Maggie stood outside the room. She had her hand on the door handle, but didn't turn it to open. She looked around at Kara, who gave her an encouraging nod. Maggie took a deep breath before opening the door and shyly walking into the room. Eliza looked up to her, before looking back to Alex. "I'll be back later." Eliza told her daughter. She kissed her forehead and gave her hand a squeeze before she left the room, rubbing Maggie's shoulder as she passed her. Maggie stood on the spot for a moment, staring at Alex as Alex stared at her.
"You must be Maggie," Alex spoke quietly. Maggie gave a little nod as she walked closer to the bed, but made the conscious decision not to get to close. Maggie wanted to hold her, to hug her, to kiss her, but right now, that unfortunately wasn't an option. "Apparently, you're my girlfriend."
"Yeah," Maggie answered with a nod. "Two years we've been together."
"But I'm not…" Alex shook her head, pulling at a loose thread on the bed sheet. "I'm not gay," Alex exhaled lightly, Maggie hearing the tremble in her voice. "I was…I would know that before getting to 28."
Hearing Alex say she wasn't gay hurt Maggie. Again, she felt like she was being punched in the gut. To know that Alex had no recollection of their time together hurt. She knew it wasn't Alex's fault but it hurt all the same because Maggie didn't know if she and Alex would ever be together again. "Some people don't know it for a long time," Maggie responded. "Or maybe, deep down they know but they just weren't ready to face it," Maggie told her. "We met in October," Maggie said, deciding to tell Alex, because of course she didn't remember anything. "You uhm…you came out in the November and we got together soon after and we've been together ever since."
Alex felt tears forming in her eyes. "You are a very beautiful woman," Alex said, Maggie smiling at the compliment. "But I don't think that this is something that I'd forget."
"You have a brain injury," Maggie told her. "You can't control your brain. You can't decide what you can and can't remember. That's not how amnesia works."
Alex twisted her lip. She couldn't be gay. She would know if she was. "So, you and I were in the car together when the accident happened?" Alex questioned. She needed to know more of what happened and knew Maggie was the only person who could answer that.
"Uh-huh," Maggie nodded. "We were on our way to Beau Lake for the weekend," Maggie told her. "It was uh….Saturday was our two year anniversary. We were going to celebrate. Have a nice weekend away." Maggie spoke softly, taking a step closer to the bed.
Alex took a deep breath. "But the accident, how did it happen?"
"It all happened so fast," Maggie gave a little shrug. "Uhm," She tucked her hair behind her ear. "We were driving along and then out of nowhere this truck is coming flying towards us and smashes into us," Maggie took a deep breath, shutting her eyes momentarily. She didn't want to think about the crash ever again. "It mostly struck your side, which is why you are lying there and I'm…." Maggie trailed off as she pointed to her face. "Well, I got away with a lot less."
"I see," Alex bit her lip. She tucked her hair behind her ear before taking a deep breath. "I uhm….I know this might sound weird because apparently I've been in a coma for the last three days but I'm tired and I want to sleep, so…." Alex twisted her lip as she avoided eye contact with Maggie. Maggie pursed her lips as she gave a little nod. It broke her heart that Alex wanted her to leave.
"I'll go." Maggie swallowed a lump in her throat. She lingered for a moment, just staring at Alex, still feeling guilty for everything. She wondered if she'd ever see her again. If Alex would want to talk to her again. If they would ever be a 'they' again. She turned around and walked out of the room, not even looking at Kara and Eliza who were sitting on the chairs in the corridor. She just kept walking, walking away from the room, walking down the corridor. She heard Kara shouting on her, but she held her hand out and gave a sort of wave, gesturing that she wanted to be left alone.
Kara and Eliza were back in the room with Alex. The doctor had been and had said they'd still like to keep her in for a few more days' observation, but if she wanted, she could be transferred to National City Hospital. Alex said she wanted to go home, but now she didn't know her home. She remembered the apartment where she used to live. She didn't know where she lived now, but she was sure it would be somewhere with Maggie and the thought terrified her. But she still wanted to go back to National City so the doctor said he would get it arranged and that she could go back most likely sometime the next day. "Alex," Kara said after the doctor had left. "What did you say to Maggie before? She left here looking devastated."
"Kara." Eliza glared at her, seeing the uncomfortable look on Alex's face.
"What?" Kara questioned. "She's her girlfriend. She -"
"Kara," Eliza said again, a sharper tone to her voice this time. "Alex needs time to process this. It's going to be a huge shock waking up and not only being told that you have lost over two years of your life, but that you are also in a lesbian relationship," Eliza paused for a moment. "We need to let her take this in and she needs to accept who she is, again."
"But she has," Kara sighed. "She is more than okay with who she is and she is so in love."
"But she doesn't remember that part of her life," Eliza's voice raised. "She -"
"Stop it," Kara and Eliza both looked to Alex as she yelled out. "Can we please just….can we talk about something else?" Alex questioned. "Or is the fact that I'm apparently now a lesbian the only thing that's happened in the last two years?" Alex wondered. "What about you and James?" Alex said, looking to Kara. "You two had been on a few dates the last I remember."
"Ah, we decided just to be friends," Kara told her. "I'm single and very happy," Kara smiled. "Finding a boyfriend is the last thing on my mind right now. Reporting and Supergirl is enough for me."
"Aw that's kind of a shame though," Alex replied. "I always thought you and James would have been a good match."
"It just wasn't the right time." Kara told her.
Alex exhaled lightly. "And what about Winn?" Alex questioned. "Are you still friends with him?"
"Oh yes," Kara nodded as she answered. "I'm always going to need my Winn," Kara told her sister with a smile. "You know, he works for the DEO now."
"No way?" Alex gasped. "Winn? I can't imagine him being all kickass out in the field going up against blood thirsty aliens." Alex sounded surprised as she spoke.
"He mostly just does tech stuff," Kara replied. "And Maggie works for NCPD. She's a detective," Kara saw the glare Eliza was giving her but she didn't care. She didn't stop talking. She didn't see what she was doing wrong. Alex needed to remember and the only way that could happen was through help. Was through her being reminded. "So, that's how you met. At work. You were on the same crime scene and -" Kara stopped talking as she felt Eliza's hand go under her armpit, pulling her up to standing. She was taken a little by surprise. She didn't even see or hear Eliza moving around to her side of the bed. Eliza pulled Kara from the room, the pair stopping in the corridor. "What are you doing? She needs to be told this stuff."
"You heard the doctor," Eliza sighed. "Simply telling her isn't going to bring her memories back."
"But she'll know of them," Kara wanted to help in any way she could and didn't see anything wrong in telling Alex everything she could about Maggie. "If we tell her things then she'll know it happened."
"It's not going to make her remember," Eliza sounded upset. She hated that Alex had lost a huge part of her life. Of course she wanted to be able to help her remember but it wasn't as simple as just telling Alex everything. "And right now, Alex isn't that person. She's not Maggie's girlfriend. She's 28-year-old Alex who hasn't figured out she is gay yet," Eliza spoke softly. She knew Kara was just trying to help. "That's something huge that she needs to come to terms with. Don't push this on her, Kara," Eliza tucked Kara's hair behind her ear before she cupped her cheek. "I know you are just trying to help here, but bombarding her isn't the way to do that."
"But she was asking." Kara retorted.
"Yeah about James and Winn. People she remembers," Eliza said. "When she is ready to face the fact that she can't remember her girlfriend she will talk to you about it," Eliza told her. "But how do you think Alex must feel? To know there's this whole part of her life that she can't recall?" Eliza questioned. "And a huge part at that. I can't even begin to imagine how it must feel."
"Yeah I uhm…" Kara shrugged a little. "It must be awful." Eliza gave a little nod as Kara imagined forgetting someone ever exist in your life wouldn't exactly make you feel good.
"Now, let's go back in for a bit longer, yeah?" Eliza questioned and Kara gave a little nod before following her back into the room to spend some more time with Alex.
Kara walked into the hotel room, seeing Maggie sitting against the foot of her bed. She was drinking her way through a bottle of Scotch she'd picked up from the liquor store, a few blocks from the hotel. "You think that is going to help?" Kara questioned, closing the door and walking across the room.
Maggie glared at Kara for a moment before taking another rather large swig. "Well it's not going to make anything worse, is it?" Maggie mumbled. Kara took a seat next to her and noticed that Maggie was holding the ring box in her other hand, looking down to the engagement ring she had planned to give Alex.
"You know, the doctor said there is a chance that her memory will come back and we need to hold onto that hope." Kara told her.
"And if it never does?" Maggie swallowed a lump in her throat.
Kara took a deep breath. "You got her to fall in love with you once. I'm sure you'd be able to do it again," Kara gave Maggie an encouraging smile as she rubbed her arm. Maggie's lips curled into the tiniest of smiles before offering Kara the bottle. Kara took it in her hands and took a swig. "Eugh, that is disgusting." Kara screwed her face up as she gave the bottle back to Maggie. Maggie managed a little laugh before taking another drink.
"So, is she okay?" Maggie spoke quietly. She didn't want to talk too loud, knowing if she did her voice would break. She could already feel more tears forming in her eyes. "I mean, apart from what we already know. They've not found anything else wrong with her? No more injuries to deal with?"
"No," Kara shook her head. "Just the amnesia, couple of bruised ribs and a fractured knee-cap," Kara answered. "But that's more than enough, right?" Kara questioned and Maggie nodded in response. "She uhm…they said she can be transferred to National City Hospital tomorrow," Kara gave a little smile. "It'll be nice to get home, right? Get something normal back?"
"You mean go back to the house I shared with Alex who now doesn't even know I exist in her life?" Maggie questioned before taking another swig of the Scotch. "Oh yeah, I can't wait to go back there." Maggie murmured sarcastically.
"Look, Maggie, I know you are hurting but we all care about Alex," Kara told her. "We are all in the same boat here."
"Really?" Maggie screwed her face up. "Because I am the only one who she can't remember," Maggie raised her voice, sounding mad. "So, I think that justifies me being a little more upset over this than you are." Maggie stood up and glanced down to the ring for a moment, before she closed the box and threw it across the room into the trash can.
"Maggie." Kara shrieked as she stood up.
"No point keeping it. The woman I wanted to give it too doesn't even know who I am." Maggie mumbled before she walked across the room towards the door.
"Where are you going?" Kara chased after her.
"I want some air," Maggie said turning to look at Kara, who was going to follow her out of the room. "Alone." Maggie spat before she left the room. Kara ran her hand over her forehead before she turned and walked over to the trash can, taking out the ring box, knowing Maggie would regret throwing it away.
