Please don't hate me that this chapter isn't as long as the last one!
Day one becomes day two,
day three becomes day four,
it's not like anything has changed-
did you see me break down?
did anybody else?
now I'm working on my own defects
perfectly aware of my own defects.
And the promise that i couldn't keep
is breaking down the best of me.
I swear I'd give you everything
but that's not what you seem to need
The Shape of the Earth- My Defects
The bonfire started to die down and everyone started leaving. Sue and Charlie had already left. They asked Jacob to give me a ride home because they had gotten tired and wanted to head off. They dropped Billy off on their way. So it was just me and Jake in his little Rabbit. "Jake, I have a request." I said slowly. "What is it Bells?" He asked curiously. "Can we stop at your house for a second? I want to see it." I truly missed Jacob's house. I have such happy memories there. "Oh, sure." He responded quickly. We carried down the road a ways and pulled in at the Black's house.
"Ta Da!" Jacob shouted! "The house of Black in all it's glory!" I laughed at Jacob's intro. I stepped out of the Rabbit just staring at the old red house with the woods in the background. I looked at the sky. Man, it was stars as far as I could see. "Beautiful." I whispered. "I know right?" Jacob agreed starring at the sky with me. I was surprised he was beside me I hadn't heard the car door or anything. We stood looking at the sky for a while in silence.
I decided now is as good as anytime to tell him. I took in a deep breath. "They died." I said loudly. "What?" Jacob asked. "Edward and Renesmee are dead." I said again, sighing afterwards.I realized how numb I sounded. "But how?" Jacob questioned shaking his head in disbelief. "Well, Edward came home drunk with a gun. Shot Renesmee, shot me and shot himself. Renesmee's lungs were pierced and Edward shot himself in the head. the bullet that was aimed at me skimmed my arm." I sniffled as a tear ran down my cheek. "Bella?" Jacob asked. I sniffled again. "I tried to save her! I really did. But I wasn't quick enough to cover her! It's my fault shes dead Jacob!" I shouted in anger. Jacob exhaled as if he was annoyed. "It is not your fault at all!" Jacob said as he punched the hood of the Rabbit. "It's not your fault Bella. Don't you ever say that again! It's Edward's fault. You can't blame yourself for this. Why would he even do such a thing?" Jacob Said screaming. I choked back a sob. Truth was Edward wasn't happy with me. He was forced by his parents to marry me out of high school because I got pregnant. That's why Renesmee was born only a month or so after our marriage. That's why we stayed together. But this is what I don't want Jacob knowing. I started sobbing uncontrollably again. Jacob hugged me. "Let's get you home Bella. It's Late." I sobbed again nodding. Jacob pulled me to the passenger side of the Rabbit opening the door and letting get in before closing it again. We started towards forks. I looked over at the man that had once been an annoyance to me. When I was seventeen and eighteen he would always tell me he loved me and follow me. Don't get me wrong Jacob and I were always friends. He always knew what to say and do. I really cared about him. But how does he know that? I'm just some bitch that dropped him and he still shows compassion.
I hadn't realized till Jacob said 'What?' that I had been gawking at him. "I missed you." I whispered. I did miss the kid even though I didn't show it too well. "I missed you too." He said. I starred at him in disbelief. He let out another 'What?' "Why would you miss me?" I asked "I'm an awful person." I added quietly. "Please Bella, if you were an awful person people wouldn't like you." His words did little to convince me. "Who would like being my friend? I'm a disaster." I sighed. "Not true. A little broken, but broken things can be fixed." he whispered. I smiled. "Why do you have such confidence in me?"
"Why wouldn't I have confidence in you?" He smiled brilliantly. I was dazzled by his smile. Man he had changed. I can't get over it. It was so drastic. "Jacob, I still don't understand how you changed so much." The smile was still plastered on his face while he shrugged. "People change Bella. I mean I wasn't going to be a little lanky kid forever." his smile widened more. I couldn't help but smile. He continued. Don't let the appearance fool you, I'm still the same goofy boy." I laughed. "I never was fooled." I added jokingly.
Ever so quickly we arrived at Charlie's. Jake being 'Oh, so kind' walked me to the door. I smiled and said goodbye but as I opened the door I noticed Charlie was sitting on the couch with Sue. "Bells get Jake before he leaves!" Charlie yelled. "I'm right here Charlie!" Jacob yelled back. Looking at with an arched eyebrow. "Oh, well you are staying over night! Billy doesn't want you driving home this late." Jake sighed."Charlie I'll be fine, it's not that late." He said glancing at the clock on the wall. "No nonsense, you're staying. Your father's orders." Sue said. Jacob just huffed a 'fine'. They started to carry out a conversation. As I stood there I realized how tired I was. Letting out a small yawn. "I'm going to bed!" I said as I started going up the stairs. "Bella, can you bring some sheets, a pillow and a blanket downstairs for Jake?" Sue asked. "Sure Sue." I said running to the linen closet, grabbing the blankets and pillows and running them downstairs. "Night again everyone!" I said going back upstairs. A series of 'Nights' came from the bottom of the stairs.
After changing into my sweats, I curled up in my blanket thinking of how different today was. A lot from my past had made re-appearances. I let out another yawn and finally decided to give into sleep.
I thank a carton of whoppers and a Starbucks energy drink for this chapter.
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Next chapter soon, I promise!
Morgan :)
