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The song for this chapter is "Hundred" by the Fray.

"So this is where you are, and this is where I am. Somewhere between unsure and a hundred."

For Christmas, he had given me a beautiful necklace from Tiffany's. By Valentine's Day, I was had fallen in love with him and he had fallen in love with me. And on the first of April, he told his wife that he was leaving her. It was May now, even though the weather wasn't quite agreeing with the fact that summer was supposed to be starting soon.

And now, all I could think about was Alice, pregnant with his baby.

"When…when did this happen?" I asked. Edward had only filed for divorce a month ago, when he told Alice that he was having an affair. Apparently, they had been having sex up until then.

"She just called me," Edward said, and I shook my head.

"No. When…when did she get pregnant?" I managed, and Edward stiffened up.

"Uh, the last time was Valentine's Day. Before, um, before I went to you."

I nodded, trying not to think about Edward being with her right before he came to my bed on Valentine's Day and told me that he loved me for the first time. "Why were you still having sex with her? You had already told me you loved me…and you were still having sex with her?"

Edward shifted uncomfortably, pursing his lips. "Bella, I've done a lot of things wrong recently, and having sex with Alice when I was cheating on her is one of those things. But she was my wife, and it was Valentine's Day. This sounds bad…but she kind of jumped on me. I think she knew, deep down, that something was wrong. There was a very obvious void between us, and we tried to fill it with sex. I'm not saying it was the right thing to do, but that is what happened."

"And you're not going to go back to her?" I asked quietly.

"No." Edward said firmly, cupping his warm hand under my chin and forcing my head up so that I was looking him in the eyes. "Even if I wanted to go back to her, which I don't, I doubt she would take me back. I hurt her, Bella. I hate myself for hurting her like I did…but I love you more than I ever imagined I could ever love another person. You're my…my soulmate."

I took a step back from me, still so conflicted about what I would do. The man I loved was expecting a child with another woman. What was I supposed to do in this situation? He didn't want to go back to his wife, and she didn't want him back. So, what, would they just have joint-custody of the child?

I didn't know how I would handle that. I liked kids just fine and I wouldn't mind having my own someday, but right now was too soon for me to be a mother- maybe even too soon to be a stepmother. I'm only twenty five years old, for goodness sake. Edward and Alice are both older, and more ready to be parents.

"What are you going to do?" I asked, continuing with my questioning. "This is a serious situation, Edward. Your wife is pregnant…and I don't know where this leaves me."

"My ex-wife. Well, soon to be ex-wife," Edward corrected me. Then he stepped closer to me and leaned down, pressing a gentle, chaste kiss to my lips. "And I don't know what I'm going to do, Bella. I need to talk to Alice, in person. And then you and I are going to have to talk, as well."

"About what?" I asked dumbly, and Edward sighed.

"Bella, I love you, and I'm with you now. Your opinions matter, too. We need to sort all of this out."

With that, he stepped away from me and took his cell phone out of his pocket. "I need to call Alice," he explained, and then left the room.

I stood there, alone, lost in thought.

Could I do this? Could I actually be a part of something so serious?

I'm not sure…but I might have to be. I was tied to Edward now; he was my boyfriend and I loved him. Having a child would not make me love him any less, and I hoped it wouldn't make him a different man.

A child would change things, of course, but that didn't mean our relationship would have to be different. We would still go out on dates and make love in the middle of the day and spend time together no matter what. Plus, Alice would have the baby most of the time anyway, probably. Edward and I wouldn't have to spend every single night staying up late taking care of a baby if Alice were to have the majority of custody.

It sounded a little impractical and unrealistic, even to me, but the truth was that I wasn't really ready to be a parent.

Not even close.

I had never gotten used to being the other woman, because it really did make me feel awful. I wished that I could have met Edward at a different time, when we were both single and free to date. But that's not the way it happened, and now we're paying for it. What if I fuck everything up?

I just got Edward- and there's no way I'm going to lose him now.

I know these characters have flaws, but I promise that we'll come to a full circle and everything were work out. I'm a firm believer that absolutely no one (except for my bro Jesus) is perfect, Edward and Bella included. I think that cheating on anyone, spouse, fiancé, or partner, is okay, but it does happen. And although it is a terrible thing, I don't think it necessarily makes you a completely terrible person. I know that sounds weird…but yeah.

Xoxo- Mel