"The magic thing about home is, that it feels good to leave and feels even better to come back."
- Wendy Wunder
After Billy had finished telling the last of the legends, conversations began around the fire. Seth and Leah were getting ready to go and patrol. "You good B?" Leah asked. Bella smiled and stood up "Yeah I'm good Lee you guy's head off I'll see you tomorrow morning to get ready for the big day" Bella gave them a brief hug and returned her gaze back to the ocean, towards Jake. Bella headed over to Charlie and Sue " You guys all ready for tomorrow?". Sue grinned widely "Oh we are very ready Bella". Charlie laid a soft kiss on her forehead smiling happily at his fiancee. Bella said her goodbye's and slowly headed towards the beach, leaving her boots behind, she had missed the feeling of sand beneath her feet. She walked along to the other side of the beach. Sam approached her before she made it any further.
"Hey Bella it's good to see you, you know" Sam smiled softly as he stuffed his hands in his pockets. Bella grinned over at the man before her "It's good to see you, Sam, you look good, happy".
Sam beamed at Bella "Yeah I feel it, not being Alpha anymore means I have more time for Em, so that's always a plus". Bella laughed and agreed with him "Look Sam I'm going soon, I just wanted to walk on the beach...Is that Ok, I'm sorry I didn't ask anyone" Bella awkwardly asked. Sam rolled his eyes "Bella we said you could be here today and tomorrow, beach included, trust me if you weren't allowed to be down here, you wouldn't be...".
Bella laughed awkwardly "Of course, I just didn't want to push myself on you all" she muttered softly. Sam shook his head "Enjoy the beach Bella, goodnight". She waved to Sam as he headed back to the fire.
Bella made her way to the water, she rolled her jeans up around her knees and walked through the water, it felt so calming being here, first beach was always a place she could go to think. Bella could hear him before she saw him, she waited patiently, not daring to turn around to meet him.
"What are you doing here Bella?" Jacobs' voice was gruff and serious.
"I'm enjoying the beach while I can Jake, I didn't come to fight" she muttered out. She waited for him to start arguing or yelling, but it never came. She slowly turned to face him as she walked through the water. Jacob watched her silently as she moved through the water happily.
"Hey do you remember when we were kids and we used to play by the water, we'd take turns burying each other in the sand, and there was that one time when we buried Quil so deep, our dad's had to help dig him out, god he was so mad" Bella chuckled shaking her head as she thought of the memory, she looked over at Jake who's face showed no sign of emotion.
"How long are you here for" he uttered. Bella looked up into his face and shook her head "Tomorrow, I'll be gone tomorrow night, It's what I organized with Sam". Jake nodded and turned and started to walk away.
"That's it...really Jake...we can't even be friendly?" Bella called out. Jake turned back quickly and stalked to Bella "You have no idea what you being here means Bella so don't start with me!" Jake yelled. Bella looked to the bonfire and noticed everyone watching. Bella walked out of the water and stalked up to the beach "Meet me in the woods Jake" she breathed out as she collected her boots and fixed her jeans. Charlie looked worriedly over at Bella as she headed past him to the woods, giving him a brief smile as she disappeared into the trees.
As she got to the woods she was met by two wolves, she huffed "I'm meeting Jake, ok, nothing else" she declared as Jake appeared. The wolves looked at him and he nodded in there direction.
"What do you want Bella?"
"I want you to at least acknowledge me, Jake".
"Ok Bella your here, whether I like it or not you're here ok" Jake shouted at her.
"Fuck you, Jacob, you think I want to be back here, you think I enjoy this, it kills me being here" Bella shouted back.
"Then go back to your life Bella, we were all doing fine without you here!".
"Fine Jake, fine, tomorrow night I will be out of here ok and you won't have to tolerate me anymore" Bella muttered out sadly. She turned and headed out of the woods.
"You think you being here doesn't kill me, Bella, every minute you're here is a constant reminder of what will never be" Jake whispered out. He stalked towards here and roughly spun her around to face him "To have you so close and not be able to touch you" he breathed out. Bella shuddered at his touch, his voice was so husky and broken, it broke her un-beating heart. "Jake.." Bella breathed out softly. Jake roughly pulled her face to his and crushed his lips to hers. Bella gasped as he roughly kissed her hungrily.
She kissed him back with as much force as he slammed her up against a tree, she hissed as she felt the sharpness of the bark against her back, but she didn't care, she needed to show him she could take it, he was punishing her and she knew that. Bella scraped her nails down his back causing him to pull away from her lips and growl at her.
Jake pushed against her harder and bit his way down her neck as he growled low in his throat. Bella let out a moan causing Jake to slam her into the tree again, making her gasp and hold onto him tighter. She pulled his face back to hers and hungrily kissed him harder than before, pouring all her emotions into the kiss. Jake pulled back and let out a roar as he slammed his hand next to her head, he leaned his head against her's as he released her legs that were wrapped around him, letting them drop to the floor. "Leave Bella" he growled out. Bella pushed him back and fixed her clothes, not daring to look him in the eye. "I'm sorry Jake" she whispered out as she headed back to the bonfire.
Bella made her way out of the tree line and didn't dare to look at anyone, she quickly made her way to the car and hopped in and drove away quickly, how could she be so stupid to think things would be ok. She was mad at herself for kissing Jacob, of all the stupid things to do, she had to do that one. She pulled up at Charlie's a short time later and headed inside. Making her way upstairs she showered quickly and headed into her old bedroom, she pulled out a lacy pair of boy shorts and a matching camisole top. She grabbed a book out of her suitcase and made her way over to the window seat, sitting with her throw rug on her lap as she got comfortable, leaning against the window. It was nights like this Bella wished she could fall asleep, a way to escape her thoughts. Now she waited for the sun to rise and begin a new da
