Notes- I know it's been a while since I updated this story, I apologize. It's really tough to find the time when you go to school and work. Still I hope you are enjoying it.

Another note- Touya will be going through some tough times ahead. Jealousy is becoming more of a problem and a conflict arises with his father. They both love Nadesico so much, they don't want to lose her. Touya discovers his powers are growing and his connection with the moon becomes dangerous.

Chapter 4

"Touya?" The soft drift of Okaasan's voice floated through the silent room of his. She cracked the door open to let a little more light into the room. The light rested on the huddled form lying against the wall on his bed. He didn't lift his head up from the cradle of his arms, but shifted a bit to acknowledge her presence.
"Darling, are you sitting in the dark for a reason?" she asked.
There was no reply.
"May I come in?"
There was a soft mumble and she let herself in. Slowly, she sat down on the bed next to him.
"Touya, what's wrong?" She asked. She could barely hear him. He seemed to be whispering some kind of prayer.
"You've locked yourself in your room for the past two days. Have you been feeling ill?"
She lowered her head towards him. "Are you mad at me?"
The small head raised up, the moon cast a light on his round face. His eyes sparkled with unshed tears.
"Don't leave me." He whispered.
Her eye went wide with surprise at the plea, not sure how to respond. Touya turned away from her, afraid if he stared any longer, he would break into tears. He got up and made his way to the window. Staring out at the moon, he sighed.
"Has Sakura done anything spectacular lately? Any new words, did she take her first step? Is that why you've come to bother me?" His voice dripped with sarcasm.
"Why are you being like this? What's all this about Sakura?" She got up and walked over to him.
"Touya, are you jealous?"
Touya's mouth set in a firm line. His eyes held a flame within the dark orbs. "Why should I be jealous? Tell me, Okaasan. Tell me what would I be jealous of her?"
"I'm not you, Touya so you have to tell me."
He looked at her. "It took you two and a half days to ask me if something's wrong."
Okaasan sighed. "I'm sorry, if I'm not always on the ball with things –"
"No, that's not it." Touya shook his head. "You are always at Sakura's immediate attention. Yes she is a baby, that I understand. What I don't understand is why she gets all of the praise and I get the downcast looks."
Okaasan was surprised. Touya continued. "What's wrong with me? Why am I so unwanted? Is it because of school? Is it my fights? I haven't been in one since a month ago. Yet, I am always left out of the fun in this house. Make Sakura laugh, get Sakura new dresses, listen to Sakura speak, Sakura is so cute, Sakura is so tiny, protect Sakura with you life, Touya. You were never this way with me. I remember that. I remember you used to set me on that windowsill of that old apartment to look out the window. I didn't have a bedroom when I was small. I slept in the living room and I only had two toys to play with, my blocks and the small grey bear."
Touya closed his eyes as the memories bubbled up.
"You and father would take me to the park in the stroller and I would watch myself in the reflection in the pond. When I was three, we found that old tricycle in the dumpster that only needed a new front wheel. It was the best present I had ever had. I used to race father to the end of the street. He would run along beside me."
"When money wasn't so tight, we'd go to the movies. We would share a giant ice cream afterwards. When I came home from school, Outasan would play soccer with me until dinner time. You used to read to me at night." Touya stopped and took a deep breath.
"And now all you have time for is to feed me and yell at me."
"Touya." Okaasan's voice shook with sadness. Touya refused to look at her. "I know things have been difficult with school and now family issues. I want you to know you are wanted, and needed here with us. We love you so much. Sakura is so young and so helpless –"
"Wasn't I just as helpless?" There was bitterness in his tone.
"We...were taken by surprise with your birth, and we weren't prepared by a long shot to have a baby. So we winged a lot of it, not knowing what was right or not. We tried to make you happy and your father and I enjoyed those days of the three of us. Yes, we have longed for a daughter and we are trying to do better at taking care of her. We have more experience now, but that doesn't mean we love her more than you. We did our best with you. As for the attention, you and Sakura are two different people with different personalities. You, Touya were quiet and serious. Rarely did you laugh and you got irritable when I fussed over you. I learned to tend to you without disturbing you and touching you too much. You were so independent Touya, even as an infant. So we gave you your space, thinking you did not need out help. I'm sorry Touya if I had made the wrong choices. Sakura, on the other hand, gets upset if she's all by herself. She likes being around people. She loves being around you too, Touya."
Touya looked up at her in surprise. She was staring out the window with a small sad smile. "She is fond of you. It's your face she wakes up to. She eats breakfast with you everyday. She always wants to see you when you come home. Her favorite toy is the gorilla with the dark wild fur, because it reminds her of you hair."
Touya glared at her, remember the incident with his hair. He ran his fingers through it unconsciously, feeling the short silky hair.
"Her first word was her name."
"I know that." He snapped. "And you would think I'd be so happy, right? Well I'm not. I know she is so innocent, she so cute to realize how much...I just wish..." he trailed off. Touya didn't really hate her, on the contrary, he loved her. God forbid anyone hear that from him. "I don't dislike her, but she takes you away from me. We never do anything together anymore. Now, we don't have time." He said that last part quietly.
"Touya I –"
A knock at the door startled them both. Father poked his head in.
"Is everything okay in here? I was going to put Sakura to bed"
Touya looked to her for a moment, knowing he would not get her to understand. She had come from Sakura's side. She had always been at the center of attention. Touya could see that for Father always wanted to be around her. People always stopped her to talk to her. She was beautiful and carefree.
He walked over to his bed and lay down. He didn't want to talk anymore. Father and Mother put Sakura to sleep. Touya fumed silently. Then Mother turned around with no hesitation, leaned over to kiss his forehead. Touya turned away. He didn't want her kiss of guilt.
He heard murmurs of their conversation as they left. He then allowed the tears to fall. He shouldn't have been so mean to her, his loving Mother. She really was trying to help, but he had just pushed her away. Do you always have to make her cry? He should have been trying to make her happy, especially after his latest vision. He had dreamed of his Mother was floating on a lake, her eyes were closed. He tried to swim to her and pull her back to safety. The water was dreadfully cold and stung his skin. She began to sink and Touya dived after her. As he swam, he noticed that she began to melt away into a skeleton. He let out a scream under the water and tried his best to reach her. She sank further and further, passing other skeletons on the way. Touya couldn't hold any more air and had no choice but to surface and wake up.
He shifted and looked up to the window. The full moon was high in the night sky. Just a few stars lit up the dark night. He got up and slipped over to the wide window pressing his palms to the cold glass separating him from the darkness.
The moon.
He looked up to the giant orb. "Beautiful." He sighed.
Touya took in the sight of his mysterious friend. He remembered his first dream with it. He still couldn't understand what it meant, the dream that had carried him out of his room. He knew for some reason, that it wasn't the moon that had done it. The moon had saved him. The moon had taken care of him. Why couldn't he be up there with him? The moon was his friend. It would give him all of its attention. He would keep the bad dreams away too.
"I feel safe with you."
Suddenly, a strange feeling came over him. At first he started to panic, but then it was quickly replaced by a dull sleepiness.
"Please moon, take me away from this place. If this future is dark and lonesome for me, let me become one of the stars with you. Let me shine forever beside you. Take me away from home. I'm not wanted here! Please!" He became frightened and tense. He tried to open the window but it was locked, no, nailed shut. He had to get out of there. He had to fly!
"Take me. Take me away from here!" he growled. He picked up his small table and threw it at the window full force. He didn't hear the noise, he didn't feel any pain. He had to get...to the roof. A voice whispered in his head.
The roof.
The roof.
"Yes, the roof." He grunted and pulled his way up to the top floor. He stretched and pulled, bumped and scraped himself climbing to the top.
The roof.
The roof.
Jump off the roof.
"I can fly." Touya ran up to the ledge of the roof. "Take me with you!" he shouted.
He lifted his arms to the sky.
"Touya!"
"Moon!" he smiled. The moon was talking to him, calling to him.
"Touya what are you doing?" No, this wasn't the moon. The voice was coming from behind him. He turned around.
They were there.
"Leave me alone!" he hissed.
Jump!
Jump!
"I'm going where I'm needed." He turned back around and gasped. The moon was fading and the sun was rising.
"No!" he yelled. "Don't leave me!" He stood at the very edge of the concrete step.
"Touya please!" the woman pleaded.
"Touya come down from there." The man shouted.
"Don't leave me. I'm coming with you!" I will fly!"
They were coming to get him. They wanted to take him back to that place of imprisonment. No!
Jump! Jump! Jump!
With his eyes fixed on the moon, he jumped. Everything slowed down to the point that if Touya had not been falling, it would have seemed funny. The sky became a spiraling kaleidoscope with the ground finally coming into view. It was then the sound became crystal clear and his reasoning came back to him.
Mother was screaming.
So was he.
Things went black.

To be continued...

Whoops! Ok, I know this is a bad place to leave you, but I will write more as soon as possible. Thank you for the reviews! Peachy!!!