"mummy I need a wee wee"

That was never the best words to hear from your toddler when in the car with your boyfriend, but luckily for Astrid she had one with a sense of humour.

"it's okay bud we are just driving into the road the house is on" hiccup smirked glancing over to Astrid as she slowly sunk into her seat. The drive wasn't that long from Astrid's, it's about a 10 -15-minute drive at the max but there is something about a little voice from the back every 5 seconds saying "are we there yet" that makes it so much more longer. Hiccup didn't mind of course he thought it was cute how impatient the boy was just like his mother was when she was his age. But that still didn't make it less annoying.

Hiccup turned left, and drove in the middle of the long drive that has an entrance of two large metal gates. Of course Astrid had been here before when she was young and throughout her teenage years, so nothing had really changed but to ollie it was like driving into one of those medieval castles they have in his many, many dragon books.

This was all new to him, and of course being as young as he is he was excited over the little things. Hiccup came to a halt once her parked the car on the drive. He opened his door and watched as Astrid got out and then went to aid ollie.

"hey hic is the toilet still where it used to be" she shouted from the other side of the car as she closed the door as soon as she got the boy out.

"err yeah"

She lifted the boy up into her arms and carried him to the front door, hiccup trailing behind. She opened the two large doors and left it open for hiccup to enter. The entrance of the house, as expected, was large and old fashioned yet beautiful. With two large stair cases at the side of them, of course ollie didn't really get a look that long as Astrid carried him upstairs and straight to the toilet. Hiccup walked in and closed the doors behind him, he thought he best make his parents aware that they were here or they would have a fit if they saw a young boy walking around the house.

" mom? Dad? It's me hiccup" he shouted. As first he heard nothing but then he heard footsteps on the main corridor, which was soon followed by his mum and dad.

"oh hiccup, you're here and we were thinking you guys chickened out" Valka said as she came walking up to him, welcoming him into a hug.

"I don't know if I should be offended by that" he replied hugging her back.

"well don't, I knew you were coming, now where is our favourite girl" stoick said from behind clapping his hands together.

"err she has taken ollie upstairs to the toilet" hiccup answered as he rubbed his neck with his hand look up towards the staircase wondering when they will come down.

"oh, who's ollie" stoick said confused.

"dad I told you"

This only made him more confused "you did?" but before hiccup could answer, Val stepped in.

"yes stoick, he did. Ollie his Astrid's 2-year-old son" then his head became clear.

"oh yes, you know I totally forgot, I still can't believe that she has a son."

"yeah I know" said hiccup. But before they could continue they heard voices from upstairs, a woman's and a little boy's.

"I like it, it's like a castle, like the ones in the dwagons books. Wiv kings wiv swaords and pinssess." The little boy said.

"yeah it is"

"and, and old." The comment made hiccup snigger a little, he knew his parents never liked their house being called old, but children speak their mind half the time.

The two figures came clearer as they came down the staircase, Astrid was in the left holding the hand of ollie who was on the right.

"okay ollie let me help you down the stairs" Astrid said getting ready to pick him up.

"no, no I do it" the little man insisted. With his hand still in his mothers, the little boy made his way down each step as a time. It took a while but soon enough he was on the ground floor again.

" iccup? Iccup? Did you see? I did it" chuffed ollie said waddling over to where hiccup stood.

He crouched down so he was about the same height to him "I did; big boy you are" poking his stomach making his giggle. Astrid came up behind and greeted the two people she hasn't seen in years.

"Val, stoick it's so good to see you again" she hugged them both.

"oh Astrid, you too" val said. Hugging her back.

However, all attention was brought back on the little boy again who was yet not been introduced.

"hey ollie I'd like to introduce you to my mum and dad" hiccup said pointing to the two of them to him. Yet ollie being the shy boy he is kept his distance and his mouth closed.

" ollie, why don't you say hi and introduce yourself to mr and mrs haddock please." Astrid said trying to encourage the small boy.

He took a few steps forward towards hiccups dad and looked up at him. "you like santa" well that didn't go down well, hiccup couldn't stop laughing neither did valka, Astrid however was very embarrassed, and took ollie a side to have a word while stoick just looked at his figure in a nearby mirror, trying to push his stomach in.

" you little man can stay here all you like" hiccup laughed as he picked up Ollie after Astrids little word, yet she was not happy by hiccups comment.

" Hiccup you are encouraging him" she told him.

" I am not, I'm just very pleased how witty he is" he gave Ollie a quick peck on the cheek before placing the boy back down.

Astrid came up behind hiccup and slapped him across the head, that was not long followed by a Yelp. " hey what was that for?" He moaned rubbing the back of his head in a wimpish way.

" For influencing my son" she then turned her attention to Ollie " now Ollie what do you say to mr haddock" she glared at him with her serious mum eyes. Which of course they boy trembled at the sight and quickly turned to him.

" I sorry"

but before Stoick could answer to the boys apology, his wife stepped in. " it's okay little one, he needs someone to tell him to loose weight. Now do you like mash and sausages?" She asked as she crouched down beside the small boy. He answered with a very excited nod.

" Excellent. Why don't you follow me into the main lounging area where your mum, hiccup and Stoick can talk while I'll prepare dinner." She took the boys hand and lead him into another room, soon followed by the other three.

" Seriously Val if you need any help, I'm happy to serve." Astrid asked.

" Nonsense, your our guest please sit and talk I won't be a second." Val replied before walking off into the kitchen to finish off the meal she had started.

Meanwhile the others sat and talked, mainly about how Astrid has been doing over the past seven years since Stoick was keen to know. They talked a little on Ollie's birth but not much.

" So Astrid when was Ollie born?" Stoick asked taking a sip of his coffee he made before.

" Oh err September 18th, he was born around his due date." She uncomfortably said.

" Oh, must have been fun, organising and preparing for a new arrival?" At this statement it made Astrid look over to where Ollie sat, he just sat and listened to their conversation, so she best be artful on what she says.

" Err, yeah it was fun I guess" hiccup could sense the tension raising in Astrid so he decided to change conversation, little did he know it was only making it worse.

" Anyway me and my dad were actually talking before about Christmas coming up soon, and he suggested that you and Ollie come spend it with us. Like we used to." That's when her body stiffened and couldn't move, them three were in deep conversation they hadn't even released that valka had returned.

" No. I, we don't celebrate Christmas" she managed to say, but that didn't go down well with hiccup.

" How can you now celebrate christmas?" He argued back.

" Because we don't."

" But Ollie is two years old, you can't deprived him of that"

" excuse me I'm his mother, I decided what I deprive him of, not you. And he still knows about Santa, he still gets presents, I just don't decorate trees anymore, or listen to music, hang lights, or do festive stuff."

Hiccup turned his head to over where Ollie sat, playing with Billy the dragon while toothless, his black Labrador, sat their playing with him. Over the past two months or so he had gotten to know this boy and care for him, Ollie seemed to like hiccup too and toothless, all hiccup wanted was the best for this boy.

" That's unfair for Ollie" Astrid was taken back by his comment and immediately got up from where she sat.

" I think it was a bad idea for us to come here, could you get Ollie's coat on for me, I have to use the bathroom." Before anyone could argue back she was area day out the room. But hiccup being hiccup tried to follow her with Stoick, who was holding Ollie, not far behind. Hiccup made his way to the stairs before his mother intervened.

" Stop son, take Ollie and your farther back into the lounge, I'll talk to Astrid." She said trying to guided him back.

" But mom-" he started.

" No buts. Look I'm not stupid hiccup when you told me the story of Astrid and her son I took a bit of certain information from what you said. Ollie was consummated around Christmas time. Now it's probably you have forgotten, so for to bring it up, brings up memories. She doesn't need you right now, she needs a mother and from what I remember she didn't really have one in hers" hiccups face filled with guilt and sadness. He had forgotten and he argued with her about it, so he compelled and took Ollie off his farther and walked into the lounging area to do his best to entertain the small and confused boy.

Val went up stairs and followed the corridor until she reached the bathroom. She knocked first.

" Go away hiccup, I'm not in the mood" a sniffly voice came from within.

" It's not hiccup it's me" Val said. She waited, until she heard a fumble with the lock on the door as it unlocked and slowly opened. Astrid peeped her head out and looked and Val, she opened the door wider to say come in.

" Sweet heart, you must release hiccup wasn't thinking." Val said closing the door behind her and following the girl as she sat down, leaning against the wall.

" it doesn't matter, he won't understand" Val soon followed the girl as she too sat down next to her.

" I know, and neither do I. I think the only people who will understand is people who have been through it themselves. But what I do know is that your a mother,you care so dear for the person who has come from the thing you hate most, and that must hard. I also know that Astrid, your bottling up all this hurt and anger and sadness deep in your heart and you have not let it out for nearly three years. Holding something that hard leaves a hole in your heart the longer you keep it there, you need to tell hiccup so then he has 1/4 of a chance at to understanding. But first you need to tell someone who will now just listen but be their for you in a motherly way, because sweet heart you haven't had time to be mothered when you are mothering a small child of your own." At this Astrid just bursted out crying into valka a shoulder spiking out what she has kept in for so long.

" It's hard. I love Ollie much and no matter what I always will, but it's hard. It happened Christmas Eve night I had drink or two and had no money for a cab, I did call my mom but she turned me down so I was walking home. And that's when he grabbed me I was tipsy so I remember him on top of me, flashes and then finally pain in my right thigh. After he was finished he left me with a knife in my leg to bleed out to death. Then next I remember was waking up Christmas morning in a hospital bed, they said was lucky the man that found me, found me in time any later and I would have been dead. But that didn't help me, that didn't make me feel lucky. I felt awful, violated, stripped from every ounce of dignity I had, and my parents only made it worst, two weeks later they called me up asking if I was okay, and when I said yes they hung up. It was then in the first week of February I found out I was pregnant, I hated it. I hated being pregnant, I hated the baby, I hated my life. The only satisfaction was that Peter walker was caught and now on death row. But it still doesn't change anything." She calmed down with her tears and slowly started to sit back up again to face Val.

" Do you feel better?"

She could only rely with a nod.

" Hun it will take time to heel but you will feel I whole lot better telling others than keeping it in. Like hiccup, I think sooner or later you should tell him because I think that will make it a lot easier on your relationship." Val continue while rubbing astrids shoulder.

" I know"

" and hiccup really cares for the son of yours, I can tell by how much he goes on about him. He really does love the two of you" that last be caught astrids attention, he'd never said he loved her.

" Hiccup never told me he loved me."

" Sweetie he has been in love with you ever since he met you, and Ollie is bonus to him" they sat there in silence for a few minutes just calming down. It was only when Val stood up from where she sat the the silence was broke.

" Right I best be going down stairs those men will be hungry, oh and please tell me you'll stay-" Astrid nodded before she could continue. " oh excellent, and anyway about that Christmas stuff just take little steps no rush. Tell you what Stoicks younger brother Stewart and his wife always invite me and Stoick to go to Berks Christmas markets each year. You see Stewart's son brant and his wife cami have a young daughter only age five, Katie. We are going in tomorrow would you and Ollie like to join, we could invite hiccup too. It's okay if you don't want to." Val suggested. It didn't seem like a bad idea, she could do some shopping as well, plus little steps, this could be her first.

" Yeah actually I'd like that, it would be good for Ollie to be with someone other than adults and I could do shopping too."

Valka's face lit up once she heard this comment, for once her parenting skills had come in handy even if it wasn't with her on child, but hiccup had always been the one that never listened. Val left first she thought it would be best to leave Astrid to come down in her own time.

She started walking down stairs and didn't even make the ground before hiccup was asking her questions.

" what happened? Is everything okay? Is she staying? Going?" hiccup asked and val knew there would be more.

"oh for Thor's sake hiccup I haven't even placed a foot on the floor yet, give me a change to breath" by this point hiccup had shut his mouth and waited for his mother to come down the stairs.

"right, she said give her time. So go in there and wait for her okay." Val ordered.

"so does that mean she is staying?" he asked with a smirk o his face. But before val could answer somebody else did.

"yes, I'm staying" Astrid said from the top of the stairs. Valka decided it was best to leave and let the two speak.

Astrid walked down the stairs quite quickly but walked up to hiccup very slowly, speaking in a soft voice but very clear "I'm sorry"

"no Astrid I'm sorry, I push and push and didn't realise what I was saying" he took her hands in his, squeezing them gently, rubbing the backs of her hands with his thumbs.

"I'd like to be honest with you, really. I just need you to be patient with me, is there anywhere we could talk privately?" she asked.

"err yeah my dad's office, just down the hall. My dad is entertaining ollie anyway." He gave her that goofy smile he knew she loved and led her to his father's office.

They talked for a while, their conversation had to be cut short for dinner but then after they continued. It was good for them, Astrid felt that pressure release a little and hiccup felt more trust worthy of Astrid's trust. It felt like old times again, where they used to talk and talk for hours to each other to others it was random but to them it was important.

As the hours pasted by it was soon time to go home, hiccup said he would drive them home, so while he was putting toothless in the car Astrid and ollie were saying goodbye.

"thank you again val, really it's been a great night." Astrid said while lifting ollie up into her arms.

"oh no problem, and this one can come anytime, since he eats all his dinner like a good boy." Val replied poking ollie of the nose making him giggle.

"okay come on then it is getting late let's get you home mister" Astrid said to ollie carrying him over to hiccups car and placing him in a car seat.

Once in hiccup and Astrid drove off, taking Astrid and ollie back to their small apartment.

Xx

Once home Astrid got ollie to bed, being two she knew he would be flat out by 8:00 pm at the latest. Hiccup came in after her, she had asked him for coffee before and he gladly excepted. He let her tend to ollie so he sat on the couch staying out of her way. Finally, after sorting out her son and making two coffees Astrid fell heavily on to the couch next to hiccup with one big sigh.

"busy day?" he asked. Though his question did make Astrid laugh a little.

"you have no idea" she grabbed hers and his coffee from the coffee table pasted him his and took one giant swig of hers before placing it back down.

"well it's over now, and you have a day off tomorrow, apparently to my mother you are joining them to the Christmas markets berk holds in the town centre, because my mum tried to use that as a way of getting me to come" Astrid at first wasn't sure if that was a question or not but she answered it anyway.

"yeah I'm going, but not for me, for ollie. Your cousin has a daughter. Katie? And I think it would be good for ollie to have someone around his age. And please come for me, I've not really spoken to your cousin in ages and I'll be on my own" she asked with big puppy dog eyes. It took a while but he finally said yes.

"okay I will but you have to do something for me" he said smirking at her.

"what?"

"kiss me" she smiled, of course he would ask that. So she grabbed the coffee off him and placed on the table next to hers and slowly started to climb on his lap.

"deal" and he lips landed on his, slowly kissing each other, hand roaming and mouths moaning. Her hands found the rim of his top and slowly lifted his top over his head and on top the ground. His hands crept up her top and back down again, repeating that motion while her hands lay on his shoulders. Her top found the ground next, and hiccups lips went to her neck. Her shoulder blade. Back to her neck. Along the jaw. And finally back to the lips. Hands did wander further down but did go far and a loud and stern voice came from near the front door.

"oh please Astrid not with Oliver in the house" both eyes diverted from each other to the voice that stood by the door.

Hiccup thought he might have known this woman but it was Astrid who pointed her out.

"mom?"

" please Astrid you have not seen me for a few months and this is how you greet me, half naked with a boy you probably just met" with that said Astrid and hiccup rushed to get up and put their discarded clothes back on. Astrid knew how she got in, she lent her mother a key before to help with the unloading but she thought her mother would not keep it.

" mother what do you take me for? this is hiccup, you remember him, the boy I grew up with. did you really think id just jump on top of some stranger?" Astrid argued while putting her top over her head.

" well how was Oliver brought into this world?" her mother spitefully said. hiccup could sense the tension before now it was unbearable.

" get out" Astrid demanded.

" what, so I could leave you two back to your past activities?" not moving from where she stood.

" I should leave anyway, I'll see you tomorrow. I'll come here for 10:30 okay" hiccup said grabbing his coat and placing a kiss on Astrid's lips.

" yeah okay, see you" he left leaving mother and daughter to talk.

" what's happening tomorrow?" her nosy mother asked.

" no of your business now get out" Astrid argued back while collecting the cups from the table.

"I'll leave once I know"

" fine, me and Ollie are going with hiccup and his family to the Christmas markets. now you know you can leave." Astrid shouted as she walked from her lounge into her small kitchen.

" I thought you hated Christmas because of what happened"

" I do but I'm doing this for Ollie" Astrid stayed in the kitchen so she did not have to face her mother.

" your doing this for the boy who will one day become what his farther is" that was it Astrid stormed out of the kitchen grabbed her mothers hand and forced her out of the apartment. Then went back into the kitchen to grab the cups, but instead of washing them she smashed them against the floor with anger, she was surprised she didn't wake Ollie.

she slowly sunk down on the ground next to the smashed cups and fell asleep hoping to forget the past 5 minutes she spent with her mother.