Chapter 4:
Alex was lying in bed that night. He was constantly trying to answer the questions in his head.
I don't understand. I'm their son. Their very own flesh and blood yet, they don't even care that I'm here. Why would someone give up their own kid to save themselves instead? Why leave an innocent little baby to grow up without a parent?
Alex was cut off from his thoughts when ben sat down on the edge of his bed.
"They want to talk to you Alex. Helen does. I haven't given them an answer" he looks questionably to me.
"What do I tell them Al?" Alex sat there for a moment just staring at the ceiling.
"Only if the baby isn't there. And only Helen. Not Ian or John. Not yet." Alex replied. Ben looked at him with a raised eyebrow but doesn't say anything. He nods and walks back out of the cabin leaving Alex alone.
About thirty minutes later Alex was walking outside to go and meet Helen. He sees her standing by the lake and walks towards her hesitantly. It is about nine o'clock at night, after the sergeant gave his speech.
Alex clears his throat to make himself known.
Helen turns around slightly startled. She hadn't heard him walk up.
"Hello Alex, thank you for coming to talk"
Alex stayed silent looking out to the lake.
"I know you hate me. I would too. I'm not going to make up some stupid excuse, just say that leaving you with Ian was the stupidest thing I have ever done. I should have known something was wrong when I left to go to the airport. I will never forgive myself for making you go through this all alone. I will not ask for an apology, I don't deserve one. If you never want to talk to me ever again I will understand."
Alex takes a wary glance at Helen and gingerly placed his hand onto Helens. Helen looks into the chocolate eyes of her son. She watches a stray tear fall off his check and onto the grass below their feet.
Cautiously she pulls Alex into a tight hug. Alex let out another tear. And another. And another.
Soon enough Alex was sobbing onto Helens shoulder overwhelmed with emotion. Nobody has ever been so truthful to him but Ben. He stayed in his mother's embrace for another five minutes until he awkwardly lets go of Helen and pulled away. He wipes off his cheeks and sees Helen doing the same thing.
"Can we walk?" Alex whispered and Helen nods with a small smile.
"Can you explain everything to me?" Alex asks Helen. It's all that he has wanted to know since the shocking arrival of his family.
"Of course, you deserve it most. Well, when join had joined Scorpia, I had no idea. I didn't know until I had you and john wanted out. I had barely seen him in that time. We were actually becoming very distance and I thought he didn't want me anymore. When I found out I was pregnant with you I was scared. Yes we were married, but I thought he was going to leave me for some other woman. I had no idea he was "protecting our country" as he put it.
"I don't think going deep undercover and training assassins is a good way to protect the country. Killing people for information, I hated it. But whenever he suggested going to south France and have a new life, it was like a dream. The day after he told me that, we were packing and going off to the plane. That's when you became sick. We left you with the nanny and the next thing I knew we were being shoved into a black car and speeding away.
"Through all this craziness and still seeing the explosion in my head and hearing the buzzing in my ears we pulled up to this ready to fly helicopter and then I remembered you. I told john that we have to go back and we can't just leave you there. All he did was look into my eyes and told me to trust him."
With that Helen stopped and looked into Alex's eyes.
"I never should have left you. Should have fought for you! I'm so sorry Alex" by the end Helen had begun crying again.
Alex looked down at his feet making Helen cry harder until Alex slowly grabbed Helens hand. Helens sobs turned to sniffles. She stared at their intertwined hands before pulling Alex back into her arms.
"I think that is enough for tonight. We can finish tomorrow Alex." Alex simply nodded and began to walk away before Helen called back out.
"Alex. Just know, even if it may seem like it, I never stopped thinking about it. I will always love you. You are my son." With that, Helen wiped away another fallen tear, smiled a real smile at Alex and walked away.
Alex watched her retreating figure before finally walking back to his hut.
I'm sorry I haven't updated sooner, I had quite a few tests this week. Anyways, a little mother son bonding in this chapter. Based on the relationship I have with my mom, I have realized that no mother would just leave their child, not if they have a soul and I imagine Helen as one with a soul. I will try to update again this weekend maybe- possibly. Anyways thank ya'll so much for reading and following and reviewing it means so much to me! I hope ya'll had a great valentine's day!
