Nessie wants to go to school!
Renesmee's Point of Veiw
"Why did you throw flour at your aunt?" grandma asked.
"Yeah, now thanks to you I can't get the smell of human food off," Alice glared at me.
"I thought it would be funny," I stated trying to act casual.
"You were trying to be funny?" grandma questioned.
"Well she squirted pizza sauce on us!" I accused.
"You started it!" Alice yelled.
"Nuh uh," I fought back.
"Yuh huh," oh grandma Esme was getting mad.
"You know what, I'm not even going to try. Your father's can deal with you. Carlisle, Edward! Take care of your daughters!" Yup definitely mad.
In a flash they were standing in front of us and grandma was gone.
"Hi daddy," I said making my best puppy dog face.
"Don't even bother Renesmee. I saw what happened today," shit he probably saw it in everyone's heads. I hate having a dad that can mind read!
"I heard that Renesmee," ugh now even my thoughts aren't private.
"Then get out of my head!" I screamed. Everyone turned, and stared at me. Yeah that was a bad idea.
"Renesmee Carlie Cullen! You do not yell at your father like that!" Oh shit, as much as I was afraid of my father, I was more afraid of my mother. She has this whole I brought you into the world, and I can take you out thing going on. She scares me.
"Yes ma'am," I mumbled.
"Go to your room!" she said pointing to the stairs.
Yeah I am in a heap of shit now!
"Renesmee!" my dad exclaimed.
"SOR- RY!" I exclaimed flailing my arms up, and down.
I trudged to my room, slammed my door shut, and sat down on my bed. I pulled my sketch book and coloured pencils. I started drawing, this time it was Nick and I. I was on Nick's back with my legs wrapped around his waist. My head was rested on his shoulder, and our heads leant in towards each others.
It was approximately an hour after I was sent to my room, I was still working on the picture of Nick and I. When someone knocked on the door, I tried to ignore it at first but they knocked again.
"Come in," I mumbled barely audible even for a vampire.
I expected both of my parents to walk in but to my dismay it was only my father. I crossed my arms and turned my head away.
He came and sat down on the edge of my bed.
"Let's just get this over with. What do you have the joy of doing to me?" I huffed still not looking at him.
"Renesmee, I do not enjoy punishing you. You know that, don't you?" he put his hand on my knee but I jerked away.
"Seems like you do!" I scoffed.
"No parent enjoys punishing their child, but their are things that cannot go unpunished." he tried to look me in the eyes.
"What if I was in grade two? Would I get in trouble for that?" I locked eyes with him.
"Probably not," he admitted. I scoffed.
"I hate my life! I hate PRETENDING!" tears started to blur my vision.
"Renesmee, you hardly have to pretend!" he laughed.
"Hardly? I have to pretend my grandparents adopted me! I have to pretend my aunts, uncles and PARENTS, are my siblings! I have to pretend my whole family aren't bloodsucking MONSTERS! I have to pretend I wasn't imprinted on by a wolf! I have to pretend I am not in love with some one that I can never be with!" I started to sob.
"You know that we excepted that you and Jake were going to be together," He watched my face with contentment.
"It's not Jake," I said between sobs.
"What do you mean?" he questioned trying to get me to look at him.
I shoved the picture I had just drawn at him. Nick was in khaki pants and an unbuttoned blue button up shirt. I was in jean shorts, and a plain white T-shirt.
"He's HUMAN! Of course it can't be like you and mom were," I couldn't stand to look at him, I was DISGUSTED.
"This has nothing to do with your mother!" he raised his voice.
"It has everything to do with her! You told her, when she was still human! I can't! Dad I wake up each morning wishing I could go back to my dreams! You want to know why? Because I'm human! not just half human fully human! None of you are there! No vampires or other mythical creatures. Best of all, Nick is there, and everything feels right!" I heard a gasp come from down stairs.
"No Jake! Calm down!" there was a ripping sound, a growl and then a crash, as glass broke.
"How could you?" I spat into my fathers face.
"Renesmee I-" I cut him off.
"My life is ruined!" the tears burnt hot on my cheeks.
I ran down stairs to find my grandmother/mother, cleaning up the glass. Somehow I didn't care. I was happy he left. All I wanted was for my life with Nick to be possible.
I straightened my posture, and smiled.
"Grandma?" she turned and looked at me. "Do you need any help?" this surprised her, I could tell by the look on her face.
"I think I can handle it, I am almost finished anyway," she sighed standing up.
"Okay," I agreed with a nod.
"Thanks for the offer," she smiled.
I turned around and went back to my room.
I stood in front of my wall of drawings. I looked at all of them, but kept stopping on two, the first picture I did of Nick and I and the similar one with Jake and I. Eventually the one of Jake and I started making me angry, so I tore it down off of my wall and ripped it apart.
"Wow," some one said from behind me. I whipped my head around, leaned into a crouch and let a growl rip from my teeth. "I mean I've always wanted to do that, but I never thought I would see you do it," It was Rose.
"I don't know, it just made me so angry," I sighed straightening up.
"You wanna talk about it?" she asked looking sincere.
"Yeah right! Like I want the whole house to know any more!" I scoffed.
"We could go for ice cream and talk about it there," she offered.
"That would be nice," I smiled clenching the pieces of the picture.
"Why don't you let me take that?" she said noticing my clenched hand and reaching for the shards.
I let her take them, not caring what she did with them.
We drove into town to the local ice cream place, I ordered a chocolate sundae. We sat in a booth away from all the others.
"You can tell me as much or as little as you want," she said placing her hand over mine.
"Well, it started when I became friends with Nicola. Her brother noticed and came to talk to me. After that I started drawing him, and somewhere in the middle I fell in love with him. But I'm supposed to be with Jacob, my name is supposed to end up being Renesmee Carlie Black. I know I am disgusting and wrong but I can't help it," I sighed, before taking a spoonful of ice cream.
"You are not disgusting or wrong," she assured me.
"Then why did Jacob break a window?" I questioned raising an eyebrow at her.
"Because he is a dog that's why," She laughed. I let myself give a small laugh as well.
"You want to know what the weirdest part is?" I asked looking at my sundae.
"I am here to listen to whatever you want to tell me," she said encouragingly.
"When I was down stairs staring at the shattered window. I, I was, happy. Happy that he left," I can't believe I just said that.
"Renesmee can I tell you something?" she asked.
I nodded, eating more of my sundae.
"I've always known that you weren't really meant to be Jacob. I just didn't want to say anything, because I couldn't stand breaking your heart," she smiled at me and it hearing that did the opposite of break my heart, in fact. It helped mend it back together.
"Thanks Rose, I really needed to hear that!" I returned the smile. "But that still doesn't mean I can be with Nick," I said as I realized this.
"It worked for your parents," she said lowly so no one eavesdropping could hear.
"But that's different," I huffed.
"How?" she questioned raising an eyebrow.
"They would never allow me to tell him, I couldn't hurt Nicola by taking her twin brother away, there is no way he is going to find out on his own, and well I'm not them," I sighed.
"I think that if you are really meant to be with him, that the family would allow you to tell him, eventually that is. As for Nicola, I am sure that she would understand if her brother feels the same way," did he? Did Nick like me like I liked him?
"I don't know if he does," I sighed.
"Any guy would be crazy not to like you. You're an Cullen for Pete's sake!" She laughed, but she was serious.
I let myself laugh a little, I was so grateful I could talk to her about this and not have everyone else know.
"You won't tell mom or dad will you?" I asked.
"Only if you want me too," she assured me.
"But like you won't think about it either," I added the last part too low for any one to hear but her.
"I will do my best," that made me feel better.
Her phone went off.
"Hello?" she answered.
"Rosalie do you know where Renesmee is? She isn't in her room, and no one else knows where she is." Dad sounded panicked.
"Have you all gone deaf? I had a whole conversation with her, and then we agreed to go out for ice cream," she laughed.
"Sorry Eddy, we thought it would be funny!" Emmett laughed from the background.
"I am going to-" The conversation was cut off because dad hung up.
"Looks like we should get back home," she laughed flipping her phone shut.
"Yeah, I guess so," I laughed and finished off my sundae.
"Mom, can I talk to you?" I asked standing in the door way of her and dads room.
"Sure honey, what's up?" she smiled. Even if I wasn't going to end up with Jacob I had to make sure he was okay.
"Is Jake okay?" I was looking at the floor.
"He will be just fine Renesmee," she assured me, but I wasn't so sure that was true.
"But I don't love him any more, I love . . . Nick," this shocked her, and she stood there wide eyed her mouth forming a perfect 'O'.
"Oh," that's what she said, that's all she could.
"Yeah but even though I love him, I can't be with him. He is human, I can't tell him, and he won't find out the same way you did," I made sure to say each word slowly so I wouldn't talk too fast.
"I thought that you loved Jacob," she wasn't looking at me.
"I thought so too, but mom, I just don't feel it. But when I'm with Nick, even just seeing him in the hall, I, I get this feeling that I am supposed to be with him," I caved now everyone knew, and with my luck so did Jake.
She didn't say anything she just looked up at me.
After ten minutes of us just staring at each other I got fed up with it. "Fine! Sorry I said anything, I will live the life I was supposed to, I'll be with Jake I'll eat lunch with you, everyday. I'll do this every day, week, month, year, and of my existence!" with that I stomped out of the room and kept going until I was outside. On my way I passed grandma, Jasper, and grandpa. Jasper didn't even try to stop me, grandma called after me asking what was wrong, and grandpa managed to stop me, but I wriggled out of his grasp and kept going.
I could still hear them calling from the door for me to come back, thankfully Jasper, assured them that I needed space right now.
Once I got far enough into the forest that they wouldn't be able to hear me from the house I sat down beneath a tree.
"Okay, so starting tomorrow. I will eat lunch with my family, I will tell Nicola that we can't be friends. I will ignore Nick, and I tell Jacob that I was just confused when I said those things. He has to forgive me. I'll live my life like the rest of my family, day, by day. Week, by Week. Month, by month. Year, by year." I told myself, pulling my knees closer, and cradling them. The tears started to flow, I tried with all my might to stop them but they just kept flowing.
I had been out there for hours, and my stomach started to growl. "Guess I'm running low on human food," I laughed. "But I can't go home, not to my family." I found a credit card in the back pocket of my jeans, along with two twenty dollar bills and some change. "I guess I will go out for food!" I smiled down at the money in my hand. I also had my cell phone with me.
I walked into town, well ran is more like it. Until I got to a diner. I sat down at a table and a nice young girl came and took my order. I ordered chicken fingers, and fries. The same lady brought my food out and asked if I needed anything else. I nicely declined her offer and started eating, I had just started when my phone started vibrating. I pulled it out and looked at the front. Jasper? I decided I would talk to whoever it was even if it was someone using Jasper's phone to tell them I was okay.
I flipped my phone open.
"Hello? Jasper?" I questioned.
"No Renesmee it's Emmett," oh okay so it's not Jasper. Wait. What? Emmett?
"Why are YOU using Jasper's phone?" I was talking loudly and people turned to look at me.
"Because they won't let me have my own," he replied.
"So Jasper let you use his?" this confused me.
"No they didn't think you would answer for any one else, and so I stole his phone, because I wanted to call," he sounded proud.
"Speaking of that, why did you call?"
"Oh yeah that uhm yeah I don't know we were all talking and decided to call you and using Jasper's phone was the only way we thought would work, so I took it." he explained as I heard some one slam a door from the back ground and yell "EMMETT! GIVE. ME. THAT. PHONE!"
"NEVER!" he screamed into the phone.
"Em, I think you should give them the phone. They sound angry," I warned him.
"Naw, the old man can't take me," that was pretty funny.
"Wait, you mean Car-lis-le just yelled?" I questioned sounded out each syllable of his name.
"Woah I never realized that. Uhm Nessie I think I should give him the phone," he sounded seriously scared.
"Good idea," I remarked.
"Here dad, take the phone," he whimpered.
I laughed at this, "Renesmee?" grandpa Carlisle asked.
"Yeah- it's- me-" I said between laughs.
"Where are you?" he questioned. Should I tell him? Nah not yet.
"Why should I tell you?" I asked biting into a piece of chicken.
"So I can come pick you up," he sounded shocked. I scoffed at his answer.
"Yeah well. I'm not quite ready to come home yet, I'll call you when I am kay? Bye," I sang into the phone. I finished eating and paid.
I flipped my phone open again, and searched through my contacts. Nicola! I called her someone answered after four rings. "Hello?" it was an older woman I'm guessing her mom.
"Hi, this is Renesmee Cullen. Is Nicola there?" I asked trying to sound polite.
"Yes just hold on a minute Renesmee she's right here," she said into the phone and then called Nicola.
A few moments later she was on the phone. "Nessie?" she questioned.
"Yeah Cola it's me. Listen I need a favor okay?" I rushed out.
"Yeah okay whatever what is it?" she sounded concerned.
"Can I stay at your place tonight? I got angry and ran from my house," I whispered.
"Yeah just a minute," she rushed into the phone. "Mom can Renesmee stay here tonight? She has no where else to go. Please just one night," I heard her begging her mom.
I didn't hear what her mother said but I was glad when she came back to the phone and told me what she did. "My mom said yes, but only for tonight," that was all I needed.
"Thank you Cola you really don't know how much I need to get away from them for the night. I mean I literally have no secrets!" I exclaimed. "Wait how do I get to your house?"
"I'll get my mom to pick you up, where are you?" she laughed.
"I'm at the diner in town," I whispered sounding a bit ashamed.
"Okay we will be right there, see you in a few minutes," she said hanging up the phone.
I better call them now, but which of them do I call? Esme she has a soft spot I can get past her. I flipped open my phone and dialed her number.
"Hello?" she answered after half a ring, "Renesmee is it you?" I could hear the pain in her voice.
"Yeah grandma calm down it's me. I just needed to tell you something. I'm not coming home tonight, I will be safe, don't worry. Please just understand that this is what I need to do. But before I hang up I need to talk Jasper, can you put him on for me?" She didn't say anything before putting Jasper on.
"Renesmee, are you hurt?" he asked in a monotone voice.
"No Jasper I'm fine. I need you to make sure no one comes after me. I will be safe tonight, unless some one comes after me. I need to be alone tonight, okay?" I didn't even say good by I just hung up, as I saw the car turn the corner.
"Nessie!" Cola screamed jumping out of the car and wrapping her arms around me.
"Are you alright Renesmee?" her mother asked me.
"Yeah Mrs. Johnson I just can't go back home. Not tonight," I couldn't look her in the eye.
"Well you are more than welcome to stay with us for the night, I would although like to call your parents and tell them you are okay. And call me Cassie," she told me.
I nodded my head.
"Thanks. You don't know how hard it is to live with them. They literally hear everything I say," I laughed.
"I know how it feels not being able to have secrets to yourself," Cola said as she lead me to their car which was really more of a minivan.
We got back to their house and I sat at the dining room table as Cola's mom called Esme.
"Hello, Mrs. Cullen? This is Cassie Johnson I just wanted to let you know that Renesmee is at our house and if it is fine with you she would like to stay here for the night." She was very calm.
"We have to got get her!" some one hissed from the back ground. Mom?
"Yes I think that is fine, if you don't mind having her for the night," Yes Esme was siding with me!
"It is no trouble at all," Cassie assured her.
"I am just glad that she is safe, thank you," Things were going well on my part.
"Yes well it is getting late the girls should be getting ready for bed." She directed us to go get ready, "Yes I can drop Renesmee off at school, if that is alright with you," I don't know how the rest of the conversation went but she came in and told me that she would be dropping me off at school, and I would be going home with my siblings.
I had borrowed some of Cola's pajama's and we were in her double bed.
"Do you want to talk about it?" she asked, looking at me with sincere eyes.
"I wish I could but my secret's are too big, and you'll probably get scared and kick me out of your house," I didn't look at her.
She place her hand on my shoulder and I looked up, she looked into my eyes, "No matter what you say, I will not tell a soul, and I will not kick you out of my house. It's not like you're going to kill me," she looked sincere.
"But that's the thing. . . I could," I whispered.
"What do you mean Nessie?" she didn't looked scared, just worried.
"Can I tell you a secret no one outside my family knows?" I can't believe I was telling her ANYTHING.
"You can tell me anything," she assured me.
"Okay, and this is the total truth okay? But I am actually only seven years old," I rushed in a whisper.
"What do you mean, you look like you're sixteen," she gasped.
"I know, but I grew really fast, like two weeks worth in a day. At the beginning, then it slowed down to two days worth in one day. It just recently stopped, and I will look this way until the day I die," I rushed out so I am sure she barely caught it. Something told me she did though.
"You're lying that is impossible," she laughed.
"I knew you wouldn't believe me, and that is exactly why I shouldn't be friends with a human. I should just go back to my fiance and get on with my life. I should go now, tell your mom thanks," I said standing up and not looking at her.
"Wait Nessie. I, I can't believe I am saying this, but I think I believe you," she stopped me.
"You are just saying that so I won't go," I sighed bowing my head.
"No! I mean it. I believe you! I mean I always thought it was weird how you looked at the grade two's. But you have a fiance?" She almost laughed at the last part.
"Yeah but the thing is. I didn't really choose him, he chose me. Please don't tell any one but if I could choose, I would choose Nick," I sat back down beside her. Then I heard a rustle come from outside in the trees.
"Well I think you would be a great sister-in-law," she beamed at me.
"Can you get outside through your window?" I asked.
"Yeah, why?" she looked at me with questioning eyes.
"Because I need to go outside," I answered sharply.
She opened the window and we crawled out. I walked farther away from her house towards the trees.
"Be careful Nessie," she shouted running up behind me.
"Which one of you is it? I told you I would be fine! Now you come to check on me? Don't even think about leaving, I already know you're out there. Show yourself!" I shouted.
"Nessie no one is out there," Cola said catching up to me.
"I also have enhanced hearing and sight. Which means I could hear whoever was in the forest, knowing it wasn't just an animal. The only people I can think of that would be in the forest this late, would be my family. SO show yourself!" I gradually raised my voice to a shout.
Slowly a figure appeared from the trees. I heard Nicola gasp from beside me. "Well which one of you is it? And why did Jasper not stop you?" I shouted at the figure.
"I'm sorry, I didn't think to stop myself," he said letting his southern accent run loose.
"Jasper? Why are you here?" I spat walking closer to him.
Nicola kept close by my side the whole time.
"Everyone is worried sick! I am tired of it, do you know how hard it is?" he closed the space between us.
"Look I'm sorry they are all making you worried okay? But I'm not going to live a lie anymore! If the volturi choose to come and kill me so be it!" I screamed.
"Nessie, what are you talking about who are the volturi?" Nicola seemed panicked.
"They enforce the laws," I hissed to her.
"Renesmee you know they are not to be spoken of in public," Jasper said through his teeth leaning in towards me.
"What is he talking about? Renesmee I think we should go back," Nicola tried to pull me back.
"Girls what are you doing outside?" Nicola's mom called from the back door.
"Nothing mom we're just heading in," Nicola called back.
"You go I'm staying," I told her as I glared at Jasper.
"What's going on?" Nick asked from beside his mother.
"Hey Nick come here!" I called to him. He started walking this way.
"What are you doing Renesmee?" Jasper hissed.
"I'm giving Nick a proper good bye!" I screamed.
Nick walked up to the scene. I flew around and walked to him. I kissed him. It felt so right!
Jasper stared in shock.
"I have to go in now, bye Jasper," I said in his direction.
We walked back to the house and went straight to the bedrooms. I stayed up for the next hour. Then I woke Nicola up.
"What is it Nessie?" she groaned.
"I'm leaving," I whispered.
"Why?" she exclaimed in a hushed tone.
"I can't go back to my family, ever!" I said. I hugged her, "maybe in a few years I will come back and find you, but for now I am leaving, good bye Cola," I felt the tears leaking from my eyes.
"Good bye Nessie, I'll never forget you," I heard her whisper as I climbed out the window.
I started running south.
Sorry this chapter took so long but I just started school today and I might take longer than usual to get chapters up I will try my best though. Also can any one guess where Nessie is headed? Hint: she wants to go see family. oooh
Thanks for reading!
