Okay! So..sorry about the super long wait! I had a bit of a writers block and life caught up with me but I'm back in the grove now! Hopefully I'll have a longer chapter up later today or tomorrow. This chapter is a little short, and it's in Charlie's POV, but the next one will be longer, this was just a bit of a filler really. Well I'll let you get on with it! Shout out to my beta, ceville143!
Chapter 3 of Love, Harpies and Dragons
She doesn't know. She doesn't know why she wishes it wasn't me. This feeling of disappointment floods through me, although I'm not sure what I expected her to say.
Because I love you, Charlie, yea..I guess that was what I was hoping for. But, Gwenog would never say that. Of course not, she's the bloody sexiest woman in the Wizarding World, who has all sorts of guys proposing to her…daily! How could I even compare?
I couldn't even compare when we were in school. Our relationship never existed to the outside world. And maybe never even really existed to her.
I let go of her. This is where my wounds begin to bleed, it's like seeing her picked a scab for me, making the pain and blood return all over again.
"O-Oh," I stammer. "What are you doing here," I ask softly not sure what to say as she pulls away also, but still standing close enough to feel her warm breath against my cheek.
"The war…I kind of fought in it too," she replies with a shadow of a smirk. I remember when I would kiss that sexy smirk off her face, and make her forget why she even smirked in the first place. I shudder.
I need to get rid of these thoughts, she'll never be mine.
"Right," I murmur and look away. "So…where's your newest boyfriend…Declan Turner, I think, right? Plays for the Tornadoes? At least that's what the paper said that you two were..intimate," I say softly but I can't help the snippy tone or the jealousy in my words, I just hope she doesn't notice it.
"I'm not seeing anyone currently, Charlie," Gwenog replied as she crossed her arms over her chest, and shifting her weight onto her good leg, as she cocked her head. A look of disbelief and anger…no is that hurt on her face. I shook the thought away, why would she be hurt if she has the boyfriend? "What about you, Charles? Any hot Romanians back at your reserve?" she growled and I could almost swear I could sense jealousy rolling off of her in waves. But what did she have anything to be jealous of.
"Course not, I haven't even dated since school," I snapped, and then blushed when I realize I just told her that she was my last girlfriend. I could never date a girl, not when I knew I would never be able to give them what they searched for, love, because my heart already belonged to another.
That's why it would have never worked with Tonks and I, we didn't love each other like that. We were friends, she had fallen for Remus, and well…I had fallen a long time before that.
Her eyes widened in surprise, and did I see happiness in her eyes? She was happy I hadn't dated anyone else since her. "Y-You haven't?" she squeaked, and I can't believe I just heard the girl I was madly in love with squeak that had to be the first time I had ever heard that noise come from her.
I nodded, "Nobody since..since y'know," I murmur softly looking down, I can feel that tall tale Weasley blush creeping up my cheeks and settling there. Great. Now I look like a total buffoon.
"Did you…hear about my retirement? From the Harpies?" she asked quietly.
I shook my head and looked up a confused expression on my face, "You're..you're retiring? Why?" I asked, if anybody had told me that I would have laughed in their face, I thought she'd never retire, ever.
"Yes…I'm looking for something else currently…I was actually planning on stopping by your famous reserve to catch up once everything was finalized," she said quietly blushing.
My Gwenog, doesn't blush, ever, she was too confident, too self-assured for that kind of thing. I think that's why I was caught off guard. "R-Really? I kind of thought you didn't want anything to do with me…y'know after graduation," I answered her, and looking away.
"I don't hate you, Charlie, I never did. It tore me apart when we didn't talk at all," she sighed softly.
Oh Merlin's great beard, why did she have to sigh! It makes me think of how it felt for her to sigh against my lips, when we kissed or when I would massage the kinks and soreness out of her muscles after a Quidditch match or practice. Contrary to belief I loved giving her massages it gave me free reign to give her pleasure and satisfaction while simultaneously touching her.
I need to stop.
Like, now.
I'm digging myself into a deeper hole!
And she was torn apart! Suddenly anger filled me when what she said finally registered with me. "YOU were torn apart? I was torn apart! I told you I loved you and that I wanted to tell everyone that we were together and you DUMPED me. I couldn't think or see straight for months. Merlin, and after all that I STILL love you!" I growled and turned around on my heel, the words just poured out of me, I'm not really quite sure what I just said.
I stormed out of the infirmary, maybe I can go find out if the Astronomy Tower is up and see if the anti-suicide charms are still on it.
What did you think? I kind of liked how he was caught up on the sigh...and then got upset. Haha. Anyways, let me know what you think of my last sentence I thought it was a bit charming, don't you? Yes, I'm seeking compliments, my bad...but, it's what keeps my writing! Thanks for reading and Please Review! :)
