God Only Knows
I feel so alone, can't seem to find my out of this lone? In this silent space, I close my eyes I can hear you say
No, it don't seem right
I didn't have a chance to say goodbye.
That it's alright, but my world's such an empty place tonight.
Cause I know that, it's all part of life.
I walked the streets of Ajax way too many times. I knew every street perfectly, but tonight I felt like I had no idea where I was going. I got calls from my old friends every now and then, but I never got anything from Paige. Did she move on? I'm sure she did since we haven't talked since the break up. I felt so lonely tonight and I don't know why. Maybe because when I left I didn't say goodbye to Paige. I couldn't, it just wouldn't come out of my mouth. I close my eyes and I can see her face and her telling me its ok after Chad had hurt me. She would smile and hold my hand. I opened my eyes and realized that I wasn't with her now. I was on an empty street now, there's not a soul in sight. I feel empty now. I know that this is a part of life and so far I hate my life right now.
I wish I had the chance to say goodbye, yeah I still miss you. As the time goes by, it gets a little easier to smile.
So hard to see through the tears I've cried.
Yeah, I still need you.
Cause I don't want to, if I don't have to ever let you go.
The longest I'll hold on... God only knows.
I know I'll never forget everything that you said.
You said it's alright; it's all part of life.
I wish I did say goodbye to her, even if I did I still miss her. God I miss her like hell. For the past couple of weeks I've been crying my eyes out. I try to hide it when I'm with other people, but when I'm alone I feel like the whole world is crashing down on me. I still needed her. Who knows how long I can hold on to her?
These past weeks have made it a little easier to get back on my feet, I try to smile very now and then, but it's still hard. I promised myself that I would never forget everything that she said, how she made me feel loved unlike anybody else.
God only knows how long I'll hold on.
