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"Rose, answer me. What is this?" Dimitri asked again holding up the note Stan had left on top of my bag. I stared at him wide eyes. I couldn't formulate a response. "Rose, I am not going to ask you again. What the fuck is this?" Dimitri never swore, I hope he was not mad at me. Oh god, I hope he wasn't mad at me.

"Umm . . . Well, . . . its . . . uhhhhh," I tried to formulate words, but I couldn't. Before I could say anything else I broke down crying. I couldn't handle it all. I fell to the ground in a crumpled mess and just cried. Sobs racked my body as I cried my eyes out. I am sure I looked like shit. Tears streaming down my face, I could barely see anything. My breathing was coming in hard pants, nose clogged and sniffling every second. I could feel my body shaking.

"Oh, Roza!" Dimitri knelt on the floor and cautiously put his arms around me. When I didn't shy away he pulled me close to his body and rocked me softly. Comforting me in the way he knew how. I could hear him whispering soft words in Russian as I cried into him. My hands went to his chest, and grabbed onto his shirt, pulling him closer to me. I felt his hold tighten on me as I kept crying. Soon my sobs turned to dry sobbing and from there to little soft whimpers, until I finally was quiet in Dimitri's arms, clinging to him like my life depended on it. And I was pretty sure it did.

"Rose, I don't want to let go, but I need to call Alberta and let her know I am not going to make it for my shits today. I promise I will not leave you, okay?" Dimitri asked me softly. I nodded my head and watched as he let go with one hand, grabbing his phone. He pulled me tight to his other side finding a way to make the call and still hold onto me. I heard him speak quickly, not really paying attention to what he was saying but I did hear my name once. "Rose, we need to go to the infirmary."

"Why?" I asked, my voice croaking. I hung on to him even tighter.

"We, you, need to get a rape kit. Before we go to Headmistress Kirova and Alberta, we need to have all this done first. I am sorry Rose," he whispered softly at the end as he hugged me tightly.

"Do we need to tell them?" My voice shaking as I looked at him. So many emotions running through my head.

"Yes, Roza. We do, he needs to pay for what he did," he ran his fingers through my hair and held me close. "Stan needs to be stripped of his Guardian title and fired, and if I have any say he should be rotting in jail."

"Why do you think its Stan?" I whispered, my voice raw from crying. The note wasn't signed and I didn't tell him it was Stan.

"Rose, I stand in the back of almost all of your classes, I have been here for two years monitoring novice classes. I know his handwriting, just like you do." I heard him sigh. "Come on, sweetie. Let's go, the sooner it happens the sooner its over." He stood up offering me his hand. I grabbed his hand and let him pull me up.

He put his arm around me and lead me out of his room to the infirmary. I am sure I looked like a complete mess. My eyes hurt from crying and my face was probably red and blotchy. My hair was in a messy ponytail, I was in sweats. And I honestly felt like shit. I noticed as we were walking that no one was out and it looked like breakfast had been wrapped up awhile ago. Had I really been crying that long? It seemed more like mere minutes and not hours.

Too soon we made it to the infirmary, I heard Dimitri ask for Dr. Olendzki at the front. I noticed how he didn't say what happened just that he needed to speak with her.

"Guardian Belikov, Rose! What can I do for you today?" Dr. Olendzki asked as she walked towards us.

"Do you mind if we speak to you in private?" Dimitri asked not missing a beat. She looked confused but nodded her head and lead us to an exam room.

"Now what seems to be the problem?" She asked looking at the two of us.

Dimitri looked at me, before sighing softly. "Rose, needs a rape kit." I looked away, feeling shame as I realized what happened to me. I was embarrassed and all I wanted was to crawl into bed and cry.

Dr. Olendzki took a deep breath, before turning to me. "Rose I am going to step out with Guardian Belikov, so you can change. You need to remove everything, okay?"

I nodded. She pulled out a gown for me and left the room with Dimitri. I quickly changed and sat on the exam table. I could hear Dimitri and Dr. Olendzki talking outside the room, I am not sure about what but I could hear their voices. Before I knew it there was a knock on the door and the two of them entered the room.

"Rose, would you like Guardian Belikov to stay? Or would you like to call one of your friends?" She asked as she washed her hands.

"He can stay," I looked anywhere but the two of them.

"Guardian Belikov, I am going to need you to stand by Rose's head." Dimitri came and stood by my side as I laid down on the table. "Rose I am going to need to start with pelvic exam. Let me know if you feel any discomfort." I nodded not really trusting myself to speak.

I felt her hand enter me and I gasped for air. Dimitri took my hand in his and squeezed it reassuringly. I could do this. I could do this. I can do this. I am doing this.

The rest of the rape kit was a little bit of a blur. Lots of pictures had been taken and a lot of questions had been asked. But everything felt like it was moving at the speed of light. I felt even more violated than before, my body was just put on display and examined at length.

"Okay Rose, you don't need the morning after pill because Guardian Belikov said it was another dhampir. Here is an accelerated ZPack for you to take, along with an anti-anxiety, and some pain killers," she handed me what looked like six horse sized pills and a glass of water. I took them swiftly trying not to gag on anything. She left the room, after telling us she would be a minute.

"How are you feeling?" Dimitri asked me.

"I am okay," I whispered. When he looked at me without responding I changed my answer. "I will be okay. I have to be."

"Alright, Guardian Belikov, here is a copy of the report on the rape kit. I am assuming you will need it when speaking to Headmistress Kirova. And Rose, there is one last thing. I am going to give you a shot of straight penicillin, this should take care of any STDs that you might have contracted. Your test results for AIDS and HIV will come back later this week, but since it was a dhampir the likely hood of contracting one of those is very very slim."

"Rose, everything will be okay. You did nothing wrong," Dimitri whispered in my ear softly, I lost count of how many times he told me that I didn't do anything wrong.

"You said I need a shot?" I turned to Dr. Olendzki. I hated needles.

"Yes, which arm do you want it in?" She was putting on a new set of gloves.

"Ummm, I am not sure."

"Left," Dimitri spoke. "She is right hand dominate, it should be in her left arm."

"Alright." Dr. Olendzki cleaned my upper left arm before grabbing shot. "It needs to be deep in your muscle. Unfortunately, the more muscle you have the more painful it is." The next thing I knew, I felt radiating pain in my arm.

"Oh god!" I screamed. "Fuck, that hurts like a bitch!" I grabbed my left arm and laid back. I could feel tears in my eyes. I hissed in pain. I had never been in this much pain before. I was so preoccupied with trying to alleviate the pain in my arm, I didn't hear Dr. Olendzki leave the room. I didn't really care what happened from here on out, all I wanted was for the pain in my arm to stop.


"Guardian Belikov, I was very surprised when you requested a meeting with myself, Guardian Petrov and Rose. She seems to have really matured since being back at the academy." Kirova said as Dimitri and I sat down in her office. Alberta was already seated, she seemed anxious to hear what Dimitri had to say.

"Headmistress, this meeting has nothing to do with disciplinary action. Rose has been an excellent student, rising above every obstacle placed before her. However, this does have to do with her well being and safety, along with every female on this campus," Dimitri cleared his throat.

I swallowed loudly and looked anywhere but at the curious glances that were being shot at me. I didn't want to say anything. I didn't want to be here. I wanted to forget this ever happened and move on. In a few short months I would be at court with Lissa. A small part of my brain, the rational side, realized coming forward could save potentially other girls from suffering what I had gone through.

"Guardian Belikov, I assume you are not implying what I think you are?" I heard Kirova ask. I didn't dare look up from staring at the carpet.

"Unfortunately Headmistress, I am. But to put it simply, Rose was, raped, excuse me sexually assaulted is the professional term Dr. Olendzki informed me." Apparently, rape wasn't used in professional terms and Dr. Olendzki was quick to inform us of that. Sexually assaulted, it covered both the rape and the beating, along with anything in between.

"By who?" Alberta spoke for the first time.

"A member of the staff," Dimitri said.

"You?" She asked Dimitri quickly. My head snapped up so fast I was surprised I didn't hurt myself.

"No!" I looked her dead in the eye as I spoke. Something in my expression must have reassured her. She nodded.

"Alberta, I am shocked you would accuse me of such a thing!" Dimitri exclaimed. "We have been colleges for years and friends for even longer! And you are the only one who knows about my feelings for Rose!" I could see him get angrier and angrier as he spoke, but most of all he looked hurt. I reached my hand out to comfort him and he squeezed in softly.

"Dimitri, I apologize but I had to ask for professional reasons. You understand that don't you? And its obvious how Rose interacts with you that it was not you."

"Guardian Belikov what do you mean feelings for Rose?" Headmistress Kirova spoke.

"Well, Rose and I have grown to care for each other in a romantic way. We planned to go public about our relationship in a few days." He said quietly, he seemed nervous. Kirova just nodded.

"Rose, does Guardian Belikov have all the information we need?" Alberta asked me suddenly.

"Yes," I said softly. Alberta stood and popped her head out the door, before walking back in with Guardian Emil.

"Emil will escort you to Belikov's room, Rose. Considering what happened, I believe it is the safest place for you right now," Alberta said to me. She looked at Dimitri for confirmation before gesturing for me to leave.

We walked to Dimitri's room in silence, it looked like it was almost the end of the school day. Emil didn't look at me the entire time, from what I understood Emil didn't know why I was in Kirova's office or why I was going to Dimitri's room. I really didn't care at this point. I was emotionally and physically drained from everything. My arm hurt and all I wanted to do was go to bed. He let me in and immediately left, no words were spoken.

I walked to Dimitri's bed and pushed away my book bag and gym bag that lay forgotten on the bed. I kicked off my shoes and crawled under the covers, massaging my arm as I laid down. God my arm hurt. I hope the pain went away soon, it was just another physical reminder of what happened. And all I wanted to do was sleep and forget about this hell I was living in. Dimitri's smell soon engulfed me, and I fell into a dreamless sleep.


I awoke when I felt someone slip in behind me. "Hey," my voice hoarse from sleep. I turned around to see Dimitri looking at me.

"How are you feeling?" Dimitri asked, his eyes landed on my hand grasping my arm. It still hurt. Every time I moved I felt shooting pain.

"I am okay. What happened after I left?" I asked him as I massaged my arm.

"Alberta and Kirova talked about what happened. I didn't have much detail for them, but their main concern was who had done it. I told them and showed them the note. Alberta informed me that there were many security cameras put into place after the attack. Very few know about these cameras on purpose. So she said she is going to look over the footage from the past few days," he said softly to me. He took a deep breath and watched my reaction.

"Why did she make me leave?" I looked anywhere but him.

"Rose, surely you know why?" he seemed genuinely confused as to my question.

"No, I was fine. I thought they would want me in there."

"Roza, you were having a panic attack. You weren't breathing normally, and Alberta thought it was best you didn't relive what happened." He looked at me surprised.

"I was having a panic attack?" I didn't remember that happening.

"Yes, Roza. After we discussed everything, Kirova called your mother," he pulled me close to him. "She's on her way here, along with your father."

"My father?" I cuddled into him.

"Apparently, he would want to be here for you. And she thinks its time you met him."

I nodded and snuggled into him more, feeling safe in his arms. The two of us drifted off to sleep.


I awoke suddenly, sitting straight up in bed immediately. I gasped for air making a horrible noise, but I couldn't breathe. I could feel myself hyperventilating. Tears streaming down my face, my entire body was shaking. My heart pounding fast and hard in my chest.

"Rose, Roza. You need to breathe," I heard Dimitri say. He sounded far away, almost as if I was underwater. "You are okay, you are safe." I felt him wrap his arms tightly around me and slowly rocked me. The shaking soon stopped, followed by the hyperventilating. Soon I was only silently crying. "Do you want to talk about it?" he asked me softly, so softly I almost didn't hear. I shook my head and held tightly onto his shirt.

I am not sure how long we sat there, but it must have been for hours. I could see the sun setting through his window. It was so peaceful, the two of us sitting here together. My bubble of peace was interrupted by Dimitri's phone ringing.

"Belikov," he answered. "What?" He looked pissed, whatever the person said must have really pissed him off.

"What is it?" I asked him.

"Do we know who it was?" He ignored me and kept talking. "Why couldn't we have taken action yesterday? This could have been avoided." He rubbed his hand over his face, he was obviously frustrated.

"Dimitri, tell me," I whispered. I hated not being in the know.

"I understand. When do they arrive?" He sighed softly. He ran his hand through his hair. He had such great hair. "I will tell her." He ended the call and looked at me.

"What happened?" I asked him for what seemed like the millionth time.

"Your parents are arriving in two hours, and we need to meet them. Apparently your mother waited for your father to get to her before she left with him."

"What were you so upset about? You looked like someone killed your puppy," I giggled a little.

He looked at me for a while before sighing. "Rose, your room was ransacked last night. The hall monitor told Alberta that she saw Stan with a few of the younger guardians come into the hallway, and told her they were doing random room checks. The hall monitor left because it seemed like she could, I assume to use the restroom."

"Okay, whats your point?" I looked at him confused.

"Rose, they were looking for you," Dimitri said. Realization, came to me almost instantly. Stan had found out I told. Everything went black.


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