin. I whip my head to the left and I see Sonic Boom. The store my dad used to own, the store I spent my afternoons working, the store where I met Austin when I was fifteen. Dad sold it two and half years ago due to finance problems. I was so upset, I haven't been back since.

In a blink of an eye, my teenage years travel back to me, as if telepathy transported me there. I relive all the fun times I had, the best years of my life. But I especially cherish the moments spent with the person that changed my life. All the times I enjoyed and never wanted to end, come back but only for a short minute before I see someone standing ahead of me. The figure was here long before I was and their back is to me. Their tall and not-so-lanky body hasn't noticed me yet but I know that blonde hair all too well.

Staring blankly ahead

Just making my way

Making a way

Through the crowd

I stare ahead of me, awestruck. The person in front of me can't be true. His eyes are glued to the pond water, truly mesmerized. It feels like boulders are blocking me and I can't get through the frozen air. My legs stiffen, enables me to walk. Suddenly the hope that vanished four years ago, floods back like a dam that broke after ten years.

And I still need you

And I still miss you

And now I wonder...

I miss him so much this must be a hallucination. I need him and he's here but I can't believe it. I wonder why he came back. I slowly go to take a step forward, my heart trapped in my throat no longer beating, but I stumble. I trip over my own feet, but stand up- catching myself just in time. Thankfully I didn't fall face first like the clumsy me usually would.

The figure turns around sharply; obviously shocked that he wasn't alone. His eyes dart directly to me and I gasp. It really his him, the same way he looked four years ago. His features make me take a step back, absorbing it all in for the first time in what seems life forever.

"Ally?" He asks, almost disbelieving it's really me.

"Austin?" I mimic just to make sure it's him. He faces breaks out in the contagious smile that only I could see. All the other smiles plastered on poster would fake, forced to be there. But this smile, showing all teeth, in genuine.

He runs to me, picking me up and twirling me around. His arms only got buffer and his touch only got warmer. I've missed this. The only thing that was holding me by a thread was him and now he is back. All my senses are alive again, no longer dull. I'm happy. If he leaves again, I'll be disappointed but satisfied that I got see him, touch him one more time.

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass us by

'Cause you know I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you...

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by

'Cause you know I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you

If I could

Just hold you

Tonight

"What are you doing here?" I ask, barely getting the words out. My throat still clogged, slowly finds air.

"I came looking for you, Ally." He snorts like it's obviously. Before I can say anything back, Austin is in front of me in a matter of seconds, mouth open to speak again.

"When you stopped answering my emails 3 months ago and your phone said it was out of service, I panicked. Those messages were the only things that kept me going. Without them I was a mess. Don't you know you are the whole reason why I'm even doing this? So when you cut off any communication with me, I was lost. Why did you stop? Do you not feel the same way anymore?" Austin rambles on, completely unaware of his rambling and the tears swelling in his eyes. He looks down, more interested in his exotic blue shoes than anything else right now. His hands find a way to the back of his neck, rubbing them nervously. Blush is obviously painted on his cheeks; realization hit him that he just poured his heart out to me.

I tilt his chin up wards, so his eyes meet directly at mine. It's time for him to know the truth. "Austin, the only reason I did it was because I was hurting. It was torture talking to you every day but not being able to reach out and touch you. Not having you physically here broke me. My heart ached all the time. My mind was racked of nothing but you. I'm not the same anymore. Not having you here as nearly killed me." By now, I was crying. Tears were streaming down my face as I let all my emotions out. Austin kept holding me, shushing me every so often as he wailed too.

"Austin, I love you. But if you're just going to leave again, wait a day. I need as much time with you as I can. This one might hit me really hard." I mumble into his shirt, not sure if he heard me. I need him too hold me as long as possible, even if I have to beg for it.

"Ally, don't you get it? I came back so I could be with you. The only reason why I was gone so long was to get all the work I needed done, so they could sign me and I could get back to you as quick as possible. Ally, I'm not leaving you again and there is no way in hell that you're escaping my grip again. I'm done, they signed me. So when I go on tour, you're coming with me. All this was for you. For us." He admits into my hair. My heart bursts out of my chest, full of energy and love. My old habits of only seeing the bad side disappear as the cheery me comes out again. Austin is never going to leave me again, he means it.

"You didn't forget about me?' I choke out, afraid f the answer. But I had to know, it was irking me.

"Ally, how could I forget about somebody as beautiful and talented as you that completely changed my life for the better? Missing you was the worst thing I have ever experienced in my life. There had been times where I wouldn't sleep for weeks because you were the only thing in my mind. When I was recording, I would break away from my song and just start singing your name without even realizing it. It has been like a black hole in my heart, but I kept going so our dreams could come true. So that we could finally be happy."

I kiss him as soon as he finishes. His speech means everything to me. By the look in his eyes, you can spot that he was solemnly telling the truth. The guy I feel in love with is back with me again. Our kiss is so powerful, fireworks can't even describe it. It's so enticing and long awaited, it's a taste of heaven. As we continue to kiss, teasing each other playfully by biting each other's lip like we used to when we were teens, I falling hopeless back to the same happiness I was always in with him. Finally, I'm whole again. Not a piece is missing of Ally Dawson anymore. Austin says our dreams will finally come true, being able to have our music explored and downloaded by millions. But my dreams have already come true, just now.

Took me a long time. Kind of long, hope you liked it.

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~BrandyyElizabeth