CHAPTER 4

I woke up after hitting the snooze button twice. Got dressed in jeans, a t-shirt, my converse and of course my hoodie. The scars that are already healed didn't leave any scars thanks to the salve I applied every time I cleaned them and how perfectly they were cut. I've got only three more that are still pink. One on my forearm, back of my thigh, and were my shoulder meets my neck. I don't think anyone will notice unless they concentrate there. My throat is better just not hundred percent. I grabbed my keys and backpack on the way out.


"Looks like I'm early. Huh, how did I manage that?" I parked in front of the school like always. Like nothing happened. I put my headphones on and waited till more kids arrived. I don't have to worry about Edward or his family being here today. His family left I'm sure. Alice didn't call or go by the house like usual. I'm sure her and Edward think I'm dead. They have no reason to look back. Leaving me in the woods with my sense of direction and clumsiness. There's no way I should have survived that but I did. I will make the most of this second chance. Starting with getting my life back. I put my friends and my life on hold for him.

*tap, tap*

I look open my eyes and look at my window. I get my stuff and get off my truck.

"Hey Bella. What are you doing?" asked Angela.

"Got here kinda early so was just waiting in my truck." She looked like she was looking for someone.

"Oh. You want to hang out with us while your wait? We're all by Tyler's van." I see, she thinks I'm waiting for Edward. She has no reason to think other wise.

"Yeah, I'd like that." She smiled and we started walking towards the van. It's only a few cars down from mine.

"Hey Bella! Omg it's good to see you! Where's Edward? You two are like never far from each other." Is that jealousy I hear in Jessica's voice? This girl doesn't know how lucky she is that Edward didn't pay attention to her.

"He moved actually. He wanted me to follow him but I didn't want to. He tried to pressure me in to moving with him so I broke up with him." Ok so half truth are easier than full blown lies.

"Oh no, Bella are you ok? I'm totally here for you if you feel like crying." She said that a little too loud but that's Jess. She loves attention and likes looking like a nice girl. Making it seem like its my loss is also who she is.

"Go Bella. Us girl gotta stand up for our self's."

"Thanks Angela." I smile. She's shy but she knows what she's saying.

"Yeah Bella way to get rid off him" Mike grins. Crap. I forgot about that. Jess lost a little of her pep with that comment. She forcing a smile. I kind of feel bad for her now.

"Hey Jess, Angela. You girls wanna come with me on Wednesday after school to Port Angeles? I lost my cell phone." More like he literally crushed it to dust. "I want to go look at some phones."

"Yeah Bella that'll be great." Angela likes the plan.

"We can also go to eat after words and talk just us girls." Jess cant wait to hear the detail that I wont be telling anyone. She can make up the in between all by herself.

*riiiiIIIIiiiing*

"School bell." Mike states the obvious.

"Yeah, we should start heading inside." Says Ben while grabbing his back pack of the van. Tyler closes his van and we start moving to our first class. Jess and I start heading to our first period class.

"Hey Ladies, why don't I walk you to class?" Jess immediately agrees. Mike starts walking to my side. Damn, quick what do I do? I don't want Jess to completely hate me. Over all she's an ok friend.

"Jess. You and Mike go ahead with out me. I need to go to the front office before class." She grabs his arm and pulls him with her the rest of the way.

"I'll see you in English Bella." She yells over her shoulder. I don't even have to pretend to walk away to the office she's already went around the corner. All I have to do is walk slowly which is fine by me.

I got to class before the bell rang. I walk in and everyone turns to look at me as I go sit next to Jessica in my assigned seat. Yup. Everyone in class knows about the break up and by the end of second period the whole school will know. It's going to be the talk of the school. Bella Swan broke up with Edward Cullen. Do you think it's the true story? Is what I'll most likely be hearing getting whispered around for a while. Jessica smiles like she didn't just tell the whole class. She opens her mouth to speak but the teacher walks in.

Mr. Mason takes attendance. When he asks if anyone seen Edward Jessica stands up and tells him that Edward has moved. Just then a student helper walks in with a slip for the teacher.

"Ah yes. It looks like Edward wont be attending the rest of school here." He says. Then starts class.

In Government I see Edward's empty seat next to mine. It gives me chills. I thought he was just trying to read my mind with that look of concentration he had on his face. I was wrong. Mike was right. He wanted to eat me.

During third and forth period Jessica tried to get more out of me. I gave evasive answers and she got the hit by the end of forth period. Except.

"Alright Bella I get it. You don't wanna talk about it here. We'll talk more on Wednesday." She whispers.

"Come on lets head to lunch." I don't wait and head out the door. We get to lunch grab our trays and Angela waves us down. Lunch feels different in a good way. I don't feel awkward when I eat. I'm not the only one eating. I relax eat and join in on the conversation.

During Biology II I try not to think about the what ifs. If I would of pricked my finger for the blood typing lab before I left to the nurses office. Edward was out there. Would he have taking me to the woods then instead of home?

In Gym I kept my clothe on saying I forgot my gym clothe and sat down for the class. No problem there today.


Over all today wasn't so bad. The whispers and stares were nothing new. They were like my first day here. The Hey Bella I heard what happen. Are you ok? question was only asked a few times.

The only thing is. My anger toward him grew. I noticed how much of my time he really took over. The decisions he made for me. Well, Alice and him really. What to wear. When to be somewhere. Disapproving looks from him when he didn't like how I behaved sometimes or how I spoke. I wish I could've seen thru all the glitter. To be able to see the fake smiles and rehearsed lines. My independence is one thing I will never let go of again.