Kurt shot a quick text to Mercedes, telling her he'd be coming over before pulling out of Blaine's driveway. He was excited to be able to spend some quality time with Mercedes as they hadn't had much time to just hang out lately.

Kurt knocked on the Jones' front door to announce his presence and Mercedes' dad answered and motioned for him to come in, telling him that Mercedes was in her room. Kurt thanked the man and headed down the hall to Mercedes' bedroom, knocking on the open door before stepping inside.

"Hey boo!" She greeted, putting down the magazine she was reading. Kurt walked across the room, sat next to Mercedes on her bed and kissed her cheek.

"Hi hon! I missed you!"

"I've missed you too!" She smiled because she really did have the most amazing boyfriend. He never complained when she went on and on about the latest trends she was planning on buying, and he never once said no to going to the mall with her. "What have you been up to? I didn't see you after school today."

"Oh, I was just helping a friend out. That new kid, Blaine, some of the guys slushied him and I felt bad and thought I should help him out. We went to get some coffee, he looked like he could use a warm cup of coffee after the slushie incident." Mercedes smiled at Kurt. He was so thoughtful to help out the new kid.

"So he's not fitting in that well?" Mercedes asked.

"Well, you know, new high school, not the greatest situation." Kurt said and then changed the subject. "But enough about him. How are you?" Mercedes smiled back.

"I'm great. I was just looking through this new edition of Vogue I got. You have to see some of these outfits." Mercedes opened a page in the magazine to a page and Kurt looked at it, gasping.

"What were they thinking!" Mercedes giggled, loving how her boyfriend always seemed to know exactly what was wrong with the outfits. Other guys wouldn't care or would just nod along to whatever their girlfriend said, but Kurt actually cared. That made her so happy that she put the magazine down and kissed Kurt. He smiled into the kiss and kissed her back softly.

That was something else Mercedes liked about Kurt. He didn't pressure her into anything. No matter what, he always made sure she was comfortable and let things go at a slower pace. Other guys were all about the sex, but Kurt always put her first as a person. Mercedes continued to kiss Kurt, slowly moving her hand to his cheek. It was so soft. She knew it was his moisturizing routine that he helped her learn once they started dating. Now, her skin was just about as soft as his.

As Mercedes kissed Kurt, Kurt responded to her gently. Kissing like this was nice. It felt like they were just expressing their emotions to each other. Kurt cared deeply for Mercedes and felt like she could truly understand him. She got his love for shopping, vogue, and singing, and never made fun of him for that. He could never really explain that to the guys at school.

Kurt pulled back from their kiss. "'Cedes, you are the best girlfriend in the world." Mercedes blushed.

"Thanks boo. You're the best boyfriend in the world!" She lay down on her bed and pulled him to her, crushing their lips together. Yes, she enjoyed kissing him gently, using their emotions, but she was also a teenage girl and sometimes, she wanted more. As Kurt climbed on top of her, she ran her tongue over his bottom lip.

Kurt tensed up slightly, but talked himself down. 'This is your girlfriend, Kurt. You're supposed to be trying to get in her pants every second of the day, not getting nervous when she wants to shove her tongue in your mouth.' He opened his mouth and tentatively let his tongue meet with hers.

Mercedes smiled into their kiss and used her tongue to go over his teeth and gently massage his tongue. As she pulled away from their kiss, she gently bit down on his lower lip and pulled. Kurt jumped. Mercedes stopped, giving him an embarrassed look. "Sorry, I just wasn't expecting that." To mask his discomfort, he claimed her lips with his again.

As their make out session got more heated, Mercedes decided to be a little bit more daring and started moving her hands south. At first, they stayed on his hips, playing with the hem of his shirt. Slowly, they moved further down until they were resting on the buckle of his belt. As she started undoing it, Kurt batted her hand away lightly. Feeling a little discouraged, she kept kissing him, keeping her hands on his hips. After another few minutes, she tried undoing his belt again. This time, Kurt broke their kiss and sat up. "Mercedes, what are you doing?"

"I... I thought we could try something besides kissing." She looked embarrassed, never having thought Kurt would protest. He was a teenage boy, and they had been dating for quite a while, so she had thought they were at that point in their relationship where they could move onto something a little more below the belt. "Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy kissing you, Kurt, I just thought maybe you'd want to try something new." Kurt was sure that his fear showed in his eyes.

"I'm sorry, I just don't think we're ready for that yet." The truth was, he wasn't ready for this yet. He really enjoyed kissing her, going shopping and hanging out, but when it came to doing anything not fully clothed, he was less than enthusiastic. He wasn't sure if he'd ever be completely ready, but he was confident that one day, the timing would be right and they could move forth then. Today wasn't that day, and Kurt didn't see it coming in the near future, either.

"Why not, boo?" She sounded concerned. "We don't have to do anything you don't want to, but I thought maybe…"

"I'm just not very comfortable with sex, okay?" Kurt defended, "Not all couples need to bang every chance they get!"

"I didn't mean actual sex, Kurt, we could just…mess around a little."

"No," Kurt snapped back, "I'm not ready for that either. Not sex sex, not 'messing around', not anything."

Mercedes recoiled away from Kurt. He didn't want to do anything with her? Tears sprung to her eyes unwillingly and she moved away from Kurt, turning her head away. Kurt noticed this and then backtracked, "No, Mercedes honey, I didn't mean it like that. I'm just... Not ready for all that yet."

Mercedes glared at him and asked, "And when will you be ready? I didn't mean we had to go much further. Just maybe... you would take off your shirt when we make out. Or we both could. Or something. I mean, that's not too hard, right?" Kurt bit his lip thinking it over. Truthfully, he was perfectly fine with making out with their clothes on just the way they had been, but he could see Mercedes getting annoyed and didn't want to push her away or upset her. He figured, what was a shirt. He would take it off any way to go swimming. It wasn't a big deal. Kurt agreed and took his shirt off. Mercedes smiled a bit and took her shirt off as well, before Kurt could protest. Kurt's eyes widened as he saw Mercedes' bra. He had never seen one before and neither had he seen breasts. He looked at them, trying to see the appeal they held to guys, but Mercedes grabbed him and started kissing him again.

This was different for Kurt. He could feel her breasts against him more and he could feel her heat against his chest. She moaned into his mouth and her hand moved further down again and he jumped back. She looked back at him wondering what was wrong now and he just said, "I think that's enough for today." Kurt put his shirt back on and moved to the other side of the room. He didn't really want to leave it like this but he didn't want to do much more. Mercedes sat up on the bed and looked very disappointed. She figured Kurt must be the only boy who would refuse fooling around.

"I'm sorry 'Cedes, I'll see you later." He mumbled and darted out of her room and out of her house. Once he got safely into his car, he felt himself start to hyperventilate. What is WRONG with you? Your girlfriend just threw herself at you and you turn her away? What kind of guy does that? Kurt tried to control his breathing. You know what kind of guy turns down his girlfriend, don't you Kurt? Kurt tried pushing away the unwanted thoughts, his lack of oxygen causing him to see stars. The GAY type of guy turns down his girlfriend. GAY, KURT, GAY! JUST ACCEPT THAT YOU'RE GAY! Kurt shook his head and forced his heart to stop racing. As his breathing finally got more controlled, he inserted his key into the ignition and started the car, racing home to drown his mood in a tub of ice cream.


The next morning, Kurt felt sick. Eating a quarter gallon of ice cream plus chocolate syrup definitely wasn't the right thing to do to make himself feel better. He groaned and pulled himself out of bed. He halfheartedly went through his moisturizing routine with half the energy he normally used and barely let himself get excited about putting an outfit together for the day. As he walked out the door, he checked his texts and saw he had a new one, received sometime the previous night.

Hey Kurt, it was really nice hanging out with you today. Thanks for helping me out and thanks for offering to help me. See you later!

Kurt cringed. How was he going to help the gay kid from getting harassed when he himself had just admitted to himself that he was gay? Kurt debated texting back, but what would he say? He wasn't exactly looking forward to seeing Blaine at school. He'd had enough trouble coming to terms with being gay, he really didn't need to be hanging around the incredibly good looking and rumored gay, Blaine Anderson. He put his phone in his pocket, he'd deal with that later. Right now, he had to get to school.

Once Kurt got to school, he rushed to his first class. Shit, Blaine's in this class, too. He'd just have to find a seat farthest away from Blaine and hope it was a busy day of taking notes so there'd be no extra time to chat before the bell. Unfortunately for Kurt, there wasn't much work assigned and both he and Blaine had finished their assignments early.

Blaine sat down in the empty desk in front of Kurt, "Hey Kurt! Did you get my text?"

"I uh.. no, I didn't." Kurt lied, pulling out his phone as if he was looking for the missing text.

"Oh, it's not a big deal, all I said was thanks for helping me out and stuff. Thanks for everything, Kurt. I really mean that." Blaine's voice was sincere.

"No problem. It's what I'd want someone to do for me if I was getting bullied." Kurt tried to fake a smile. He was beyond scared that he would be bullied like that, if anyone ever found out he was gay. Blaine smiled at him and started to say something when the bell rang. Kurt felt relieved and moved to get out of the classroom as fast as possible. He didn't really want to avoid Blaine, but... yes. Who was he kidding? He did want to avoid Blaine. If the realization he came to the night before showed anything, he had to stay as far away from Blaine Anderson as possible in order to remain where he was in the status quo at McKinley High.

As he dashed out of the room, he could see Blaine looking at him curiously. Kurt made his way to his next class uneventfully and then went to his locker to switch books. As he was there, he heard someone say his name. He looked up and there was Blaine again.

"Oh. Hi, Blaine." Kurt said quickly.

Blaine looked at him and said, "You forgot your notebook from first period. You dashed out of there so fast."

"Oh. I did?" Kurt asked, faking confusion. Blaine looked at him closely, but just nodded and handed Kurt his notebook. From behind Blaine, Kurt saw Karofsky turn the corner in the hallway and start walking towards them. Kurt panicked a little and said, "Gotta go Blaine, See you!" He ran around the corner before Karofsky could see him talking to Blaine and ran straight into Mercedes.

"Oh, sorry Cedes." Kurt exclaimed.

She looked at him and said, "Whatever white boy." Kurt sighed. Was she mad at him too? It just wasn't his day. He had to avoid Blaine, and now, apparently, find some way to apologize to Mercedes.


A/N: This is tazitz (I'm the one who copy and pastes everything together, so most of the time, I'll be the one posting this stuff, but we're all awesome and if you need anything, just shoot us a PM and someone will respond!). Just a note, writing this chapter broke our hearts. Seriously... :'( Do not want. But it had to be done and we did have some want to see more of Kurt and Mercedes relationship, which definitely does make sense considering, well, they ARE dating.

Also, someone commented in a review that Kurt's character seems more like something Blaine would be doing and I just wanted to address that because we are writing this story for that reason. Blaine is the one who had a sexuality crisis in the show and Blaine is the one who isn't super flamboyant, so it'd make sense for Blaine to be the one to use a beard.

What's the fun in writing something that comes so easily, right?

Reviews are love, thanks for reading!