Title: Tears of Moonlight
Summary: He left, and everything crumbled instantly. Lenalee's heart shattered, and Lavi's emotions were shaken terribly. Kanda's thoughts were totally messed up because of him, and he swore to bring him back, even if it meant costing his life. Yullen.
Pairing: Yullen, LavixLenalee(in future chapters)
Genre: Drama/Romance
Warnings: Hurt/Comfort/Angst
Disclaimer: I do not own DGM.
Chapter3: Fallen Star
She skipped across the corridor, smiling at anyone that she had met along the way. All weird and bewildered gazes were at her, but she just replied those questions in their minds with her childish smiles. Baffled ones just froze on the spot, not knowing how to react to the Noah, while others chose to avoid the deceptive eyes and walked away, not wanting to get into any trouble.
Today, she was in a very good mood. Even she herself had no absolute reason in her mind to explain this feeling. It was like having a bubbly feel in her stomach blobbing up and down, and she felt so light that she could jump a few hundred metres with just a gentle leap.
Rhode giggled softly as she looked around the area with her sparkling eyes. Everything seemed extremely bright and shiny today. She reduced the speed of her pace as she arrived at the door. Her small tongue slightly out of her mouth, she was about to stretch her hand towards the doorknob when she stopped. Her eyes twitched upwards a little. Looking at the front of the door, she approached the door and leaned against it.
"...observe him for the moment. Tell me if there is any changes."
"Okay." She frowned. It was Lulubell. She wondered what conversation she had with the Earl. Her pondered look on her face slowly turned into a grin.
"Earl!" She opened the door and shrieked like a fangirl as she entered the room. Both Lulubell and the Earl just looked at her in slight astonishment before he just sighed and turned his attention to Lulubell.
"Do what I say. You may go." Lulubell put her hand at her chest as she took a bow before she excused herself. As the two Noahs bypassed, they just exchanged glances at each other for a second before the taller woman left the room.
"You have come."
"And why did you call me, Earl?" Rhode asked in a teasingly tone. The other just burst into chuckles, looking at her with twinkling eyes that did not seem to lose its glamour.
"Do I need a reason to ask for you, Rhode? I just want you to accompany this old man here, can't I?"
"Of course you can, Earl!" Rhode sang as she jumped next to him and gave him a big hug.
"Earl is like my father to me, so why would I refuse then?" She spoke softly into his sensitive ears, drumming her fingers lightly on his wide shoulders, sending some tickles down his skin. There was silence next as the lit candles in the room flickered momentarily, the black casts of shadows dancing silently on the plain walls. There were few windows available in this room, but was hidden by the covered darkness that seemed to be overpowering the light.
"Do you have something that you need to tell me, Earl?" Rhode asked, knowing that man inside out. The Millennium Earl did not answer, his hands constantly moving as he was knitting something with balls of threads of different colours. The movements were fast as he moved layer over layer, the threads laying on top and below one another in neat positions. His rocking chair was forever moving front and back, in constant motion.
"Is it about Allen?" She asked again. It did not matter how many replies she was going to receive. He knew, and understood completely what she was implying, and he would not reply if there was not a need to.
Rhode released the hug as she stepped backwards, till the distance between the two of them were comfortable to her. Her eyes looked straight, never left those hands which were still busily knitting away.
"Earl-tama?" The umbrella, which was gone unnoticed till now, started to speak.
"Relo? You are here?" Rhode asked, blinking at the one laying beside the Earl.
"Yes, Rhode-tama. I'm always here." It said, giving an annoyed face. The blue-haired girl just giggled more as she shook her head.
"A new member is going to join our family." She stopped as she looked at the Earl. Her gaze trailed down to those pair of rough hands. Surprisingly enough, they had stopped their work. She raised her eyebrow in amusement.
"A new member?"
"Yes, and it is time he is to return to us. His mission is finally completed." The Earl spoke, having a smile that she could not describe. It looked happy, but somehow, something dark was hidden behind that masked grin on his face.
"Who?"
"I will tell you when the time comes. But there is something which I am very concerned about..."
He was sitting in the middle of the green fields, letting the faint sunlight washed over his face. The breeze blew gently onto the wide green spread of meadows filled with all kinds of spring flowers, swaying left and right in unison. Crows croaked as they flew swiftly across the endless sky, while leaves on trees rustled noisily through the quiet afternoon, adding its song to liven up the environment.
He was wearing a dark navy-blue vest over his body, with a pair of black pants as the bottom wear. Mugen was lying silently beside him. He let out a sigh, as he slowly looked up into the white sky, witnessing time gradually slipping past him, not returning back. The raven hair was brushing irritably against his face, as he swept them aside every now and then, gazing at the nature displayed in front of him.
It was serene, filled with tranquility. This place was just too peaceful. He would not even imagine what would happen if the war was spread here in the future, but somehow, he did not like one bit.
Kanda laughed. What was he thinking? It was not his usual personality at all. He would not even care whether how many things had been sacrificed in this long bloodshed for many generations. He only cared for himself, and the rest of them were not his business. They could die whatever they wanted, and they could cry whatever they cared.
He sniffed the air, identifying a light scent coming from the flower garden. He slowly stood up, and walked towards the field, stopping at the first row of flowers lining up neatly. He then squatted down and peered at the small ones, exposing their everything to the world in front of them. As they basked in the pale sun, the tips of the petals could be seen shimmering with a pale golden light, making the whole place a little brighter than before.
Kanda's eyes widened. For the first time, he did not feel irritated. Rather, he felt a little happiness beating inside his heart, filled with anticipation and slight excitement. He slowly stood up again and closed his eyes, feeling the light touch of the wind brushed by his face and his ears.
Who are you?
His hands were clenched, as his eyes snapped open firmly. They narrowed soon after, as Kanda recalled what had happened last night. He felt very angry. He was so angry, that he felt himself hard to breathe. It was as if his world turned upside down, his memories jumbled up all over the place. All because of a person.
Allen.
Allen, the silver-haired boy who had messed into his life a year ago. The one who thought that he could be a destroyer that saved human lives in the same place. The one who wanted to prove to him that his existence wasn't a bothersome to him. The one who always had a dumb and foolish smile planted on his skinny face wherever he went.
The one who was the Destroyer of Time. The one who was labelled as the Fourteenth.
He was smiling all the time, but as he went away, all that remained was that shadow of loneliness, and he just knew it. He knew that he was always alone, no matter where he went, or who he met and made friends with. He just knew, that the amount of love showered by everyone was not enough to fill up the accumulated emptiness in him. He was laughing all the time, but because of this, he had cried for many times, till he could not remember.
He did not notice, but he was always watching him from afar. Something in him intrigued him, and he found himself looking for him whenever he was free of duties. In the shadows, he was there, peering at the solitary one.
A white petal fluttered across his face. Kanda held up his hand and caught it in his palm. He slowly opened his hand, revealing the tiny one lying comfortably inside. He then stared at the flowers in the meadows, wondering which flower this petal belonged to.
But, did it really matter? It was detached from it, and soon after, everyone would forget on which flower did it belong to. No one would not chase after sad memories that had left them. They were happy that they were finally free from those binding chains, but he was different.
From the day he had slained his parents and his own clan by his own hands, his time had stopped, and only with the remembrance of those memories would he remember who he was and his existence in the world. The excruciating pain dug deep in his body kept his sanity in place as he lived on. He walked with confidence along the paths of splattered blood, not flinching in the slightest at the sight of bodies and the raw stench in the air. Nothing could move him. Nothing.
Kanda found himself walking to a tree, as he sank his heavy body against the tree trunk and rested. He was going to find Allen back. His mind was reminding his body about it, but for what reason was he doing this? He himself could not comprehend it.
"You are here, Kanda." He turned around, and saw the slim olive-haired Exorcist approaching him. Lenalee smiled at him before she slipped to his side and leaned against the same towering tree, shading their bodies from the heat of the sun.
"I was just wondering where you are. It is really unlike of you to be here."
"Why not?" He snorted. Lenalee laughed in reply.
"Because it's just not like you." Kanda stared at her, before he turned his head to the other side, not saying a word. Lenalee's smile did not leave her face as she gazed at him amusingly, before turning to the front and closed her eyes.
"Beautiful right? This is the only place which I love to be around the most. Standing in the middle of the field, thinking of nothing else and clearing all thoughts in your mind, and after that, you forget."
"Forget?" Kanda murmured, feeling his heart sank at the slight moment.
"Mm, forget," Lenalee agreed as she nodded her head gently. "Forget all of your worries, forget all of your troubles, forget everything that you do not want to remember. They just float away quietly, and it's all gone. Forever." She opened her violet eyes, and stared longingly in the distance.
"Why are you here, Kanda?"
"I don't know." He simply said. Lenalee took a deep breath as she started to walk forward, step by step.
"People say that the souls of flowers can sense your troubles and lead you here. Trapped in their thoughts, men found themselves here, facing a whole stretch of flowers in the green meadows. And amazingly, they feel better and lighter than before." Lenalee said, trailing on piles of dry leaves on the light-brown ground. She stopped and turned to him.
"Are you one of them, Kanda? Is there a reason why you are here, if you do not even know that you stumble here by mistake?"
The raven did not answer.
"Kanda," He felt a soft squeeze on his shoulders, and stared at her.
"Don't die. Live." His eyes widened slightly, but Lenalee just smiled again and put down her hands.
Something white fell from above. They looked up, and realised that it was snowing.
At the corner, a black cat was watching them. It slowly yawned as it went back into the bushes, its bell jingling softly through the whole silent afternoon.
"It's mine!"
"No, I found it first! Therefore, it is mine!"
"No, it is I who found this first! Go away, you thief!"
Jasdero and David just glared at each other with burning eyes, neither of them wanting to give way. Their hands were clasped on the same object, as they tugged and pulled hardly to claim their rightful prize.
"I tell you, get your hands off this pack of poker cards, Jasdero! I thought you hate poker cards ever since you lost to Tyki and stripped everything down for the punishment of losing so badly?" Jasdero's face turned red instantly.
"Wh-What are you saying?!? Anyway, I found this lying in the middle of the corridor, thus it should belong to me!" He spluttered as the light bulb on his head was shaking crazily from his jumpy movements. David frowned as he pulled the cards closer to him, trying to force the latter to let go of it.
"That was true to begin with! You complained the whole incident to me for so many goddamn times till I can remember every single detail of it! And you swore that you will never touch poker cards again!"
"I did, but that was a long time ago! Now I want these poker cards! I want it, I want it, I want it!" Jasdero whined childishly as he tugged the cards hardly towards his side.
"You are just plain childish, not wanting to admit about that incident," David scoffed.
"Am not!" Jasdero retorted. The other twin raised his eyebrow in response.
"You are lying."
"Am not!"
"You are."
"I said, AM NOT!" He was almost in tears. David hesitated for a slight moment. Jasdero used this chance to grab the cards over to his possession, startling the other. He showed a toothy grin as he waved the pack of poker cards in the air proudly.
"Hehehe! I got it! I got it!" David blinked before he realised that he was deceived.
"Hey, that's not fair! You cheated me by showing me that pouting face! Give it back!" The other twin shouted as he ran towards him, trying to get back the cards, but Jasdero just stuck out his tongue and ran away, followed by the other twin who was chasing him from behind.
"Get back here, Jasdero! You cheater, I will not buy new hair wig for you again!"
"Hehehe! Never! Never!" He sang happily and crashed himself into somebody before he could realise it. The cards slipped out of his hand and scattered in the air, before falling down like showers of rain. David just stared at him for a moment, before he burst out into hips of laughter, earning an embarrassment for the latter as Jasdero frowned and made a face.
"Hey, watch where you are going - " Jasdero stopped talking, suddenly realising who he was talking to.
"These are my cards." David stopped laughing instantly as the silver-haired Noah stepped in front of them, giving them the coldest glare straight in their eyes. Jasdero stumbled back in fright to the other twin as the two of them stared at Allen.
"The Fourteenth," David said, his teeth slowly gritting together. The squeeze on Jasdero's shoulders tightened, as the latter whimpered in pain, looking at him in puzzledly.
"David?"
"So what if it is your pack of cards?" Jasdero's eyes grew wide with shock as he tugged the other twin's sleeve, stopping him from saying further.
"Do you know what you are saying?!? The Earl will surely ask about this - "
"I don't care about what that Earl says. It just irritates me when he enters here as a member of the Noah Family. Why would the Fourteenth choose to join us when he betrayed us years ago and helped the humans instead? Why must the Fourteenth...be him?!? Of all people...why you?!?" David demanded loudly as he glared hardly at the latter, daring him to answer.
"ANSWER ME, ALLEN WALKER!"
A slight twitch could be seen at Allen's eyebrow. He could not understand why he would simply be pissed by a very stupid and childish remark from one of the twins.
"It's none of your business," Allen said coldly as he bent down and picked up the cards on the floor, ignoring the dust that stained his white gloves with dirt. He took a card, peered at it for a moment and patted it, before he turned his attention to the next card next to him.
"What?!?" David lunged for him immediately, only to be stopped by Tyki who gripped onto his wrist and twisted it upwards, as a bang was released from the gun in his hand.
"Tyki, what the hell are you doing?!? Let me go!"
"Stop your nonsense, David. You know this isn't your business," Tyki said, looking at him sternly as he pulled the teenager away from Allen forcefully by his hand. David growled in fury as he struggled and kicked his legs anywhere, shooting a hard glare at the other.
"It is! As long as this brat sets foot in here, it will be my business!" David yelled in anger as another shot echoed through the whole silent corridor, shaking the building slightly. Minutes later, some akumas appeared, wondering whether something had happened.
"An invasion, Lord Tyki?"
"No. Actually, it's a brat throwing a fit here," Tyki replied with a sheepish smile.
"Tyki!"
"Shut up. You have no right to speak in this situation if you continue to cause chaos here. Be good for now," Tyki warned him with a soft hissing tone.
"David!" Jasdero looked at him with worry, and diverted his gaze at the taller young man in front of him, bewildered on what was happening here.
"What is going on here?" The akumas stood aside and bowed in respect to the blue-haired Noah who had just come back from the Earl's room. Relo was in her hands, as she spun the umbrella round and round repeatedly as usual.
"Rhode-tama, please stop spinning me for once!" Relo pleaded.
"Allen!" Rhode sang as she skipped and jumped onto the silver-haired boy's lifeless body, giving it a very tight hug. Allen did not respond as he just stood there, staring at them blankly. David felt more infuriated as he pointed the gun directly at his head and loaded the bullets inside, ready to fire.
"What are you doing, David?" Rhode asked coldly, her back facing him as her arms were still wrapped around Allen's neck like an octopus.
"David!" Tyki warned him again, pulling his wrist closer to him.
"Fire." Everyone's eyes widened for that fraction of moment, turning to the silver-haired boy who had gathered all his cards in his hand. Allen gently pushed Rhode aside, as he slowly walked a few centimetres forward, standing in front of David. His dull eyes narrowed as he ruffled up his fringe with his other free hand.
"Fire. Don't you want more than anything to end my lowly life this instant? Here, shoot me. Right at the middle of my forehead. Make sure you aim it properly," Allen demanded as he grabbed David's shaking hand roughly and gestured by pressing the gun right at the middle of his forehead hardly, to everyone's astonishment.
"What..." David was lost for words.
"Fire! Why didn't you fire?! You want me dead right? Right?!? So just click the goddamn trigger and shoot me down! Shoot me down, now!" Allen shouted hoarsely, forcing the other to release the trigger. He could remember that moment vividly when he shook him hardly by his wrist repeatedly, till the other finally could not take it.
"Stop!" The twin dropped the gun in his hand, terrified. Tyki released him as he slumped down onto the ground, covering his pale face with his hands. Jasdero went to him immediately and comforted him, but was pushed away by the stubborn one who did not want anyone to come near him. Allen remained at his position, showing an astonished look before the pair of emotionless grey eyes gradually softened.
"I'm..."
"Don't say anymore!" David shouted from his position. Standing up, he patted his clothes and took his weapon before he turned to Allen, not showing any expression. A few moments later, he pulled Jasdero along and left the corridor. Allen breathed out slowly as he stepped back, till his back touched the wall behind him. His face expression was twisted with agony as he slowly fell onto the ground, closing his tired eyes.
Why did he say that? For what reasons did these thoughts pop out of his head, guiding his mouth to relay the message to the other party? Allen gripped onto his white uniform tightly.
His head hurt from the thinking. His throat hurt from the shouting. His heart hurt from the pain brought by his words. Everywhere hurt, and he felt horrible.
But surprisingly, he did not shed a single tear.
"Allen?"
"Yes. According to my observations, our dear Allen has not stabilised yet."
"What do you mean, Earl?"
"Allen will be getting back the memories of the Fourteenth gradually, but it seems that he still has little memories of his past identity, though they are in broken pieces, all lead to different chapters of his previous life. This is really bad, because as long as his old memories remain, there will be chances that he might recover those memories fully. But..." An eerie smile crept up his face.
Rhode raised her eyebrow in curiosity.
"But...?"
"I have accidentally found out a rather interesting...discovery about him. Thus..." The Earl turned to her, his floating small eyes locking her gaze together with his.
"I need your help, Rhode. Only you can do this, because no one can."
-
"So this is what you seek to find, Earl..." Rhode murmured softly as she licked her lips playfully.
"What's wrong?" Tyki asked. Rhode turned to the taller one and stared at him for a moment, before she smiled sweetly at him.
"Nothing. Just found something interesting."
Kanda hissed as he touched his left eye, calming down its nerves which had been twitching rather painfully these days. The feeling of uneasiness did not leave him as he looked around, his eye partly covered. Lying alone in his room, the lonesome raven raised his head and looked outside, listening to the faint whispers of the night creatures as the silver moon rose to the sky.
It was night. He raised his hand slightly upwards, as though his fingers were touching the surface of the moon, trailing along the edges of the moon repeatedly. Something happened, as a very tiny diamond dot fell from the sky.
A fallen star.
Suddenly, his vision flashed momentarily, before a splatter of red filled his vision. It stabbed him instantly.
He felt sick. Very sick.
Kanda hissed as his body moved to the edge and arched downwards, gripping onto his left eye tightly. His chest started to contract so much that he felt air slowly squeezing out of his body like a deflating balloon. His heart thumped hysterically as his mind started to spin in circles. The samurai groaned as he got out of his bed, staggering for a few little steps before he fell onto the floor. Ignoring the pain, he crawled weakly to the door of the bathroom and up to the toilet bowl. In a few seconds, everything came out of his mouth, the stench filled the air.
After moments of overcoming the revolted churning in his stomach and his dizziness, he flushed the toilet and sat up, leaning against the wall, having a rather pale face for the first time. The raven blamed it on the dinner that he consumed four hours ago.
But even so, he felt strangely better than before.
One petal fell.
Twelve petals left.
A rather long chapter, I would say, but I would really be happy if all of you dear readers would just review what I have written and give me your opinions and thoughts regarding the current progression of this story?
And I have to apologise for not updating a week ago. Cookies for all of ya. Pls do forgive me DDD: Sorry for the spelling and grammar mistakes.
Again, read and review please! Next update will be 7days from now! :D
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