Guys I tried some new things, mostly that thing with Amanda where you will be with her thoughts in her head basically, there is little dialog and thanks for support.

a dorky girl

I was walking down the street to the place we were about to meet. I really like to walk, it gives you time to think and be free... So anyways, I came to this grey wall, it had The Blue Ribbon written on it with blue. I think I am in the right place. I found the entrance. I stopped for a second when I grabbed the handle, I had this feeling in my stomach, but then I realized how stupid I am… dumb Amanda, you are here ten minutes early, no way she is going to be here. I walked in and I was stunned, wow this wasn't what I expected. The first thing I saw was the big flat screen TV in the corner of the room. Then I looked little bit to the right and I saw, what I think was a small stage where were some guitars a drum set and a microphone. To the left I saw couple of people sitting and enjoying their late coffee or drink. Then I saw the best thing ever, bar and behind the bar it had blackboards on the wall with all of the beverages that they sell here. I sat on the bar stool and almost immediately the bartender spoke to me.

"First time here, huh?" The first thing I noticed, he had this gorgeous haircut I think they call it a messy pompadour or something like that, he was sweet though I can imagine girls flirting with him all the time, hell if I wasn't a lesbian I would jump him right here. Only two men would turn me straight Johny Depp or Justin Timberlake, but back to the story… I know you are hungry for more…

"Yeah, how did you know?" I was surprised, pleasantly surprised .

"The look."

"I don't understand."

"The look you have on the face, most of the guests have that face when they first visit. This place is just awesome I mean the lights hanging from the ceiling and shedding light to the most important stuff."

"What is that stuff?" I was curious, don't judge me, it was my first time here I had questions.

"The first thing you notice when you walk in is the big TV right in front of you, but the light is lighting the stage for performers, the second thing is this." He pointed at the bar and the blackboards on the wall. "You need customers to see the menu and what they are ordering and the last thing is the middle of the shop."

"But why the middle of the shop, why not the tables in front of the big window, you can see the whole street through that window, or the other tables lined next to the wall opposite the bar? Why in the middle?"

"Because, when a band plays or there is a karaoke night some of the tables are moved and you can dance in the middle so it needs to be well lit. And we have this muted light where everybody is sitting to give you some privacy." I needed to get to a table before Amy comes, I forgot all about the time… shit… she will be here any minute. "Thanks for the introduction…"

"John, my name is John if you like it here we could grab some coffee sometime, if you want to…"

"Thanks for the offer, but I think I will pass, you know I am waiting on my date… with a girl, but that lonely girl that is writing to her notebook has all eyes for you. You should try with her. Now if you don't mind I will find a table." I left him speechless and I left his cute face and messy hair and his beautiful brown eyes, gosh Amanda stop thinking about John, you are here because of Amy and stop freaking out it is only a friendly coffee nothing else not a date or anything. I sat right next to the big window. Then I remembered I didn't text her what I will be wearing. I picked up my phone from my pocket and started writing.

"Hi Amy, I am so sorry I forgot to tell you what I will be wearing, I am wearing black jeans, boots and a Doctor Who t-shirt, sorry about that I didn't realize I was wearing it… and a jacket. What will you wear?" and send. It was ten minutes ago I sent her the message, why didn't she reply, how will I know it is her when she walks through that door? So many questions, but then something happened. The band started playing and when I was watching them perform I realized there is a big blue ribbon behind them on the wall. All the walls were painted grey, but this one had a giant blue ribbon painted on itself. Am I that blind really… then I realized I didn't have my glasses on. Jesus I am so dumb this "thing" is going to be a disaster. Then when the band started playing and I realized what was behind them the doorbell rang. I looked over and there she was. I think I fell in love oh my god, she was beautiful, this girl… her hair was blonde, her eyes were big and green, she was really cute and her smile, OMG I think I need a pair of new panties. She was wearing this puppy sweater or hoodie or whatever and black yoga pants, and she still looked hot, compared to me. I mean I am 20 years old girl and I am hot let´s face it. I hope that is Amy, but then something happened in my mind what if she doesn't like me? What if she will be funny and I am not? What if… so many questions, but I had to do it… As I was walking towards her I noticed something strange, I looked through the window and I saw what I think was a glimpse of redhair more like reddish- brownish hair disappearing into the dark. Strange I taught, but back to Amy I went to introduce myself to her and it went down something like this…

"Hi I am Amanda, nice to see you. You must by Amy?"

"Hi, yeah I am Amy sorry I forgot to text you what I will be…" I didn't even let her finish her sentence I just hugged her. I mean what the fuck brain, you had one job one job and you fucked it up, now she thinks I am a complete psychopath and she is going to judge me and she smells really nice OMG she hugged me back. Is it possible I have a crush on a sixteen years old girl, I mean she looks at least twenty-two to me, this is not happening. "…wearing, I forgot my mobile home and do you hug strangers all the time?"

"No, only if they are as beautiful as you are." I tried to smile, but not look like a creep and I think I didn't work, she gave me look, oh my god I need to calm myself down. "Would you excuse me, I need to go to the bathroom."

"Sure…" She was so sweet. Anyways I ran to the bathroom and I tried to calm myself down but nothing helped, and then I looked into the mirror. This gorgeous girl is here, because she wanted us to meet, she wanted to meet me this is not about me, this is about her I think she is more afraid than I am. I had many dates with lesbians, but this is her first one. She doesn't even know if she is a lesbian, she is just on the start of her journey to find herself so I need to stop being so selfish. This is not about me, this is about her. Get back there Amanda and be the most awesome lesbian you could be. I didn't realize that practically I shouted that last sentence and I dint notice Amy standing there in the bathroom having a little smile on her face. When I looked at her and said "What? This is my motivational speech!" she started laughing her ass of. Way to start a night Amanda, bravo. "That was cute, you are cute. I taught you left through the window or something like that so I came here to check if everything is fine." She was still laughing when she said that.

"Can we just forget the first 15 minutes happened?"

"I think we can do that Amanda."

I really like her… she is awesome. I agree with you brain. Just focus, don't fuck up and remember it is all about her not you!