a/n: Hey guys! Thank you so much for all of the reviews, story alerts, etc! (: It really means a lot. I hope that you guys enjoy this quick chapter. I realize that it's kind of short, but I hope that you enjoy it nonetheless!
Take a deep breath, Arianna. I remind myself this over and over again, but instead I find myself taking short, quick breaths. My heart is still beating at an un-normal pace, and I can still feel the heat on my face. My mind isn't even working properly. If it was, I wouldn't be standing here still facing these restaurant doors. I would be going back to normal, but the fact is, I'm not.
Maybe I'm acting weird because I've been at work too long. I try to push the thought into my head, so that I might actually believe it. But I know it's a lie. I've only been at work for about ten minutes. I know the real reason that I'm acting so strangely, but I don't want to face it.
"I see you met Seth," Ms. Rivers speaks softly from behind me, breaking me from my thought process.
Seth. The name rings through my ears, and I can feel a smile tugging at my lips. What is wrong with me? "Yeah I did," I tell her, trying not to sound like something is different.
"He's a nice boy," She tells me, as I turn around to face her. She shows me a small smile, "I've been friends with the Clearwater's for a while now. Nice family."
Clearwater. Seth Clearwater. What a perfect name. Absentmindedly I find myself wondering how my name would sound with it. Mrs. Arianna Clearwater. Mrs. Seth Clearwater. Mr. and Mrs. Clearwater. A blush creeps up on my face as I realize what I am doing. I've know the guy for a few minutes and I'm already putting our names together. I need a reality check.
"That's good," I say nonchalantly, hoping that she doesn't think that I have feelings for him.
Do I even have feelings for him? I mean, sure, I thought he was extremely good looking. And yeah, something definitely happened between us, but I don't know what it was. It's crazy to think that I would already have feelings for him! I've only said about three things to him! That can't be normal, can it?
"Where did you move from again, Arianna?" Ms. Rivers asks me, taking us to a different topic. "Was it Maine?"
"Yes," I say sadly, remembering one important detail to my life.
I can't like anyone here. I'm going to be moving in a few months, anyway. Suddenly, the remembrance of those details makes me feel lightheaded. I'm going to have to leave La Push in the probably near future. The thought of that didn't really affect me until today, until Seth. That thought scares me. I'm already hurting at the fact that I might leave Seth, and I barley know him. I can't even imagine what would happen if I actually opened myself up to him.
I can't open myself up to him.
I'm going to have to keep reminding myself that in a few months I could be long gone, leaving everyone behind. I won't hurt myself like that again. I have to be strong. I just have to be, because there is no other option.
Even if that means staying away from Seth Clearwater.
I feel a tug on my heart, reminding me that it probably won't be that simple. He and his friends come to this restaurant every day. Plus, it's pretty obvious that for some reason I have feelings for him. If only I could understand what happened when I first looked him in the eyes. It was like something changed, and from then on Seth has been in my mind. I'm starting to think that that's a bad thing, and that it's really dangerous for me to feel this way.
But then I think of his dark, brown eyes and it feels right.
