Chapter 4

EPOV

"So you're the douche that thinks you can take my girl!?"

I was momentarily stunned as I was met with a vicious glare, coming from none other than Jacob Black. Who was at the moment yanking me up by my shirt. I'd never met this guy before, but anyone could recognize him. He was the giant's star player and Bella Swan's boyfriend.

I yanked my shirt away from his grasp.

"Look, you have it all wrong."

"Do I!?" he said as he stepped closer and shoved a picture from last night in front of my face, when I had stopped Bella from falling.

"Really, you do. I'm only taking Alice's job temporarily, while she's on maternity leave. That picture was taken last night, somebody shoved her and she was about to fall. I couldn't just let it happen, if I could help it." I said in a calm but stern voice. I wasn't about to push this in to a full out fight in the middle of the street, specially with my boss's boyfriend.

"Look, I've heard every fucking excuse from guys so they can tap that. You might be working for her now so you have the upper hand, but I swear you better watch yourself. Unless of course you want to wake up very confused and bloody in a ditch in Nevada. I would stay away." he said in a menacing voice, at this point I didn't even care that he was Bella's boyfriend. I stepped closer giving him a death glare, I was ready to tell this asshole to go to hell. But then a thought flashed across my mind. School. Need money. Can't loose this job. I bit back the vile rising in my throat.

"I'm not going to stay away. I need this job and as long as I'm not doing anything wrong , I don't need your threats. You ether believe me or you don't, I honestly don't care." I said as calmly as I could manage, holding back everything I actually wanted to say. We glared at each other for what seemed like an eternity.

"Fine. But just watch your back. Don't say I didn't warn you." he said as he started walking backwards not taking his glare off of me. "because that in there," he said pointing towards the building. "is Mine!" he barked as he turned around and walked away.

Just then the lightning that had been threatening lit up the sky along with thunder, and then the downpour started.

I was left standing there in the rain, fuming. I was still processing what had just happened, all I knew was that I hated Jacob Black.

BPOV

"it was NOT Roberto Cavalli! Please tell me it wasn't Roberto Cavalli!" Alice screamed desperately.

"but, I'm afraid it was." I said with a shrug.

"The dress was a pale yellow. One of a kind Roberto had said. Made from this rare fabric from Egypt, rumored to have only been worn by Cleopatra herself. Roberto had said there would never be another one like it. Long story short. I put it on for an outdoor shoot, then tripped and fell in a mud pile. Now it just kinda looks like one those rags you use to clean your car... do you know witch ones I'm talking about?" I said with a grin.

"Ahhh! NO! Take it back! Tell me that your lying! Tell me that never happened!" she screamed as she covered her ears childishly, making my grin widen.

"Nope, nothing but fact."

"Oh god! I promise I won't wake you up by dumping water on your face again! Just stop torturing me with your stories from hell!" she screamed and sank back on the couch in my dressing room.

"Good."

Like I had told Edward last night, this morning had been torture to wake up to.

Flasback

"Oh Bella! It's time to wake up sleeping beauty!" I heard Alice's song like, but booming voice in my ear.

"ugh, 5 mo minutes." I slurred, as I turned face down on my pillow and grabbed the one besides me to cover my ears. I had been out kind of late with Edward last night, I was not in the mood to wake up at 5 this morning. I honestly didn't know how Alice was so full of energy, soo early in the morning...every morning.

"Bella, I'm going to drag you off the bed if you don't get up!" I heard Alice's voice through the Pillow, but I didn't move.

Suddenly I felt the covers being yanked off my bed, but I wasn't really cold anyway.

"that's it!" she yelled and suddenly yanked off the pillow that was covering my ears too.

"Bella GET UP!"

"just say I'm sick or something" I slurred, but I remained unmoving.

"Bella if you don't get up, I'm dumping water on your face!" she threatened, because I always kept a pitcher of ice water and a glass next to my bed. For some reason, I always got really thirsty at night. But she wouldn't....right? As the thought crossed my mind, my breath was taken away from the shock of the ice water that was thrown on my face. I automatically sat up gasping, I looked at Alice and she looked like a deer caught in the headlights. I gave her the most menacing glare I could conjure.

"AHHHHHH!!!!" she yelped as she ran away from me.

"You can't run away from me forever Alice!" I yelled as I ran after her

"Ahhh! Don't touch! I'm with child! Jasper will kill you!" she yelled as she ran out of my room. I was obviously not going to hurt her. As soon as she stepped out of my door, I slammed it shut and locked it. Then I went and threw myself back on the bed.

Ring ring ring

I groaned and rolled over to answered the phone.

"Hello?"

"Bella. Get up." I heard Alice's voice from the other line. I groaned once again and hung up. Who was I kidding? I was shivering from the ice water and after all of that, who could sleep? I reluctantly got up and went to get in the shower.

I would get Alice back for the ice water somehow...

End of flashback

I threw on some jeans, flats and a black t shirt. Today was one of those rare days. When I only had a shoot In the morning, and the rest of the day to myself. I was going to spend it with Alice, hanging out just the two of us. Nothing work related.

"you done?" she asked walking back in to my dressing room. Just then I heard the crack of thunder outside. 'oh great, rain' I thought sarcastically.

"yeah" I answered, rain or no rain. Today was my day off, I was going to enjoy it.

We were about to walk outside, when Jacob burst in with a huge grin. Something about his expression was off though, but I couldn't pin point it. Ether way I just glared at him, I was still mad that he just blew me off last night. Specially since we're both always working, you'd think he would miss me instead of 'the boys' who he sees all the time.

"what's up shawty!?" he said raising his hand up for a high five for Alice. Alice just rolled her eyes and ignored him, for some reason they had never really gotten along.

"now that just hurts, specially from you" he said with a fake pout.

"oh shut it Jacob"

"okay okay, whatever thumbalina"

"don't call her that Jacob" I said sternly, keeping the glare.

"wow wow, what did I do to you?"

"oh you know what you did! You blew me off last night."

"I did not blow you off, I simply re-scheduled"

"no matter what you call it, I'm still pissed at you okay?"

"I'll wait for you in the car Bella." Alice said awkwardly, before slipping away.

"Bella stop being so difficult, I'm here to apologize okay."

"I am not being difficult" I said defensively

"Okay fine whatever you're not. Still, I'm here to apologize."

"no don't say 'fine whatever' your just trying to shut me up now"

"then do you want me to say your being difficult, and that this is a really good example of that"

"no." I frowned and looked away, not wanting to meet his gaze.

I suddenly felt his warm fingertip smoothing out the crease in my forehead from frowning. Then he pulled me to his chest and sighed deeply.

"Look, I'm sorry okay. I'm sorry that I'm such an ass, and that peer pressure got to me last night. When all I wanted to do was be with my favorite girl. I really hope you can forgive me. By the way, I got you something." he said as he pulled out a diamond encrusted star shaped charm, from his pocket.

"ugh..thanks but I'm not really in to charm bracelets"

"I know, but I have a feeling someone else might like it." he said with a knowing smile.

"um, okay?" I said completely confused

"Alright, well I'll see you around baby. I really hope you give me a call tonight, I'll be thinking of you." He said before he kissed me on the lips quickly and headed out the door.

I got in the limo, and Alice was talking on the phone.

"yes, I know Jazz. It's just that I had kinda already made plans with Bella."

"Yeah I know they're only in town for two days"

"yeah I know they came to see me"

"But Jaaaazzz..." I heard her whine

"ugh, okay fine. Bye......I love you too." she said before she shut the phone.

"Bella!" she said with a wide creepy smile

"ugh, Alice!?"

"Hunn, you know how I promised we could hang out today?" she said with sad looking eyes.

"yeah...." I answered, I kinda already knew where this was going.

"well, Jazz's parents came in to town to see me and how the baby is doing and stuff....So Jazz wanted me to come home and spend the day with them...sooo I can't hang out today..." she said with an apologetic look.

At her words, any hopes of a fun day with my best friend I had came crashing down. I understood though, she had her own family that she needed to be with.

"oh, yeah sure. That's fine. You go ahead and have fun, call me and tell me how it goes." I said, trying really hard to hide the disappointment in my voice.

"thanks, and I'm really sorry Bells."

"nah, don't even worry about it." I said and gave her a reassuring smile.

We drove up to her mansion like home in the outskirts of the city. It was an enormous house surrounded by tons of trees. Jasper was a software engineer, witch meant he made a lot of money. Alice really never even had to work, she just always wanted to. I always secretly envied Alice's life just a little. I mean I was extremely happy for her, beyond words. But on the other hand, since I was a little girl I had always dreamed of finding my perfect love, getting married, living in a big house and have a baby. Although she was just 23, only two years older than me and she had gone through all the steps pretty quickly. I don't think she'd have it any other way, she was happy.

The driver came around and opened the door for her.

"Alright Bella boo, I'll see you soon. Don't get too wild and drunk without me now" she said with a giggle before giving me a hug.

"Don't worry I'll make sure I only get a little wild and drunk, nothing major" I said teasingly, as I hugged her back.

"okay, well bye. I'll call you later."

"bye Alice" and with that she went up her front steps and stepped in to her house.

Lenny rolled down the window between us

"So, where to Miss. Bella?"

I thought about that, I could go home and dwell on having no one to hang out with me. Or I could try to do something I like by myself. What did I like? Well I loved to read, and my copy of weathering heights was getting pretty beat up. I could stop by a book store? Yeah that would be nice.

"To Barns and Noble"

"alright"

When I got there, I was surprised to see there was already paparazzi trying to take pictures of whoever was already inside. Weird though, last time I checked not many celebrates hung out at book stores on weekends.

I walked in, and saw the many isles of books of different genres. I was kind of excited, I hadn't had the time to go in to a book store in too long. I loved books, the way they just seemed to transport you in to a different world. When I was younger, it was my only escape when I felt like my world was crashing down. I automatically pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind, I didn't let myself think about my past ever.

I started walking through the store. I was in the mood for a love story, I know cheesy but I needed it. Since my life lacks in the cheesy love story department. Then I thought about Jacob, was he really sorry? Or was he just saying it to get me off his back, so we could sleep together again? Sometimes I felt like he was putting on a show for every one else, but he didn't actually care about me. But other times, he could be incredibly sweet and it felt like he was the old Jacob that I had met when I had just moved to New York. I was extremely confused, but I always was I guess.

I walked toward the end of the shelf to read the back of a book that caught my eye

"no, I don't want that one." I heard a female voice coming from the next isle, for some reason it sounded familiar.

"Can't you just find me one that tells me how to fix the songs and stuff, that's actually easy to understand." and that's when the imaginary light bulb in my head went off, of course it was Rosalie Cullen. Hence the paparazzi outside.

"How about itunes for Dummies?" I heard a velvet smooth voice say, and automatically an involuntary a smile appeared on my lips, Edward.

I don't know what made me do it, but I walked over to the other side of the shelf. Sure enough, Rosalie was standing there with Edward as he held up the itunes for Dummies book in his hand. I suddenly regretted not looking the other way and walking out of the store, he was probably going to think I was following him or something. He didn't even start working for me until a few more days and I was already invading his life.

"Nice Edward, very nice. You know I only asked you to come with me because your the biggest nerd I could find. But If I would have known you were going to be an idiot about it, I could have asked someone else." she practically yelled at him, when her eyes spotted me behind him.

"oh look what the cat dragged in." she said as she narrowing her eyes at me. Edward turned around at her words, and spotted me too. A smile automatically played on his lips. Then another emotion In his eyes, I couldn't make out though. It almost looked like sadness.

"Hey Edward" I said with a smile, completely ignoring Rosalie's comment.

"Hey Bella, what are you doing here? Stalking me again?" he said with a smirk, I knew he was joking.

"Oh my god! You knew? I thought I was being subtle about it..." I said with mock worry, witch just made him laugh. "Actually no, sorry Eddie. I was just here to grab a book. What about you?"

"Just trying to help Rose find a book on how to work itunes." he said as we both turned around to see Rosalie completely engrossed in the itunes for Dummies book. She looked up as she noticed we were looking at her.

"oh, ugh. I'm gonna take this one." she said kind of embarrassed before she walked away to look at other books.

"okay....So any book get your attention yet?" he asked looking at me again

"not really. I'm more in to the classics anyway."

"really? like what?"

"oh you know Withering Heights, Romeo and Juliet, Pride and Prejudice that kind of stuff." I said, usually most people thought that was weird.

"oh that's cool" he said casually, really?

"really? Most people find that strange."

"no really, I like the classics too"

"oh, in that case we should start a book club" I said teasingly again

"ugh, sorry I'm already part of Oprah's. Thanks for the offer though." he said playing along, I just rolled my eyes.

"oh my god! Look Edward! They have Manicures for Dummies and Cooking for Dummies!" Rosalie came back to say excitedly.

"yeah they put them all out here because they knew you were coming"

"you know it's too bad they don't make how to not be such a loser for Dummies. That could help you out big time." she said before walking away again. Edward just pinched the bridge of his nose and nodded his head.

"well...she looks excited." I said

"yeah, she does. You would be too if you found a whole series of books made for you"

"true."

"Anyways, what are you doing after this?" I asked, I still didn't have anything to do. It was after all my day off and I was determined to make the best of it. Besides, I liked hanging out with Edward.

"not much, why?"

"well I have the rest of the day off, I was wondering if you wanted to hang out?" I asked, I felt kind of awkward asking him. It almost felt like I was asking him out on a date or something.

He looked at me for a second and then down at his feet, almost as if he was hesitating.

Then I realized what was going on, he was about to reject me. I looked down as I waited for his answer.

"oh, umm...I'm sorry I forgot I have to catch up on a lot of school work. I don't think I can..."

I wasn't prepared for the pull at my heart I felt when he said that, I didn't get it ether. The guy just works for me and he's busy today, that's it. It wasn't a date or anything and since I've only know him for a couple of days, it's not like he even considers me his friend. It's not like I should ether, besides I have a boyfriend, and again HE WORKS FOR ME!. I quickly shoved all those thoughts back.

"oh, yeah okay. That's fine....Hey umm...I've got to go. I'll see you around Edward." I said quickly, I just wanted to get out of here. I walked away before he had a chance to say anything else.

It was pouring rain outside, by the time I slipped into the limo my hair was soaking wet and my t-shirt was stuck to me.

"now where Miss. Bella?" I heard Lenny say even though I was starring out the window, in some sort of thinking trance.

"home." I said, feeling a little defeated.

I unlocked my apartment and walked inside. It was quiet and it was freezing. I went to turn on the heater, before I just went to sit on my couch. It was completely quiet, what could I do? I usually only got to my apartment at night to sleep. I don't know what I was suppose to do by myself during the day. I got up and went to my room to shower I was still soggy from the rain. I walked in to my bathroom and undressed before I turned on the hot water. Soon the bathroom was filled with steam and I stepped in.

Once I was done, I wrapped a towel around myself and went in to my closet. Luckily by the time I was out of the shower the apartment had warmed up. I walked over to the many pink boxes full of new underwear and bras, one perk about working for VS. You never have to buy underwear again. I grabbed a random white bra and pink boy short panties from the top of the pile. After that I just threw on an over sized sweatshirt and fuzzy socks, before heading back in to my living room. I walked over to my balcony window, I opened the curtain to let light in. I never really had time to enjoy it but my apartment actually had a great view. Even though it looked crazy outside, lightning thunder and pouring rain. I could still see the statue of liberty and some of the taller buildings, almost like a postcard outside my window.

Knock Knock Knock

I was snapped back in to reality by the knock at the door.

I went to get the door, when I opened it I found a large box in my door step. I looked out in to the hall, but no one was there. I grabbed the box and went back in to my apartment. I set the box on the coffee table and sat in front of it on my sofa. It was a regular brown box sealed up with tape, but it had a few holes at the top not big enough to see inside of though. What could it be?

Then my mind for some reason went back to Eagle Eye, that movie with Shia Labauf. After watching it I was so paranoid I didn't even want to turn my phone back on. It all started with a mysterious package for him too...then BAM! he's been activated. Just as all the possibilities ran through my head the box actually moved. My eyes automatically bugged out, maybe I'm freaking my self out and now I'm seeing things...yeah that had to be it. Just then the box moved again. This time it was obvious it moved, I couldn't have imagined it. I decided to put the box back out on my door step, I picked the box up again and this time it felt like something slid to one side because the weight was transferred to only one side. The curiosity was killing me, after all I could call the cops if it's something bad...right?

I set the box down on the floor again, then I knelt next to it. I slowly and hesitantly started ripping of the tape from the sides of the box. I was about to rip off the last peace and chickened out, I stood up and went to my phone. I could call someone to come pick it up instead. I grabbed the phone, I was about to dial the number but instead I put it back. I needed to know what was in the box. I walked over to it again, this time I'm gonna do it. I slowly lifted the last peace of tape off and started pulling up the sides.

When I finally opened it, my eyes widened in shock. Inside there was a pink blanket and wrapped up in it was a little white puppy. It's big brown eyes staring back at me, it was the most adorable thing I had ever seen. I reached in and picked it up, it looked scared for some reason.

"aww, it's okay" I cooed as I held it closer to my chest.

Just then I noticed there was a note stuck to inside of the box, I ripped it off and read it.

I know you're still mad, but I thought this might help

the only thing I could find that was as cute as you.

p.s I hope you still have that charm, because she loves diamonds.

-love Jake

I was so touched I didn't even mind that he sort of compared me to a dog. Although he was trying to get back on my good side with gifts, I think he was really trying. Plus this puppy was too adorable to deny.

I picked up my new puppy and carried it to the living room

"I'm gonna put you here while I call Jacob, okay" I said, before I put her down on the couch surrounded by pillows.

I dialed his number

"Hello?" I heard his husky voice coming from the other line, what was he doing?

"Hey, Jake. I got your present" I said

"Oh! Ugh... Bella. Yeah yeah, the present. So did you like it?" why did he sound so distracted?

"Yeah, I love it... So where are you?" I asked with a little more edge to my voice.

"oh, I'm just here at a friend's house." he said before he cleared his throat

"and what were you doing? You sound strained"

"we were just, you know working out and stuff." he answered automatically, but I honestly wasn't buying any of it.

"right...so did you want to do anything later?" I asked, still confused about why he was acting so weird.

"sure, sure. Do you want me to pick you up at 6?" he asked, I looked at the clock in the kitchen. It was 4:30 now.

"yeah, that'll be great"

"als.." I started but the line went dead. I was going to tell him to pick up food for the puppy, but he just hung up.

I was about to go pick up the puppy to take her to my room wile I got ready, but I saw she was already sleeping on the couch so I left her.

I walked in to my room and went in to my closet, I picked out a simple black dress that went up to mid thigh. Then I threw on gray coat and some black patent leather pumps, Alice always told me they were her favorite and Alice always knew what she was talking about.

Then I walked in to my bathroom and pined my hair up in a loose low bun with curls slipping out every so often. For makeup I didn't do much, just powder and some black liner on my top lash line along with mascara. I was probably totally lame but I was trying to go for that Audrey Hepburn look.

I was done getting ready by 5:30 so I went to sit on the couch again with my puppy. As soon a I sat down she woke up and started walking up to me. Then she put her two front paws on my leg to help her stand up and she looked at me and wagged her tail. Honestly she was too cute for her own good. I still needed to name her.

"what am I gonna name you? any ideas?" I asked her but she remained in the same position just looking at me excitedly. I tapped my chin, and thought

"how about Juliet? Like the main character from one of my favorite books."

"do you like it?" I asked, and I don't know if she actually knew what I was saying but she started wagging her little tail faster and looked like she was trying to climb up to my lap.

"I'm guessing that's a yes then. Juliet it is." I said as I picked her up and put her on my lap, just then the phone rang. I stood up and set her on the floor, as I watched her run as fast as her tiny legs would carry her off in to my room. I walked over to my phone and answered.

"Hello?"

"Hey Bella, ugh babe I'm sorry but I'm not going to be able to make it tonight."

"what!?" I asked, was he really doing this again?

"Bella don't over react, I just have a meeting tonight alright?"

"Jake, if you had a meeting why did you even agree to go out with me?"

"because i forgot! Damn Bella. Just get over it okay." he said harshly, I didn't even wait for any more of his stupid excuses, I just hung up. As soon as I hung the phone up, the tears started streaming down my cheeks. Why did I always let him get to me? Why was I so stupid?

I went to sit on one of dinning room chairs and just lay my head down on top of my arms. I hated feeling depressed or vulnerable because it felt too much like before. Before I came to New York to start my life over, those emotions where the only ones I knew. I promised myself that coming here meant that I was leaving all that behind.

Somehow when I had found Jacob, he had managed to make me feel alive again. Yet now he's the person who's bringing me back down.

Flashback

New York was so different from Forks, I didn't get anything here. I finally managed to get an apartment on the east side of town. It was small dirty and ugly, but it's a start I guess. My neighbor is really nice though, he's 18 like me. He's always talking about how he's going to get recruited to play for the Giants, I don't believe him though. I don't know a lot about sports, but don't you have to be like extremely extremely good to play for a professional football team? And don't they pick them out from like college football. I mean you would seriously have to be like crazy good for them to just pick you out from nowhere. Ether way, he's a really cool guy and he's funny. Over the short time that I'd known him I could easily say that he was like my best friend.

I walked out of Macy's department store, I had just turned in an application to work there. One out of probably thousands by now. I always got turned down because they said I needed more experience, but how the heck was I suppose to get experience if no one hires me.

I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. I stood there and looked around trying to figure out if I had missed any stores where I could apply. Just then I spotted a man a across the street, staring intently at me. I automatically felt myself blush, it was an annoying trait. Whenever I'd get even slightly embarrassed I get beat red, I mean what was that about? I tried to ignore the man who was quite obviously staring at me. When out of the corner of my eye I saw him walking towards me. I suddenly panicked, what was I suppose to do if he approached me? What if he was out to get me or something?

Just as the thought struck me, I felt someone tap my shoulder witch in turn made me jump.

"I'm sorry to bother you miss" he said politely so I turned around and smiled shyly at him.

"I was wondering, have you ever considered modeling?" HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA! In my head I burst out laughing trust me. Was he serious? Or was this a pick up line or something?

"ugh, no." I said flatly.

"well, I think you might have what it takes. Here's our card down at Ford Models, give us a call or come down for a test shoot. I hope you consider it."

he said before walking away, leaving me with his card in complete shock. Wow, was this real? Or some kind of sick joke. I looked down at the card in my hand

'Ford Models Agency' was indeed written at the top. Then I looked at the address, it was not far from here. Luckily because I was out of money for another cab.

I arrived to find a huge building, at the same time I noticed a girl that looked around my age was walking in. I ran up to her.

"hey, um I'm sorry to bother you but I was wondering. Is this a real modeling agency?" I asked her pointing to the building. She laughed

"ugh, yea you could say that. Ford Models is one of the top Modeling agencies in the industry, I've been working my ass off to even get a test shoot with them. That's why I'm here." she said proudly. Witch made me remember, I already had a test shoot with them if I wanted it.

"oh, okay thanks."

"yeah no problem" she said before continuing on her way inside the building.

The next day I was basically running home, to tell Jacob. I had reluctantly gone in for the test shoot. Lord knows I needed the money, and for now it had been the only job offer I had. After the shoot, the man who had found me on in front of Macy's yesterday, who I now knew as Mitchel told me the verdict. They were willing to work with me, if I wanted to do this. I agreed. Witch meant I was now actually a model, 2 days ago if someone would have told me I would have probably started laughing uncontrollably. Me a model, I was the most ordinary girl around. Even though I still believed that, somehow they saw something in me they liked and I was excited to see where this new route took me in life.

I ran all the way upstairs and knocked excitedly on Jacob's door. He opened it and smiled down at me

"Jake, you are not going to believe this!"

"what?" he asked perplexed

"I got a job!"

"oh my god, that's great Bella. Where?"

"at Ford Models Agency. I'm a freaking model now!" I said excitedly

"wow! This is for real?" he asked looking just as shocked as I had been.

"yeah! I don't know what they see ether. But this is for real."

I was shocked when he wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me up in hug

"I'm so proud of you Bella, and I know what they see..." he said as he hugged me.

When he finally set me down he was looking right in to my eyes. It almost felt like he had locked his gaze to mine. Then he did something that shocked me even more, he kissed me. Sure I was 18, but I wasn't exactly what you would call cool or popular so this was my first kiss. It felt nice, it wasn't fireworks kind of good, but I had nothing to compare with. Maybe all those books had been lying,and no one actually felt fireworks when they kissed... yeah that was probably it. I mean, I had never really had any friends much less a boyfriend and Jacob was nice to me and he made me feel like he actually cared. This could work out, I thought as I settled in to the kiss.

End of Flashback

The tears continued to run down my face. Did he ever even love me? Did I ever love him? I thought about that, but I honestly didn't know...maybe I had been hurt so much in the past and he had been the first person to make me feel safe. Maybe that was it, so did that make this all my fault?

I hit my forehead on the table, why was everything so confusing!?

Was he right? Did I really just need to get over this? Maybe I was making a bigger deal about this than I needed to. I hated overly dramatic people and now I was turning in to one!

I looked up to see Juliet looking up at me intently

"what am I suppose to do Juliet?" I asked her confused. Of course when times get tough, ask your dog for advice; brilliant.

Just then I heard a knock coming from the door

Knock knock knock

"who could that be Juliet?" I asked my puppy, who looked just as confused about the noise as I was about who it could be.

I stood up and wiped my eyes, I probably looked horrible, my eyes had a tendency to get puffy and red when I cried along with my nose witch also got red. I probably looked like Rudolf and it was a little early for Christmas. But I ignored it and went to open the door.

When I opened the door I was shocked to see none other than Edward, looking kind of nervous. I was surprised by the way it felt like my recently aching heart felt relief at the sight of him. What did I feel for Edward? Oh no! Here we go again with the confusing question to myself... I have no answers so stop asking self!

"I... ugh... Alice told me your address" he said still looking down.


A/N: hey guys, I know I promised a double update but I figured a long chapter is basically the same thing, this one was the longest one I've written yet so yeah I really hope you enjoyed it! :)

Omg thank you guys so so so so much! For all your support. Every review makes my day I swear :)

I want to give a special shout out to Jackie, thank you so much for reviewing. I know how difficult it is when you have to go through something difficult like you did. I personally had a surgery this past summer, so I know what you're going through. I wish you the best of luck with your recovery, and I'm so glad you enjoy reading my story :)

I'm going to try to keep this short because it is Christmas eve and I have to finish getting ready for our family dinner. I hope everyone is having an amazing holiday, no matter what you celebrate, I hope you are enjoying time with your family and having a wonderful time.

Thanks for reading! Love you guys.

-Melody

Don't forget to review!!

Once I get 10 more reviews,

I will update again the next day! :)

so if I get 10 tonight, I'll update tomorrow lol