a/n: yeah, I know its been a while, and I really have no legitimate excuse except that school is hard, and I am lazy. Hopefully this chapter makes up for the wait.
Disclaimer: Twilight's not mine. If it were, it'd be WAY more awesome. (lol, joking)
Seth Clearwater was staying for dinner. Seth Clearwater was sitting at my kitchen table, eating my food. Seth frickin Clearwater kept glancing at me every five seconds with the most adorable expression on his face. I could feel my insides squirming.
How did this happen?
I spent my entire life trying to avoid situations like this yet here I was, and my mom and sister were making it worse with every passing moment.
"So what do you think of my daughter as a lab partner Seth?" Mom asked in what seemed to be a casual manner, but when she sent me a mischievous look I knew it were anything but.
I am going to murder you woman.
Seth smiled at me and I did my best to ignore the butterflies that erupted in my stomach. Damn, did he have to have dimples too?
"She's amazing Mrs. Mitchell."
Shut up Seth! You're making me feel all weird.
Aubrey giggled.
"Are you sure we're talking about the same person Seth?" she teased, "The Madds I know is a sloppy, gluttonous pig. You should have seen her before you arrived, eating ice-cream like a cavewoman. The girl's a total slob."
I felt my russet cheeks warming rapidly and ducked my head before I could see Seth's expression, making sure my long bangs covered my eyes. Stupid Aubrey.
I was almost positive he would be wearing a look of disgust. Boys wanted their girls to be classy, not that Seth even wanted me that way. He couldn't. It would completely go against all laws of physics. So you could imagine the shock I felt when I heard him chuckle and reply, "I bet she's a cute slob."
Mom and Aubrey cooed a chorus of 'awws' at his answer, squealing like a bunch of pre-teens. I on the other hand, panicked.
Oh. My. God.
I couldn't take any more of this! My world was being flipped upside down in the span of two days by an impossibly attractive boy who was delusional enough to think I was cute. I had to get out of here, and fast.
I faked a yawn, and hoped they'd buy it.
"Well, I'm tired," I proclaimed with false fatigue, and rose from the table. I could see Seth's brows etch in worry, while Aubrey gave a knowing smile, "I think I'll go to bed now."
Of course my mother would see right through my charade.
"Of course sweetie," she agreed sweetly, too sweetly, "Just walk Seth back to his place and then you can go to bed. It'd only be polite, and I raised polite girls right?"
Damn. She was pulling the 'I raised you' card and I knew refusal would only end up in me being grounded. She's a sly one, I'd give her that.
I grit my teeth, forcing a smile that probably made me look constipated.
"Of course."
I didn't bother waiting for Seth as I marched towards the door, not that it mattered since he caught up with me easily. I hear could him yell a faint 'Thank you!' to my mother before the door shut behind him and we were alone on the front porch.
"Your family seems nice," he said, shoving his hands in his pockets in an charming manner, and I couldn't help but realize I thought nearly everything he did was charming. It was like my body couldn't help being drawn to his, and I had to force my feet to stay put lest I close the distance between us and wound my arms around his hips.
"Looks can be deceiving," I answered, trying to distract myself from the unwanted thoughts. I could not want Seth Clearwater. I do not want him. My hormones were just out of wack and it was starting to affect my mind.
Seth grinned and it made the urge to grab him increase nearly ten-fold. I wish he wouldn't stare at me like that. It just made me want to do naughty, naughty things to him. And I've never felt the compulsion to do that to anyone. Something flared in my stomach and I nearly jumped at the urgency of it. A strong, passionate tug that seemed only to intensify the more I attempted to ignore it.
"We should get you home," I choked out and practically ran across my lawn to his. He had barely made it up the stairs when I was ringing the doorbell like crazy person.
"I think they hear it," he laughed and his breath blew across my neck as he came to stand behind me. I flinched at tingly feeling that was spreading across my shoulder, spinning around so my back was flat against his front door.
There, now he wasn't so close.
But now I could see his face, and he was chewing his bottom lip in a sensual manner that made me stare. I wanted to bite it.
I flinched as the last thought processed.
What the hell was wrong with me?
His hazel eyes flickered to my lips and the temperature began rise to nearly boiling. Suddenly my hoodie was too warm despite the crisp night air, and I tugged at the neckline in an attempt to cool myself. Only it didn't work, and my hands were aching at being denied their desires, and my heart was screaming bloody murder in my chest, and Seth just looked so damn kissable.
So I did.
I grabbed him by the collar and pressed my lips to his. And the action threw even me as I was left to only follow through as the shock overrode my senses and fried my last remaining brain cells.
Where was I again?
What was I resisting so much?
I knotted my fingers in his hair, yanking his mouth down to slam over mine and released a breathy sigh when my entire body thrummed in relief. I was floating, oblivious to everything but the heavenly sensation throbbing through my veins. Seth responded immediately, gripping my hips almost painfully as he licked his way into my mouth. His touch was hot, and his tongue blazing as it lapped against mine in a manner that made me moan and attack his mouth with more force, biting down on his lip like I had so desperately wanted. He groaned in response, shoving me hard against the door and pressing his body against mine. I couldn't think, only feel as the sensation in my stomach burned wildly and out of control. I was drowning in the atmophere of it all, breath shallow as I tried to reciprocate the emotions flowing through me.
And that's how his sister found us.
I had shrieked when the door gave way from behind me, and would've fallen if it weren't for Seth's tight grip on my waist. Leah took one look at Seth, hair mussed and mouth bruised, and me, panting and pressed against his chest, and had cackled like it was the funniest thing she'd seen in her life.
"Oh my God!" she gasped between giggles, "You guys were actually making out on the front porch. Way to go Seth, you lady-killer."
I could feel my embarrassment rising as my hormones began to settle down. I cant believe I just did that! And with Seth. Suddenly, I felt like the biggest idiot in the world.
How had I let myself get so carried away?
I had had practically mauled him in front of his house where anyone could have driven by, and his sister had caught us.
My insides gave an uneasy flip.
I have to be dreaming right now, because there is no way in hell the girl I've been for the past seventeen years of my life has the balls to pull a stunt like this!
Only my lips were still tingling, and Seth's hands were very real as they rested on the small of my back. I squirmed uncomfortably, but he didn't seem to notice.
"Shut-up Leah," I heard said boy snap above my head and glanced up to see him glowering at the dark-haired girl, who seemed to find his irritation amusing.
"And just who's going to make me?" she challenged.
"Quit being such a bitch," he growled and I tensed as I realized the sound turned me on. Great, I'm officially losing my mind. I had to get out of here A.S.A.P. before my hormones began to flare back up and Seth and I had a repeat of a few minutes ago.
And that can most definitely not happen again.
So while he was busy arguing with his sister, (they both seemed to forget I was still there) I slipped out of his embrace and darted to my house.
"Maddy!" I heard him shout after me, but forced myself to yank open my door despite my body's adamant protests.
Mom and Aubrey were waiting in the living room, but I didn't give them a chance to speak as I darted up the stairs two at a time to my room and bolted the door. I was in some deep shit. And it was only going to get deeper.
My dreams were plagued with images of Seth.
His eyes. His smile. His lips. By the time the sun finally decided to show itself I was practically hyperventilating. How had I allowed myself to lose self control like that? And now Seth would probably never leave me alone. He would keep seeking me out, and drawing more attention each time he did. By the end of the week everyone would know who I was: Seth's floozy.
And what would Jenna say?
She had liked him first. I was a horrible best friend.
I didn't put much effort into getting dressed that morning, opting for an old, holy pair of jeans and a t-shirt. Maybe if Seth saw how hideous I looked he would back off. Only I hadn't looked all that great yesterday and he still kissed me back.
God, this was frustrating! I couldn't avoid him anymore. Not only was he my lab partner, but he lived next door. Not to mention the irresistible pull I felt when near him. It was too powerful to overlook, like our souls were connected or something. There was no escape.
I groaned as I made my way downstairs only to stop dead in my tracks.
Oh hell no.
"What are you doing here?" I hissed in disbelief. Who had let him in?
My breathing was becoming shallow, and I clutched at my throat reflexively. Could a girl get some sort of warning or something? I could have easily escaped out my bedroom window had I known we'd have an extra breakfast guest.
"Madeline, that is no way to treat Seth!" my mother chided from the kitchen, probably cooking Seth some breakfast. Didn't he have his own mom? "Especially since he volunteered to drive you to school this morning."
I could have screamed.
No,no,no,no,no. This was not happening. Maybe if I shut my eyes he would disappear.
"Maddy are you okay? You don't look so good."
Sweet-smelling breath fanned across my face and I yelped, backing away from Seth, who had placed a warm hand to my forehead.
"I'm walking!" I exclaimed, probably looking beyond crazed, then snatched up my bag and sprinted out the house. Heavy footsteps pounded on the sidewalk after me and I knew he was following.
Leave me alone!
"Go away Seth," I barked, speeding my pace, "Trust me, I'm doing you huge a favor."
And me.
The stubborn boy didn't listen, darting past me to cut off my run and I ended up bumping into his chest.
"Maddy," he pleaded, seeming wounded, "Why are you running from me?"
So I won't jump your bones.
"Because," I snapped, attempting to go around him, but he held me close. My entire body felt electrified as his woody scent invaded my nostrils.
"Please," he whispered, and some of my resolve shattered as I unconsciously leaned up to kiss his nose softly, only to swear when I realized what I had done and shove myself away.
"That's why," I bit and once again tried to move past him only to end up in his arms once more.
Dammit! Let me go already!
Seth pulled me closer, tilting my chin back with his fingers to meet his confused expression.
"You're running from me because you like me?"
"No," I denied, flushing while avoiding his gaze pointedly, "My body likes you. I don't even know you."
"So you're attracted to me."
Uggh. Did he have to sound so happy about it?
"So what if you got to know me," he continued, pulling me even closer, "And liked what you saw, would you stop running then?"
"No."
He pouted, making his lips look so inviting and full as he stuck them out. I had taken the bottom one in my mouth before I could even process what I was doing and nibbled on it. Seth moaned into my mouth and I came to my senses, escaping his grasp once more as he eyed me hungrily.
"Why?" he demanded, voice throaty and making my stomach do several flips, "Why won't you give me a chance?"
He looked like an addict denied their cocaine and I fidgeted under the intensity of his gaze.
"Because," I whispered, yet somehow he had heard me, waiting patiently for me to continue, "Because you're you Seth."
He was so floored by my answer I was able to easily slip by him, throwing one last glance at his still form before making my way to school.
Seth didn't show up to science class. In fact, I didn't see him anywhere. My heart felt heavy at this but I squashed the feeling. He was finally leaving me alone. I should be happy.
"I wonder where Seth was today?" Jenna wondered aloud and I resisted the urge to tape her mouth shut. Couldn't she see I didn't give a damn?
"It's not like him to miss school," she mused as we exited the building, "Do you think he's sick?"
I shrugged.
Maybe she would shut up if I didn't respond.
No such luck.
"I bet he would be an amazing kisser," she gushed and my gut twisted guiltily. Oh he was. "Do you think he would kiss me back if I just jumped his bones? That would be so sexy."
Gosh, it was like she was there or something!
"Maybe." I forced out. The notion of Seth and Jenna kissing was making my blood rush in anger and I couldn't seem to stop it. But why? It wasn't as if he belonged to me or anything. I'm just a girl that kissed him twice, no big deal.
Only why did it seem like one?
"Oh there's my mom, toodles Madds!"
I couldn't help but feel relieved as a red convertible pulled up to the curb and she hopped inside. Her mother, a stunning beauty like her daughter, waved at me before speeding away, their red hair blowing behind them.
I wasn't offended they didn't offer me a ride. In fact I was relieved. It gave me time to think without Jenna's constant chattering.
I had succeeded in making Seth give up on me, I should be happy right? Then why did I feel like complete shit? And why did my heart desire to stop beating? I wasn't the least bit suicidal, yet my life seemed to feel suddenly incomplete—lacking something so crucial it couldn't go on. Wouldn't go on until I found it. Sure, I would be fine, I knew that, but why be 'fine' when you could be great? Magnificent even.
I sighed, kicking a rock out of my path as I shuffled down the sidewalk. Since when had my life been so complicated?
"Stupid Seth."
"Well that's not very nice."
My head shot up to see none other than the stupid boy himself a few yards ahead. His arms were crossed over his broad chest, head tilted to the side and brown hair falling into hazel eyes. He looked absolutely delectable.
My heartbeat quickened.
He noticed me checking him out, smirking when I blushed at being caught before doing the same, making my body throb with need. Need for him.
"I'm not giving up on you," he declared, invading my space, "I'll do whatever it takes. If you're not ready now we can be friends until you are. Don't try running away, you won't get very far."
I was stunned. I was almost sure I had driven him away. Why was he so determined?
And why did it make me feel so content?
He took advantage of my surprise and slid his lips over mine in a gentle kiss, pulling my top lip into his mouth and sucking tenderly. I groaned at the sparks it set off within my body and felt him grin against my mouth. Cocky bastard.
"Friends don't kiss," I stated, pulling back from him. He shrugged.
"We do."
I could only glare before he kissed me again, this time using tongue.
"Stop it." I hissed, when I had caught my breath, "What if someone sees us?"
He sighed, running his hands down my arms to twine my fingers with his.
"Fine," he relented, "No PDA."
I snatched my hands away.
"You damn skippy. And there will be no more anything, got it? Or this 'friendship' is over."
He rolled his eyes.
"Got it."
Of course I should have known he was lying.
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