Thursday 20th April
Dear Diary…
So sorry about yesterday it wasn't who I was expecting at my door. Never in a million years what I have of expected Louise turning up at my door apologizing. I didn't know what she was apologizing for I mean it was my fault all of it. I took Charlie into the staffroom to chat and now they all think this!
Max still isn't speaking to me and he's completely avoiding me now. Yes I'm still harming myself and Connie found me unconscious yesterday because of blood loss so now she is staying with me to make sure I don't cut again. She's took every single knife from my rooms and she's told me to take time off to get myself sorted out. She doesn't realise though I keep a knife under my floorboard beside my bed so she'll never get her hands on that. I know she means well but I have to have a way to relieve myself and without that knife I cant.
I can here perfect by P!nk on in the background. If only I was perfect. Now Connie's living with me there's more time in the day to think which is bad as it leaves me with all my thoughts and you know how bad I can be with emotional thoughts.
Its 3:10 so I should really go not hat I'll be sleeping but still.
Yours sincerely
Zoe
xx
