Hey guys, I'm really sorry that I haven't updated in a while I've just been REALLY busy with Christmas things. I LOVE Christmas by the way, it's probably my favourite time of year. So yes I do apologize, and I also apologize for the shortness of this chapter. But I finally caught a break today and got right into writing this chapter, I just had to get a chapter up for you before Christmas day. So yes it is rather short but I promise the next chapter will be longer.

Thankyou to everyone who reviewed, followed and favourited my story.

Pre warning Katniss has like a mini breakdown in this chapter. Trust me it isn't that bad but it's a chink in her armour.

Quote of the day: You've got dirt on the side of your nose by the way, did you know? Just there. - Hermione Granger. I know it isn't an insperational quote but this is my favourite Hermione Granger quote haha.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL!

Chapter Four

"Ah Katniss, Peeta, it's lovely to see you both again." President Snow greets in his cool tone that sends shivers down my spine. I feel my scowl form on my face and my stance become rigid, I glance over at Peeta and see him in a similar pose to me. In any other situation I would probably laugh but this is Snow, I can't let my guard down even for a second.

"President Snow, to what do we owe the pleasure?" Peeta asks calmly. I seriously don't know how Peeta holds himself together so well.

"Why don't you take a seat?" President Snow suggests. We sit in the two chairs he's pointing to. How is it that I feel like I'm an unwanted guest? This is my house, shouldn't he be the uncomfortable guest? "Now why don't we agree not to lie to one another?" Snow continues.

"Why would we lie? We have nothing to hide." I spit. See? Peeta's the calm one and I'm the fiery one.

"Let's hope so Miss Everdeen."

I'm starting to grow impatient, seriously he needs to stop the small talk and get right to the point, I want him out of my house. "I doubt you make many personal trips, so why are you here?" I surprise myself by sounding more in control than what I am really feeling.

He folds his hands on the desk and leans forward a little, "Well you see I have a little issue."

"What sort of issue?" I ask, slightly curious.

"Does it involve us?" Peeta asks a second after me.

"Indeed Mr Mellark, it does involve the both of you." he nods along with his words. "Now the problem is starting to get out of hand. It started when you, Miss Everdeen pulled out those damn berries."

I'm confused by this. What the hell is he talking about? What has this so called 'issue' have anything to do with the berries? "I don't fully understand President Snow, what exactly is the problem?" Peeta asks.

"Well you see when those berries were pulled out it gave the districts a little hope. Hope that if a little girl from the outcast district could defy the Capital then why couldn't they? You Miss Everdeen are causing me a lot of grief."

"I still don't see the problem?" I ask.

"He means that the districts are planning a rebellion, and that we are the cause, more so you, Katniss." Peeta quickly explains.

"How is that my fault? I only did it to save Peeta and myself." I argue.

"Oh I know that Miss Everdeen and so does the rest of Panem but some districts also believe you did it as a rebellious act."

"So what your saying is because of what we did the districts are planning a rebellion?" I ask just to confirm I heard right.

"That's exactly what I'm saying Miss Everdeen."

"What do you want us to do about it?" I ask warily.

He smiles a tight lipped smile, I think I prefer him to not smile, because his smile is creepy. It doesn't hold any warmth or life like a smile should hold. "I'm glad you asked Miss Everdeen, I need you two to convince the districts that you did it all for love and not to defy the capital."

"And how are we supposed to do that?" I demand.

"Easy Miss Everdeen all you need to do is prove your underlying love." I freeze he isn't suggesting what I think he's suggesting is he?

"How do we know if what we do is enough?" Peeta asks.

"Convince me. If you convince me then there is no doubt in my mind that the districts will have been convinced that your actions were purely out of love." He sneers the word 'love' like he's explaining something off. "Now I best be going. It was wonderful to see you both. I do hope you keep what I said in mind." And with that he stands up and walks out of my office.

Moments pass before I find my voice, "Did he seriously mean what I think he meant?"

"I think he did Katniss."

"He wants you to propose to me?" I gasp. I feel like I can't breathe. Marriage one of my three things in life that I have never wanted.

"Katniss?"

"He wants us to get married?" I breathe. No this cannot be happening. I don't want that, I don't want to get married especially if it isn't my choice. I feel like the air has been ripped from my lungs, I can't breathe I can't think. I feel my heart racing faster and faster like it's about to explode.

"Breathe Katniss." Peeta says as he grasps my arm firmly.

No marriage led to kids and I don't want kids; ever. I couldn't put them through losing a parent or both, it just isn't fair to bring a life into this world especially if the child happened to have Victors for parents. That would just equal a death sentence. No I can't get married…

"Katniss look at me." I hear Peeta demand, I want to but I just can't. It's like my body has just shut down on me and only my mind is working. I feel his warm hands rest on either cheek and he forces my face to face his. I slowly bring my eyes up to meet his.

His eyes are apologetic but also filled with worry. "It's ok Katniss. It's just me, Peeta. You're Peeta. Even if we do get engaged it isn't real we can still be just Katniss and Peeta just only when we are within the Capitals sights we become the star-crossed lovers. Even if we have to get engaged it doesn't change anything. It will not change the way I feel about you I will still love you. And I doubt it will change anything between us. It will just be a ring Katniss. That's the only difference."

"Really?" I squeak, I hate appearing weak but marriage is a massive fear of mine and trust me I don't have many.

"I swear Katniss. It will still be the same. It won't change anything between us." He rests his forehead against mine and our eyes lock together.

I let out a deep breath. "Ok Peeta."

He smiles brightly at me. "Good, now let's go start planning for our family dinner!" he exclaims excitedly. I can see his excitement dancing in his eyes, he must really want these dinners…

"Sure Peeta. When do you want to have it?"

"How about Friday? That gives us enough time to plan it and gives everyone enough notice too."

"Ok." I agree easily. Hey, I don't want to ruin Peeta's happiness. When you see Peeta's cute boyish smile it puts a smile on your face and you would do anything to keep it there, no matter how your feeling.

"We should have it here, I'll do all the cooking and preparing. Oh we could have lamb stew I know that's your favourite…" I zone out to what he's saying, I just can't concentrate. I'm still uneasy about the whole marriage thing. Do I really want to marry Peeta? No. Do I want to someday? Maybe, but right now or soon anyway just doesn't seem right. Especially since we have to do it. We don't get a choice!

I compare my relationship with Peeta to the relationship of Gale and Madge. It's just so different, theirs is carefree and they can do whatever they want without being told what to do, whereas ours just seems to be controlled. Hell even I'm starting to question what's real and what isn't. I just wish I wasn't being controlled by the capital, by Snow. I want to make my own decisions, and someday I will. That's a promise I'll make for my-self and my Peeta.

"Katniss? Katniss!" I feel Peeta jolt my shoulders slightly. I jump when I'm welcomed back to reality. I lost my-self in my thoughts.

"What?" I snap.

"Are you ok? I know you're worried about the marriage thing, so am I but we'll work it out together. ok?"

"Yeah I know that Peeta."

"Then what are you thinking about?" he asks, concern written all over his face.

I place a smile on my face, "Just how excited Prim is going to be about the new family dinners."

"You're a terrible liar Katniss." Peeta chuckles. I grimace, I know I'm a shocking liar. "We'll talk about it later. Ok? Now we should probably go see your mother and let her know we're still here."

"Yeah, that might be a good idea. I'm sure Primmy is worried sick too…"

"Then let's go settle their fears!" Peeta jumps up and pulls me up with him. I let out a giggle at his abruptness. He takes a firm grasp of my hand before he leads me out to the lounge room, where I'm sure mother is waiting. Here comes the whole explanation thing I guess. But I realize I don't want to talk to my mother, I want to talk to my mentor, Haymitch. He'll know what to do. He seems to always know what to do.

Tomorrow we were defiantly going to talk to Haymitch. I don't care what else happens tomorrow, the only thing that had to be done is to see the drunken Haymitch.

So yeah that was the short chapter. Tomorrow is Christmas for me so I won't be updating tomorrow. I hope to update on Thursday because that's my day off haha.

I hope the chapter was ok. Next chapter will have the first family dinner, the talk with Haymitch and Katniss going back to the forrest. I haven't written a chapter with her in her in her environment since the start of I'm falling for you.

Anyway I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas! :D