Chapter Four

Running around the dark, moonlit streets of Hollyoaks, Ste had never felt more alone and apprehensive in his life. He'd come to the realisation he loved Brendan, he loved him with all his heart and he didn't know how to stop it. He didn't even want to stop it. Brendan meant so much to him that it made him ache inside, longing to be touched by him with his soft hands.

There he was sitting by the bus stop looking more out of place than ever. 'Brendan Brady getting flaming public transport?!' Ste thought to himself, who would have thought you'd see the day? Not Ste that was for sure. Brendan loved his posh cars, showing off his money. Ste remembered that car, the places they drove to in it..the things they did in it...

Ste walked over to Brendan, hands in his pockets once again as it was a very cold November evening.

'Going somewhere?' Ste started the conversation off with possibly the most obvious observation that ever exsisted.

'No, just sitting here with all these bags around me mate.'

Mate. Ste hated that word. He didn't want to be Brendan's mate, he wanted to be more than that. Boyfriend, partner, lover whatever floats your boat, but not a mate. Ste didn't even notice all the bags around Brendan, there must have been six or seven in total.

'Are you leaving Brendan?'

'Yeah, nothing left here for me anymore'

'Of course there is! The club, Cheryl...me'

'You? Steven you hate me. I've seen that look in your eyes, I've seen you with Doug. He hates me too, even my own sister hates me. Why would I want to stay here eh? I'm ruining your life Steven, you can't have a normal life if I stay. I'm forever watching you, I feel like I'm responsible for you, I have to keep you safe. You don't want that, Doug's meant to do that for you. Not me. He's your boyf...fiancé Steven.'

Ste was still shaking his head, he'd actually been doing that throughout Brendan's whole speech, but Brendan had been staring at the ground and hadn't even looked up. 'Well technically he aint'

'What?'

'He's not my boyfriend or my fiancé actually'

'He was up to 4 hours ago..'

'I ended it Brendan. I ended it' He took Brendan's chin in his hand and grabbed his face so that their eyes met eachother. 'For you'

Brendan was speechless and that hardly ever happened.

'I love you too Brendan Brady, I was gonna say that earlier actually but you stormed out my flat.'

'But..'

'I know I said I loved Doug and that I never loved you. I lied in both of those statements actually. Me and Doug we're like close mates, I don't love him like I love you. Please stay, stay with me'

'Steven...'

'You don't even need to say anything, I just don't want you to go. I want you Brendan. I need you. Please don't go.'

'I have to'

'No, no you don't see I've left Doug. I'm single, I don't want to be single. Everybody knows about me and you, and you said you've accepted your gay in your letter'

'I have..'

'What's stopping us then?'

Brendan let out a little grin then. He hardly ever smiled so you knew when you were priviledged enough to see it that it was something worth smiling for. Steven. His Steven, he'd finally got him back'

'Sooooo then.. what happens now?' Ste asked, pretty damn sure what would.

'This' and with that Brendan leant towards Ste, grabbing each side of his face until their mouth collided, tongues thrashing together. The kiss felt like it lasted a lifetime.

'I love you Brendan Brady'

'I love you Steven Hay, what you doing for the next week?'

'Erm nuffin much why?'

'Come with me...can be our first proper holiday as my boyfriend'

'I've got no clothes packed or anything!'

'Suits me' Brendan cheekily answered back, kissing his boyfriend again.

Boyfriend Steven, that was all Brendan wanted in life and he sure as hell got it.


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