Part Four

(NATHANIEL'S POV)

Damn it! Damn it all!

Right now, he doesn't care anymore even if his father will beat him up right after he goes home. He doesn't care about the ranting of his mother anymore. He doesn't care about his sister's blaming words that he knows she'll say to him.

All he knows now is that he has lost the most important person in his life. He really is so stupid. How oblivious he was from her feelings! How could he be so blind about it?

He just shouts frustratingly. He should've been more courageous in telling her his feelings for her before. He should've just told her and give his luck all out. He should've—

"N-Nathaniel?"

He lifts his teary eyes and they meet up with another pair of eyes which contains both worry and pain. And they belong to her.

"W-Why are you crying?" she asks hesitantly.

He just wipes his tears away and averts his eyes from hers. "It's none of your business."

He sees her from the corner of his eyes that her shoulders seem to fall heavily and she bows her head down. Maybe she's thinking that he's still mad at her.

"I-I see…" she chokes out.

I just watch him as he wipes his tears. Why is—was—he crying? Is it because of me? No. It's not because of me. It's impossible for I know that he hates and he'll never cry for me. I sigh inwardly. I am stupid for flirting with him all that time. I should've just stop throwing off hints and told him straight out that I love him. I should've just walked up to him before and shouted it at him.

I bite my bottom lip. There go my tears. I am refraining myself from crying. I can't cry again. I can't cry in front of him again. I don't want him to know now that I love him because I know that he will truly—painfully—reject me.

"What are you doing here by the way?" he asks. "Shouldn't you be with your b-boyfriend?"

My body stills at the hardness of his voice. It seems to me that he's somewhat forcing his voice to be normal. I force a faint smile to my face although all I want to do now is cry in front of him. "I—I just need some time…alone."

I expect him to say something. But all he does is to stare at me. I am starting to be somewhat confuse of his previous and present actions. On my last attempt of getting his attraction, he pushed me away and humiliated me, saying that he doesn't want to see me again. But now, expected him to push me away again and he never did.

I recollect my thoughts and breathe deeply. "N-Nathaniel?"

He blinks his eyes as if snapping his self out from a trance.

"C-Can I ask you a q-question?"

He just simply nods at me.

Here it goes…"Do you…hate me?"

(NATHANIEL'S POV)

Stunned? No. He's astounded to hear that from her. He just blinks at her, not knowing what to say. He weighs his thoughts in his mind, thinking of the possibilities of his answers. If he says no, then he can confess to her directly after that but…will she ever believe it? And if ever he confesses to her, will she accept him? Will she break up with Castiel and admit and prove to him that she loves him? If she says, he's sure that he will truly break her already broken heart. And he is sure that he will regret it.

It's better late than never.

Rosalya's words dawn at him. This is it…

"I guess…" she speaks before he can even had a chance to breathe. "You are still mad at me. I know that you really don't want to talk to me." She then bows her head. "I'm sorry for being a nuisance to you. I promise I will distant myself from you as far as possible and won't even look at you in school. I will avoid you if that's what you want. I really am sorry for my stupidity, Nathaniel," and with that, she turns around and walks away that can be counted as a run.

I just walk away from him and as soon as my back is facing him, I let my tears fall. I guess this is for the better. I know that I will eventually learn to forget Nathaniel. I have to forget him if I don't want my everyday life in school to be torture. I have to do this for my own being. I have to do this to prevent my heart from breaking more. I will forget Nathaniel and just accept the love that Castiel is offering me. I will learn to love Castiel as much as he loves me. I will—

I am harshly grabbed by a hand on my arm and I am pulled into a tight embrace.

"That's not true!"

Na…Nathaniel?

"That is and will never be true, you idiot!" he breathes and by thee tone of his voice, I can tell that he is crying. "I don't hate you! I LOVE YOU!"

My eyes widened at this. H-He loves me?!

"I'm so sorry! I know how stupid I am and I know how cruel I was to you but I…I truly love you…" he sobs on the crook of my neck.

I just clutch his shirt for my hands are trapped between our pressed bodies and they are on his chest. "Then why?! Why did you push me away?"

"Because I thought you don't love me. Because I thought that you're just toying with me. And most of all, because I am so stupid that I can't just bring myself give in to the temptation of confessing to you right there and then!"

He slowly pulls away but he keeps a tight grip on me as if he doesn't want to go away. And I will never. "I love you. I don't care if you're with Castiel. I don't care if my sister hates you. All I care about right now is how you feel about me…"

"I…" should I tell him? But before my brain can construct a proper sentence, my own heart has done it for me: "I love you…"

~~~~~~~~~The nest day (Saturday)~~~~~~~~

Knock. Knock.

I open the door and it reveals the two special persons in my life: my best friend and my boyfriend.

Right after Nathaniel's and my confession to each other, I decided that I should and I really had to tell and explain to Castiel. But Nathaniel beat me to it. I thought that they ended up fighting but guess what? Castiel seemed okay with it and he just congratulated Nathaniel but he said it with a threat: "Screw up and I will take her…for sure."

"Uhm… What are you doing here together?" I smile at them and then a silly thought comes over me. "Don't tell me that you two are—"

"I already planned yesterday that I should pay you a visit," Castiel cuts me off. "But when I arrived, this idiot here arrived, too," he sends a smirk—or is it a glare?—towards Nathaniel.

"Well, I'm here to take my girlfriend out on a date," Nathaniel shots back. "Do you want to be our chaperone?"

"Humph!" Castiel just crosses his arms. "You're just lucky that she still loves you. If it wasn't for your 'unexpected' confession, it should've been me whom she loves right now." He smirks at him but I can tell that under that cocky attitude of his that he meant what he said. And that makes me somehow guilty.

But I know that Castiel understands how I feel. I'm sure that he wants me to be happy. And I am sure that someday, he'll find a perfect girl for him. My mind drifts to Amber. I mentally chuckle. The two are somehow a match, if you look at their both equally proud and snobby attitude.

But for now, I am happy to know that the guy that I have loved for so long loves me, too. And I know, even if this story had to end, our love won't.

Because, Nathaniel loves me and I love him. And I will bet my life on it!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~fin~~~~~~~~~

(A/N: Another story down! Hahahaha! I am really laughing while I'm writing the previous chapters! I am laughing because of Nathaniel's 'emotional misery'! Take that Nattie! Anyways, THANK YOU ALL FOR READING AND FOR THE REVIEWS! Mwah! Love 'ya all! And sorry if some '~~~~' which I usually use to indicate change of POV and/or scene are missing...I dont know why but for some reason, they are missing everytime i post a story...T.T

Next stop: Castiel. Since I've finished torturing Nathaniel emotionally, I need to torture Castiel's feelings now! And since I know that all of us are nearly crying our hearts out because of Episode 16, I will base my Castiel Story in that! With the special appearance of our favorite (must-killed) bitch: Debrah!

And to those who doesn't want this story to end...I'm sorry but my plot bunnies ran away again... Nethie! I need your bunnies NOW! But I'm currently making a Castiel story right now... So don't worry...

That's all for now! Thank you!

Oyasumi ze~)

By the way, requests are open~ ;) Nya~

And also./..I need your help with Castiel story...who do you like to be his rival?

Should I do A CastielXRandomOCXNAthaniel

or CastielXRandomOCXKentin?

Review the love triangle of your choice please...I just have one week to decided...X3 Thank you