Author's Note: I don't own Zoids.

"talking"

/thinking/

Chapter 4
Love and Pain

Van sat outside the ruins that were near the Wind Colony. This is where he first met Fiona. Even though he had been young something inside of him told him that she would change his life, and she did.

"Yet I didn't changer hers that much." Van said to himself. He kept remembering the conversation that he had overheard. What a fool he was. How could Fiona still feel something for him?

"No, what ever she felt one day it's now gone. Thomas has her heart now." Van smiled even though he was falling apart inside. "I guess he won in the end."

He had always known of Thomas's feelings for Fiona. Yet he was so sure of Fiona's love that he never felt threaten.

"But I was the one that accepted to end this." Van said to himself. He looked at the time. He was late; he was supposed to have met with Dan ten minutes ago to check on the zoids.


Fiona finished making lunch and decided to go see Van and the others to see if they needed anything. The conversation she had with Thomas was still on her mind but she had done the right thing, right? She didn't want to doubt herself, after all Thomas is a good man who loves her and who also loves her children. He in no way will replace Van, but she also knew that she could trust him with her children.

She walked outside and noticed that the there were some dark clouds forming above the town. "Looks like it's going to rain." Fiona said to herself.

She approached the men who were each working on their respecting zoids. Dan was the first to notice her presence.

"Hey mom." Dan said. With that Van turn to look at her but then turn back to what he was doing.

"Do you guys need anything?" Fiona asked.

"I don't mom, thanks. How about you dad?" Dan asked.

"I don't need anything." Van replied without even looking.

Fiona sense a bit of anger in his voice and was confused by it. Dan also noticed it. In fact his father had barely spoken to him.

"Alright, where is Padme?" Fiona asked?

"She is with aunt Moonbay. Don't worry after I'm done with this I'll go pick her up." Dan said.

"Thanks, Dan where is Thomas." Fiona asked and she noticed how Van had stiffened at the mention of Thomas's name.

"He said he needed to do something but that he was coming back later." Dan said.

"Ok. Well lunch is ready so if you want to eat you can go back to the house." Fiona said. She wondered what was wrong with Van. She decided to leave like that and return home.

Van wanted to act as if everyone was all right, but it wasn't. He felt angry and that was because he still loves her.

/But she doesn't. She got over me./ It didn't help him thinking this, in only fuelled his anger.

"Dad are you all right?" Dan asked. He noticed his father's attitude and wonder if he was mad at him.

"Yes." Van said a bit too hard.

Dan stared at his father. Something was definitely wrong. His father never spoke to him like that unless he was angry.


Padme played with Reena and Zeek outside of Moonbay's house. Reena was like an older sister to her and she was the only one who would talk about Samira without sadness in her eyes.

"Reena lets play hide and seek!" Padme said as she jumped around.

Reena smiled. Even though she was older than Padme, she loved spending time with her. She got really scared when she found out what happened at her Aunt Fiona's house.

"Stop bothering Reena Padme." A voice said from behind Reena. Reena felt her heart stop for a moment.

Padme came next to her and pull out her tongue. "I wasn't asking you. For your information, Reena likes to play with me, unlike you. You're supposed to be my brother and yet you ignore me!"

Dan laughed. He liked teasing his little sister.

"Reena lets play. And don't listen to this jerk." Padme said as she took Reena's hand.

"Oh no you don't." Dan said as he took Reena's other hand pulled her towards him, which ended in dragging both girls to him.

Reena blushed. /Why the hell is this happening to me now!!!!/ She thought to herself.

"See I won. Now I'll play with her." Dan said, not aware of what Reena was going through.

"No you won't! It's not fair. You're bigger and stronger!" Whined Padme. "Besides weren't you going to help dad with the zoids? Go help him and leave us alone!"

"I finished helping him. So I came here to have some fun teasing you." Dan said who had yet to release Reena.

"Hey kids, lunch is ready." Moonbay said coming out of her house. She smiled seeing that Dan had her daughter's hand.

/I bet Fiona would love hearing about this./ Moonbay thought. /Mental note, tell her but must make sure Irvine does not hear./ Her husband was a bit sensitive about boys nearing his daughter. Who would of thought that Irvine would of become an over protective father.

"I'm so hungry!!" Padme said as she hurried into the house followed by Zeek.

"Hey were supposed to go eat with mom." Dan said but it was too late. Padme was already in the house and probably devouring the food. She was too much like his father.

"Don't worry I called Fiona and she said it was ok. Why don't you stay and eat with us. It would be nice, wouldn't it be Reena?" Moonbay asked.

Reena looked at her mother and knew something was up. /Uh the old woman knows me to well./ Reena thought to herself.

"Yeah it would." She said softly.

"Then it's settled. Now get your butts over here before Padme finishes all the food." They knew she wasn't kidding. That kid was a bottomless pit.


It was later in the day and Fiona finished washing her plate and set it next to the sink so it would dry. She looked through the window. The dark clouds had gotten even darker and they were all over the colony. It was then when she noticed the small drops of water who currently becoming bigger and falling at a much faster pace.

Fiona picked up the phone and dialled to Moonbay's house.

"Hello."

"Moonbay is me Fiona. Is Padme still over there?" Fiona asked.

"Yes she is, Dan is here too. Hey Fiona, I think they should stay over here because it's starting to rain hard." Moonbay said.

"Yeah you're right." Fiona said. She didn't want her children catching something.

"Fiona are you alone right now?" Moonbay asked.

"Yeah but I'm ok don't worry." Fiona said knowing what was going through Moonbay's mind.

"Are you sure? I can come over." Moonbay said.

"Yes I'm sure. If anything happens I'll call you. Don't worry. I'll be fine." Fiona said trying to convince her.

"Alright but you better call me if anything happens." Moonbay said.

"Ok bye."

"Bye."

Fiona tried to smile but she got the feeling that her life was going to change tonight. She only wished it would be for the better.

She made her way to her room. She looked through her window. Even though it was still early it looked at as if it was night time.

There wasn't really much to do. She sat on her bed and turned on the TV. After going through several channels she turned it off.

"I guess Dan and Padme are right. We should get cable." Fiona said to herself.

Fiona heard a sound downstairs. She got up and cautiously walked out of her room. She knew it wouldn't be Dan or Padme because they were at Moonbay's. Her mind went back to the feeling she had felt after she finished talking with Moonbay.

"I hate being right with these things." Fiona said softly to herself.

She saw a shadow coming from the stairs. Fiona quickly grabbed a vase that was next to her. She raised it above her head and waited for the intruder to show up. The shadow got closer but she couldn't identify it. Deciding that it was best her safety first she pulled down her arms so that the base would hit the strangers head.

Too bad he had fast reflexes as he took the vase and trapped her in his arms. Fiona's back was facing him so she couldn't see who it was.

"Let go of me!" Fiona said she struggled to free herself.

"Fiona?"

Immediately he released her. Fiona recognized that voice and turned around to face him.

"Van what are you doing here?" Fiona asked as she tried to calm her heart down. Boy had he scared her. That was then she realized that he was soaking wet and that he had gotten her clothes a bit wet as well.

"I got caught in the storm and this was the closest place for shelter." Van explained. "I knocked but no one answer so I used the key that I have and entered. I saw light upstairs and went to check if you and the kids were ok."

"Oh." Was all Fiona said.

"Where are the kids?" Van asked.

"They are with Moonbay. Since it started to rain I didn't want them to catch a cold so I let them stay over there." Fiona said.

"You were going to stay here all alone?" Van asked all though it sounded as if he was scolding her.

"What choice did I have?" Fiona replied her voice rising a bit.

"After what happened, I thought you would be more careful. What if that person decided to attack again? What would you have done? Because trust me a vase doesn't help much." Van said angry. He was letting his feelings of anger of earlier in the day take control of him.

"Well excuse me Van if my methods are unworthy of you. But you don't have to worry about me. I free you of what ever responsibility you may carry." Fiona said angry. She turned around and went to her room slamming the door.

"Fiona we're not done talking!" Van said from behind her. He had caught the door before it closed and he closed it.

"Yes we are. You will not treat me like a child Van Flyheight!" Fiona said anger reflecting in her eyes.

"Perhaps if you wouldn't act like one I wouldn't." Van answer back.

Fiona curled her hand into fist. He was making her angrier by the minute. Funny how in the past he would awake something else.

"So I am a child. Well then Van, don't worry you are not my father." Fiona answered with more anger in her voice.

Van knew that something Fiona couldn't stand was being treated like she couldn't understand. And that was just what he was doing.

Fiona turned around making Van face her back once again. She shivered lightly as she felt Van's hand on her upper arms. They were cold because of the rain.

"I-I'm a jerk Fiona. You know how much I changed and that's one of my bad changes. I can't help being an idiot." Van said.

Fiona didn't say anything. She was too busy trying to pretend that she wasn't feeling anything.

Van took this as if she was still angry. He let go of her and took a step back. Fiona turned around at the lost of the touch.

"I should leave." Van said making his way to the door.

"Don't." Fiona said a bit too quickly.

Van stopped and turned around.

"I mean, its still raining and you could get sick." Fiona said. She walked passed him to her closet. She opened it and took out a small box. She opened the box and took out a few things. "Here." She said as she handed him the clothes.

Van eyed the clothes wondering who they belong to.

"They are yours. You forgot to take this. I just hope that you still fit in them." Fiona said.

Van practically sighed. He took the clothes and walk in to the bathroom that was attached to the bedroom.

Fiona felt how moist her own clothes were and decided to change. She took out her pyjama which consisted of a pink spaghetti strap shirt and a pink pyjama pants.

Wondering if she should wait for Van to come so that she could change. /He is probably going to take a shower though. I guess its ok./ Fiona thought to herself.

She unzipped her dress and let if fall to the floor. Putting on her the pink pants and shirt her hands went to her back to take off her bra, it came off alright, but not because of her hands.

Fiona didn't dare to move. She felt her breathing stop as those hand fell to her waist. They pulled her against another warm body.

Sensual lips making its way to her ear. "The shirt didn't fit me. I guess it's because I've been working out more."

Oh and he was right. Her back was against his bare chest and she could feel it. Fiona didn't know how she was able to breath again.

Van had planned to take a shower when he realized that there was no shampoo, he had come out to ask her were it was when he has witness the scene that nearly sent him over the edge.

Van created a trail of heated kisses from her ear to her neck. Stopping there because he knew it was Fiona's weakness. He felt her tilt her head to give him better access.

One of his hands left her waist and went under her shirt. He heard Fiona moan with his action.

"Van." She said softly.

Van let his kisses fall to her shoulder pulling down the strap. Taunting her with his tongue he felt how she sighed in pleasure.

Van turned her around so that she would face him. She had her eyes closed, but she opened them seeing the fire in Van's eyes. Van didn't waste any time and kissed her. Before she could even protest he had slip his tongue inside of her. He had been dying to taste her again. The events in the morning had only been a sample of what he was planning to get tonight.

Fiona couldn't even protest. Her mind went blank and now her heart and body were in control. She felt his cool hands on her back and one of her own went to his neck to bring him closer and the other exploring his chest.

She felt that she was moving but she didn't care. All she wanted was to keep feeling this. Fiona felt something soft beneath her and something strong on top of her.

Van once again proceeded to create a heated trail of kisses. But found one obstacle though, her shirt.

/That can be arrange./ He thought.

His hand took the ends of her shirt and pulled it up. Once the piece of clothing was gone he continued his journey.

"Van." Fiona said once more.

That seemed to encourage him more. Nothing was going to stop him tonight from making her his.


It was morning. The storm had passed and now a bright sun was shining in the sky making it a beautiful day. The people of this colony carry out their work with much higher spirits.

Padme ran to her house followed by her brother. She hadn't eaten breakfast and she was dying to eat something. She went to the kitchen but didn't find her mother.

"Mom! We're home!" Padme yelled wondering where her mother was.

Dan looked around and didn't see his mother. "It's almost ten o'clock. She never sleeps in." Dan said. He was starting to wonder if his mother was all right.

"Do you think mommy is ok?" Padme asked.

Dan didn't want to frighten his sister. "I'm sure she's fine. Hey why don't you start with breakfast and I'll go see if mom is in her room." Dan said. Padme nodded and went into the kitchen

Dan went upstairs. The door to his mother's bedroom was closed. He knocked but no one answered. /Perhaps she went out. But she would of waited for us./ Dan thought. Dan opened the door and his jaw hit the floor. He definitely wasn't expecting to see this.

On his mother's bed were his father and mother. Fiona's head was resting on Van's naked chest while his left arm was holding her closer to him. The beige sheets covering their bodies.

It didn't take a genius to figure out what happened. /But what the hell is going on? First the thing that happened yesterday morning and now this?/ Dan asked himself. Were their parents going to get back together or what?

"Dan is mom up there?" Dan heard Padme asked. He couldn't let her come up here. That kid was in the age of asking questions and he didn't want to answer them.

"I'm going to be scar for life." Dan said to himself as he left his mother's bedroom.

Padme was about to go upstairs when she saw her brother coming. "Is mommy there?" Padme asked again.

"Yeah, uh she's still sleeping." Dan said as he went to the kitchen.

"Sleeping?" Padme asked. Her mother wouldn't be sleeping at this hour. "Are you sure? Maybe she's sick." Padme said turning around to go see her mother.

Dan stopped her. "She's fine Padme. She's just tired a guess."

"Tired, of what?" Padme asked.

Dan sighed. Why couldn't she stop asking questions? "I don't know. I suppose she is tired if she is still sleeping. Let's finish breakfast so that when she wakes up it would be ready."

"Ok!" Padme said believing her brother.

Upstairs was a different story.

Fiona opened her eyes and smiled as she saw Van sleeping. His lips were a bit parted and she was tempted to kiss them. She ran her index finger over them and pulled herself closer. She leaned in and kiss him gently. Letting him notice of her presence. It didn't take long for him to respond and soon the innocence of the kiss was gone to be replaced with passion.

The arm that was holding her pulled her closer. While the other went up and down her back. He rolled over so that he could on top. Leaving her lips, as his own lips descended on her neck.

"Oh Van." Fiona moaned. Just their luck Fiona heard noises downstairs. Her eyes immediately opened. With her hand she tapped Van's shoulder.

Van looked at her and leaned down to kiss her. As much as Fiona was enjoying this the sound from downstairs wasn't helping. Van's lips went to her ear biting it playfully.

"Van." Fiona said. "There …are…so-ounds co…ming from ahh." He was in her weak spot. Damn that neck of hers.

"Shhh, don't worry. Just think about us." Van whispered in her ear.

Fiona sighed. /Screw it./ Her mind thought as she responded to Van's actions.


Dan and Padme finished making breakfast. Dan had made sure to make enough sound as to wake his mother but she and his father had yet to come down.

"Mommy hasn't woken up." Padme said.

"Yeah, uh maybe she's taking a shower." Dan said.

Padme was about to ask again when there was a knock on the door. "I'll get it!" She ran to the door and opened it.

"Uncle Thomas!"

Dan felt as if all the blood from his face was gone. What was he going to do now?

"Hey there Padme. Where is your mom?" Thomas asked as he walked in.

"She's sleeping." Padme said as she followed him.

"Sleeping? How odd. Fiona is a morning person." Thomas said.

"I know but Dan said that she was sleeping." Padme said.

Now all the attention was to Dan. "Uh good morning Thomas." Dan said a bit uneasy. How was he going to get out of this?

"Hey Dan. Are you sure Fiona is still sleeping?" Thomas asked.

"Uh yeah. I went to check on her and she still was sleeping." Dan said hoping that he would believe him.

Thomas sent him a confused look. Something wasn't right here.

"Do you mind if I go check on her?" Thomas asked. He knew that Dan knew about his relationship with Fiona, but he also respect her house and her children. And not because he was dating her he was going to barge into her room.

"Actually yes." Dan responded. He wasn't sure of what was going on between Thomas his mother and his father, but right now wasn't the time for fights.

Thomas only nodded.

"Uncle, let's have breakfast! I made French toast!!" Padme said as she pulled him to the dining room.

Dan sighed and looked upstairs. How in the world were they going to settle this?


Fiona was able to convince Van that she needed to take a shower. Van protested saying that she didn't need it and had try to go for another round. But seeing as Fiona was really exhausted he let her go.

Fiona let the water fall to her body. Her body was a bit sore from last night's and today's events. Yet she couldn't deny that she was willing to do it again.

"I just need a bit of more energy." Fiona said to herself.

"So are you ready now?" A voice said from behind her. This time he didn't startle her. She had been expecting him.

Fiona laughed as she turned around. Van got closer and pulled her towards him. He hugged her and rested his chin on her head.

"You should take a shower you know. You are all sweaty." Fiona said.

"Would you like me to remind you who made me all sweaty?" Van playfully asked.

Fiona just laughed. She grabbed the soap and began to rub it against Van's chest. "I guess I'll just have to clean you myself." Fiona stated with a glint of mischievous in her eyes.

"Yes please." Van said knowing her true intentions.


It was a while later and Thomas, Dan, and Padme had gone out to see the zoids. Dan had convinced them to go with him because he wanted to see if last night's storm had done something to the zoids.

To Thomas surprise the Blade Liger was there but with no Van.

"Zeek, are the zoids ok?" Dan asked. Zeek had gone to check to zoids when Dan and Padme had gone home.

Zeek nodded, but a look on Dan's face made it shock his head.

"I wonder what is wrong." Thomas said not catching Dan sending Zeek faces.

"Perhaps Beek should check it out." Dan suggested. The longer he entertains them, the more time his parents will have.


Van and Fiona finally made it downstairs. All though two of them were laughing and Van couldn't seem to keep his hand to himself.

"Van stop, the children might come in at any moment." Fiona said.

"I don't think so Seems like they came and left. Look." Van said pointing to the kitchen.

Fiona checked it out. He was right. It was then that she noticed a note near the stove.

Mom,

I don't really know what the heck is going on but I just wanted to warn you that Thomas is around. As much as I love you and Dad I don't want any fighting and especially having Padme to witness this. So please be careful about your decisions.

Dan

Fiona just stared at the note. So Dan had noticed this and what was worst, Thomas had been here when she and Van had- no, she did not want to even think about it. Fiona felt Van's arms around her waist pulling her closer to him.

"What's wrong honey?" Van asked. He felt her tense at his touch.

Fiona felt bad, truly bad. /How could I have done this to him?/ Fiona asked herself.

"Fi?" Van asked and looked at the note in her hands. He took it and read it. Van frowned at the mention of Thomas but then realized why Fiona was like this. /She must feel guilty. But we love each other. I'm sorry Thomas, but now that I know that she still loves I wont lose her again./

Van turned Fiona around, but she refused to look at him. With his hand he took her chin and brought her face up so that she would see him.

"We didn't do anything wrong. We love each other and it's normal for us to express it." Van said trying to take any pain that she might be feeling.

"But Van you don't understand. Thomas and I-"

"I know Fiona." Van said. Fiona's eyes widened.

"How did you-"

"It doesn't matter. What matters now is that we love each other. Fiona it's been a curse to live without you. I know I don't deserve this but I want another chance. Please give us another chance at love Fiona. Don't deny us what we both want. I love you with all my heart Fiona and I know that you also love me." Van said with pure hope in his eyes.

"Is this true Fiona?" A voice said, starring at the two with a hurt expression.

"Thomas."


A/N: Ok cyberdemon, hopefully this chapter will make you feel much better after what happened in the last one. To everyone else enjoy and happy spring break!!!!!

YingFa