I leaned against the wall of the gym from the outside. I flipped my hood on to try and block the sun from burning my scalp. I was waiting on my mother to pick me up from school since I neither have a car or license. I tried to think of numbers so I would stop letting my mind wander. I closed my eyes and started to count in my head, imagining the number as well. It sounds stupid thinking about it but I have always been great with numbers and algebra. To me it seemed easily, follow the formula, get the answer, nothing changes: Always the same formula. That's one thing I hate about English. I still get confused if it's "cannot" or "can not". English: Go figure…
The feeling of starred at made me shift my body and looked over in the direction I thought the person starred at me from. At this point, I wasn't surprised by who I saw. This Chase guy is starting to bother me… I felt my heart jump, remembering our previous conversation. It hurt a little as I tried to clear my throat.
I just closed my eyes, wishing my mother would get here faster. I felt a tapping on my shoulder but didn't bother looking as I responded bitterly, "What?"
Even without looking I could imagine his smile as I listened to his reply, "I wanted to ask one more time before I left."
"Are you surprised, little quite girl, doesn't want to go somewhere with a creep?" I was intentionally trying to get him mad at me so he would leave me alone. It didn't work…
"Just surprised a background character doesn't want to change into a star."
I felt a sharp pain in my chest and a pain from behind my eyes…. I've honestly felt like that practically all my life. When I came to this school two years ago, I refused to be the doormat I was at my old school. When thinking about this I got angry and mad. I started to bite the inside of my cheek to try and control my anger and shut my eyes tight.
I felt something placed on the top of my head and looked up and saw Chase staring at me, his hand on top of my head. He had a warm smile briefly before he changed it to his broad smile. I couldn't tell before, but he had sharp fangs, subtle, but there. "I promise I won't let anything happen."
As usual I tried to maintain my posture "Why should I trust you?"
"Cause…" Chase leaned back against a railing of the sidewalk, "I'm a stranger."
I could practically feel the tension leaving my face and replaced with curiosity. I wanted to know where he was going with this.
"I know nothing about you now. I'm curious."
'You now'? What's he talking about? Well I guess I don't fit the role people chose to give me. People somewhat give me trust I don't deserve. I don't do anything stupid, but teachers give me task to do when I don't even have them. Maybe it's cause 'Politeness' is now becoming foreign. I sighed trying to decide…
"Maybe later…" I decided. "I'm not too fond of parties or crowds, especially after a hectic week of school."
Chase cocked his head to the side and shrugged "Okay, if you say so."
Really? That easily?
Chase turned to the left and flicked up his hand in a high jester "See ya later." I watched him until he left through the elementary building that leads towards the parking lot.
I wonder what kind of car he has. I'm not too familiar with cars but I know a good one when I see one…mostly. I like big trucks and that's all I know. Maybe he has one of those box cars. I laughed at my comment. I always thought those cars looked funny and small: I'm not sure of the official name but they were small and cubed.
I looked up at the three lane car line and saw a familiar car in the third lane, I identified it as my mothers. Little too late mom…
I got to my house and instantly ran towards my phone out of habit. I went straight to the application of the chatroom and saw that The March Hare was online. I wasn't too use to talking to him outside of the group and I wasn't sure whether or not to talk to him. It was like he was reading my mind when a chime came from my phone with a message that popped up saying "MarchingHareClubs19 request to Chat" I shrugged as I went into the chat
MadHatterAce16: Yo.
MarchingHareClubs19: Hey! No one seems to be on and I'm bored!
MadHatterAce16: Haha XD. I just got home, talk about a hectic week -_-"
I regretted typing that as soon as I sent it. I didn't really like talking about myself or complaining…
MarchingHareClubs19: What happened? That guy bother you?
I couldn't think how to reply. I felt a deep dread fall on me when trying to reply.
MadHatterAce16: No not really. Just school stuff :P
MarchingHareClubs19: Well good! It would suck if one of our gangmembers got jumped and we couldn't do anything.
"You have no idea…" I mumbled to myself. I had somewhat conflicting feelings: on one hand, I didn't want to get close to someone and on the other, I wish I did. I hate feelings…
MadHatterAce16: Momentai :3. I'll just whack him with my boot XD!
MarchingHareClubs19: Good! So did you atleast talk to him?
MadHatterAce16: ….Eh…define talk.
MarchingHareClubs19: Does he know you're not interested?
MadHatterAce16: In a way…. He asked me out to a date and I said no.
It was a couple minutes until he replied.
MarchingHareClubs19: How long did you wait to reply?
MadHatterAce16: Uh… He asked during the middle of class so I said no at the end of the day.
MarchingHareClubs19: He hasn't touched you?
I starred at the comment for a while trying to depend if he's thinking in a "positive" or "Negative" way. It's hard to tell with him. So I decided to answer both.
MadHatterAce16: Nope, in any meaning of the way. Can we change the topic?
I was really getting uncomfortable with the topic. Not to mention I'm still not use to talking to him alone.
MarchingHareClubs19: Yeah sorry… Been a hectic day here too.. Getting school stuff together and parents and whatnot.
MadHatterAce16: Want to talk about it? I'm a good listener.
MarchingHareClubs19: It's nothing really… Ever feel like you've been stalked?
I was a little confused by the question. My personal paranoia is through the roof and this isn't helping in the slightest.
MadHatterAce16: Why…?
MarchingHareClubs19: I don't know, I've been getting a creepy feeling lately. Like I'm being starred at.
MadHatterAce16: Would your ADHD be a factor?
MarchingHareClubs19: Maybe…the new meds I'm on are helping but I feel like I'm about to be jumped. Like everyone around me is out to get me… I'm kinda scarred.
I wasn't sure how to reply, I starred at the message for a while. I mumbled to myself "Time to pull shit out of my ass." I was typing things that I think would help me, but sugar coated it.
MadHatterAce16: Paranoia isn't always so bad. It mostly keeps you alive, right? Maybe hang around people you're comfortable with. Sorry I'm not too big of a help.
MarchingHareClubs19: Nah, it's okay. I guess we never really talked about personal stuff before.
MadeHatterAce16: Don't worry about it ^^. If you need to talk, just message me when you can.
MarchingHareClubs19: Thanks… I actually do feel a little more calm…
MadeHatterAce16: Great! So what do you want to talk about ^^?
At this point, my mom opened the door and looked at me laying on my bed. "Could you help me wash the dishes?"
I personally hatted it when she asked when she knows I couldn't say no because she's my mother. I moaned "Yes ma'am"
I put my phone down and left my room. I was just going to explain to Hare what happened. No big deal… About half an hour later, I got to my phone to message Hare back. I wasn't too surprised what he messaged me wondering where I was when I didn't reply.
MadHatterAce16: Sorry, had to wash dishes :P
I waited a minute and there wasn't a reply. I guess he left. I looked over to my bookshelf that had my manga collection. I picked an Alice in Wonderland themed one and look at the cover. The manga was "Are you Alice" and I only had two copies. The main character was a boy which I thought was cool to begin with. The manga itself was hard to completely understand by the first read. But even by the first volume I was hooked. I started to read the Japanese comic book and study the art style and character characteristics. I don't think Alice would ever be this kind of Alice. I thought to myself, comparing the Alice of the group to this fictional character. She would be more like the Duchess… In day to day life, I guess I would be more like this Mad Hatter than the one I am online, other than the gun I guess. Other than the Queen being a guy in this and the obvious, he's nearly identical to our Queen. There wasn't a March Hare sadly in this story and the thought of Usagi being anything like this White Hatter would be too funny to think of.
Later that night, The Queen and Alice were online so I thought I'll join in a chat.
QueenOfTheJokers30: Hey Hatter! What's up?
MadHatterAce16: Nothing really. Reading manga.
AliceHearts13: OO! DO YOU GUESS KNOW OF ANY FLUFF MANGA?! I've been in such mood to read a good one!
QueenOfTheJokers30: Sorry… I only read "adult" mangas...
I rolled my eyes at Queen. At time she could be annoying but she is a good friend.
MadHatterAce16: Shounen Doll is really good. A bit too happy of an ending but you'll like it (I think).
AliceHearts13: YYAAAYY! THANK YOU!
QueenOfTheJokers30: So how did things go with the albino dude?
MadHatterAce16: Not Albino; sad end of a fad. And nothing happened. He asked me out and I turned him down.
AliceHearts13:AWW! WHY DID YOU TURN IM DOWN! I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU TOO! I was already shipping….. DDX
MadHatterAce16: Cause he's a creep .I don't know when he'll snap!
QueenOfTheJokers30: WELL GOOD FOR YOU TO SAY NO WHEN YOU WANTED TO! For a second you had me worried about it!
Didn't she say 'Date him if he's hot'?! Hypocrite… I didn't want to get in a useless fight cause she did say something nice for once….in a way. I decided to give a jokingly hurt response.
MadHatterAce16: I can say no! Especially to a falling trend. Besides, I'm tougher than I look XD!
QueenOfTheJokers30: GOOD! By the queens orders, you are not allowed to be pushed around! OR OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!
MadHatterAce16: COME AT ME BRO! XXDD
AliceHearts13: Wow XD!
MadHatterAce16: So what about you guys? I feel weird talking about myself XD! So what's up?
AliceHearts13: Actually, my boyfriend and I are coming to an anniversary. 3 Months ^-^! We're going to a local ice cream place~
I felt happy that she was happy and who doesn't want to brag every now and then? So I let my happiness for her, message her.
MadHatterAce16: AW, congrats!
AliceHearts13: Thank you :D! I'm so excited!
QueenOfTheJokers30: Lucky you. I can't seem to find one decent guy that's not a creep…
MadHatterAce16: AMEN! XD
AliceHearts13: Aw, not you make me feel bad D:!
QueenOfTheJokers30: HEY! ME AND HATTER, DON'T NEED NO MAN TO BE FUCKING ANGLE!
MadHatterAce16: We need to talk more, this is fun XDD!
It really was. Despite Queen's ego and rude intentions we did have a few things in common. Alice is fun to talk to because she was so optimistic. Soon enough even Queen was pleasant to talk to. We were talking until it was around eleven o'clock for me and that's because I started to feel bad that it was so late. I went to sleep laughing at the random things we said. The girls of the group have to stand together, we decided.
A New Song Has Been Added To The Playlist
The Great Pretender (All the Things You Said) by Jon Frederik Band
