Hey guys! I feel so bad. I haven't updated in over 6 months and I feel horrible about that. School has been very hard but I'm trying my best. Please don't hate me. I promise to update in the next two weeks. I love you all.

'Why am I so afraid to crash down

and lose my heart again I don't know,

I can't see, what's come over me

Why am I so afraid to break down

and lose my mind again I don't know,

I can't see, what's come over me'

Vanessa Hudgens - Afraid


I decided that when I said I was starting to like him, I must have been tired and delusional. Their's no way and I don't even want to think about it. Its been a week since we've been in Hawaii. Troy and I have not been arguing at all, and to tell you the truth its freaking me out. I'm not used to being friends with him. Don't get me wrong he still annoys me but it doesn't bother me us much I guess? I don't even know how it doesn't. Whatever.

Anyway, I'm getting ready at the moment. Our parents went on this boat ride to this fancy island where they're gonna get facial and massages while Jack does whatever. So, Troy are going to get some dinner and maybe go out.

I finished doing my hair and make up when I heard a bang on the door. I looked at the door. "Yes?" I asked Impatiently. "I really need to take a shower!" I opened the door and in one swift move Troy was in the bathroom. He started getting undressed. "What are you doing?" "Taking a shower?" He said like it was obvious. I looked at him only to see his bare ass jump into the shower that was running hot water as the steam drifted to the mirror.

I shook my head a little while I continued getting ready. My hair was left curly, a little Smokey eye and redish lipstick. Black skinny jeans, my blue pumps that much my one shoulder shirt with fringe coming down the front.

I turned around just in time to see Troy walk out of the bathroom with just a pair of pants on. I need to stop starring. I can't help it though. "Do you ever where a shirt?" I managed to get out. "Why? Jealous? If it makes you feel better, you can walk around shirtless too." He added with a wink. "I think not." I said walking away. He shrugged. "It was worth a try."

We both finished getting ready and walked out the hotel door making sure we have our key card. Troy was wearing a black button down with dark wash jeans and black vans.

"Where are we going?" I asked as we walked. "Azure. Our moms made a reservation for us. They said that we'd like it. We walked down the side walk for a little while. I saw the restaurant across the street and went to walk only to be jerked back. I then heard a car horn as it sped off.

"Be careful." Troy said softly as we continued walking. After see the hostess and telling her the reservation was under 'Bolton' we were brought to a table in the back on the deck by the beach. Their candles everywhere. No other tables were close by. We sat down and looked at the menu. "Well. This is private." I said eyeing him. "I had nothing to do with this." He put his hands up in defense.

"Hi, my name is Taylor and I'll be your server for the night. Anything I can get you to drink?" We both ordered waters. "Okay. I'll be right back with your waters." She walked away. She was a very tan unnatural blonde. "I'm gonna get a steak and mashed potatoes." Troy said. "I'm most likely gong to get the grilled chicken with rice." I decided. We sat their in silence until our waters arrived.

"So, have you talked to Shar or anyone?" Troy asked, taking a sip of his water. "Yeah. Yesterday we talked for a good 30 minutes. I miss her!" I said with a pout. Troy chuckled a little bit. "I kinda do too. Her annoying voice always telling me what to do and shit." I giggled at his statement. "Be nice." I warned.

Our food came shortly after. We both ate in silence. It wasn't as awkward as you think it might be. I mean we went from hating each other to being friendly 'Acquaintances' in a time span of a week. That's a lot for us. We could barley be in the same city let alone the same room, but some how without our friends around us we seem to be able to get along. Im just as surprised as you. Trust me.

After dinner came and went we walked back to our hotel room. My phone beeped. I looked at it. 'Shar boo'. I slid my finger across it, opening up the message as we Troy and I walked into our room.

'OMG. Major gossip! Call me ASAP.' I crinkled my eyebrows together.

Troy went into the bathroom as I sat on the bed, holding my phone to my ear. "Omg guess what?!" I heard in my ear. "What?" I asked with a small smile on my face. This better be good. "I heard from Star that a little someone likes you!" Shar said squealing. "Who who who!?" I heard myself asking. "Jason!" Hottie with a body Jason? "Oooooh! Really?" I think this could work. "Yes! Anyways, how's Bolton? Still bothering you?" I shrugged my shoulders forgetting that she couldn't see me. "Eh. A little. Not as much though. He's still a pain in my ass." I told her. She laughed quietly. "You guys becoming friends or maybe more?" I snorted a little at this thought. "Friends? Maybe not. Friendly acquaintances? Probably." We both laughed at this. "It's late and I'm tired. I'll talk to you tomorrow." After she said bye we hung up.

"Sharpay?" Troy asked me. "Yep. I swear she could talk for ever and ever about anything." I teased. "She can be a little much." He agreed. "Shush." I giggled. Troy just winked at me as he stripped down to his boxers. I got ready for bed before turning out the light. "Night Troy." I snuggled into bed. "Night brie."


"Rise and shine!" I opened one eye and looked over at the clock. "Im sorry. Is there an issue? It's 7 in the morning!" I exclaimed to my mom, covering my face with my pillow. "Sweetie, get up. We are all going to get breakfast at 8 and then we have scuba diving at 10!" I groaned a little. "I'm leaving and you better be ready in 30." She said before leaving me to my peace.

Wait. Where's Troy? I looked at his bed to notice no one was in it. I didn't hear the shower running either. Oh. Maybe he's already ready. I got up quickly throwing on a plain black bikini and a white sun dress over it. I put my feet into some sandals before doing my morning routine in the bathroom. I grabbed my Jessica Simpson sun glasses before checking the time to see I finished in 25. I did a little victory dance and made my way to my moms suite.

"Hey madre." I greeted. I noticed Troy sitting on the couch. "You got up early." I commented. "Yeah, I couldn't sleep." I nodded my head before our parents told us what was on our agenda for today. We all made our way down to the buffet at the hotel. We finished with 30 to get down to the beach for scuba diving. I'm so sacred. What if theirs a shark. Omg. This is a bad idea. I can already tell.

After the instructor went over everything. We all had to put on our wet suit and get situated with everything we needed. On the out side I look cool and collected. On the inside I'm shitting my pants!

"Are you guys ready?" He asked us. Everyone answered yes of course, apart from me. "Gabi?" My mom asked. "Um. I'm not feeling to well. Maybe I can just sit this one out." I gave them a weak smile and walked over to the tables and took a seat. "Brie?" I looked up and saw Troy crouch down in front of me. "Hey." I tried to avoid eye contact. "Are you okay? Nothing's gonna happen. Come on." He tried to convince. "I dunno if I'm feeling it. What if their's sharks? I could die!" I exclaimed and saw Troy try to hide his laugh. "I'm glad you find this amusing." I said and moved away from him.

"Hey hey hey. I'm sorry. I promise you nothing will happen. I'll be there the whole time." Troy promised. "Pinky swear?" I muttered holding up my pinkie." Troy laughed a little before holding up his pinkie. "Pinkie swear." We intertwined are pinkies before we both stood up walking over to our parents. "Ready guys?" They asked. We nodded our heads.

"Thanks for talking me into it. That was a lot of fun!" I exclaimed to Troy 2 hours later. We all decided to hang out on the beach. I was laying down on my towel. Troy right next to me, playing in the sand. "I knew you'd probably regret not doing it when we got back home. It's always good to try something new, even if you're afraid of it." I gave him a smile.

"Do you know what time it is?" I asked him. "Uhh. Let me check. It's 12:30." I nodded my head in a thank you. "Can I ask you something?" Troy said warily. "Go ahead." I encouraged. "I heard you talking to Sharpay last night. You said something like you never would like me more than friends if that. Im just wondering why?" He seemed a little disappointed.

"To tell you the truth, I do like you, I don't know if I like like you or just the person you're acting like. I just don't wanna get my hopes for something that could turn out to mean nothing. I mean we hated each other for years and then all of a sudden we're flirting with each other. It just seems a little much." I tried to explain it in a way he would understand.

"You can't tell me you don't have legit feelings for me. Stop trying to put logic behind it, It doesn't work like that. I understand it just happened but I can't help the way I feel about you." Troy said frustrated. I stood up grabbing my stuff. "I really don't know what to say. I'll see you back at the hotel." I said making my way through the sand. I can't even deal with this. Feelings for me? Huh. Well. You know what they say? The guy who fights with you is the one who likes you. I would think this would relate to high school guys though.

I made my way through the room dropping my stuff by my bed before making my way to the bathroom. I stripped out of my bathing suit and climbed in to the warm water. I could barley wrap my head around it. I knew this was something I would not tell Sharpay or Taylor. No, this was something I needed to keep to myself. Well at least for a little while.


It was 10 and I had successfully avoided Troy all day long. You are probably wondering how I did that when I have to share a room with him. After my shower I got dressed and made my way to Lindsey's suite and gratefully invited me in once she saw the distraught look on my face and told me that Justin would be out for the day leaving just us girls. I cracked and told her everything. How Troy said he had feelings for me and me ignoring it and walking away.

"I know you're feeling down about this, but maybe we can go out and get a couple drinks," Lindsey started but then stopped when she saw my face. "You know what how about we just get some alcohol and watch some chick flicks?" After agreeing she walked into the kitchen and pulled out a bottle of grey goose vodka and some tequila. We mixed some drinks together and put on 'The Lucky One' With Zac Efron in it. He can make any girls heart feel better.

Two hours later I was crying as I saw a sad part in 'The vow'. "Channing Tatum looks hot and everything." I wiped my tears. By this time I was way beyond tipsy and just full on shit faced. Lindsey I would have to say was buzzed. I looked at the time on my phone. "Shit, its 12." I slurred. My moms probably worried. Then again. She hasn't texted or called me. "Do you need to get back to your room?" She asked me. "Yeah." I stood up and fell right back down and frowned.

"Are you okay sweetie?" Lindsey asked me. "I want Troy." I mumbled. "Do you want me to call him?" All I could do was nod my head. "Hey Troy, I have Gabi here and she's drunk off her ass and wanted me to call you to see if you can come get her?" She walked around me. "Okay great. Thankyou." She hung up and gave me my phone back. "He's coming."

A few minutes later I heard a knock on the door but I didn't move. "Hey Troy." Lindsey greeted when she opened the door. "Where is she?" He asked and she must have pointed in my direction cause next thing I knew Troy picked me up. I wrapped my arms around his neck. "Thanks linds." They said bye and Troy took us to the elevator and up to our room. He opened the door and put me on the bed.

"I'm sorry." I told him. Having a double meaning behind those words. Not only am I sorry for waking him up, I'm sorry for walking away from him. "It's fine." He said. I closed my eyes for a second and felt hot acid in my throat. I jumped off the bed and threw up in the toilet. I felt Troy hold my hair up. I finished and leaned against the bath tub, tears rolling down my face.

"Are you okay?" He asked softly. I nodded my head. He helped me up and walked out the bathroom and I brushed my teeth and washed my face. Still being drunk I walked into our room and fell on to the bed. I heard Troy snoring softly meaning his was asleep. I cried myself to sleep.

I woke up the next morning with a pounding headache. I rolled over and saw two pills and a bottle of water waiting for me on the table. I quickly downed the pills and trudged out of bed. I noticed Troy's bed empty. I quickly through in some Yoga shorts and a sweat shirt and made my way to our parents suite. "Hey Gabi." Lucille said. I then noticed the time. It was 12. "Morning." I replied. "Do you know where Troy is?" I asked her running my hands through my hair. "Working out with some friends he met." I thanked her before making my way down to the lobby.

I made my way to the fitness center and looked down at my Nikes before getting the courage to open the door. I walked in and spotted him doing arms in the corner. I walked closer and heard him laughing and joking around with Justin and some other people. I stopped walking and just stood there. Justin must have told him I was here because he turned around and looked before putting the weight down and walked towards me.

I suddenly felt self conscious and pulled on the of the sleeves of my sweatshirt. "Hey." I looked up at him before muttering a soft "Hi. Do you.. Do you think we can talk?" I asked him. He just nodded his head and we made our way out in to the lobby. "I'm so so so sorry, and I know that I've already said in a million times now. I just..I just need you to know that I like you. A lot, and I'm just scared that it'll change when we go back home and I dunno." I told him.

He grabbed my hands. "I promise you, I promise you that I'll always feel this way about you and nothings gonna change that." I looked at him before grabbing his face and kissing him deeply. Feeling the fireworks. We pulled away slowly. "Does this mean we're dating?" Troy asked me. I giggled. "You tell me."


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