The Bucket List, How To Get Noticed

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1:25/To: Luddy Puppy/From: Kik
The Fair is tonight and I want to see the firework show, will you come with me?

1:30/To: Kik/From: Luddy Puppy
No. Leave me alone.

1:31/To: Luddy Puppy/From: Kik
Come on dude! You haven't been to school for like 3 days just because some kid gave you a major panic attack and you slept in the woods! Get over it!

1:34/To: Kik/From: Luddy Puppy
Please, I don't want anyone seeing me or saying anything.

1:35/To: Luddy Puppy/From: Kik
Wait... why are you awake at 1 AM. Nevermind, please, my brother is going with his boyfriend and he is a total fuckboy and I don't want to be their tag along. If we see Feliciano and his gang we can just hide in the bathrooms.

1:38/To: Kik/From: Luddy Puppy
The medicine keeps me awake. Are you sure? You promise

1:40/To: Luddy Puppy/From: Kik
I totally promise, feel better soon~ Goodnight

1:42/To: Kik/From: Luddy Puppy
Thank you...

I laid awake in my bed with tears running down my face. I felt pathetic and it bothered me. I have been acting so strange that my mom took me to the doctors and had me checked. They found out I had a serve panic attack that day and may end up with a panic disorder and a start up of depression. I wanted to see Kiku, but I felt like I was going to be judged. The depression was getting really into my head. I WANTED to go outside and laugh and be happy, but inside my head was making demons that were agaisnt everything I did and liked to make fun of every little idea I had in my head.

I stood up from my bed rubbing my face. I didn't know how I was going to face Kiku without openly sobbing. I started out of my room and quietly down the steps, hoping I didn't wake my mother. The doctors said my depression and panic attack was all enduced on myself. I was on high level of stress and I pushed myself off the ledge when Feliciano said 'let's be friends' The doctors were right, and all the symptons I felt during the attack were 100% correct. I walked carefully into the kitchen, but I came into the room with Gilbert and a sandwhich hanging out his mouth as he froze.

This made me laugh, which was different, since I haven't laughed like that since the 'accident'. "God damnit, Luddy! I thought you were mom!" Gilbert hissed with a playful smile on his face. "Sorry, nope, what are you doing?" I questioned walking towards the fridge and pulling out some the milk and went towards the cabinet for the box and a bowl. "Eating food, seems you came out of your cave for food~" He teased and I laughed softly shaking the box of Lucky Charms into the bowl while adding milk.

"Hmmm, it seems I did, well the medication makes me hungry and awake." I informed grabbing a spoon and digging into the bowl. "You know, man, Feliciano has been so worried about you." Gilbert said with a serious tone and I looked down. I scared the crap out of Feliciano Wensday. "Well... tell him I am fine. He's an idiot and will believe everything you say." I retorted starting towards the living room. "That's kinda of mean... I know you really like him." Gilbert murmured watching me as I sit down on the puffy couch and pull a blanket down from the top of the couch.

"I think he likes you back, but he's scared of Antonio. Really, he's a dimwit, but he and Lovino click together. They both have this pent up anger, and are ready to blow and it would probably hurt someone. Like, I have literally watched a drunk Antonio slap Feliciano for asking him where his brother was. It's scary and Feli's like a second brother to me." Gilbert explained setting his sandwhich down on the island and coming next to me and laid his head on my shoulder as I put the blanket around. "Maybe if you guys get marry he can truely be my brother and I get his heavenly pasta all the time!" Gilbert yawned and I sighed setting the bowl down on the table and put my head on his head.

That morning, Mrs. Beilschmidt found her two sons sitting together on the couch fast asleep. The sight made her smile, 1.) They were getting along, 2.) Ludwig was finally asleep, and 3.) Her babies were smiling. It was like a stone being taken off of her chest.

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"Ludwig, what are you doing?" Gilbert questioned me as I came from the bathroom connected to my room. I jumped at the sound of his voice and tighten my grip around the towel hanging off my waist. "SHOWERING AND GETTING DRESSED!" I shouted my face turning dark red. "Come on, I've seen you naked, why are you getting dressed and showering. I thought you were staying at home for a while." Gilbert went on coming into my private room and sitting down on my beanbag. "I am going to the fair with Kiku for the fireworks." I huffed turning around to put my underwear on. Gilbert looked around my room with a dark frown.

"Ludwig... you made a list... where is it?" Gilbert murmured and I sighed deeply. "In the trash." I deadpanned and his eyes widen. "Your kidding! I thought-" "You thought nothing." I cut him off putting my pants and shirt and on. "I got rid of it, it was childish and dumb and I shouldn't do stuff like that." I growled walking to the mirror and brushed my hair. Gilbert held the words on his tongue, but the look of anger was promanat on his face and

I grabbed my red sunglasses from the night stand and I made sure to grab my wallet and keys before walking out of the house. "Ludwig... be safe. I'll be there soon." Gilbert said quietly hanging off the doorframe. "Of course." I whispered jumping into my car and turned it on. The Queens started playing and this made my heart clench so I ejected the cassette angrily and threw the it in the back of the car and put in a Pink Fylod cassette instead.

The drive was short, because Kiku lived walking distance, but the community center was not near us. I parked in his driveway and hopped out standing in front of Kiku as he played his game on the 3DS. "Kiku!" I yelled pulling out his earbud. "Ludwig!" He said back with the same ethusiam as he hugged me tightly. "You look so much better!" Kiku noted as he patted my shoulder. "Yeah, the medicine does wonders." I assured watching him get off the porch swing and walk beside me too my car. "Ah... theres Blitz, haven't seen the boy for a while." Kiku murmured patting my car's hood.

"Aren't you going to name your dog, Blitz?" Kiku then asked and I blushed darkly and glared. "Yep, I'm having 1 dogs." I glared holding up my middle finger. "Rude." Kiku deadpanned with a smile. He slid in the car grabbing the cassette box out of instinct and started going through finding his cassette which played video game music. He smiled at the red cassette popping the Pink Fyold out and replacing it. We laughed together as it went through classics and I pulled into the community center which was a huge place with a large football [soccer] field where they set off the fireworks, a building with a gym, dance room, basket ball court, computer lab, video game room, everything you probably needed.

The plaze was covered with booths holding greasy food, beer, and astorment of stuff for companies showing off stuff. I parked my car far off and we started towards the plaza where we listen to people laughing and talking. "Look, there is my brother." Kiku mumbled trying to hide behind me, but Yao was already walking over with deterimin in his eyes. His boyfriend, Ivan Bradisky was stalking behind him.

"Little brother! You came with that big musucalar dick that everyone is talking about at school, aru~" Yao yelled bringing attention to me, but I was already very tall and stuck out like a drag queen with poor makeup. "Yes... Er, hello Yao." I stuttered looking around awkwardly and Kiku facepalmed. "Hey duuuuuuuudes!" Alfred yelled sliding into the scene and I felt like dying. "Arnold, you skip school and then the fair, badass all the way!" Alfred noted patting my chest. "I was actually out for medical reasons." I growled and he started laughing really loudly making Ivan take a sidestep away from his douchenosel friend and Yao cock an eyebrow.

"Medical reasons, more like getting regected!" He then cackle and I blushed and frowned. "Truely, I was sick!" I protested, but he kept laughing, so I punch him.

Ha, yeah right.

What really happened was I blushed and pulled Kiku away from the scene.

"Alfred is a true dick, don't listen to him." Kiku deadpanned patting my arm trying to sympathic, but he really couldn't with those soulless brown eyes that Feliciano called inspriation to his fiery painting in art.

I wanted to go home, I was starting to feel down and I needed to find something to occupy my teenage mind. "Hey Ludwig!" Gilbert cut into my mind with his squad, which was Francis, Antonio, Lovino, and Feliciano. I paled and Kiku eyes widen as we sprinted towards the bathrooms. I heard a faint 'WAIT' from Feliciano, but all I did was cut through the crowds with Kiku pulling me along into the community center. We rounded a corner and went into the locker room and I let out a desperate cry and slid down the wall gripping my face.

"Feliciano Vargas, more like Sonic the fucking Hedgehog." Kiku panted. "That kid can sprint." He added sitting down next to me, which I had my head between my legs. "Hey, buddy, are you ok?" Kiku asked and I let out a sigh. "This was stupid, can we leave." I asked putting my head up. My eyes were watering and I hurt to show Kiku this side of me.

"What?! Man! We can't leave, the fireworks start not for another 2 hours. So what if Feliciano wants to see you again and you'll probably cry when you see him. Who cares, and if it makes you feel any better when I got to your house to try to find you 2 days ago, Feliciano wouldn't stop crying." Kiku explained and I looked down. "He just crying, saying it was his fault and Antonio tried to hug him and the little brat punch that tomato sucker in the chest and said he never wanted to see his face again! I was cheering for you, inside." Kiku than assured and I sighed again, but it slowly went into a quiet laughter.

Kiku's face brighten as he pulled me in a tight hug. "So stop sulking and be a strong Hitler!" Kiku yelled and I laughed harder. "That's offensive!" Kiku didn't listen to my protests and pulled me up as we walked out, well we scanned the area before leaving quickly through the back door. For those 2 hours we ran away from Feliciano Vargas, got food, and now we were setting up the blanket in the back of my truck.

"I hope these fireworks will be boss, I love fireworks!" Kiku said excitedly and I laughed patting down the blanket and we sat on the back of the truck looking up at the dark sky.

"I FINALLY CAUGHT YOU, YOU DICKS!" Feliciano's voice cut off our relaxation and I jolted as he expertly hopped up on the bed of the truck. "It's not what you think!" I stuttered trying to hide my face, hoping deeply inside I wasn't going to be slapped. But instead I was hugged.

Why did Feliciano smell so much like a girl, his hair was soft, the same for his skin, and the best part was I wasn't crying. Feliciano was the one that was crying. "I really thought you were hurt, I tried calling Gilbert, but he wouldn't give me your number or your condition, I thought I killed you!" Feliciano sobbed burying his face my shirt. I looked over at Kiku who gave me the thumbs up and I blushed looking down at Feliciano ugly sobbing.

"It... It really wasn't your fault, I was so stressed, I shouldn't of had someone else shooting my stress up." I lied, well it was more of a white lie. "Ludwig... Please don't scare me like that ever again." He said looking up and I swallowed hard seeing how close our faces were. And at the moment I thought we were going to kiss, a firework shot up into the sky all big and flashy and a wave of cheers filled the area.

Feliciano turned around and smiled softly, I think he said 'fuck' under his breath and turned around sitting between my legs as the colorful booms exploded in the sky shimmering accompied by deep booms.

Kiku looked over and he swore if he was just a normal bystander he would of thought his best friend and his crush were already deeply in love. The look of embarassment were still on their faces, the way Feliciano looked up to the sky and back to Ludwig with a relaxed smile and the calm smile that Ludwig did back made it seem that Ludwig didn't have a panic attack from this boy barely 2 days ago. Kiku just wished they would get together and become the cutest couple in the year book, kiss each other, hug each other, get over the inital worry of being truly in love for the first time.

But this wasn't some stupid disney film and THE END wasn't going to be glittery with birds chirping, because this was high school, more like prison, and that stuff didn't appear, it only appeared in movies where a nerdy girl who looked really hot and a jock who looked equally hot go out and shake the floor boards and then everyone breaks into singing.

This was real life.

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I sighed shutting my car off and jumped out walking through the garage and went through the door that lead into my kitchen. And the scene I came too was my brother sitting on the counter with a bruised cheek and black eye, an unamed kid that looked like a cross between Francis and Alfred holding the ice back over the cheek and Gilbert was supporting the ice pack on the eye while touching the cut on his lip.

My mother was pacing and looked at me with relif. "Ludwig! Your home!" She shouted running up to me and I stared at my brother with a look of fear. "What happen?!" I shouted, because my brother got into fights. He may be an aroggant dick, but he never got into fights.

"I did this for you." Was all Gilbert said with a proud bloody smile and I paled.

What?!

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Oh yay! A long cliff hanger! What happen to our baby Gilbert?! Who's the unnamed child (It's Canada -_- PruCan for life, bitches!)
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