I woke up the next morning in a better mood now that I knew almost everything. I checked the clock and decided to call Lissa. I know we have tons of stuff to discuss, so I might as well do it before she comes looking for me. I dial her number and let it ring. It keeps ringing and goes into voicemail. "Hello Liss, it' me. I miss you. I can't wait to hear from you and see you again. I just wanted to talk, but it appears you're busy so I'll call you later. Love you always." I said as I hung up.
My phone starts to buzz and I pick it up, "Hey Liss" err….. "Rose" Dimitri stated. "Hi Dimitri, I wasn't expecting you to call this early. I just left Lissa a message so I thought she was calling me back.
"How are you Rose, are you feeling better? Christian said that you were still sick when he left."
"Yeah, I'm feeling better Dimitri but I have to go, I made plans today with some friends so I'll talk to you later, ok?"
"Ok Rose, I love you ."
"I love you too Dimitri" and I hung up.
(Dimitri POV)
She said "I Love you too Dimitri" and hung up. She's been distant lately. Could it be because of what Christian said about Tasha. Maybe there's something else. I don't know, but I have to go see her. I had cancelled our plans because Tasha wanted me to go with her to Russia. I wanted to go so I can see my family but at the last minute, I decided not to and she didn't want to go without me. It was weird, I would've thought she still would have gone, but I guess she doesn't want to go without me.
I had lied to my beloved about my plans and now I have ruined our happiness. Because I was a man, I gave into temptation and may have ruined my chance at happiness. What I wouldn't give to turn back time to when we were together and happy. I never would have though Tasha to be that type of person to kiss and tell.
(Flashback)
I had a bad day at work and the Queen's servants were really getting in Lissa and my nerves. I told Lissa I needed the night off and went to the bar. Of course, Tasha ended up there too and we drank all night. I told her of my problems and she comforted me. That night, we ended up back at the apartment and in a heavy make-out session. I knew it was wrong but Rose was a world away and I have needs too. I missed Rose very much and I just needed to have sex. Tasha said she knew how I felt towards Rose and said this is a casual thing. We didn't need to think about it, it was just needs. I don't remember what happened the rest of the night as I passed out. I think we had sex that night, but I don't remember much about it.
(Current)
I felt so dirty from that, but I couldn't let that night determine my relationship with my friend. Tasha was my friend and was discrete about it. We kissed a few other times but I put a stop to it. I couldn't do this to Rose. She was my life, my everything. Oh my god, what have I done. I destroyed my life for a man's need. She would never want me back if she ever found out. I have to go see her…. I have to.
I knock on Lissa's door and she opens with just a robe on. I smile at her and call over her shoulder, nice to see you emerge from breathing Christian. I figured you two were going to be in there all day. "Lissa, I have to go see Rose. I'll be back in a week."
"Dimitri, you can't go. I don't have any Guardians because you had told me you were going to stay."
"Lissa, you have to understand, I have to go see Rose now. I have to make things right. I can't leave things the way they are now. I need her in my life. I will not be whole again unless she's with me."
Lissa stares at me then turns to Christian. He walks up to the door and says, "You can't go see her."
"Why the hell not Christian?" I yelled. I hear Tasha opening her door and peaking through the door. I push Christian and Lissa into their room for some privacy from Tasha. I don't want to give her any other ideas. "Tell me why I can't go and don't tell me it's because you don't have any Guardians because I can request one to replace me before I leave."
Lissa and Christian looks at each other before Christian turns to me and says, "She's not at home and I don't know where she went. She said she was going to be gone during the break and said she will return Sunday night before school starts again." I looked at them with tears in my eyes and say, "why didn't you tell me this sooner? She didn't say anything when I called her. She would have told me where she was going."
Lissa and Christian looked annoyed, but Christian replied, "Well, look at you. You cancelled your plans with her. Do you think she's going to sit around and wait for you to come around? You can't expect her to wait for you forever. You would know if you weren't so busy screwing around. I know you both used to talk on the phone all the time, but haven't you noticed that she doesn't want to talk anymore. I'm surprised you haven't figured it out, considering you're so smart and all. Tasha told me what happened and she told me it was more than once. Don't get me started on the whole thing because I'm with Lissa on this, I'm on Rose's side. She didn't do anything wrong."
"Well, she went out with all those guys all the time, how would you know she didn't do anything at all?" I asked angerly.
"First of all, yes – she went out with them, but she always came home alone. She went out to have fun, but she only and always only went out for a few hours. She would tell me that she's going out with them, but sometimes, I follow her to see her by herself, either at a park, a lone movie or just shopping. She's sad that you're not with her. She's lonely without you. She can't breathe without you there, but she has managed. Do you know why she says she goes out with them all the time, it's because you tell her about Tasha and how you guys do that all the time. She's jealous that you're with Tasha and not her, she's jealous that Tasha can give you what you want most, a family and she cannot give you that."
As he said that last line, I saw a glint in his eyes like there's something more. I looked at the princess and then at Christian again and it looked like they were hiding something.
"Rose deserves the best and if you're not it, then please just let her be. Let her live in peace, let her heal; let her love again if you're not the right one for her. We love her too much to see her suffering and since you already hurt her enough, we're not going to tell you where she is." With that speech, they pushed me out of Lissa's room and locked the door.
I didn't know what else to say, I went back into my room and laid on my bed, not able to do anything or think of anyone other than Rose. "What have I done?"
Tasha opens the door and comes in, "I'm sorry for what I've caused. Please let me know you're alright. I want to let you know that I'm here for you if you need me. I love you Dimitri and I always have. I think we're right for each other. We can be a family. We can have what we want most, children. Please let me help you." She said before she walked out the door.
I looked at her and turned so my back was facing her. I couldn't look at her after what we did. I lost the love of my life because I was vulnerable, because I was a man. I am despicable. I cannot believe I ruined my chance at happiness because of a few thousand miles. I will make it up to Rose; I have to make her see that I only love her and that she is my life. I cannot stay here anymore, I have to go. I have to go somewhere, but where can go for a week? My family, I will go see them tomorrow and return next week.
I packed my stuff, called the airlines and then knocked on Lissa's door. She quietly opened it and I told her, I'm leaving on vacation for a week. "I just need to be alone, I'm not going to tell you where I'm going, but I'll be back before Monday and we'll talk then. If Rose calls, tell her I love her. I will try to give her some peace this week and see if we can move past this. I'll see you when I get back." She nodded at me and I left.
I went to the airport, got on the plane to see my family and thought about the things I've done wrong. How can I be so foolish? I cannot believe I destroyed all happiness for a desperate man's need. Hours later, the plane landed and I hailed a cab. It was going to be a few hours' drive to Baia, so I'll nap in the car. The cab pulls up to my mom's house and I pull out my luggage and headed for the door. I knock but no one opens it. I knock again, but no one is home. I leave for the neighbor's house and wait there until they return home. I hope it's soon because I miss them so much. I haven't seen them since Rose restored me approximately 5 months ago. I asked the neighbor to call looking for my mom and she says she'll try. She finally gets a hold of my mom and says they should be home soon and that I should get the spare key from my neighbor and went to the house and get comfortable. The neighbor gives me the key and I head home.
