Chapter 4:

"Ok baby girl." My heart flutters when she says that, I could get used to hearing that.

Still Alex POV:

I don't know how to bring it up but there are more scars, but these ones are on her wrist and I know what they are from. I love her no matter what she has been through or what she has done to cope with it. I want her to know that I am there for her and I always will be. Maybe she was a cutter maybe she is a cutter but i want to be there for her. When we get back to her apartment, I sit down on the couch while she gets me a water and her a soda. She comes over and hands me my water. Then she sits down, and I lay my head on her chest as I curl into her arms. "What's wrong honey? I know something is on your mind." She says to me.

She knows me too well. I notice that only one of her sleeves are rolled up. I take the arm that the sleeves is rolled up and I run my fingers over the scars. "I figured you would find out about this at some point."

"I want you to know that I still love you even if you did this or do this. I want you to know that I am here for you no matter what." I go to grab the other arm but she flinches. Then she gives in. She lets me roll up her sleeve and there is fresh bleeding but still there. I turn into her neck and start crying. "Baby I love you. I am not ashamed of you. I want to help you."

"I never had that."

"Well now you have me."

"Where is your first aid kit or peroxide and cotton balls?"

"In the bathroom, why?" I get up and gra her hand she gets up and lets me lead her to the bathroom. I point to the toilet and motion for her to sit down. She raises her eyebrow but she sits. I say to her, "Let me see your arm." I say it with authority so she knows I am not messing with her. She puts her arm out and I take it into my hand. I pour the peroxide on the wounds and dab them with cotton balls. I say to her, "I'm going to clean these everyday. So get used to me being around here more often I gotta make sure my favorite girl is okay."

When I am finished she pulls me into her lap and says to me, "favorite girl? I better be your only girl."

"You are baby. No one matches up to you in any aspect. I want you and only you."

"Ok." She leans forward and presses our lips together. Her hand are on my waist. I love this feeling. I get off of her lap and grab her hand and lead her back to the couch. She sits down first and then I lay down with my head resting in her lap. She starts playing with my hair. I tell her, "I love when people play with my hair."

"Me too. You are just so beautiful. I can believe that you are mine."

"I am all yours liv, for as long as you want me."

"Does forever and always sound good to you?" This makes me smile, I am most happy just sitting here in this apartment with her doing nothing but laying down with my head on her lap and her playing with my hair. Than anything money could buy me. I wish she knew how much she meant to me.

"That sounds great to me Liv, that sounds perfect. I love you so much."

"I love you too." She starts massaging my head and it feels so good.

"Is someone enjoying themselves there?"

"With you I'm always enjoying myself."

"Aww thanks. I would hope so."

We sit in silence for a little while before I hear her stomach rumble. "Are you hungry?"

" A little bit, but i can wait."

"It's ok I am a little hungry too."

"What do you want to eat? I don't have much here because I usually eat at work."

"How about we order in my treat?"

"Are you sure I can buy Alex, I don't mind.'

"I got it liv, really I want to treat you for a change." I get up off of her lap even though I really don't want to, I sit next to her as I look at good take out places near by. She wraps her arms around me. For a second I just sit here and revel in the feeling of being safe and protected. I finished looking and we decided a small chinese restaurant. After I answer the door a little while I put it down on the table and turn around. She pulls me into her lap so I am straddling her. I wrap my arms arounds the base of her neck. And press our lips together. I have never felt so good in my entire life. I just want her to make me feel this until my final breath and I don't doubt that she will ever let me down. Her tongue runs over my bottom lip and I welcome her tongue into my mouth and we have a short make out session. I pull back and tell her, "baby as much as I am enjoying this our food is going to get cold."'

"Ok, I was enjoying myself too. We should resume that later."

"I'd be glad too."

I take the spot to her and we make small talk as we eat. I have learned so many things about her in this day together. She gets up to throw away our food, and she grimaces. I can tell she is pain. I wish I could fix all of this, I just want to stay here all the time. I want to slap her mother for what she has done to my Olivia. That's right she is mine not hers, she lost that privilege when she put her hands on her. I never will do that to her and I know she will never do that to me. I don't feel that she will hurt me. You can see it in her eyes. She comes back into the living room and once again she grimaces when she sits down. I lay against her, a few tears start to fall. I hope she doesn't notice but because it is her she does. She lightly grabs my chin tuntil we are eye to eye and she says to me, "Baby I am ok, You're ok, We're ok. We are going to be okay me and you."

"Promise?"

"Forever and always." That makes me smile because I know that she means it.