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Chapter 4: Johnny

Johnny, Johnny, Johnny. Now here is when you get in the picture. I must announce that you didn't do anything to me personally, but you did do something to Alli and my sister. You have heard from the last tape that our relationship was shaky, but there was a friendship. And within that friendship we kept secrets. We told each other our fears and our joys. You are definitely in the fear factor. Don't be frightened. You might have meant no harm, but what you did changed her reputation. Wait, let me just look at everything that happened.

There was a moment of silence while she reflected.

Yeah, if you hadn't done what you did, I possibly wouldn't be sitting here recording this! Now you might be asking yourself "What did I do?" My answer is quite simple: sex. You had sex with my best friend and almost with my sister. That doesn't sound too bad, does it? Later on, I will not fear sex like I used to, but then I did.

I suspected that "not fearing sex" thing was about me.

So first, you almost had sex with my sister, Darcy. Darcy was not in the best state of mind, and you knew that. You took advantage of her when she wasn't thinking straight. Darcy, are you there? Yep, I knew about what happened on the roof. Secrets are not forever. Now, let's talk about Alli. You were a senior, she was a freshmen. You should have known better. Again you took advantage of a girl, and this girl was my friend. Do you know what she said to me after you had sex? She said, "How can I share something so special with someone I can't even look at?" She was ashamed and scared. She felt regret which is not a good thing when you're giving up your virginity. And to top it all off, you lied to her. You said you lost your virginity to her too, but you didn't. You told her that you slept with several girls before her. Way to go, jackass.

I flinched when I heard her curse. She never cursed in front of me and I don't think she ever did before.

Well, at least you told her the truth, but you told her too late. She already lost her virginity. You might think that virginity means nothing, but for some people, no, for girls virginity is innocence and purity. Taking that away from a girl is like taking away her youth. She was only fourteen and you should have known better. Wait, you're not off the hook. You not only took her virginity, but you told her that she might have an STD. That's real smooth. Maybe next time you get in bed with another girl, just tell her the truth right up front because holding it back just makes it worse. So how do I get in the picture? Well, I am not really in the picture, but I watched as the picture was taken. I watched you take advantage of girls and I couldn't do anything to stop it. You made me feel powerless and I just watched as you just added names to the list of girls you tainted. All I did was watch, and I'm sick of seeing people crumble around me. I'm sick of living in a life of just watching and no doing.

She almost started to yell at the end. I was confused and the tape stopped meaning I wasn't going to get an explaination.


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