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Chapter 4: At World's End?


"Thump, thump, thump." The sound of someone's heart filled the room.

It was drumming in my ears making it impossible to hear anything else. Whose heart was it? Could it be mine? I could barely even feel mine beating. Was I dead? Whose was it and why was so loud I could hear nothing else?

My hands were clammy and I couldn't see anything at all. My breath was shaky and my mind was blank. Where was I? Hastily I tried to breathe in, but it was to treacherous of a job.

Something cold and hard was lifted up to my lips. It was a cool thick liquid like mucus. I tried to pull away, but I had absolutely no strength. Slowly the liquid began to slide down my throat. I could feel it streaming down into the fiery pits of my stomach. Suddenly jolts of pain were erupting everywhere from beneath my skin as if something was trying to get out but couldn't.

I tried to open my eyes but it was to hard. It required to much strength. Why was I this weak? I couldn't even open my eyes something was definitely wrong with me.

What had Dumbledore done to me? Or had it been Dumbledore at all? Surely he would not do something like this to me. No this wasn't the work of him. Someone had disguised themselves to be like Dumbledore and had tricked me. I was so stupid. How could I have been this stupid?

I had been so concerned about going to class that I had let my guard down. It was surely James and one of his friends playing a sick prank on me. Once I get out of this they will definitely get a piece of my mind. How could he do this to me? I know we had not been on good terms, but surely he could not hate me this much! Or could he?

Again I tried to take a deep breath. And again I was unsuccessful. It felt as if a giant was sitting on my lungs making it almost impossible to breathe.

I wanted to kick and scream. I wanted someone to help me, and for James to stop being so stupid and immature. I knew all of this was just a stupid wish. That I was to weak to do anything but lay here helplessly. Was there a spell to wipe all the strength from someone? And if there was surely James did not know how to use it. He was good but not that good. Even this was to advanced for him.

Breathing was becoming harder and harder. My body had seemed to loose all desire to continue on with life. Was he slowly killing me? Surely not...suddenly a weird sensation interrupted my thoughts and began to pull at my stomach.My whole body began to shake madly.

"Stop it! Stop! Leave me alone!" I bellowed.

No one answered, and I realized that I hadn't really screamed. It was all inside my head. The only thing that could be heard was the silence screaming into my ears, bouncing off the walls, and dancing around in my eardrums. It was deafening.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.

Still nothing. It was all inside my head. I could not find my voice it was lost into the silence. Slowly but surely the darkness and deafening silence was taking over me. I wanted to fight it. I didn't want to die, but then I couldn't help but think what it would be like to die. I wasn't in any pain. Maybe it could just take me away, and there would be nothing to worry about anymore.

"Fight, fight, fight, fight it, please fight it Lily please..." The voice was soft but it still managed to shatter the silence.

Who had that been? They were telling me to fight it. Fight death? Was I truly dying? Maybe I didn't want to fight it. Or maybe I wasn't supposed to. It could just be my time.

Suddenly I found that the giant sitting upon my chest was now choking me completely, and I could not breathe at all. Sputtering I tried to search for air but it had run away with my voice. Slowly a film of darkness blackened my eyes out once again, and the world slowly drifted away from my conscious.


"I can not believe you did this to her! The older version has more memories and will overpower her younger brain. This will definitely change the outcome of the future if you kill her!"

She was furious. She could not believe he had been so foolish. Certainly with age he had grown more wisdom, but it appeared with age he only acquired foolishness. How could he have mad such a decision? Who had he consulted? Probably no one. That is how he worked alone and secretly. That is how it would always be. Only a select few were let into his little "inner circle".

Dumbledore shook his head concentrating on her unmoving body. She was so still. Not a muscle moved or twitched. What had happened to her?

"She can do this. That is the only reason I would have sent her back here like this. She can do it Minerva. Just give her some time..."

Pacing around the room she looked wildly around his office. How could he do this? How could he be this stupid? Of all the things to do...this was the biggest mistake he could have ever made. To play with time and death! This would not lead to a good ending. There would be pain, pain that would be unbearable in the end.

"That is the one thing, unfortunately that we do not have Albus! Look at her! Does she look like someone who has time?"

Saying nothing he stood stock still just like Lily. He couldn't take his eyes off her. Walking towards her he knelt by her arm and felt her pulse. It was weak. How long did they really have? Surely this couldn't kill her. Surely he knew what he was doing in the future. Surely he did.

"Alert the teachers one of them must know what to do. How someway...to...help her...Slughorn! We can use him and he...he will know of a potion..."

Slowly he stood up. Finally he ripped his eyes away from her dying body. Shaking his head he walked past Minerva tiredly he steadily moved to sit in his desk chair.

"Minerva. No one can know of this especially Slughorn. You know what will happen if he finds out that this move has taken place? He will feel even more threatened than he felt in their time, and come after her before it is time. This must stay between you and me no one else."

Minerva shook her head looking furious. Again she started to pace the floor. What were they to do? How could they save her? It was not her time. There had to be something...anything that they could do, but what?

Looking up she studied him he was deep in thought as well as her. Surely as he grew older he could not be this foolish. They were looking over something they had to have been. Or maybe it was just Lily. Maybe she was just having a hard time coping with two of her.

Shaking her head she studied him harder. He looked solemn for this was a jam that he had wedged himself into. Could he ever get out of it? Not two feet away from him laid a woman that would give birth to the boy that could save the world, but now...there was no hope. This was all of his fault. Or was it? It was all to much. Standing up slowly he faced his colleague.

"Minerva if your husband and child were taken from you and then you had a way to save at least one of them would you do it immediately?"

"Well of course!" She exclaimed. "What does this..."

Interrupting her he continued, "You see these two women are the same and yet they are different. She has changed over time. It is also possible she has hidden herself away in her younger version forgetting her task, and forgetting who she truly is. Something triggered her inside and the older and younger version began to fight perhaps. However, the younger Lily can not know everything that will happen to her. We must find a way to get the older Lily out of the younger Lily to stop the corruption they are both causing each other. However, the older Lily must stay here because she has to help her younger self, but how can she do that?"

Minerva stood in front of him completely dumbfounded and angry. Tapping her foot with her arms crossed she glared at him.

"Well maybe Dumbledore this isn't a task for us to fix. Maybe it is just up to Lily." She spat sarcastically.

Smiling he nodded. "I couldn't have said it better myself."

Aghast she threw her arms up in the air and turned back to Lily. She was twitching a bit. Maybe Dumbledore was right she just needed some time.


The world was dark. There was nothing there. Where had everything gone? Maybe my eyes were still closed and I was just dreaming. Taking a step forward an echo screamed into my ears knocking me onto butt. This wasn't a dream. I could feel pain.

"You have to save your son." An airy voice called. Or more like screamed because of the unbearably loud echo.

Turning to face where the voice had come from I blinked furiously. I could see nothing. My son? Who was my son? I didn't have one...

"Hello? Who are you...or where are you?"

Silence. No one spoke or moved.

I tried to tiptoe away from where the voice had come from but even the slightest noise was to loud. Where could I be? This had to be a dream. There was no way this was real...it was that liquid stuff James or someone had given me to drink. I bet they are getting a kick out of this.

"James I know this is you cut it out!"

Covering my ears I squatted to the ground. The loudness of my voice almost exploded my ear drums.

"This isn't James." The voice was soft and suddenly the echo went away.

Turning towards the voice I saw someone walking towards me. Groping at my pocket I tried to find my wand. It wasn't there. Where could it be? Had I lost it? Fear seared through me.

The person neared and I realized I had nothing to fear. It was me...or was it? She was much much older, but it had to be. She was wispy and wasn't taking steps like a regular person. She was almost gliding towards me her face was solemn like she had experienced a great deal of sadness. I wanted to ask her what was wrong, but I knew that it should probably remain unknown.

"Show Snape that you and him aren't meant to be. Make him hate you...you have to hate him. Don't give him a second chance after his mouth mutters that one hateful word: mudblood." Her eyes never wavered from mine giving me a chill up my spine.

Standing there dumbfounded I wondered what she meant. Snape call me a mudblood? Even he wasn't that horrible. He was going down a pretty rough path, but surely he wouldn't stoop that low.

Suddenly I remembered the continues dreams. The ones that I had been so confused about with everyone that I thought I knew but didn't. Is this my future that I was seeing? Had she been inside me this whole time? This is why I passed out before, and why Dumbledore called me to his office.

"Why are you here? Are you the reasons that I keep having those dreams?" I found myself asking. I couldn't help it, the words just jumped from my mouth.

She seemed to think for a very long time. "Dreams are only dreams nothing more and nothing less. Something your mind cooks up to entertain itself it during the night."

I didn't believe her but I'm sure she probably knew that. I should have known that she wouldn't answer me. She knew as well as I that knowing your future can be more dangerous than you think.

"Go back." She told me. "You have to go back now. I will still be here inside you. I will be here until what I was sent here to do is fixed. You have to go back."

She sounded angry and to persuasive. I didn't want to go back, and I hated the way she was wanting me to.

"No. Look at where you have gotten me so far. If you keep staying inside me you will tear me apart. It wasn't meant to be this way. You should have known that."

She shook her head, "I have to stay with you. You don't understand if I don't this is what the world will become. Nothing."

"Well you can't stay with me. We will both die."

She was quiet for several minutes. Then finally she nodded her head and pointed her wand at me whispering some kind of spell that I had never heard. A gold light burst out of her wand and hit me square in the chest sending me flying backwards into Dumbledore's office.


Opening my eyes I saw the place where I had fallen. Dumbledore was hovering over me only this time I could actually hear his words instead of a strange heart beating.

"Lily? Have you come back to us now?" His voice was soft and low to where I had to strain to catch every word he threw at me.

The light burned my eyes and I had to blink several times before I could get adjusted to the difference. Looking around I saw something that surprised me. On top of Dumbledores desk sat the older version of me looking extremely forlorn.

"Hey." I said to her.

She looked surprised and lifted her finger to her lips. Both Minerva and Dumbledore turned to try and see who I was talking to.

"You sure your okay Lily?" Professor McGonogall questioned.

Biting my lip I smiled and nodded to her. "I'm alright now thanks." I muttered quickly standing up feeling a bit woozy I swayed just a bit.

Professor and Dumbledore surveyed me wondering if they should really believe that I was alright.

"Maybe you should spend the night in the..." Professor McGonogall tried to persuade me to stay the night in the hospital but I refused.

Walking out of the office I made straight way for the Common Room. Hopefully no one had noticed my absence and wouldn't inquire about how odd I had been acting.

Stopping on the staircase I turned around looking carefully behind me. The older version of me was no where in sight.

"Where could I be?" I asked myself aloud.

Suddenly realizing what I had just done I looked around. No one was there. No one had heard me. Which was good. Slowly I continued my way up to get a good nights sleep.


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