Title: Heal Me
Music: Theme of Mitsuha (From Your Name) or Without Me by Halsey
Inspiration: Your Name
Summary: The world is ending and everything is silent. People are vanishing, fading into nothingness. Estranged for over a decade, Naruto and Sakura reconnect over the loss of their family, friends and their lost love. Mainly NaruSaku with specks of NH and SS.
Heal Me
The Red String of Fate
The boy didn't believe it so the old man took him into the village and pointed out the young girl that was destined to be his wife.
The boy became angry as he was really young and did not plan on ever getting married. He picked up a rock and threw it at the girl and ran away from the whole scene as fast as he could.
Sakura
We left the Wave Village and took a boat to the sea. We didn't have a destination, just going wherever life took us. It was a small boat with a sail and one room for us to sleep. We took as much food as we could from the houses in the village and went on our journey. It was underneath the stars where our demons emerged…
Night had fallen and the boat danced with the waves as they sailed the sea. It's been two weeks since they left the land. She was nestled in the small hammock on the deck watching the stars. She sighed, looking at the stars sadly. Naruto hadn't spoken to her since they left the land. It was like he was avoiding her at all cost. He only greeted her with a good morning or good night. She felt an immense sadness at his avoidance. She rolled to her side, tears pricking at the side of her eyes.
"Will you stay by my side? Quietly, in the gaps in our passion," Sakura sang softly. "I always lose sight of the comfort beyond the tragedy. I pick up the shrinking shards of love. Gathering one and then two. Because just wishing I could see you makes me cry so much...my love."
She took a deep breath unaware of the presence behind her.
"Sighs spill out, floating in the night sky. Please stay with me. I know you're holding back your emotions. But please don't become curt because words eventually become the truth. I can't hear pride or talent. It can't end up as anything but a dream. Tell me one thing and then two. If I say I miss you. Will that hurt you? Though I'm crying...my love. Each misunderstanding makes me love you more. Please stay with me. I want to know more. I want to hear your voice. I want to cry. I don't know what to do. I'm weak, huh?"
"Why didn't you choose me?" a voice said, startling her.
Sakura sat up and turned to Naruto who had a serious expression on his face. "What do you mean?" Sakura asked, her heart beating wildly.
"Why did you choose Sasuke and not me?" Naruto repeated, his blue eyes boring into her. Sakura felt pressured under his gaze. She felt...unworthy and weak. She didn't want him to see her like that so like a snake she lashed out.
"Why was I a prize in your rivalry with Sasuke?" Sakura snapped, glaring at Naruto.
Naruto spluttered.
"You don't get the right to ask me something like that after your confession." Sakura hissed, turning away from him.
"You're a horrible woman, Sakura," Naruto growled, his hand bawling into a fist. "I put my heart out there for you, I almost died for you, I protected you and then you lied to me. Telling me "you love me" back then knowing that you loved Sasuke. Was I just a pawn for you?!"
"NO!" Sakura turned to him, her eyes flashing with anger. "Don't you see I did that for you?! You were running yourself ragged trying to get Sasuke back and I didn't want you to hurt anymore! I made you that stupid promise and you nearly died because of me so many times!"
Naruto's eyes flashed between red and blue. "You wanted to help me but still ended up hurting me." Naruto spat, glaring at her.
"I'm sorry alright! IM SORRY!" Sakura cried, holding her head.
"You hit me, insulted me, made me feel less than a person all because of Sasuke!" Naruto hissed, "Well guess what Sakura. He was NEVER around for you. You raised Sarada all alone while I had my wife, my kids and we were happy while you remained…..you."
Sakura bent over, hands over her ears as she was forced to face her sins. She could feel every negative feeling she tried to suppress pounce on her battered mind. Tears were already streaming down her cheeks, decorating the floorboards.
"At least Hinata chose ME. The loser you never wanted. She chose me and gave me a family!" Naruto yelled.
She started to laugh, she couldn't help herself. "And where is she now?" Sakura sneered, making Naruto lean back as if he was slapped.
"She's more than you will ever be."
She looked at him with wide eyes. Her insecurities were rearing it's ugly head again. She looked down and smiled sadly."You're so cruel Naruto…" she whispered, "I never thought you of all people could be so cruel." She looked up at him with a resigned smile. "Congratulations, you've official broken Sakura Uchiha…."
She got up and passed him without so much as a glance. This only proved that she didn't deserve him and that she deserves all that he did to her. She was a horrible person and she didn't deserve anything good. Sasuke damaged her over the years but it was Naruto who broke her. Her heart that was barely starting heal over the years was completely shattered. She walked into the small cot they shared and closed the door behind her. She moved to the corner where her futon was set up and laid down.
When the person you love hurts you it's unbearable.
She loved him and lost him.
She was damaged beyond repair.
She would let him go.
It was time to move on.
Naruto
He avoided her. The things Inari told him were still playing in his mind. There was too much between them for him to even consider making his feelings known again. Then he heard her….
"Will you stay by my side? Quietly, in the gaps in our passion," Sakura sang softly. "I always lose sight of the comfort beyond the tragedy. I pick up the shrinking shards of love. Gathering one and then two. Because just wishing I could see you makes me cry so much...my love."
Before knew it he was already moving, thoughts rushing to his mind. He wanted to ask something he always wondered.
"No Kit, you don't want to do that," Kurama warned.
Naruto ignored him and watched as Sakura sang beautifully. There were so many things he didn't know about her that he could've known had she chosen him. Why Sasuke and not him?!
"Sighs spill out, floating in the night sky. Please stay with me. I know you're holding back your emotions. But please don't become curt because words eventually become the truth. I can't hear pride or talent. It can't end up as anything but a dream. Tell me one thing and then two. If I say I miss you. Will that hurt you? Though I'm crying...my love. Each misunderstanding makes me love you more. Please stay with me. I want to know more. I want to hear your voice. I want to cry. I don't know what to do. I'm weak, huh?"
He waited until she was finished then he spoke.
"Why didn't you choose me?" he said, startling her.
Sakura sat up and turned to him who had a serious expression on his face. "What do you mean?" Sakura asked.
"Why did you choose Sasuke and not me?" he repeated, his blue eyes boring into her. She seemed to be trying to make herself smaller, avoiding his stare but then she got that familiar flame in her eyes that he witnessed every day in his youth.
"Why was I a prize in your rivalry with Sasuke?" she snapped, glaring at him. He spluttered, unable to make a quick response.
"You don't get the right to ask me something like that after your confession." she hissed, turning away from him.
The last thing he wanted to do was get angry. All of his pent emotions were bubbling at the surface. The pain of every lost he felt, every inadequacy was targeted at Sakura. He could hear Kurama in him begging him not to ruin his chance but he didn't care. His anger consumed him and he couldn't help but lash back at her.
"You're a horrible woman, Sakura," Naruto growled, his hand bawling into a fist. "I put my heart out there for you, I almost died for you, I protected you and then you lied to me. Telling me "you love me" back then knowing that you loved Sasuke. Was I just a pawn for you?!"
"NO!" Sakura turned to him, her eyes flashing with anger. "Don't you see I did that for you?! You were running yourself ragged trying to get Sasuke back and I didn't want you to hurt anymore! I made you that stupid promise and you nearly did because of me so many times!"
She did that for him? He wanted to think more on it but his anger override all reason. Naruto's eyes flashed between red and blue. "You wanted to help me but still ended up hurting me." he spat, glaring at her.
"I'm sorry alright! IM SORRY!" she cried, holding her head. Something deep inside him wanted to run and hold her but he wanted to hurt her just as she hurt him.
"You hit me, insulted me, made me feel less than a person all because of Sasuke!" Naruto hissed, "Well guess what Sakura. He was NEVER around for you. You raised Sarada all alone while I had my wife, my kids and we were happy while you remained…..you."
He watched as she held her hands over her ears trying to block him out. She was openly weeping. Did he do this to her? Did he really set out to make her hurt just like he did? He wanted to stop but his anger lashed out once more.
"At least Hinata chose ME. The loser you never wanted. She chose me and gave me a family!" he yelled.
She started to laugh, she couldn't help herself. "And where is she now?" Sakura sneered. He flinched as if he was slapped. Tears started to form in his eyes and he said the words Sakura didn't want to hear. The words were so cold that he almost couldn't believe he said it. "She's more than you will ever be."
She looked at him with wide eyes before looking down and smiling sadly. He took deep breaths as he waited for her to speak. His anger started to wane and he unclenched his fist. He brought a hand to his mouth, realizing what he had done and said.
"You're so cruel Naruto…" she whispered, "I never thought you of all people could be so cruel." She looked up at him with a resigned smile. "Congratulations, you've official broken Sakura Uchiha…."
She left him there to stew in regret. His anger got the best of him and... he did that to Sakura. He had never seen Sakura look so...broken before.
"Shit!" Naruto cursed, holding his chest as he starts to hyperventilate. He realized he was slightly panicking and he paced the deck up and down trying to calm himself down. There was no way she would ever forgive him. He threw himself down near the hammock and cried silently. He ruined everything. He didn't listen to Inari. His emotions controlled him and now she was gone.
When you hurt someone you love it's unbearable.
He loved her and lost her.
He damaged her.
But he couldn't let her go.
He couldn't move on.
