ALRIGHT!
Whooo! Chapter Four. I'm excited, aren't you?
Thank you readers and thank you ESPECIALLY who review/favorite/alert =) it makes the author haaaappy! So far I give out hugs and kisses to: Xeralynn, Kimmy-chan-14, and Stephinie Crow Manson~
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I do believe that Sasori will be leaving for his mission in this chapter. I tried to prolongue the last chapter as much as I could, so that he would leave in this chapter.
AN* i don't own Naruto... but... wait, no, I don't own anything. Gawd, realization SUCKS! Dx
Ah yes, I'm sick. I think it's
the flu. Yay.... flu... This is the only time in my whole life i've
EVER gotten a flu shot, and then I get the flu a month later Dx. Ah,
well. My head still hurts from hitting it too... And swively chairs
DON'T HELP when you feel nauseous. Bleh....
Review, or I might never get better and then I won't be able to write anymore fanfiction DX.
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Sasori POV
I know it's not right, but I wish I was sick too.
I want to stay here with Deidara.
I want to take care of him, even if it means sacraficing something for myself.
Like, my health.
I want to be here for him.
I want
to support him, to let him know he's not alone.
How can I do that, when I don't even know what's wrong with him...?
I was sitting on the floor, tweaking one of the traps in one of my puppets when there was a knock on the door. I looked up at the door and saw Kisame standing there.
I looked at him, expectantly.
"What do you need, Kisame?" I asked, trying to sound normal. If Kisame was coming to talk to me, something was wrong.
"I came to you because I know you care about him more than anyone else does," Kisame said, his voice low, "But have you even realized what's wrong with him?"
I practically glared at Kisame.
"Well, yeah," I replied, "He's sick, Kisame."
Kisame nodded.
"He's really sick, Sasori."
I clenched my teeth and looked away from him.
I already knew this... I didn't need Kisame telling me that Deidara's sick. That was obvious.
"Do you have any idea how sick he is?" Kisame asked, leaning against my wall.
I sighed and shook my head.
"He won't tell me," I said roughly.
Kisame shook his head in disgust and left, nearly slamming the door.
The puppet started to crack from my squeezing it so hard, so I threw it on the ground and got up to pace the room.
Again, there was a knock on the door.
"What?" I spat, flinging the door open.
There stood a very frightened looking Deidara.
I held my breathe(1) and waited for him to slink away like he always did. He just stood there, for once, and looked at me with big blue eyes.
"S-sorry," I whispered, "I thought it was Kisame."
He nodded and looked to the floor.
"... Did you need something, Dei?" I asked gently.
He glared at me for a minute before saying, "Konan said you wanted to talk to me."
Konan talks to him...? No, he talks to Konan? Since when?
"Sasori..." Deidara said, interrupting my thoughts.
"Oh," I choked, "Eh... I just wanted to see if you were okay."
Deidara looked away and muttered something along the lines of "I'm fine".
He was uncomfortable, I could tell. I didn't want him to leave, but I knew he didn't want to stay.
"I should go to bed," I mumbled, "Got a mission tomorrow."
Deidara didn't even acknowledge what I said as he turned away to go back to his room.
After closing the door, I slid down the wall to the floor. His eyes had shown me one thing: fear.
I want nothing more than to protect him, but how am I supposed to do that if he fears me?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i want my innocence back ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I woke up to a door ramming into my head. I yelped and sat up, my eyes flashing open.
Hidan stood in the doorway, looking extra grumpy.
I held my hand up to my head and grimaced as I felt a trickle of blood slide down through my hair and behind my ear.
"It's time to go, Pervy Puppet," Hidan grumbled and slammed the door, "Oh, and Konan is accompanying us."
I rolled my eyes at the nickname and walked over to the closet.
I slid on flexible ninja pants and a tight black shirt. After wrapping the big black cloak with red clouds around me, I slid my shoes onto my feet and hurried out the doorway.
If I was late, I was going to be pissed.
I arrived in front of Pein's door, like we all did before missions. The only one who was standing there was Konan. Itachi and Hidan weren't there.
"Where is everyone?" I asked Konan, who was taking a drag from a cigarette.
She shrugged and puffed the smoke out into my face.
I looked away from Konan, who was (for once) dressed in more than just her bra and Pein's boxers. I still had a feeling that under the cloak, that was all she wearing.
It was another twenty five minutes before Itachi walked around the corner, looking frighteningly normal. He didn't say anything as he sat down at my feet and waited for Hidan.
Hidan didn't join us for another thirty five minutes. By that time, I was practically exploding with anger.
Konan tapped me on the shoulder before Hidan reached us.
I turned, my face full of obvious hate, and looked into her worried eyes.
"Shouldn't you say goodbye?" she asked, her voice not sounding nearly as expectant as her eyes looked.
I sighed with realization and nodded, slipping away from the group.
It's only going to take a few moments, I convinced myself, You have time to say goodbye.
I reached Deidara's room and didn't bother knocking. I just quietly opened the door. Sure enough, he was sprawled out on his bed.
He didn't even look peaceful. He looked disturbed, as though his dreams were taunting him.
Reaching his bedside, I grabbed his hand softly. I silently hoped he wouldn't wake up from the touch; he needed his sleep.
His hand squeezed mine, as if asking for help. I felt the tears come to my eyes and closed them as I laid my head down on his arm. I sobbed once, not loud enough for anyone but me to hear.
I want to help you, Dei. I want to make you better. Let me help you...
I looked at him again and saw a tear roll down his face. His eyes were still closed and he was obviously asleep. I lifted his hand up to my lips and kissed it softly.
I don't want to leave.
As I stood up, the grip on my hand tightened. He wasn't letting go.
I smiled weakly and tugged my hand, trying to get him to release his grip. He wasn't.
The pain throbbed throughout my entire body; I couldn't leave him like this.
I shook my head and yanked my hand away. He was asleep; he didn't know any better. If he woke up and found me in his room, holding his hand, he'd just be more upset with me.
I walked away, the pain of knowing this tearing me apart.
I'M SORRY FOR THE SHORT CHAPTER!
But I have a good idea for Deidara's POV, so you'll just have to deal with it =)
1. I just put it in there cuz it seemed natural. But if sasori's middle part is a puppet, wouldn't he NOT have lungs?.... Well... He has lungs in this story xD
And for all of you that review, I have a question. I really, truly love writing tragedies. It's like, my passion. But I know a lot of people will hate me if I end this in a tradegy (believe me, this story won't be ending for a while! I haven't even gotten to the hook-up parts yet!! xD) So don't think that I mean any chapter soon, but it WILL end someday... Yes, sad, I know. So when you review, would you please tell me your thoughts? Like, would you NEVER read any of my stories again if I ended this in a tradegy? Would you hate mail me? Would you find out who I am and come to my house and murder me brutally? o.o
Would you be okay with it?
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I also have a request. Listen to the song I Want My Innocence Back by Emilie Autumn. Not your everyday music, and even if you hate it, I want you to listen to it. I love it. When you review, tell me watcha think about it! It's not my favorite song, by far. No, right now my favorite song is Dark Waltz by Hayley Westenra. You should listen to that one too =D
For those of you who listen to those songs I will give hugs and kisses. For those of you who review I will give out plushies.
AND I HAVE A SPECIAL GIFT FOR XERALYNN, because she's such a dedicated fan and keeps reviewing~
Xeralynn, if you would like, send me a request for a yaoi one shot and I will do my best to write it and dedicate it to you!
Of course, I wouldn't turn down any other requests from anyone else, if anyone else wants to request something. But I won't be able to write it until I get done with this story and with the oneshot Xeralynn asks for (if she does ask for one). And tell me if you want it to be romantic, horror, comedy, etc. =) Oh yes, please try and keep it in the naruto realm (i haven't seen THAT many anime's, and if you ask for something that's not in naruto i might not know who you mean Dx).
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