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I screamed, falling off my bed, hitting the hard ground forcefully.

"School in an hour!" I heard a yell from my window.

Angrily and still asleep, I opened my curtains to see Adam with an air-horn. "Adam! What the hell is your problem?!!"

He smiled. "I knew you'd be late again if I didn't wake you up now so...call it a favor."

I glared at him with all I had. "Do you know what I call it?!!"

"Bells? Are you awake?" Phil asked.

I continued to glare at him. "Watch yourself!" I spat menacingly before leaving to get ready. Jane was waiting in my truck with thick black sunglasses, long sleeve shirt, pants, and a hoodie; she was completely covered from the sun.

I gave her a false smile as I climbed in. "Wow, so good to see you again, Jane...especially in my truck." I wasn't dwelling too much on the history and memories in this truck, they hurt too much.

She glared back. Even in those dark glasses, I could see she was glaring daggers. "Let's just go," she groaned, sinking into her seat. On the way there, Jane just complained about having to go to a place crawling with food.

"You know, the Cullen's do it every where they move," I commented, clutching my chest.

Jane scoffed. "Right! The goody vamps can go to school and be like a human. I'm not like them. I kill humans for food and sometimes for enjoyment. This isn't fair," she huffed, folding her arms.

"Maybe you can use this time with me to try and abstain from human blood," I hinted. "At least you wouldn't have to wear contacts."

Jane's mouth popped open. "Are you some expert now? A vampire told you our one secret which was already breaking rules---"

I tried to interrupt her. "He didn't te---"

She glared at me. "You've seen the scarred one living with them!" I didn't know what she was talking about. They all were perfect. "Supposedly he's from the southern wars. Now look at how difficult it is for him!"

I squeezed the steering wheel realizing who she was talking about. "He's never attacked me."

"I bet if you simply cut your finger, he'd kill you. You'd be dead before I even had a chance to say 'I told you so'."

I glared at the road ahead. "That's not true. Jasper would never hurt me."

She laughed. "Whatever. I guess we'll never know, will we?" She challenged.

I sucked in a ragged breath. "I guess not..." I felt her eyes on me, but I was focused on not wrecking and keeping my eyes dry.

The school was just up ahead when a silver car pulled up alongside me. It was had wanting to race. "C'mon Swan! Let's see how fast that monster can go!" He yelled.

Jane growled, but I stayed the speed limit. "What's wrong with this piece of crap?!" she asked as Chad shot forward.

"Nothing. It's fine." I said, curtly.

She mumbled something under her breath, but I ignored her, pulling into the school parking lot.

Chad was leaning against the hood of his car, smirking. "You should have left that junk in the dumpster," he laughed.

I kept my head down as I walked past.

"Whoa whoa whoa, who's this?" He grabbed Jane's arm.

"I wouldn't do th--" He let out a brief scream as he toppled over.

Jane grinned widely. "I'm off-limits."

He looked at her with wide eyes as he scrambled away.

Groaning, I grabbed Jane and led her into the shaded building. "Jane, you can't torture every person that looks at you wrong."

Jane was smiling wickedly. "Why not? This is like a break for me! Leaving Volterra to come live freely and do what I want!" She laughed excitedly.

"You have to babysit me, remember? That's why you were sent here." I felt my zombie face fall in.

Jane actually pouted, she looked pitiful.

I sighed. "Break his hand next time, but no powers."

"I can break it?" she asked for clarification.

"Just make it look legit. No crushed into dust bones or completely ripped off arms, got it?" She nodded. "Now let's get to class."

We walked off, side by side, vampire and zombie, to class. The teacher wasn't too pleased to see another student with me, but he focused his glare on the board. Since Jane looked so young, we passed her off as really smart as in skipping many grades. She stared at random kids in the classes, inhaling when one would pass us and grimacing when I'd glare at her.

I saw Chad talking to Veronica during lunch; he was glaring at us. I internally groaned, throwing my plate onto the table in front of me.

"Hey Bella!" Adam ran to where we were seated. Jane glared at him, but I put a hand on her. "He's a friend. Frrrriiiiieeeeennnnddd," I pronounced slowly. He annoyed me, but he didn't deserve Jane's glare.

She turned her glare on me. "I wasn't going to do anything!"

Adam sat down. "Hi, I'm Adam," he introduced himself to Jane.

She put on her angelic face and smiled sweetly. "I'm Jane, a friend of....." she looked at me for a second.

"Bella!" I chuckled. "Short-term memory," I joked, rolling my eyes.

He laughed. "Are you from her last place?"

"Yes, I missed Bella so much so I came to live here for awhile," Jane recited the story. I nodded in agreement, taking a bite of celery.

Adam noticed Jane's empty table in front of her. "Aren't you hungry?"

Jane looked at me in a panic. "She had a big breakfast," I explained quickly.

Before he could continue, a girl called him away.

"Thanks," Jane muttered sincerely.

I looked at her. "You're welcome. You and I need to work on your facade better."

She rolled her eyes. "I never realized how bad the Cullen's had it."

I looked down at my tray. "Not bad...just different. After a couple decades, I guess it eventually came natural to them. Don't worry, I'm sure they were as bad as you on their first day."

That cheered her up slightly. "How do you know how to act right?"

I rolled my eyes. "I'm...a...huuuummmaaaannnn." I said slowly as if I were talking to a toddler. "And hanging around the Cullen's helped too."

Jane looked down at her hands thoughtfully until lunch period was over.

--

The rest of school went some-what normal. I went to the classes I skipped out on yesterday and met up with Kate again. She was in my last class, Chemistry. "Hey! Where were you yesterday?" She greeted me.

"I went home, wasn't feeling good." She noticed Jane behind me. "Oh yeah, this is Jane. She's visiting from Forks."

Kate stared blankly. "From where?"

"It's in Washington. That's where I'm from." I informed her flatly.

The teacher came in and we were separated; I didn't talk to Kate for the rest of the period.

On the way to the parking lot, Jane and I were stopped by Veronica and her followers. "I told you not to mess with me," she said.

My eyes opened innocently. "I haven't done anything to you."

"You did something to my brother, Chad, I know you did."

"I didn't do anything to him either. I told him to go to hell, he didn't, so I brought hell to him," I gestured to Jane.

She sneered. "How lovely. You brought a toddler."

Jane's eyes went ablaze. "I'd watch it bitch."

Veronica scoffed. "I'm being threatened by you? FYI, elementary school is that way, but I'm sure you already know that." She glared at Jane.

I took a step back with a smile on my lips. At least we were in the shade.

"The plastic surgeon is that way, but you know it pretty well, don't you?" Jane shot back.

I laughed and watched.

"You don't know who I am, do you?" Veronica said menacingly.

"You don't know who I am," Jane hissed, turning her words and making them sound a thousand times worse.

"You're nothing but a immature child," she said, poking Jane in the shoulder.

Jane's eyes narrowed.

"Uh-oh..." I backed farther away. Suddenly Veronica let out a terrible, ear-piercing scream; she was writhing on the ground in pain.

"No, I'm Jane. Your worst nightmare," she said walking to my truck. I hitched my bag higher on my shoulder and ran after Jane.

"I said no powers," I scolded. "People are going to freak out."

She pointed back to the students. "Don't worry. Alec has it covered."

Only Veronica was moving; she was still whimpering.

"Jane, you can stop that now."

She shrugged. "I stopped a long time ago. Thanks, Alec!" She waved towards the building. Everyone reanimated as we pulled out onto the main road.

"Alec is still here?" I questioned hopefully.

Jane gave me a weird look. "Something came up. He decided to stay a little longer." She sounded like even she was unsure of her words.

We stayed silent on the ride home, only every now and then the sun would hit Jane causing her to sparkle. If you were to blink, you'd miss it. Horns sounded behind me because of my slow driving. People went fast down here, not like in Forks where the roads were in a constant state of wet. Jane huffed quietly, fixing her glare on me and the other drivers.

"This is insane! I can run faster than this!" She complained.

I chuckled. "That's not saying much. You could run faster than a Lamborghini."

She grew silent as I pulled into the garage next to my mom's red Buick. "See you tomorrow," Jane called over her shoulders as she pulled her hood lower and ran out towards her house.

--months later--

The days seemed to pass in a blur. I didn't hold any record of time. The routine of my new life was in place and I felt myself becoming obsessive compulsive with it. I'd wake up, I'd go to school with Jane, I'd spend the evening with Alec, I'd go to sleep. The same monotonous thing over and over and over again. Jane was becoming nicer with every passing day, or at least she stopped threatening my life; her glares were even starting to grow on me. Alec was like my best friend. He'd come over with a different movie every night. Living in Volterra's underground, he hardly experienced today's technology so he took the opportunity with me. I grew to be comfortable around them, not happy, but not a zombie either. I would forever be missing that extra part of me, but it seemed they helped me forget my past life. They were my medicine, my amnesia.

I dropped Jane off at her house with Alec and drove the couple of yards to mine. I quietly walked inside and went straight to my room. On my bed was a note from Renee: went surfing, will be back before dinner. Love Mom. I smiled to myself. It's nice to know she went back to her usual self. With a sigh, I turned to drop my books onto my desk and noticed something shiny on my dresser that wasn't there before. I looked around for any sign of breaking in, but coming up empty. Slowly I walked to my dresser and picked it up. It was a charm bracelet with only one charm on it; it looked like a fairy with short black hair. I recognized what it was supposed to be.

Alice.

I looked at my window, it was unlocked. Someone had been in here. My guess was Alice herself, but why would she leave this? Seeing it sent a surge of guilt through my core. I left without saying goodbye. I must have not only hurt Edward, but every other Cullen, too. I hurt poor sweet Esme. Alice's only friend and I left without an explanation. Why would I do that? Why would I hurt the ones I loved? It was getting harder to remember what love was....

With a furious growl, I threw the charm bracelet. "I DID IT TO SAVE YOU!!!" I screamed at no one in particular. "I DID IT OUT OF LOVE!!!" The tears started falling to the ground. The tears only made me angrier at myself. A scream of frustration rocked my body as I threw my stuff around. A book went flying into the wall, my shoes hit the door, I took off my ring and chucked it at my reflection in the mirror, shattering it. Running out of things to throw, I collapsed onto the floor, crying.

I couldn't live like this. When Jane came, I thought I was really moving on, but now I see it will never happen. I'll die an old maid for sure. All the distractions in the world couldn't distract me from the underlying problem.

"To love him, I must let him go," I whispered as I pulled my knees up to my chest.

That saying has never hurt so much before. I couldn't let him go though. Physically was bad enough, but there was no way I'd release him from my heart. I may not ever be with him again, but he'd forever stay with me...


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