A/N – Sorry I haven't updated lately but I've been busy with school and volleyball. I will try to update more frequently. I hope you like it and as I said before if I don't get more than 10 reviews for this chapter I will end my story. Sorry but the reviews keep me writing and no reviews no motivation…and I don't want ten reviews from the same person.

Chapter 3- The walk

I could have sworn I saw Charlie smiling before we left. What had he and Jacob talked about? That was the least of my worries right now. I slowly started to think about Alice's letter part by part, in my mind. The locket still hung from my neck and I squeezed it as I thought about who was inside it.

First, I was sort of happy that I was apparently starting to get on Rosalie's good side. Why the hell would Edward leave for MY own good, this surely wasn't doing me any good. I wanted to believe what Alice said about Edward s till loving me, but I couldn't I would never believe he loved me not after what he said.

Finally the last part; don't you dare do something stupid or dramatic; too late. Had Alice seenme trying to die? I wasn't regretting it, but maybe next time I would be faster. Apparently Jacob noticed that I was distracted. I hadn't realized that we had driven in my truck to First Beach in La Push. "Bella what is going on inside that head of yours?" Jacob asked stopping at "our" spot.

"You don't want to get inside my head Jacob, trust me it's a scary place." …Especially when I was thinking about suicide and the love of my life leaving…I squeezed the locket harder. "You're thinking about him aren't you?" he was kicking a pebble across the sand. "Is that noticeable?" I let go of the locket.

"Bella have you ever had a secret that you couldn't tell anyone, not Charlie or your mom, a secret you couldn't even tell me?" Where the frick (a/n sorry that my word) did that question come from…..had I said something about my secret? I felt my eyes tighten and he took that as a yes.

"I'm in that situation right now, Bella but I really want to tell you." He squeezed my hand (I hadn't realized that we still holding hands) "Sorry Jacob I'm, but I'm confused what are you tying to say?"

"Maybe if you guessed it!" I was still confused what was he talking about." Guess what?!?" I was getting frustrated and couldn't understand what he getting at.

"My secret silly!" he giggled no he chuckled. Now there was a secret! Gawd Jacob was so confusing." So you want me guess?" I might as well play along and pretend I understand.

"Yeah!" He had a wide smile on his face. "Jacob Black are you gay?!" I let out a small gasp. "Bella be serious." He wasn't giving up. "Bi-sexual?" I shrugged and let out a giggle. "BELLA!" He was getting really mad!

"Hey I'm just saying and you told me to guess. Plus the gorgeous guys are always gay or bi!" Oops that last part wasn't supposed to come out. I covered my mouth with both hands. "Are you saying I'm gorgeous?" He had a smirk on his face that almost looked evil.

"I just rolled my eyes and let out a scoff. "Bella?" he raised an eyebrow. "Yes! Are you happy now back to you secret please?" I wasn't going to lie he was gorgeous , but my heart would always belong to Edward, even if he didn't want it.

"Okay, um do you remember when we first met?" I made a small noise. "Um, no it was a long time ago and I was sort of forced to hang out with your sisters." He chuckled. "No Bella I mean here on this beach."

"Oh yeah of course I do." I was embarrassed for what I said 2 seconds earlier. "Okay tell me about it then." I wasn't sure where this was going. "Okay well we talked about my truck and the Rabbit." I stopped "Yes keep going." he wasn't giving up. "We walked down the beach……"

I could feel the heat rising up into my cheeks as I remembered asking him to walk and flirting (badly but successfully). "Yes…and?" his words were tense. "You told me some Quileute legends."

"Do you remember all of the…leg...le-." he couldn't finish I didn't know why, so I finished for him. "All the legends sort of…yes…why?" "Think about it Bella" I did. "Well there was something about boats, one with um…" I swallowed hard. "Um one with vampires and then one with ware-.."

His eyes were really wide almost popping out of his head. "Ha Ha Ha ….Jacob you aren't expecting me to believe that you're a….oh Jacob you really are aren't you?" It was all slowly sinking in.

Jacob crushed me in a bear hug or wolf hug that just about broke my ribs. I slowly pushed away and stepped back. He looked really confused. "Bella I'm just so glad you know! I hadn't been here in forever because the pack thought it wasn't safe, but when I heard he left I had t come."

I clutched my head in my hands to keep it from exploding. But my mind had a mind of its own. "This cant be real. My best friend a werewolf and my boyfriend a-" Bella don't you mean your ex-boyfriend is a vampire?" My mouth fell open and pain filled my body.

"How do you know?" Jacob shook. His hands trembled. His eyes were filled with fury. "It's the reason we exist. Because they do!" I stared. "But that doesn't make any sense! They're gone now! This isn't fair! Why cant everyone just be human?"

Jacob smiled at me laughing at my reaction. "Bella, I AM human. I can still feel everything. Pain, Anger, Love." Jacob smiled and leaned in…….