Sex.

Just sex, nothing truly special... Or well at least that's how it had started.

I released another moan as I was thrust into again, I hated this in general but then again I was the one who agreed to this so what did I expect?

For him to suddenly start treating me differently?

For him to start too actually like me?

For him to actually care?

We do this almost every weekend or well, the days he doesn't have work.

We see each other, we talk and I somehow always end up pinned to his bed or a similar surface. And then...he leaves me there..like a used toy...but its okay, at least that's what I keep telling myself, I know I say I hate this but I kinda don't want it to stop.

I actually really enjoy the little foreplay I get when we do this, and I mean little because he doesn't want to take too long apparently..tsk yeah right..normally he just gets me aroused, prepares me and fucks me on whatever he has me pinned againstthat day.

And he doesn't really like it when I try to participate in our "session" so I can't use my hands, to hold on to his shoulders, back or neck. I think he once said something along the words of "keep your hands there, hedgehog" I mean either that or he said "you can move your hands wherever you may please. But don't touch me." Yeah, that was it.

I remember it because it was the day I tried to grab his shoulders for support as he made me one with the bed and how he immediately pinned them down onto the bed. But, I think he doesn't want me touching him because he might see it as something similar to lovemaking, which is something we are definitely not doing.

It just all happened so suddenly.

I mean one day he has no interest in me whatsoever and then the next minute my neck and shoulders were showered with kisses and love bites while a hand was slowly getting closer to my lower regions...

But, anyway back to the now.

I lie on his bed for the moment as I try to catch my breath after everything that has happened I open my eyes again as I finally get some air into my aching lungs, ugh chaos I love him but sometimes he can be such an animal in the sheets I swear he sometimes jus-!

Wait. Did I just?

No, I didn't just..think that.

No.

no.no.no.no.no.No!

I-i cant! I couldn't! Just think, what would the public say? What would my family say? My friends? What, w-what...

What would he say?

Chaos, I-I still can't wrap my head around this I just...I think I might actually-

Oh no, I think I'm catching feelings

And I don't know if this is empathy I feel

Just hold on

Remember why you said this was the last time?

He's leaving.

HE'S LEAVING!

I get up my legs trembling, as I just barely have the strength to stand up and try, try for the love of chaos to get to him I need him, but he just keeps on walking not staring back at me, and just as I had caught my damn breath mear minutes ago I lose it again and just fall on my knees.

I'm too tired to keep chasing after him, I'm done.

I love him but this just can't keep going on like this

So I guess it's...

Let die to let life

And what's good

When both choices I've got have us staring down the barrel to the bullets I can't stop?

And so I standoff

Like indecision's Kevlar

'Til this fear of feeling stops and I'm done

But you

I silently cry 'I don't have him, and I probably never will.'

No, I don't know how to forget you

No, I don't know how to forget you

No, I don't know how to forget you

No, I don't know how to forget you

A soft padding can be heard as a dark stall hedgehog approaches a tear full blue hedgehog, kneeling beside the smaller one, the azure one barely noticing the normally stoic -now slightly worried- hedgehog in front of him, he looks up, faces flushed, puffy cheeks and glistening eyes full of tears.

"I'll stay." the dark one said, "I promise." He barely whispered, and then after the smaller one stared wide-eyed at the taller hedgehog, his lip quivered, his eyes watered and he threw himself at the dark one's chest.

"I'm sorry for leaving you"

No, I don't know how to forget you.

so, this is based on a song...yeah hope you enjoyed the storysong used:Eden-Sex