Chapter 4

Till I forget about you

Disclamer: I may not always post this but um for those who don't know my name is Alexander nice to meet you if I owned this it would not be on fanfiction

pre A/n The big time rush cd was a gift from my special someone XD and this song was on it I believe as it magically appeared on my ipod after syncing the cd. I tried to explain I was into big time rush when I was a kid(of course by this I mean 17 ), but they just laughed at me, laughed!, so as this had been decided by me as our unofficial song as I am pretty sure this music revolts said person who won't give me the rights to the name that rhymes with ummmmm... never mind I don't want to be

and um I apologize for the um MAJOR Kenlos in here it is Kames just give me time lol

Oh and I blame the terribleness of this on the crunkcore playing in my room as I am typing lol

I looked down at the food offered to me and grimaced in disgust, ignoring the fact that my mother's eyes were boring into my skull, making me wondering if this is what having heat vision would be like. The food looked something of what would happen if.. Let's say a dog and a pig mated and instead of the mammal giving regular birth, it shit out the kid all over my mom's precious, porcelain plates. I sighed staring it down at what appeared to be an eye.

I smiled slightly, sitting up a little straighter, as I began noticing a pair of daggers in my shoulder. It had only been a couple of hours since Carlos and I had begun our plan and it was already doing marvel to James. I felt them get hotter as they began to burn holes in my arm, before they disappeared and went to somewhere behind me, I heard loud clumsy footsteps that obviously came from Carlos, but I pretended to be completely surprised and unknowing as fingers crawled over my eyes and a voice whispered in my ear, "Guess who." loud enough for James to hold back a dry heave.

I smiled "Logan?" I asked a smile on my face I heard a giggle like a little girl and he bit slightly on my ear. I gasped, oddly enough Carlos was amazing at this whole acting thing.

He giggled slightly, "Did that ring any bells," he smiled kissing my jaw bone his hands falling to my shoulders, "what about that?" I shivered slightly as he released me my body suddenly cold, it was interesting as much as I enjoyed Carlos' little nips and kisses, it was still nothing compared to the brief brushes James and I had enjoyed.

My thoughts were interrupted by a loud cough from James, "Get a room will you, Logan and I," James stated, hands planted firmly on his hips as he nodded to Logan who was blushing terribly and probably trying to figure out why he was so jealous, "don't want to see that."

Carlos looked at me, a mischievous grin laying on his face as he glanced over quickly to make sure the other two were watching. "You know I was thinking, how about we go into your room and maybe..." he smiled his hot breath wrapping around my jaw.

I stood there for a second my mouth gaped open forgetting that everyone was watching, had Carlos really just said that, I looked the other boys from the corner of my eyes and snapped back into the game. "Maybe.." I growled slightly, only to be met by a slap almost as hard as one Camille gives.

I stood perfectly still seeing pure rage in Carlos' eyes, "What kind of slut do you think I am!" he pushed me slightly, sending me backwards, and causing me to grab his wrists pulling him down with me. His helmet rolled toward the kitchen area, which by then I had forgotten was filled with the other guys, he giggled slightly and I chuckled softly along with him.

"Okay, he whispered pulling himself up, "maybe I am a bit of a slut, but I am your slut." He smiled running over to grab his helmet and kissing it gently before slipping it on his head.

Logan glared at me slightly and I saw Carlos' smile grow, I smiled back grabbing his hand in mine and saying, "How 'bout just some pizza and a good old movie where the Monkey make things explode..."

Carlos squealed and began to run towards the TV when he paused, spinning towards me , spinning completely around on his heel. He smiled at me the same way he had after the movie we had watched early that day. "Well, we could do that or we could have a," he paused his grin growing, "social gathering!"

I smiled slightly laughing at the joy that was glinting in his eyes, but there was something else there too, he had a plan, I was sure of it. He proved the point by grabbing me by the collar and pulling us both into the kitchen bathroom.

"I would say we have about 2 minutes before James talks Logie into pressing his ear against the door." he said smiling wistfully at the boys name. I was just beginning to wonder when Carlos became so smart. I wasn't sure if his theories were true yet, but we would just have to wait and see.

Carlos slowly continued onward and said, "So today at the party we are going to dance and dance and dance." I giggled slightly earning a stern stare from Carlos.

As my laughing died down Carlos looked up at me with the same distasteful look a teacher might give her worst student, "Eventually James will ask for a dance, you will say yes and I will bribe our DJ to make the song a slow one. I will be hunting down Logie and probably ripping him away from Camille. After that dance we have two choices; 1 we could smile say thanks go to walk away and possibly be kissed or leaving them to think, 2) we could both wear helmets and smash them into their heads till they have to love us if they want to live." His smile grew and I knew though joking he was slightly hoping for option 2.

I turned and looked at the door hearing a slight thud as someone taller than Logan placed his head on it along with a gentler one that barely made a sound. I looked down at Carlos who was smiling mischievously again, and I knew what he was thinking. "You mean we are going to make them think we are?" I whispered pausing knowing he knew what I meant.

He nodded and smiled before slamming his head against the medicine cabinet, "Oh Kendallllll," he moaned a smirk on his lips, "I love it when your rough with me it hurts soooo good." He nodded at me urging me on, and I smiled happy to oblige

I groaned slightly, "I need to be with your right now." I smiled slightly holding back laughter as Carlos continued to moan and I went along with him.

Carlos paused un zipping his jacket slightly, taking of his shoes and socks, and messing around with his jean legs. "Kendall it feels so good!" He moaned suddenly as he too at this point was holding back laughter.

I glance slightly at the door, "Are we going all the way?" I whispered into his ear gaining another rattle of the door as someone was trying to figure out what I had said.

"As much as I want us to be seen as man whores I suppose not." he said a twinge of lust in his voice. I nodded slightly and sucked on my thumb trying to create the affects of what I guess we were doing instead.

"Kendall I'm gonna-" he screamed eyes darting around, deciding to grabs some acne cream and squeeze it not exactly sure what sound it would make in someones mouth. I swallowed my saliva and smiled giggling slightly like a little girl.

"Well for my first fake first time," Carlos whispered as we got rid to exit the room messing up each others hair and clothes a bit, Carlos making it look like he gripped onto my hair, "It was quite fun!" And with a cheeky smile and a minor blush he opened the door pretending not to notice how the boys were conveniently leaning against the wall next to the door both blushing madly and slightly glaring at us. I looked James in the eye licking my fingers seductively, watching as he turned his head away in surprise.

I blushed a deep red for a second, I felt like such a slut, and not in the good way either, but that I am no longer pure way. Yet, the worst part is I hadn't even done anything... Yet.

xXx

Carlos and I were sharing a dance at the moment pretending to grind while keeping a small distance from actually touching each other. Carlos was laughing at the lyrics of the song and declaring it as our song. I listened carefully to the words as Carlos sung along, "Eenie Meanie minnie moe so much bitches at our show, a different state a different hoe, which of them should I take home?" The song then went on to listing every girl he has ever had ever fucked. I supposed this "Crunkcore" would work for the purpose of our situation. As the song ended I saw James nod at Logan and descended into the crowd, in what I guess was a plan Logan and him planned which corresponded perfectly with our own.

James grabbed my hand "May I have this dance?" He asked Hazel eyes smoldering into my own, I glanced at Carlos who saluted me in an inside joke type of way running off to Guitar dude, who was running the DJ station, and as he sent me a thumbs up as the music started. But then Logan was up whispering a song into Guitar Dude's ear and he nodded about to press play, when Carlos shook his head and whispered our choice into his ear and Guitar Dude nodded ready to start it off.

By now the room had become slightly silent as Logan stuck his hands on his hips and shouted, "Listen up we are playing my song!" He had a stern look on his face as he stared down Carlos.

"No," Carlos yelled back, "we are playing my song!" a stern look being returned as Guitar man just stood there watching in awe.

"Don't you back talk me with those pretty little lips of yours." He said then pausing and blushing at his words.

Carlos smiled slightly, "You think They're cute?" he shifted so one foot was on its tiptoe rubbing into the ground.

"Well yeah they are well proportioned and all so they are rather appealing..." Logan said his voice getting quieter .

Carlos smiled a innocent grin being replaced with on of mischief, "Would you like to try them out on your own?" The whole room stood in awe at what they were witnessing, even Camille who had take a break from trying to hit me to stare in pure anger and jealousy at Carlos.

"Yes." Logan growled his voice getting husky as his lips crashed into Carlos' in pure lust as they ravenously ate each others lips.

Guitar Dude coughed slightly and said, "How about we give the two love sharks some room and take it down slow with the request the two gentlemen both asked for, so dudes find yourself a fine looking lady and hold her close letting her know how much you love her," he turned for a second looking at Carlos and Logan and added before starting the song , "or him."

I felt James' smile on me and I was about to turn to dance when Jo taped my shoulder and said, "Hey Kendall would you dance with me?" I smiled nodding slightly in dissapointment and walked away not daring to look back.

(James POV for the point of my dramatic ass being satisfied)

I watched a Jo set he head in the nook between his neck and shoulder, watching them sway, she whispered something and Kendall giggled holding her closer. She was probably saying something along the lines of 'We can make some cute babies together that will crush all Diamond's hearts for the rest of eternity'. 'Maybe imaginary Jo is right,' I thought to myself, "Kendall always wanted a son, I can't give that to him. And I was such an ass to him I wouldn't blame him for wanting Jo."

The chorus of the first words of the song started and I reminded myself wether broken bone or broken heart the show must go on, and through a cracky throat I began to sing staring softly at Kendall hoping he had a good life even if after this single day of mine I was never sure I would get one, "Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time."

I watched as they swayed and I slowly backed away to disappear into the crowd, "Surely you can take some comfort knowing that your mine."

As I walked out of the room I locked eyes with Kendall and whispered, "Just hold me tight, lay by my side and let me be the one who calls me baby all the time, I found my place in the world, I could stare at your face for the rest of my days. Now I can breath.." As I walked out I found these words completely un true as I ran to 2J wrapping myself in my blanket, sobs forcing themselves up my backed up throat. James Diamond never cries, but then I realized it was because James Diamond had it easy, he had friends who would do anything for him. 'Hell they already had and now that I have reached the first thorn of the rose I realized not even the smell or beauty of it mattered any more, just the immense pain radiating from where he had touched it.'

I wiped a tear from my cheek and smiled at myself in the reflection of my bedside mirror and picked away my flaws, but then I realized that I couldn't get love till I loved myself

(Back to Kendall POV)

I watched as James backed away into the crowd whispering something, I let go of Jo turning around to go after James, but her hand caught mine, "Kendall what are you doing." she asked her voice stern yet filled with a slight concern as were green eyes as the glinted slightly in the party lights.

I hugged her kiss the top of her head inhaling slightly, it was the smell of vanilla and though it was calming it did nothing for me like the day we met. So, as I let my hands drop I whispered, "To set things right." And with that I was out the door and into the front lobby, I smiled slightly pushing down on the up button of the elevator exterior and waited. I tapped my foot slightly pressing it again when it did not open, and again, and again. I sighed in exasperation running up the stairs not caring that as I did so the elevator door opened. I forced open the door to the second floor running down the hall way to 2J. I fiddled with my key struggling to get it in fast enough. I finally got it open and called out the taller boys name getting nothing but silence in return. I ran to our room and fiddled with the door handle "James?" I called again getting a screaming silence calling out in the eerie darkness of the empty hotel room. I shook the door handle slightly thinking of a way to get it open.

"James?" I repeated finally leaning against the door in defeat, listening to the silence whispering negative thoughts into my subconscious mind. I repeated myself one more time this time receiving mumbled words in response.

I called out again, "James, open the door please." I sighed pressing my ear against the door preparing to listen to him.

"Go fuck on the couch." James mumbled a pain in his voice I couldn't quite understand. I sighed trying to figure what the fuck he was talking about coming up with nothing, but a possibility he was mental.

"James just open the door." I said through my teeth in an as calm as way as possible despite the fact it was simular to yanking it out of my ass.

"I don't want to be around..." he started, but his voice got groggy and too low for me to make out completely, so I stayed silent until he repeated himself. "I don't want to be around a man whore!"

I fumed turning around and out the door slamming the door shut and walking, almost running, to the elevator doors which sled open to a mid-kiss Carlos and Logan. I walked in basically pushing them out and stood cemented to place as their wide eyes of surprise were slowly shut out by metal doors. "Man whore hmmm I'll give him a man whore," I screamed at myself mentally marching out to the pool area, "but who..." I paced slightly back and forth before setting eyes on Jo, smiling apologetically and gleamed as she in understanding. "One," I took a look around and eyed Camille and shot her a look of sympathy she just shrugged and slapped me, before walking away a smirk on her lips. "Two." There had to be someone else, someone, my head collided with someone else's and I fell backwards the person falling against me.

"Oh, shit man I'm so sorry..." the voice whispered lifting me up the callused fingers brushing against my own sending electric jolts throughout my body. I looked the body over ,smiling at it slyly, the body was of a male, the body just a bit taller than James, the top of the body covered in brown locks that splayed in different ways as if it had been gelled into perfection. As I scanned down I met ice blue eyes contrasting a nice tan that I suspected was given to him by luck of genes, the face the eyes, button nose, and full lips belonged to wasn't terrible either receiving a mental not of almost as sexy as James' own. Continuing down I met broad shoulders the muscle defined obviously on the shirtless body and further on you would meet a 6 pack twitching slightly as the male moved, the ass below it wasn't that bad though and it would soon join my dreams later that night.

He smirked at me examining my own body, which sadly compared to his wasn't much to talk about, he extended a hand slowly as if baiting a wild animal and said "Matthew, Mathew Rosa, nice to meet you."

I obliged to the gesturing hand and took it shaking it in my own, "Kendall Knight, same to you." I wrapped my arm around my arm around his shoulder.

"So what brings you to the palm woods?" I asked gesturing around, pretending I actually gave a shit.

"I'm thinking about modeling." He replied his eyes twinkling in delight as if it were amazing any one wanted him to model. Yet, I wasn't surprised even now he looked like he walked out of a modeling poster.

I was suddenly curious and asked, "What company hired you?" the possibilities ringing in my mind thinking of which items I could buy with him on it without looking weird for buying it.

"Oh, um," he paused racking his mind before he remembered a smile growing on his face, "Cuda products hired me, yep." I smiled back at him and snickered to myself this was just too perfect.

He looked at his watch before gasping, "I gotta go my mom and dad are expecting me back in a few minutes see you, he paused racking what seemed to be a very forgetful brain before saing, "Kendall!"

I snickered as I walked back inside, he was a nice kid, I would almost feel bad for using him as I was about to, almost. And as I made my way to the safety of the orange couch I smiled half whispering half thinking the words I had finally gotten to say.

"Three"

A/N: Okay so in the end here not so much about Til I forget about you as I thought It would be, blame the crunk man blame the crunk. Or no blame the idiot playing the crunk, if you are reading this Jk jk love you sweety lol. But yeah I think this is the longest chapter so far it is longer than the past three put together. Should I keep them this long if I do I will update once ia week, I guess if I keep it at like 1,500 wirds limit I can do it twice or 3 times a week oh well feel review to decide ill post the official posting days next time. Um, I feel so blind right now sorry I broke my glasses :D.

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Yes I suppose he is but I feel as f I could of done so much more for the relation ship I had this idea where carlos really loved kendall but it was shot down and I was told to save that for a kenlos story which I just may lol

And, um, yeah hope you liked it and um I apologize again for the suckiness.

Oh and for the songs feel free to look them up we have:

Yellow Bus – Brokencyde

Smother me- the used

and yeah again enjoy :D