Chapter 4

Bella's Point of View

Laurent started walking closer to me, I could feel his minty breath breathing down my neck. His left hand holding my neck back to make it easier for him to bite me. If I wasn't going to die, it would actually quite seductive. My eyes were closed waiting for the eventual bite. The eventual bite which would lead to my demise. Laurent gave me a soft peck on my neck, licking the spot he would bite. To have a feel of my vein throbbing, to feel my pulse. It got him excited. I could feel his teeth trailing down from my jaws to my neck to the spot he licked me. My heart started beating faster and faster, waiting for Laurent to bite me. His teeth tore through my skin and he started sucking, I could feel my blood flowing out of my neck, his hard squeezing on my neck, he lapped the last of it, but a drop of my blood dribbled down my neck and stained the grass. I was starting to fade in and out.

I could hear howls nearby, I couldn't open my eyes as I don't have any energy anymore. Breathing also became difficult, I could feel drops of my blood flowing out of my neck. I felt Laurent pick me up and brought me to a quieter location, where he laid me down on a bed. The bed felt nice, it was kind of nice to die on a nice bed.

I laid there shaking, I felt like I was in hell. I wasn't suppose to change, I was suppose to die. I was suppose to be finally put into eternal sleep, not immortality.

Who shall be punished with everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord, and from the glory of his power…. the wicked shall be turned into hell… then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels….

I feel as if I'm in hell, the bible teaches that hell is a real place which is prepared for the devil and his demons, and those who refuse God's gracious offer of salvation. I could see many people in hell, millions are there already but many many more will go there when they die. The Blessed Mother said that those people who are in hell are there because they choose to go there. We all know that there are people on this earth who simply don't admit that God exists, even though he helps them, gives them life and sun and rain and food. In the center of hell is a great fire, like an ocean of raging flames. I could see people before they went into the fire, and then I could see them coming out. They look like grotesque animals, losing their human shape, it was as if they were never humans before. They came out raging and smashing everything around and hissing and gnashing and screeching. It was pure evil. I couldn't describe it, it is humanly impossible to comprehend it. Nothing on earth can compare with it. No nightmare could produce such terror I'm seeing right now.

I could feel a cold hand on my forehead, I was pretty sure it was Laurent's hand. "Shush, it's okay Bella, there's only one day left."

I was glad, I had suffered two days already. I don't think I can last any longer. It was pure torture, I wanted to die. There was no point in changing into a vampire when I'm all alone. I wanted eternity with the one I love, but he betrayed me, left me out in the cold.

Laurent's Point of View

I watched her, shivering and screaming, telling me it burns, telling me to kill her.

"I'm sorry, I can't" I murmured as I placed my hand on her forehead, hoping to cool her down a bit. "Shush, it's okay Bella, there's only one day left." I whispered, and went out to get some blood.

Bella's Point of View

I woke up from my endless torture, only to feel so plain, so transparent. I looked into a dusk covered mirror, I could see a pale women looking back at me. She looks haunted, sad even. But her eyes, were the colour of monsters. The colour of something so unforgettable. I cringed as I saw it. It was the colour of my eyes. They were big and doe like, seemingly endless like a haunting tunnel. Despite it being so monstrous, it was beautiful, dark ruby red, daring you to look closer, drawing in the prey.

"Oh! You're awake" Laurent gasped.

I turned around quickly, I could see Laurent clearer now, he looked much more defining with my ruby red eyes. I could smell some human blood on him, he must have recently fed. His collar was stained red with human blood. I licked my lips.

"Oh- the blood, do you want to go out for some. You must be hungry" He replied.

"I can't, I won't. I want to feed on animals, I don't want to be even more monstrous than what I've become. I don't want my red eyes." I replied, my voice was different, it was witty, vivacious and warm. It was a pitch higher, making me seem more feminine, creating a more lady like person in me.

"Oh, I understand. That's what happens when you encounter the Cullens. They teach you the enlighten way, so that you're soul won't be that dammed. Well, you seem to be fine. I have done my duty as your master. I must bid you farewell, I have duties to do and people to see." Laurent said sarcastically and leaped through the window.

I was all alone again. Sitting there on the floor, dazed out, thinking of what to do, what to spend my eternity on. It was torture. When I was human, when I was still with Edward, there was so many things I wanted to do after I was turned. Now, it's as if I don't want to do anything. I stood up and ran towards the woods. I needed to hunt, to satisfy my parched throat. It was burning for blood. I caught sight of two deers, I quickly ran towards them and drained them. I couldn't afford to be picky. Herbivores are just as good as carnivores to me. Blood is just blood.

After I finished hunting, I closed my eyes and laid down. Planning what I should do for eternity.

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