Hello again! WOO HOOO! Exams are over! I'm so excited! So, anyway, here is the chapter I promised! And if you like it I'll post another one on Friday! To all the lovely reviewers who suggested ideas, Thank-you! I actually have a little idea, but your suggestions have helped it grow, You'll soon find out what happens :)
Disclaimer: Nope, still not J.K. Rowling. But I do wish that she could have written my English Exam for me
Dear James,
So, how was your date with Kayla? Good, I assume. Even though I hate the idea of you with that little girl, I do hope you didn't have an awful time. Well, I don't really care about your date, to be honest. And if I'm being honest I'll tell you that I already know how it went. It was horrible! I know this is probably not a good thing to say, but I'm so happy. It would kill me if you started dating Kayla, especially now that I know I like, no love, you.
Sorry for the hand writing of this letter, I'm scrunched up in a ball under the covers. I'm using my wand as a light and I have to make sure you can't see that I'm up. You see, I did something really drastic to make sure that you didn't enjoy your self on Saturday, and I'm not 100% sure I want to follow through with it. It's Sunday evening and I've been avoiding you all day! Well, not really avoiding just carefully laying out my plans so that I don't bump into you. It's lucky you have Quidditch practice today or I'd have been done for! I found out all I know about your date from other people. And by other people I mean Alice and Hestia. They told me that you seemed distracted all evening, that was good. And that you didn't even touch Kayla, that was VERY good! And that you left as soon as you could, not so good. I had hoped that you would come back really late so I could think about what to say to you when you got back. I mean, my action needed following up, I had even said that. And you came back at 8 and it was so hard to turn off my lights and get under my covers in the 10 seconds that I heard you coming.
Thank God I did though, otherwise I would have said or done something really stupid and ruined my whole life. I have to go about this carefully. I can't be too open, or too closed. It really is tricky business. Ha, imagine if you've forgotten about it. If you weren't distracted because of me but something/someone else. That would be great, wouldn't it! NO! Just in case you have forgotten, I'll remind you about what happened:
It started on Saturday, I was really sad. You were going out with Kayla for goodness sakes! I had planned to say something to you to maybe divert your attention off your date and onto me, but all I could think about was saying something like 'My dog died'. Of course, that would gain me sympathy, and you would probably have stayed at Hogwarts to comfort me, but it would be a lie. And I find it really hard to lie to you.
So it's Saturday afternoon, 2:50pm, and you're just about to go and pick up Kayla. That was my last chance, If I didn't do anything then I would lose you to the hands of another woman. And even though you're far from 'mine', I really didn't want to see you with Kayla. So I did the first thing that came to my mind. You walked out of your room, wearing that button down I like SO much, you walked to your desk to pick up your wallet and stuff.
"Are you going to Hogsmeade today, Lily?" You asked me, turning around, I shook my head and looked at my knees, trying to draw courage from my black tights, "Everything alright?" You came a little closer, too close. It was too easy. All I had to do was stand up and I was centimetres from your face. I plucked a thread off my stockings and looked up.
"Yeah I'm fine. There's just one thing..." I stood up, adrenaline running through my veins. You stepped back a little, putting space between us and I grabbed your arm. I leaned in, so I could only see your eyes, They were wide open, shocked I assume. I'd never been forward. I was shocked too. I couldn't believe it was me. Then I leaned in a little more, not enough that we were touching, but I could feel your breath on my lips. I kissed your cheek, placing a light peck on the very edge of your mouth.
"Have fun tonight James, I'll speak to you after, ok?" I whispered, my mouth almost touching your cheek. Then I leaned back, and smiled. You stood there, red creeping up your neck, you looked a little shocked. You nodded, then smiled. And still shocked you turned around and walked out. That was the last I saw of you.
And then this is where it brings us. I can't see you because I haven't decided what to say. I can't not say anything, because it was pretty major. I even stated that I wanted to see you 'later'. I should have thought of something better! I should have an idea of what to say to you, now that I've already taken a gigantic leap. But I can't think of anything. Well I can think of things but I don't really want to write them down, let alone SAY them to you! I'm hoping that by tomorrow I'll have an idea. So I don't have to ignore you. It would be really horrible if I had to ignore you! Especially since we've just started getting closer and you always come have breakfast with me and I really really like that. And you walk with me to classes and we have heads work we have to do. Ugh! This could not have come at a worse time.
Oh, I'd better go, it's almost 11. Since I actually have classes tomorrow I should probably sleep. It's lucky that I did all my homework before writing this letter, otherwise I would be incredibly stressed right now. Anyway, I'll be off. I'll seal this letter in the envelope that I laid out this afternoon. Then I'll hide it in the locked drawer under my desk and forget about it until I write another letter and then I'll stare down at the pile of unsent letters and think about what a sissy I am. It never ends.
Yours Forever,
Lily xoxo
I hope you enjoyed reading that one, I sure enjoyed writing it! But it does get better :P so, I'll probably post another chapter on Friday, if you enjoyed this of course! Anyway, tell me you think! xx
