Inuyasha

Chapter 4: After Dinner Drinks

It was nice to be able to meet up with Miroku again, to catch up on what they had both been missing, each withholding certain things from one another as they finally fell into silence taking sips of their drinks.

"Have you confessed to her yet?" Kagome asked him clearing her throat a little as she glanced across the table at Miroku who was a little more fidgety before replacing with an unsure smile.

"It's a bit harder than I had expected, and it feels like she is getting further and further away from me somehow," Miroku said sadly as he picked up his cup of after dinner coffee, taking a sip from it after telling Kagome that.

"How about a drink somewhere," Miroku asked Kagome in an attempt to change the topic as he contemplates if he should express himself to her later, but before that he needed some liquid courage to help with it.

Kagome was hesitant at first, but followed him as she felt guilty at her own dismissal over him on a rather constant basis as of late, ever since she started getting a little more serious at the jobs that her manager had been telling her to go.

"I've been thinking, of perhaps taking on a full-time job," Kagome told Miroku after some drinks.

Miroku hesitated for a moment, taking sips of his whiskey water-mix as he thought over her words, letting it sink into his head. "I think it's a great idea," he told her finally with a false smile upon his face that never reached the corners of his eyes.

Again silence fell upon the both of them as they both gave up making small talks to continue some sort of conversation flow between the both of them. "Are you planning on going into modeling full-time?" Miroku ask finally giving up in pretending that he did not know of her current career choice.

Her eyes widen in shock that he had known what she had been avoiding in telling him before lowering her ice as she looked at her glass of drink.

"I am…my manager has been trying to get me into doing it as a full-time model," Kagome told him as she fingered the glass, watching the water droplets fall of it slide down the glass to the tabletop.

"When did you find out?" Kagome asked not able to look at him in the eyes, guilty about not telling him of the career of choice.

At first when she had taken up the part-time job was because she needed something to take her mind off things. When she had first stepped into the studio it was scary and difficult for her to get into the habit of being the centre of attention with so many pairs of eyes watching her. Had it not be for having a lenient photographer, she would not have been able to do much. During that time, there were quite a number of people that were talking behind her back of her performance was bad, just another someone that is good to look at, but lack the performance.

Behind her back when she was just coming out of the changing room, Kagome heard their comments of her performance on the first day and it did not really help much in lifting her mood, had it not been for her manager's and president's encouragement. They were the other two that had most faith in her potential and just like what Miroku had done for her in support, they did the same as well as grooming her.

It was a hassle and blow onto the wounds in which Inuyasha had opened with what he had said about her despite how Kikyo had tried to hold him back and apologize on his behalf. Kagome knew then that she was never going to compare up to her, a person so nice that it even made her feel ashamed of herself. With Talentz, they had given her back some self-confidence and she had originally wanted to use it in empowering herself to prove what Inuyasha had said about her wrong.

"A weeks ago, my colleagues were talking about you," Miroku replied her as she looked up at him before looking down into her choice of drink. She smiled awkwardly unsure of how to continue. It was never her intention to keep him in the dark of her job, but more of she was unsure how he would react to it and she did not have the confidence to assure herself that he will not disapprove of it.

"I see," Kagome replied softly as she did not raise her head to look at him.

"Why this line though," Miroku asked with a sigh as he looked her bowed head, his disappointment in not finding out her choice in career still in him.

"I want to prove against what Inuyasha had said," Kagome replied him softly, her voice wavering a little from the tears what were threatening to spill forth.

"Kagome," Miroku whispered, shifting his chair a little as he scooted to seat nearer to her, reaching his arms out as he wrapped it around her as he drew her towards him.

"You should do it to prove to yourself more than to Inuyasha," Miroku told her gently, his fingers stroking through her hair as he let it rested against his shoulder in comforts.

It was always like this, whenever she would speak of Inuyasha around Miroku, her tears would fall more freely. When Kagome tried to push away from him, Miroku was reluctantly as he tried to shush her in a soothing manner, a gentle hand upon her head he kept it there to keep her against his chest as her head leaned into the crook of his neck.

"You're a wonderful person Kagome never doubt that," Miroku told her as he refused to let her go at the moment, and he did not want to ruin the moment that the atmosphere had created for them.

Kagome remained silent as she listened to his heartbeat her eyes drifting close as she calmed herself, letting her tears dry away as she thought of other things. Miroku watches her, soothingly rubbing her back and letting her stay within his embrace. He had originally though to tell her that night after some drinks of his feelings for her, but with her like this now, he thought it would be best that perhaps he push it to another day.

"Sorry," Kagome said as she mumbled into his dress shirt before pushing herself away from him to clean her tears dry.

"It's alright," Miroku told her with a soft sad smile as he watched her dry her tears, his hands clasp together to hold his own glass of drink to prevent it from doing anything else inappropriate at this moment.

"No, I should not be bothering you about this anymore about this," Kagome told him as she tried looking at him with a sad smile upon her trembling lips.

"It's really al-"

"No, it's alright Miroku, I'm a big girl now, I can handle myself," she told him with a bitter smile that left a bad ache to his heart as he watched her blankly.

"You should spend more time with the girl that you like if you want to have a chance in being with her," Kagome told him as she looked at her glass of drink, her mind going back in memories of what she wished Inuyasha had done.

Screw it, Miroku thought, "Kagome I love you," he told her grabbing her hands as he looked at her earnestly, unsure if he should have just pulled her back into her arms and kiss her soundly to let her know of his feelings for her.

"What…?" Kagome asked him a frown on her face unsure if he was joking with her or pulling her leg.

"I love you Kagome," Miroku told her softly again his voice trembling a little with overwhelming emotions for her as his eyes search her suddenly blank face for some sort of positive response.


A/N:

Hello Readers
I'm sorry for the delays in an update to any of my fan fictions, things has been really busy in my work load as there are one too many things piling up in work so hope that you guys understand that. Hope that you all enjoy this new update, take care everyone!